♥️T.H.R.E.E♥️
THEME: {Where do I belong??}
✍️Written By Precious Pinky✍️
❣️Episode 91&92❣️
★★★★★
????Gwen’s pov????
Knock!
Knock!
Knock!
I kept ban-ging at the door as tears streamed down my face.
I was stupid.
How the hell did I not notice?
How the hell did I not ask questions?
How the hell did I not realize the pain my mother was going throu-gh?
I never focused on her but was rather busy dealing with other people and their problems.
I couldn’t even fight for my mother even after discovering the truth.
Yes they told me everything.
Every single thing I needed to know about their past and how they all treated my mother like some piece of trash!
Mother never told me about them and now I know why she didn’t. She was protecting father.
She didn’t want me to grow up resenting and hating father for the sins of his wicked mother.
I don’t blame dad for anything but I don’t deny the fact that I’m very disappointed at him.
How could he not do anything when his mother humiliated mother?
How can father just stand there and watch the whole scene without doing any damn thing!
He loves her and that’s enough reason to stand for her…he should have protected her. He should have protected me.
But he didn’t…why? I had asked him but he had no answer for that simple question.
Why didn’t he fight back?
Why didn’t he stand for what he wanted?
Why did he watch mother leave his house along with his unborn baby?
Why did he let his mother have her way? Beside it was his damn life and she has absolutely nothing to do with his life or the decisions he makes.
Every humans are meant to make decisions for themselves regardless of what others may think or feel.
I have my life to live just like my mother has her own life to live.
Whatever decision I make today whether wrong or right should be no one’s business.
Life is a lesson…Feel free to make mistakes, fell free to learn from those mistakes.
Yes it’s normal to receive advice from people especially your family when you are not making the right decision but hey, it’s still going to be my choice to take to the advice or not!
Like they say; You can force a horse to the river but you can’t force it to drink water.
It’s more like telling a child not to put his finger in the fire, they won’t know what you are trying to warn them against until they actually put their finger inside that fire….they will only learn their lesson when they feel the burn of the fire.
Elena didn’t only make me dislike her, she also made me feel guilty.
I should have been there for my mother.
I should have stick close to her and give her the support, care and attention that she truly deserve.
I was her only family. Her only hope.
I was going to knock again when the door was suddenly pushed open and there she was staring at me in complete surprise.
She wasn’t expecting me here, especially not by this time.
“Gw…Gwen?” Mom stuttered.
“Mom.” I dropped my bag and ran into her arms as I broke down into tears.
She hug-ged me back and consoled me even when she didn’t know what’s exactly the cause of my tears.
“What happened? Gwen, what’s going on?” She asked holding me close.
I continued crying, embracing her tight.
Was I a bad child?
A child who only caused problems for her mother?
A child who frustrated her mother and made her mother ship her off to the father?
A child who couldn’t even beat the crap out of that old woman for causing so much pain on her mother?
A child who was just too dumb to read throu-ghthe thin lines…?
In case you still haven’t still realized,,,well yeah, I left Brooklyn. I left the same day I found out the truth. And now I’m finally home. My real home. To my mother.
To be honest, I left Brooklyn for two good reasons; One, I couldn’t stay there any longer, not after hearing the truth. I can’t just let mom stay here alone without any family. She needs me around. She needs me home. And I need her too. I miss her so much. I miss her smile, her warm embrace, her scolding, her stern look, her nagging, her love, care and attention, I miss her food especially her well baked cupcake. I miss her so Fuc-king much. There’s nothing like a good mother. A mother who will stick to you no matter the situation. A mother who is ready to give up her life for her child. A mother who showers unconditional love to her child. A protector, a fighter, a defender, a teacher, a sister, a best friend, a father and still a mother. I thought I was happy while in Brooklyn but now I’ve come to realized that I actually wasn’t very happy over there and that’s because I miss home…
Two, I also left for an obvious reason. I needed my own space from Brenden and Alex. I need to think we’ll and know where exactly I belong? Or more like, who exactly I wanted. Well, this discussion will be for another day. Right now I just want to be with mother like this…forever.
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“Here,” Mom handed me a mug of steaming tea and sat down beside me.
I took a gulp from it and dropped the mug on the table then moved closer to mother and rested my head on her shoulder.
“Sweetheart,” She called as she stroke my hair softly. “What’s the problem? Why did you come home by this time of the night?”
