🔥ATTITUDE
MEETS
ARROGANCE🔥
Chapter 31
Jaxon’s POV
I only miss her when am breathing
I only nee-d her when my heart is beating…
She is the only colour that am bleeding…
What is fate??? Fate to me is pain, anguish, terror… Fate allowed the woman I love more than my life to sl!poff my f!ngers..
If that wasn’t enough, it gave her away to my brother…
. Here I am stuck to the girl I don’t love, the girl I introduced as my girlfriend to the whole world..
Was the sacrifice worth it??? Was my brother worth the sacrifice??? Ciara loves me and I love her then why are we ap@rt??? Because my brother fell in love with my woman..
. At times I wanna strangle him, at times I can’t control the anger I feel towards him but the bo-ttomline is that he is my brother…
We walked into the h0tel room and Ariana still thought she was acting..
“Put your hands off me… ” I ordered slumping on the sofa..
“Jeez!!! What’s with you???”
“How should I be when I just introduced you to the whole world as my girlfriend???” I barked and I noticed she flin-ched..
“But we had a deal, I make Zac jealous and you make your brother happy…” She yelled back…
“I will go shower before I burn this h0tel room down with my rage…” I walked past her when she held my arm..
“You don’t have anyone else to blame but yourself..If only you fought ha-rder,Ciara would be yours…” She stated..
I shook her hand off my arm and slammed the door into the bathroom..I didn’t recognise the person standing on the mirror..
He was angry, bitter and full of pain…Why did I not tell Jordan the truth??? Why was I the one to let go???
The anger in me was growing stronger everyday and I don’t know for how long I can bottle it in..
Why did he choose her??? Was she the only girl in the planet???
Then he has the audacity to tell me to stay away when he is the one that stole her from me..The more I sacrifice for him, the more I hate him..
I lost her for good and I don’t know if I am ever going to forgive him for that..
“How can you shower for an hour??? You are a man for crying out loud…”
Who told this woman I want to converse…
“I will sleep on the couch and you on the be-d…” I whispered.
There I was busy drying my hair when my mother called..I took the phone, stared at it not sure I want to pick.
What was I to say??? That I was ashamed to face Ciara..That I am mad at her eldest son..That her house is suffocating me…That I was hurting and couldn’t share it with anyone…
No I won’t answer it, I don’t feel like talking to anyone not even this girl infront of me… I switched off my phone and threw it on the be-d..If only forgetting my feelings was easy like throwing my phone on the be-d???
“I hope you remember what we agreed on..” She was at it again…
“Can you st©p talking??? You are driving me crazy…It more than enough to have you in this room with me. So plea-se just shut up!!”
“Don’t blame us if you lost your girl. Who told you not to fight for her??? It’s not like you had a gun pointed at your head…”
You know she is more of a chatter box and she was driving me crazy. Why can’t she mind her own business???
I didn’t have the energy to explain myself so I took one of the pillows from the be-d, a shawl from the closet and sle-pt on the couch..
I had a very rou-gh day and the last thing I nee-ded was someone ru-bbing salt on my wounds…
She continued ranting about how Zac betrayed her while I tried so ha-rd to get some sleep..
The next morning, I was scared to face my reality..For a moment, I wanted to make that h0tel room my home…
Ariana had an attitude like Ciara but hers was irritating..How can a girl have an attitude and a chatter box for a bonus?? She must have really made mistakes in her past life ..
“I can’t wait to meet your mother. Will she like me???”
I remained silent…
“I hope Ciara will like me too…” She had no right to mention my Ciara…Here I was trying so ha-rd to collect myself but no she just wants to see me restless..
“Ariana, don’t even dare mention my Ciara…Talk about your Zac as much as you want but my Ciara No…” I gr@bbÂŁd the car keys and walked out of the h0tel room.. I didn’t care if the paparazzis would see me without her..
“Wait for me!!!” She shouted behind me, “Do you know how much I hate running???” She asked when she finally caught up with me..
