STORY BY DEBORAH PAUL
MY DESIRE
EPISODE 43
SONIA’S POV CONTINUES
few minutes later he came downstairs looking very freshed, I already served his dinner before he came downstairs.
he washed his hands, said a quick prayer and started to eat
JOSHUA
this taste nice
SONIA
really? is the salt not too much?
JOSHUA
no, it taste very nice
SONIA
thank you
JOSHUA
hope the securities have gotten their food?
SONIA
trust me na, I already gave them food since.
JOSHUA
(He smiled more)
thank you
SONIA
enough of this thank you and eat your food jor.
Finally dinner was over,I cleared the dishes and joined him in the living room.
JOSHUA
The dress you talked about did you get it? or the…..
SONIA
(I cuts in)
yeah, I got it… thanks
JOSHUA
I want to see you wear it, I want to see how nice it looks on you.
I was surprised, why he would want me to wear the dressw for him to see when I’m not even his girlfriend or sister.
SONIA
so suddenly?
JOSHUA
yeah, well, that’s if I’m not asking too much.
I didn’t know why, but I had to grant his request, I went upstairs and wore the dress, I didn’t apply any makeup because I wasn’t going out was I? I just wore the dress and came downstairs.
JOSHUA POV
The previous day she told me she was sad because of a dress she like and couldn’t afford, I couldn’t help but laugh because other people are thinking of what to eat, how to make money but she, she’s sad because she likes a dress and couldn’t afford it.
Isn’t it funny? to me it was very funny,I sent her the money, I was sure the hundred thousand would be enough to buy the dress.
Today I didn’t know why I just wanted to see her in the dress that made her sad.
She went inside and got dress, I got up waiting for her to descent the stairs like an African queen.
was I hallucinating or my breath actually
just stopped?
I could swear my mouth was wide open, I could see the nervousness on her face too… I bet she was wondering why I was staring at her like that.
SONIA
so how does it look?
JOSHUA
it’s good, it’s worth the sadness
SONIA
(She giggles)
I wasn’t sad because of the dress you know.
JOSHUA
you were sad jor, I saw it written all over your face.
(I tease her)
SONIA
Eeh I was sad, but now I’m happy.
JOSHUA
this would have been completed if you made your hair.
SONIA
you know I don’t like making hair, it’s a*s paining…..I don’t like that stress please
JOSHUA
(I laughed)
you are the first and only girl that doesn’t like making hair …. because she thinks it’s a*s paining?
SONIA
yeah, can I go and change now?
JOSHUA
yeah, you can go change now.
She went upstairs and changed her dress, wore the same one she put on earlier and came back
SONIA
so I made natural fruit drink today, I don’t know if you would like to taste it
JOSHUA
I will need it, I over fed myself, so I think I would love to drink it
She got up and went into the kitchen, few minutes later she came back with two gla-ss and a bottle of a fruit drink that I immediately recognized.
JOSHUA
this is tiger nut right?
SONIA
bingo…..you like tiger nut?
JOSHUA
I used to drink it when my mum was alive…only her made the best tiger nut…. ever since she died I haven’t tasted any one that’s as good as hers.
SONIA
well I can’t competite with your mother, I’m just giving you tiger nut to drink
(she said smiling)
She poured some into my gla-ss and handed it over to me….i tasted it and really it wowed me
JOSHUA
it taste nice….. even better
SONIA
even better? should I take that as a compliment?
JOSHUA
please do….
I enjoyed her tiger nut so much that I drank to bottles of it.
JOSHUA
thanks for the drink, I hope we get it often
SONIA
I’m glad you enjoyed it, I’m going to give the securities some before I go to bed…. I didn’t give them earlier because it wasn’t that cold yet…and you know it’s best enjoyed when it’s cold.
JOSHUA
yeah, I’m kind of tired….i want to go to bed now.
SONIA
alright, goodnight sir.
I turn my back and started to walk upstairs, I didn’t know why I suddenly had the urge to look back…. she bent down to carry the empty bottles of tiger nut we just finished, she suddenly dropped it…. that made me to move closer to her
JOSHUA
are you okay?
