♥️T.H.R.E.E♥️
THEME: {Where do I belong??}
✍️Written By Precious Pinky✍️
❣️Episode 35❣️
????Rowan’s pov????
~I miss her.
I miss her voice, her touch, her embrace, her ki-ss…
Fuc-k it, I miss every damn inch of her.
It’s been two weeks and things between us haven’t been the same.
It’s either she was in clas-sor she was in the hospital, taking care of that newcomer, Gwendolyn or whatever her name was.
Mind you I don’t hate the lady but the fact that my girlfriend is paying more attention on her than on me and our relationship was annoying the shit out of me!
I know I shouldn’t feel insecure about Lexi’s relationship with Gwen…I mean, they were just friends and besides, friends are allowed to stick to each other until the end but…,
Can I really trust their relationship?
What if things turns out for the worse?
What if there’s a reason for me to be worried about their relationship?
What if I lose everything in the end???
I pulled out my phone from my pocket and dialled Lexi’s number…it rung for a while but there was no answer.
I tried it again…still no reply.
I let out a frustrated sigh, running my fingers throu-ghmy hair and dropping my phone back into my pocket.
My heart aches…I was afraid of losing Lexi. I was afraid of losing everything. I was afraid of history repeating itself again.
Honestly, things was never suppose to be like this.
I wouldn’t have been known as ‘Lexi’s boyfriend’, in fact she wouldn’t have known that someone like me existed.
If not because of what happened between Brenden and I…and my ex girlfriend.
If not because of the trust that was broken, the relationship built for four years that was shattered, and the love in my heart for her crumbled and faded with the sun…
It was all Brenden’s fault!
He made me lose her. He was the caused of everything…that sly bastard.
I hated him for everything and even went as far as making a vow to get back at him.
But my plans changed, and truth be told, it changed for the best.
Having Lexi in my life was the best thing that has ever happened to me.
We might have met on a different circu-mstances or should I say, different purposes but right now, I was happy of making that very decision.
I lowered my gaze to the ground and was heading towards my front porch when I mistakenly bumped into someone, knocking him of her off their feet.
They gro-aned in pain, mumbling some words to themselves.
“I’m sos sorry.” I apologized, stretching out my hand to them. “Let me help.”
They held out there hand and placed it in mine, letting me pull them up to their feet…it was a ‘She’
Not just any ‘she’, it was ‘her’…the girl I thought I wouldn’t be able to live without.
The girl I still see everyday in school trying her possible best to get Brenden, the very guy who broke us up to look at her and date her _Tsk, she knows fully well that it can never happen. Brenden dating a girl? Ha, never_
The girl I hope I have nothing for…
“Rowan?” She called quietly, rubbing off the dirt on her skirt. “What the hell?”
I quickly snatched my hand from hers and took a step back, creating enough space between us. “what are you doing here?”
She shrugged. “Just checking up on the neighborhood, what can I say?”
I rolled my eyes. “You could have done that without going close to my house, you know.”
She smirked, folding her arms over her chest. “Your house?” She looked back at my house then turned to look at me. “I forgot that was your house.”
I could see the lies written in her eyes.
She came here on purpose but why?
“Listen_” She held out her hand, stopping me mid-sentence.
“Honestly, I stopped by to see you.”
She raised a brow at her, questioningly. “What? Why?”
“I need a favor, Rowan.”
“What? A favor? Wait, do you really think I will grant you that? Listen, I don’t care to know what that stupid favor is but I’m sure as hell not granting it to you.” I spat angrily.
She laughed quietly, surprising me in the process. “I know you will act like this. My instincts were right after all.” She tilted her head to the side. “It isn’t a favor anymore, Rowan.”
“What?” I was confuse.
She took some step towards me and wrapped her arms around me, smiling deviously at me. “I want you to help me with Brenden. I want to date him and the only way I can do that is to get Lexi into talking to hin for me.”
I started laughing, pushing her off my body. “What? Are you stupid? And why will she do that?”
“I don’t know. Maybe because her boyfriend asked her to?”
I shook my head. “And what make think that I want to help you do that shit?”