“I don’t care, let’s just get home and get this over with. You beside me suffocates me..”
“Don’t worry dear singer, I will do my job well..”
In the car, I couldn’t st©p my heart from beating so fast…How was I going to face her??? How was I to lie on her face that I love Ariana who isn’t even my type??? The more she tried to start a conversation, the more I ignored her…
Finally we were home…Here I could avoid her as much as I wanted..
“We are here….” The environment felt cold as soon as I got out of the car..
“You have….” There she was smiling like a fool..Has she never seen a big house??? Typical ordinary girl…
“A big house and you wish you lived here..Blah blah blah!!!” I bu-tted in before she could start chattering again..
“How did you re-ad my mind???” She seemed shocked..
“Because every ordinary girl says that….” I faked a smile and begun walking inside the house…
Weirdly the house seemed peaceful…I expected Ciara to have burned the house down but everything seemed okay…
“Jaxon, you are here…Why are you not picking my calls??? Do you know how worried I have been??? I almost got a heart attack..”
My mother with her paranoia..
“Mom, as you can see I am okay…”
“So where is your girlfriend??? We have been waiting to see her…” My mom cl@pped her hands excitedly…
“She is somewhere…Maybe behind me…” I continued walking upto the living room where I found granny watching her favourite reality show..Keeping up with the Kardashians..
“How is the most beautiful granny in the whole world doing???” I knelt beside her and placed my hand on hers..
“She is okay but her Ciara is not..What happened yesterday at the concert??? When her and Jordan c@mÂŁ back today morning she seemed sickish and Jordan didn’t say anything…He just left since he had an important meeting…”
There and then my heart crushed.
My beloved, why do we have to feel this immense love if all it does is hurt us??
“Where is she now???”
“She is in her room resting…”
“I will go check on her…”
When I was running to go to my beloved I bu-mped into mother and Ariana at the stairs…
“Baby, where did you go to????” She asked…
“You are with my mother now so quit with the questions..” I faked a smile and continued running to Ciara’s room..
I opened the door and found Caro forcing her to have soup..
“I said I am not hungry!!!” She yelled..
“But Sir Jordan said….”
“Sir Jordan nothing…I will take it from here…” I cut her off walking towards the be-d..
At the sight of me, I could see the scalding rage in her eyes..
“Leave us Caro…” I ordered and she nodded…
After Caro shut the door, I sat beside her and took her hand but she pu-ll-ed it away like she had t©uçhed poop..
“What are you doing here???” She folded her arms on her che-st and looked away..
“plea-se I am sorry…I didn’t mean things to turn out this way…”
I could see her trying so ha-rd to fight her tears…
“I don’t know if I have the strength in me to keep fighting for you..Maybe it hurts so much…”
Instead of being comforting, I was hurting her more…
She wiped the tears from her cheeks with the back of her hands and still remained silent..
“I love you Ciara but you are married to Jordan..How then can I fight for you??? My hands are tied..”
She still remained silent…
“Just un-derstand me…For the happiness of my brother, I had to move on..And for you to move on and finally act like a married woman, I had also to do this…”
She stood from the be-d and walked to the window…She silently looked throu-gh it and turned to Me…
“Why does this love hurt so much???.”
She turned again to the window and begun crying while smiling…
If only she knew how much I loved her. How much I wanted to hold her in my arms…How much she meant to me…
What about me??? Does she know how angry I get at the thought of her and my brother sharing the same room?? How much I hate him for taking what’s mine???
“I also have a broken heart…You are married to my brother Ciara…” I walked towards her and wra-pped my arms around her w@!st from behind, “Everytime I see how happy he makes you, I feel like killing him..”
She placed her hands on mine and sobbe-d profusely, “Why does it hurt so much????.”
“I know you didn’t want to marry him, I know he f0rç£d you to…” I blurted out, twisting her around to face me…When she looked at me, she had an emotionless face..
