?ATTITUDE
MEETS
ARROGANCE?
©Fideh
Episode 32
Ciara’s POV
The truth is finally out, so what???
Should I kill myself???
After minutes of argument between brothers, we sat in the living room re-ady to listen to what the women of the house had in sto-re for us..
Mother looked me with murderous eyes but I didn’t care…Chloe was smiling victoriously and that made me mad…
“Jordan, is it true you f0rç£d Ciara to marry you???” Granny asked…
At first Jordan was hesitant to reply but he finally did…
“Yes granny, I did…”
“Jaxon, were you d@t!ngCiara before she got married to Jordan???” She asked….
“Not only was I d@t!ngher but also in love with her…” He replied in utmost confidence that I couldn’t help but smile…
Was it a good idea to run away with him??? Was it wrong to think about myself for once??? But why was my heart so heavy?? I couldn’t help but not look at the bruises on Jordan’s face. He didn’t deserve all of this
. Yes he is an arrogant man but he gave me a shoulder to lean on when I nee-ded one…
“Mother, Ciara is the cause of the division between the brothers…She should leave the house…” Chloe faked her concern…That possessed witch…
“Chloe is right, Ciara you should leave our house. I won’t let you be the reason my sons kill each other…” Mrs Marcias sneered…
If they thought that they would order me to leave and I would do that, they were highly mistaken…Jordan had alre-ady ruined my life and I wasn’t going to throw my life un-der the bus for him..
“With all due respect Mrs Marcias, I am now a Marcias and I am not leaving this house..Sorry to disappoint you, never in this life am I leaving this mansion…” I retorted in confidence…
They didn’t have any idea who they were messing with…Ciara Kimani always gets what she wants..
“Ciara, sit down!!! We are not done talking….” Granny slammed the table that I shivered the moment I stood from the sofa…
With my head held down, I sat down..
“You see granny, she is so disrespectful..” Chloe tried to add oil to the fire..
“Who asked you??? so Ciara do you want a divorce from Jordan????” Granny asked calmly…
Come on Ciara say yes, you can finally be free..
My subconscious mind rejoiced..
I tried to open my mouth and say yes but I couldn’t…I wasn’t re-ady to leave Jordan, I made a promise to him…
How was the world gonna take it??? That I was in for the money from the Marcias brothers..
I looked at Jaxon and he was all smiling expecting a yes from me, Jordan seemed restless as he looked down at the fluffy carpet infront of him…
“Excuse me!!!!” I stood up and ran out of there…
I got into my room and begun walking in circles still in the dilemma, if I should go away with Jaxon..
Yes, Jordan has tried being a good husband but the heart wants what it wants…But I am feeling sorry for him.
. I didn’t want the world mocking him or him being the only thing running in people’s mouths…It was my duty as his wife to protect him from all this but what about my love for Jaxon????
Jordan will be okay I guess…he would un-derstand if I chose Jaxon because he knows what it means to really love….
“So for how long have you been seeing your lover???” I heard the door been slammed shut behind me…
I wanted to laugh so ha-rd but didn’t want to sound disrespectful..
Jaxon my lover??? He was the one more of a mister to me…
“Answer me???” He turned me around to face him..
I didn’t un-derstand why he was mad. From the beginning he always knew I didn’t love him so why pretend to be mad…
“Jordan, why do you want to get yourself hurt??” I smiled and shook my head…
“Because you two betrayed me…You toyed with my emotions…” He cried out and I could hold back my laughter…
“My dear, your brother and I had been d@t!ngbefore you f0rç£fully married me…So you are the one who betrayed him..St©p acting like the victim…” I replied calmly and the look on his face was priceless..I hit the nail on the head
“Do you want to be with him??? Granny asked if you want a divorce from me..” He asked in a low angry tone..
Again I am unable to talk and all I can do is look at his bruises…
Focus Ciara, you shouldn’t worry about him, he separated you from Jaxon…
He silently walks into the closets and comes out with a handful of my clothes…
“Pack your clothes, go to him…Let the world mock me again…” He stuttered, throwing the clothes on the be-d…
“I thought you were different but I was wrong…” He sobbe-d, tears are dripping on his collar..
Suddenly my heart was heavy, what about the promise I made to him??? I vowed never to leave him but what was I doing???
Was he really worth the sacrifice??? He is alre-ady used to be in pain why am I having a soft sp©t for him???
Why couldn’t I stand seeing him in tears???
For a moment I wanted to hold him so ti-ght and tell him that I will never leave..I wanted to take him to the bathroom and both of us could sit un-der the shower washing out pain away…
“Jordan, I am not leaving this house or this room..I am not going anywhere…” I spoke softly, picking my clothes from the be-d..