“You have no choice.” She said.
“I do, okay? And trust me, I’m not doing this shit with you. Never. I might hate Brenden but I love Lexi so much.”
“You will do this for me, Rowan.” She said with full authority, glaring ha-rd at me.
“I’m not. Never.”
“Then get ready to be heartbroken again because there’s no way in hell I will let you enjoy your relationship with her while I stick around like a parasite with no one to call a boyfriend.”
“You had your chance but you threw it away because of that idiot!” I said in annoyance.
She smirked. “Is time can be reversed… I will still make that decision over and over again.”
This sly bit-ch !
How dare her!?
I clenched my fist tightly beside me, trying to calm my nerves down which was quite working out well for me.
“She doesn’t know, does she?” She questioned, raising a brow at me.
“What?”
“She doesn’t know about you and I…I bet she will be surprise if she does but hey, that won’t be the surprising part…the surprising part will be your real reason for asking her out.” She tapped her chin, smiling. “You know what I’m talking about, don’t you?”
Fuc-k this…damn!
She can’t tell Lexi that.
She can’t…
“You…you can’t do that.”
“Oh yes, I can. You know me well enough, Rowan. And you know just what I’m capable of,” She closed the space between us again and placed her palm on my chest, running her hand up and down, making me crave for…
~Oh shut up, Rowan. Are you thinking of having se-x with your ex girlfriend? You should be ashamed of yourself, idiot~
“Tell me, which girl will be happy to know that she was only used to get back at her brother? You only wanted revenge, Rowan and that’s the real reason why you asked Lexi out in the first place!”
“LENA!!!”
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????Gwen’s pov????
~I felt trapped.
Trapped within myself.
Trapped with no exit.
Trapped in the world of darkness…my own world.
I couldn’t even find myself…
I was drowning…I couldn’t breath, I couldn’t move…I was dying and damn, it was so scary.
They say, the opposite of life was death but to me, the opposite of life was fear…call me stupid but that’s my belief and trust me, I’m speaking out of experience.
Do you know the feeling of been trapped? Do you know what it feels like to keep struggling to break free but all to no avail?
Do you know what it feels like to get lost within one self?
I’ve been there and trust me, I wouldn’t want anyone else to be in that situation as me…
When I woke up that day, I thought everything was finally fine. I thought I’ve finally found myself but things changed and I was drawn back to been trapped. Again.
And now…, I’ve escaped again. I don’t know if the battle was finally over but still I was glad to be back to the land of the living,,, the land of light.
Hey, that rhymed!
“How many fingers am I holding out?” The man in the white coat asked for the fifth time, making me want to roll my eyes.
“Two.”
Hw nod his head in agreement, taking down his hand. “Who is that lady standing over there?” He pointed at Cleo who have been smiling since I woke up from the de-ep sleep.
“Cleo.” I replied, not taking my eyes off her now.
She was staring right back me, still smiling.
What have happened?
Why does everything seem very new and different to me?
Why does it feel like things have suddenly taken a quick change?
Why do I feel lost even after been found? _Does that word even make any sense?_
“What’s your name?” The doctor asked again.
“Gwendolyn.” I answered huskily, running my dried tongue over my pale li-ps _Bullshit!_
“Okay,” He smiled. “This is…” His voice trailed off as he looked down at my frozen form. “Are you okay?”
No answer.
“Miss Gwen…”
I looked away from her and focused my attention back to the doctor. “Don’t panic… I’m fine.”
He let off a sigh of relief, placing a palm over my forehead as if checking out my temperature.
After a moment of silence, he pulled his hand away with a smile on his face. “Your body temperature is perfectly alright. And you seem very okay as well.”
I nodded my head quietly. “I’m okay.”
“That’s good news. Everyone were so worried. Anyway, I should get going. I will send over a nurse to run some test on you and…that will be all.” He smiled. “Please do have a lovely day, Miss Gwendolyn and welcome back.” With that said, he left.
Everyone were so worried about me?
I don’t get, who were so worried about….
My thought were cut short as I felt arms wrapped around me for a bone crushing hug.
I didn’t pull away and neither did I hug her back. I was still feeling very weak to do some certain things.