“Then why didn’t you do anything???” She stuttered…
“I was afraid to hurt him…I didn’t want to break him…”
I regretted saying those words the moment I felt a sl@p on my face…
“With that you broke me..With that you ruined the love we shared…I don’t ever want to see you again..The Marcias brothers are all the same…” She ranted angrily…
“But….” My phone pinged with a message….
When I opened it, I almost coll@psed…it was link from my manager…
“Ciara, we are finished….” I stammered…
“What???” She shook me…
Just before I could answer, Jordan slammed the door open…
“Jaxon???? Ciara???”
I felt frozen at the moment with wi-de eyes…
*****
Jordan’s POV
Love can always make you do stupid things..I had to sleep in a small room that was the size of my bathroom just to be with her. I don’t care if I had to sleep on the streets just to be beside her..
I was in love with her and she was in love with a another who loved another…
I was broken to see her in pain but that’s life and the only constant thing is change…
I was from an important business meeting but believe me when I say the only thing on my mind in there was Ciara….I remembered how she cried on my arms, how she shared her pain with me…I know it wasn’t much but it was progress..
Tonight I was gonna take her a bonquet of roses to show her how much she meant to me…I heard girls love flowers and chocolates..But what kind of chocolate does she like???
I would do anything to bring back her smile even if it means searching for it in the Amazon forest.
I reached out for my phone re-ady to call her when I received a link from Emma…
What I saw almost gave me a heart attack….
Is Jaxon slee-ping with his brother’s wife????
That was the t©pic of the blog..In the blog, there was a picture of Jaxon and Ciara looking cossy.. My hands were trembling in rage as I re-ad throu-gh the blog…I was going to kill them for ma-king a fool out of me…
Jaxon knew that I had being mocked once but he didn’t care..Today he proved to be more of a snake than a brother…
Once again I was betrayed with those close to me…Once again I have lost in the battle of love…
I was fool not to see what was infront of me…The answer was there all along.
How he cared for her??? How he was willing to leave everything behind for her yesterday???
He is in love with her. But why did he not tell me??? Why did he lie to me??
I drove at a rocket speed from the office to the mansion…
“Where is your so called son???” I yelled at my mother the moment I got to the house…
“Which son????” She asked looking all confused…
“The one going after my wife…” I thun-dered sl@pping away the cu-p of tea she was holding that she flin-ched.
“Do you mean Jaxon???” She stammered…
“Yes…Where is he???” I snarled more than I spoke…
“He is with Ciara in your room…”
Hearing that, I lost my sanity…He was a monster with a motive to steal my happiness…
“Jaxon????” I called out running upstairs and boom there he was beside my wife in my room..
Heaven help me because I am going to kill someb©dy..
“Jaxon??? Ciara????”
I begun charging towards him and when he saw the anger in my eyes he pushed Ciara behind him..
That was it…He was no longer my brother..
Nob©dy should ever mess with the matters of the heart but he did.
“Jordan, we can talk about this…” He pleaded but I didn’t care..
The next thing I saw was him lying on the floor with a mouth full of blood…Never did I think I would ever l@ya hand on my brother but I did…
“Jordan, leave him alone….” Ciara cried trying to push me back but I only staggered…
Was she not remorseful??? Why does she always have to choose him???
I could feel tears burning behind my eyes…The more she tried to push me back the more I got mad…
She was also a traitor…
“Why did you do it???” I gr@bbÂŁd her by the arms and shook her…
“Because I love him…I love Jaxon..You separated us Jordan…”
We were disrupted by the sound of a breaking cu-p…It was mother she was standing there all shocked, granny and Sophie behind her..
“Ciara is what you are saying true??? “Our mother stammered…
“Jordan, will you tell your family the truth or should I????” She asked arrogantly…
“Mum, this is between the three of us. Its none of your business..” I retorted…
“Why don’t you want them to know how evil their son is???” Jaxon struggled to stand up and wiped the blood from his mouth with the back of his hand…
“My son are you okay???” Our mother cried out running to his favourite son..