SONIA
I’m …. I’m…
she was saying but suddenly pa-ssed out, I panicked I carried her to her room, and quickly rushed to where her drrugs are kept.
Since she already pa-ssed out, there was no way I could feed her drugs, so I had to use the injection….bella had given it to her countless of time in my presence and had taught me how to use it in case she suddenly faint.
I injected her with the drugs, and sat beside her….it hurt me so much to see her go throu-ghall this kind film.
I waited until she opened her eyes
JOSHUA
you are awake
SONIA
(she nods)
yeah
JOSHUA
are you okay?
SONIA
(Her eyes were teary)
how can i be fine? tell me how can I be? is this how I will continue? I’m still young JJ? I’m not married yet, I don’t have any kids…..how can I look after my family if I can’t handle just cooking? what did I do the whole of today? I went to market, cooked and that was it….. and I’m already stress to the point of fainting…. this is too much for me… how long I’m I supposed to live like this? tell me?
She poured her heart out and cry, I wasn’t surprised that she was crying, I was just surprised she was doing it after one year of the accident… when we first broke the news to her, I expected her to cry her eyes out that day, but she didn’t drop a single tear…she was strong, she acted like nothing was wrong….. it hurt, she might be the one pa-ssing throu-ghthe physical pain, but I was feeling it mentally…. it hurt me that she was pa-ssing throu-ghall that pain because of my mistakes….if she didn’t try to save me from Tommy and his lies and plans she wouldn’t be pa-ssing throu-ghany of that now.
she turned her face away from me so I wouldn’t see her cry… I moved closer to her and turn her face to look at me
SONIA
I’m scared
(She whispered amist tears)
I pulled her up and hug-ged her, she didn’t hug me back, she relaxed on my body and cried even more.
JOSHUA
I wish you could see how painful it is for me too, it’s not been easy sonia….when I look at you, I see the result of my mistake…. I see the bad decision I had to live with…. your are suffering but I’m suffering more sonia… it’s in your situation that I realized something, money is good, but money doesn’t solve everything….. I wish all my money I have I can use it to solve all this problem, to help you come back to the way you use to be….
(I pulled her from the hug and look at her)
but unfortunately my money is useless for now….Bella said it’s too risky to put you un-der surgery right now… we just have to endure it….please.
she burst into another fresh cry, and I had to hug her back
STORY BY DEBORAH PAUL
MY DESIRE
EPISODE 44
JOSHUA’S POV CONTINUES
I stayed with Sonia until she fell asleep, whenever I try to get up to leave, she opens her eyes and ask me not to leave her.
is Sonia making me soft? or what? growing up I was this kind of kid that didn’t get close with girl, my mum had only two sons, no daughter and my brother was enough for me to play with…. I felt I didn’t need a girl or a baby sister…. they were things Josiah and I could do that I was sure a girl would never fit in.
Maybe that contributed to why I find myself loving a man instead of a woman…. but was I changing because of this woman lying in front of me? I’m I getting soft because of her?
No it’s not possible, I have never liked a woman romantically how can I now fall in love? I’m sure I’m doing this because I feel indebted…. yeah, I’m indebted to her…. and I’m going to stop being nice once her surgery is done.
Wait why does this sound like a lie in my own ears? Jesus Christ this is so confusing….. I felt pressed so I got up to go use her rest room, and she opened her eyes again.
SONIA
if you so badly want to go to your room…you…
JOSHUA
I’m just going to use the rest room, I’m not going anywhere.
SONIA
okay
I went into her bathroom, eased myself, washed my hands and dried them with a white towel before I came out.
SONIA
do you want to lie down or you will go to your room? you know what? sorry I asked that…. you can go and sleep… tomorrow is work.
JOSHUA
are you sure you will be okay all by yourself?
SONIA
I will manage I guess.
Her answers wasn’t straight forward, it sounded more like “please spend a night in my room”
I un-derstood what she meant even without saying it…. I climbed on the bed, and drag the duvet to cover our body…. I didn’t sleep near her…. I laid at the far end of the bed.