I don’t think I can even stand up on my both feet…my legs felt numb.
“Oh my God, you are truly back.” Cleo muttered under her breath, holding me very tight as if leaving me will mean losing me forever.
I didn’t say anything…
One of the disadvantage of not losing my memory was the fact that I could still remember that day…
…The day I spoke so rudely to her…
…The day I did something to her that was so out of my rules and character…
…The day I wish I could just forget…
Wasn’t she mad at me?
I mean, she suppose to. She has every right to be mad at me but it doesn’t feel like it.
Hell, she seem to have miss me so much and truth be told, I miss her too.
I’ve finally gotten to know what my feelings were for Cleo… I don’t like her romantically but I like her as a sister.
She was practically a sister from another mother.
Before I knew what was going on, she broke away from the embrace and next thing she was ki-ssing me.
Okay, scrap the sisterly word there…Eww, it’s so awkward cla-ssifying her under that line and yet ki-ssing her. Disgusting, right?
Cleo was Fuc-king ki-ssing me on my li-p…like damn, can someone tell me what the heck was going on here???
Or was this by any means part of the treatment?
Suddenly the door was pushed open, breaking Cleo and I apart.
We both snapped our heads to the door direction and found ourselves staring right at Alex who was staring right back at us with a puzzled look on her face.
She wasn’t the only one standing there… her friends and wait, that idiot friends were here as well.
*****
“You look well enough, Gwen.” Davis said, smiling sheepishly at me. “I’m so glad you are awake.”
I rolled my eyes. “Are you?”
“Of course. you don’t believe me?” He asked, feigning hurt.
I shrugged. “Your eyes tells a different story.”
“Wait, it does?”
I smirked. “Yeah. And that’s the only reason why I’m going to believe you now.” I playfully narrowed my eyes at him, earning a surprise look from both him and Arthur. “Why are you both staring at me like that?”
“You’ve never joked with us like this before.” Arthur reasoned out.
“Like seriously. This is so surprising.” Davis added, grinning.
I clic-ked my tongue, shaking my head at them. “You both are crazy.”
Kathy suddenly engulfed me into a hug, sobbing.
“I’m so glad that you are back.” She mumbled, stro-king my back calmly. “Welcome back to us, Gwen.” She pulled away, smiling at me.
What’s going on?
First, Cleo hug-ged and ki-ssed me. Secondly, Arthur and Davis were both acting like we were close buddies, thirdly, Kathy hug-ged me while sobbing and now, Pearl was saying an epistle of how grateful and happy she was to have me back.
I ask again, what the hell was going on here?
Speaking about the ki-ss…no one have said a word about it and honestly, I’m still confuse why Cleo did it.
Alex haven’t said a word to me, she was just staring at me giving me a look of…I don’t even know what it was called but I hated the look.
It was Fuc-king hurting me which was quite a surprise to me to why it was hurting me…not like I even care…or wait, do I actually care? Nahhhh.
That reminds me…what about that idiot?
Why wasn’t he here with them?
Doesn’t he care about me or something?
Besides, he was with me when I collapsed…his voice were the last thing I heard before I pa-ssed out.
For the first time ever he called me by my name.
For the first time ever I loved my name more than anything because of how beautiful it flow out of his li-ps.
What was I even thinking?
I must still be really sick to be having this kind of stupid thought, honestly.
I sighed, leaning further into the bed and glanced back at Alex.
“Hey.” I greeted calmly, she smiled.
“Hey.”
“You haven’t said a word since you got here.” I pointed out the obvious.
She shrugged. “Just being patient. Everyone had something to say to you. I was just giving them the chance to talk while I wait.”
I smiled with a nod of the head. “Brilliant.” I paused. “What about your…”
“What about your mother? Does she know you are awake?” I was going to ask Alex of her brother when Kathy cut me off by asking me that question.
“What are you talking about?” I asked quietly, not getting her point.
“Your mom have been here since you fell into coma. She never left your side…not even for a moment. Wait, she doesn’t know you are awake?”
Mom is here in New York???
Impossible!
****To Be Continued****