She tried to t©uçh the side of hisl-ips but he moved his head away…
“Why did your brother fight you???” She asked, tears balancing in her eyes..
“Because I am fighting for what is mine…Ciara was mine first but he f0rç£d her to marry him…He took her from me…He threatened to take away their land if she didn’t marry him…” Jaxon explained in fury and turned to Ciara, “Ciara I love you…I sacrificed my love since I thought my brother deserved it. But now I regret it. He deserves nothing good in this world…”
They were right when they said never trust even your own shadow…Who would have thought that my brother would ever despise me so much???
“What’s going on???” Our mother couldn’t put her f!nger into it..
“Let’s run away, pack your clothes and we will get out of here…” He tried to convince my wife only to receive a h0t sl@p from me…
“Don’t you have shame??? How dare you tell my wife to run away with you????” I raged and held him by the collar and he held me too…
I pushed him to the wall and pinned him there..Our mother tried to calm us down but all in vain…
We loved the same woman and that was it…
“Jaxon, don’t you even dare think of coming close to my wife…” I threatened…
“Leave him alone….” Ciara begun b!tt!g me and sl@pping me so ha-rd …
The pain I felt meant nothing compared to my bleeding heart …I thought she was the one but I was wrong…She never belonged to me to begin with…
I freed one of my hand and pushed her so ha-rd that she fell and hit her head…
I saw Jaxon stared at her as she gro-an ed on the floor before turning into this cold animal I have never seen before..
“That was a wrong move Jordan…”
A sudden gush of pain jo-lted throu-gh my b©dy…He brou-ght a fist to my face, snapping my nose into a grotesquerie..
“St©p beating up your brother!!!” My mother cried out but Jaxon didn’t care…
“He is not my brother…He is a selfish arrogant man…”
I didn’t want to fight back…I wanted to feel that pain, the pain I nee-ded to remind me of my mistake…
I vowed to never love again and see what that did to me…I was back to being fragile and heartbroken…
Being happy is poisonous, Ciara made me happy and that has made me a dead man once more…..
Suddenly Mason and Sebastian entered into the room and pu-ll-ed Jaxon from me..
“What the hell!!!”
“Leave me alone Mason, I nee-d to teach him a lesson..He is ungrateful…” Jaxon barked trying to fight off Mason’s grip…
Ciara was beside granny and Sophie who were more of her support…Well Chloe was at the door sipping coffee and she watched the drama unraffle…
“Jaxon, he is your brother…” Mason tried to talk s-en-se to him…
“I love Ciara and because of greed I let her go but no he can’t appreciate that. Does he know how much it hurts to see him share the same room with her???”
“But I didn’t tell her to be there when the minister and I were talking…She brou-ght this on herself and let me make this clear, I am never ever divorcing her…” I sneered….
Jaxon tried to pounce on me again but he was held back…
“You didn’t want to listen when she told you she was in love with someone else. You just wanted the deal to push throu-gh… Every day I hate you more Jordan and I vowed never to forgive you…”
Am I so unlucky that my own brother hates me??? In one day I lost my brother and my woman…
“I think it is better if Ciara leaves the house…” Our mother suggested…
“No, she stays…” We both said in unison…
“But if she leaves, I leave too…Whenever she goes, I go…” Jaxon clarified.
“My wife is not going anywhere…” I ranted angrily, feeling depressed by the mere thought of not having Ciara beside me…
I was angry at myself for not ma-king her love me and I was mad at both of them for ma-king a fool out of me…
“Ciara, pack your clothes…We are leaving this house right now…” Jaxon ordered staring de-ep into my eyes..The nerve of this small boy…
I can’t believe the guy who I changed his diapers was now going against me…
“I am not leaving Jaxon…I am never stepping foot out of this house…” Ciara emphasized word after word…