SONIA’S POV
Joshua smells very nice, when I say very nice I mean so nice that you will want to eat his body…. his perfume was seducing me, it was making it very difficult for me to sleep and I didn’t want him to leave me.
And I didn’t want him to think I was trying to make him sleep in my room…. I was kind of surprised when he jumped on me bed and laid beside me but very close.
It was the most difficult night of my life, because immediately his body tou-ched the bed he slept off, I turn to look at his face…. dude was far asleep…. but why was I the only one feeling the heat? the tension?
I rolled from one side to another until I finally fell asleep, I woke up in the middle of the night only to feel a warm hand holding my wai-st…. I was surprised, he was sleeping so far from me that you would think he was scared that I might ra-pe him…. why did he suddenly move closer to me and even grabbed my wai-st?
But I liked it, what has gotten into me? why would a vi-rgin be behaving like this?
I slapped myself to bring back my senses, I gently moved from him…. but he pulled me back and grabbed me.
I almost gave up and allow him cuddle me while he sleeps but I got discouraged when I heard him say.
JOSHUA
you smell so nice T, so damn nice.
wait was he seriously dreaming of Tommy right now? his still dreaming of that guy after everything he did to me? how dare he even mistake me for that evil man?
I felt disgusted, and I couldn’t hide it…. I removed his hands from my body harshly and came down from the bed…. I walked to the other side of the bed and woke him up.
He took a better look at his environment before he came back to his sense.
JOSHUA
are you okay? do you need anything?
SONIA
I’m fine…. please go to your room.
JOSHUA
I thought ….
SONIA
please I want to be left alone…. please go to your room.
He came down from the bed and went to his room…. I followed and locked my door.
THE NEXY MORNING
I woke up around 6am and prepared breakfast, I went upstairs freshen up and came downstairs to serve him breakfast.
I was still serving the breakfast when he came in to seat down at the dinning.
SONIA
good morning JJ
JOSHUA
morning Sonia, how do you do?
SONIA
I’m fine, how are you?
(I said with a straight face)
JOSHUA
did I do something to upset you last night?
(he asked out of the blues)
SONIA
why do you think so?
JOSHUA
the Sonia I know doesn’t serve me breakfast looking angry…. you always serve me food with a big smile…. even those times I was being a je*k to you because of Tommy.
and there he goes again mentioning the same name that is making me angry….. why can’t he just forget about Tommy? is that why he hasn’t done anything in arresting Tomy and his coworkers? is it because he still loves him that is why he is leaving Tommy to karma? the thought of it got me even more angry, the thought that I almost died because of this du*my made me even more sad.
I didn’t answer him, I just continued with the making of his tea… he grabbed my hand gently and the hot water I was pouring from the jug poured on the table, and a dropped tou-ched my hand.
JOSHUA
I’m so sorry, are you hurt? let me take a ..
I pulled my hand from his grip quickly and faked a smile
SONIA
I’m fine sir….. I will just get a wiper to clean this off.
I said and went to the kitchen, I took few breathe in and out so I could calm my anger down… but I was too angry and I just couldn’t hide it.
I took a towel and returned back to the dinning room, he had already made the tea himself…I cleaned the table where water had poured and went back to dry the towel.
I waited in the kitchen until I was sure he was done with his breakfast and had left before I went to clear the table…. I know I’m not supposed to be mad at him, it’s not like he for-ced me to protect him from Tommy, I did it on my own….but I was still very angry.
He got ready few minutes later and left for work….i went upstairs in my room to sleep…..I was so angry that I didn’t even remember to serve the securities breakfast.
It was around 1pm that the sound of my ringtone woke me up from sleep…. I screamed Jesus and jumped up… how come I slept that long? I quickly answered the call before it dropped.
SONIA
Hi
JACK
babe are you at home?
SONIA
yeah,. I’m at home… what’s up?
JACK
I’m close to the house, I just wanted to make sure you are around before coming.
SONIA
I’m at home….see you when you get here.
JACK
alright…..see you.
I didn’t check if he hung up or not before I dropped the my phone on the bed and hurried to the kitchen to microwave food for the securities.
Before jack could get to the house I was already done serving them food…i was I’m the living room eating mine when he entered.
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