“Did you think I would let you leave me??? Never…” He wiped the tears from his eyes and walked closer and closer to me…
He placed his hands on my w@!st and looked de-ep into my eyes,” If you can’t be with me then I will make your life a living hell…I will ensure you forget what it means to smile…”
I think he wanted me to be scared but I just stood there…
“Are you done or do you want to threaten me more???”
Was that all he had??? I thought he would tie me on a chair, point a gun at my head and f0rç£ me to shout how much I love him. He is such a loser..
“Do you think this is a joke to you???” He begun shaking me…
“I just don’t un-derstand why you are b!owing a fuss…You c@m£ between two lovers and we are the one that should be mad. Atleast be happy that even though you are a j£rk I didn’t leave…”
“But you two made a fool out of me…” He begun shaking me so ha-rd that I felt dizzy.
“Just leave me alone Jordan, I don’t want to argue with you…St©p acting like a jealous husband it doesn’t suit you…” I cussed out and the next thing he pushed me aside and walked out of the room…
I scrolled throu-gh my phone and I was trending on Twitter.. Lucky me I have always had a thick skin…
I knew one day the truth would be out but I didn’t expect like this…
I sat on the be-d, thinking about what to do when I heard a knock on the door…
“Who is it???” I asked …
“It’s Sophie…”
“Come in…”
“Hey boo love??? That was intense, how are you doing????” She asked..
“Can I get a hvg???”
A hvg was all I could ask for…I may act strong but de-ep down I was breaking…
“Sure…” The hvg was like a catalyst to my tears..The second I rested my head on her shoulders, I couldn’t hold my tears back..
“Sophie, I don’t know what to do….”
“Just do what you feel is right. No matter the decision you make I will be right beside you…” She ru-bbe-d my back soothingly..
“Thank you…” I pu-ll-ed back and she wiped the tears from my cheeks with her thumbs..
“I will let you rest now and plea-se be careful with Chloe…She is a snake and she bites when you least expect…”
“Okay I will be careful…”
Atleast after that talk with Sophie, I felt much better and I had come to a decision….
*****
I was at the balcony, ru-bbing my hands against my arms when I felt a shawl on t©p of me…
“Do you want to catch a cold???” Jaxon asked…
“Jaxon,” I turned around to face him, “We nee-d to talk…”
“You are scaring me..”He stammered, “Why do you look sad??? You can finally divorce Jordan and we can be together at last…”
Did he think it was that easy??? Two lives were at stake..Ariana’s and Jordan’s…It was upto us, no upto to make a wise decision..
Leaving Jordan for Jaxon was going to be a very wrong move…People are going to be sympathetic with him and that’s bad for my career…Jaxon didn’t fight ha-rd for our relationsh!pand that’s all that was.. Jaxon and I d@t!ngwas going to make his fans mad at him for leaving his two day old relationsh!pfor his brother’s wife. .
“Jaxon, I choose Jordan…I can’t run away with you…” I murmured…
He staggered back, running his hands all over his face…
“Jaxon,” I tried to t©uçh him but he pu-ll-ed back..
“Ciara, but you don’t love him??? Or is it because he is a billionaire??? Why choose him??? He threatened you again didn’t he??? I am going to teach him a lesson..” He lashed out re-ady to turn around and go face Jordan…
“No, Jordan did nothing…”
“Why are you defending him????”
“Because you are with Ariana and us leaving them will be wrong for our careers…”
“It’s all about your career..Did you sit down for a moment and think of how much I love you???” He cu-mpped my face but I dropped his hands from my face..
“Let’s run away…Let’s leave all this behind and start afresh….My fans will un-derstand, the fashion world wouldn’t care…” He insisted, going down on his knees,” plea-se don’t choose him…”
“We can go back to the Maasai Mara reserve and rekindle our love…” He stated holding my legs ti-ghtly…
My hands were held back by imaginary chains, they couldn’t even do anything.
No matter how hurt I felt, how much pain I was going throu-gh, how much I wanted to say yes to him…I nee-ded to be selfless…For once I felt like letting go once more was the right thing to do..
“I love you Jaxon but the moment you introduced Ariana to the whole world, everything changed. Two Iives are at stack here. Jordan is your brother for crying outloud…” I stuttered.
“He st©pped being my brother, the moment he stole you from me..” He sneered, getting up from his knees..
“He is my husband and I am choosing him…” I stammered but he didn’t seem to care.
“What about the k!sses, love ma-king scenes between us???” He begun c*ressing my cheeks, moving closer and closer towards me,” Have you forgotten all about that??” He whispered into my ear and I almost r!pp£dmy clothes off.. He still had that effect on me..
Ciara you can’t lose yourself now …
“Sorry, I can’t…” I pushed him aside and ran out of there….
The more he called out to me, the more I ran…
I lied on the gras-s at the garden, looking at the stars as my cheeks continued to get we-t from my endless crying…
Did I make the right choice???If so why does it hurt so much….
*****
Tbc