I sighed as I wrapped my arms around her waist. “I couldn’t stay there for one more night.”
“What happened?” She was worried. As usual when it comes to my well being.
“Mom,”
“Yes?”
I ran my we-t tongue over my dried li-ps before saying, “Why didn’t you tell me?”
She went stiff at a moment. “What do you mean?”
“Why didn’t you tell me about what happened twenty years ago?” She completely went stiff at that question. “Mom, don’t stop.” I pleaded and she continued stro-king my hair again.
“Your dad told you?”
“Elena did.”
“You mean your grandmother?”
I roll my eyes. “I haven’t accepted her as my grandmother.”
“Why?”
What sort of a stupid question is that?
That woman didn’t accept me while I was still in my mother’s womb so why the hell should I accept her now?
“Is it because of what happened twenty years ago?” Mother asked. I just sighed not saying anything. She figured out the answer she needed with that simple reaction she got from me. “You can’t hate her because of that.”
“Why not?” I blurted out before I could stop myself. “That woman humiliated you. She treated you Like garbage and made you feel like shit! I can’t understand why you still had me go over there not after what they did to you. They cut ties with you as much as they did with me.” I spatted coldly.
“Maybe Elena did but your father did nothing wrong.”
“He was a coward for not standing up for you and his unborn baby.”
“Gwendolyn.” Mom scolded.
I pulled out of the embrace to get a better view of her face. She was pained. Now that I could finally see…I could spot out the pain of twenty years ago in her eyes. She was only trying to act tough but de-ep down she was broken.
“Stop forcing yourself, mother.” I breath out.
“What?”
I reached out to hold her hand. “Stop forcing yourself to understand them.”
“I do understand them, Gwen. I was a pauper who had no promising future. Elena might have saw no potentials in me and tried to save her son from being with a woman like me.” She said softly.
“Then she was blind.” She said. “She was blind not to have seen any potentials in you. You are different from the woman of twenty years ago. You are different from the woman who they all thought was trash and wasn’t enough for their son.” I squee-zed her hand gently. “You gave birth to me. nuture and took care of me all by yourself. You gave me a well comfortable life. You are a brave and strong woman. And in all honesty, dad’s the one who doesn’t deserve a woman like you.”
“Are you saying all this to lighten up my mood?”
I smiled. “I’m saying all this because it’s the truth.”
She pressed a ki-ss on my forehead. “My love. My baby. You’ve grown so well to be a perfect daughter.”
“Perfect daughter? Mom, I still dress like a tomboy. I still act like one. I still pick up fight whenever I see injustice and hara-ss-ment . I…”
She cuts me off. “Now that’s what makes you perfect.” She cupped my face and gave me a small smile. “I miss you so much, my baby.”
Wait, did mom just say she miss me?
Is mom being emotional right now?
Like Fuc-k!
“You can’t take that word back, mom.”
She chuckles softly. “I never intend to take the word back, you crazy girl. Besides that’s the truth. I miss you so much. Home without you is so boring.”
“Is it because you had no one to scold at or something.” I joked.
She smile sheepishly. “I won’t deny that.”
“Mom.”
“Come here,” She pulled me into her arms again and ki-ssed me at the top of my head. “Will you stay here if I ask you to stay?”
I smiled. “I’m never going back to Brooklyn without you, mother.”
“What if you have to remain here for the rest of your life?” She asked.
What if?
What about Alex and Brenden?
What about Cleo, Kathy, Pearl, Arthur, Davis and everyone else I don’t know in school?
What about dad?
Can I really stay away from those people I’ve come to love?
“Mom, I’m not going anywhere without you… unless you intend to ship me off.”
She laughed, ki-ssing my forehead now. “I will never repeat that stupid mistake again.” We remained like that in each other arms for a long time…it was a mother and daughter’s moment. But after a while mother finally spoke. “Have you eaten?”
“Food is the least of my problem right now.” I stated.
She smiled, tucking a strand of hair behind my ear. “Sweetheart,”
“Yes mom.”
“Which of them is it?” She asked, confusing me.
“What?”
“Which of the siblings do you like?” Wait, what?
How…how does she know?
I didn’t say anything too obvious, right?
“I…i don’t understand.” I stuttered already acting very obvious.
“You don’t have to act clueless, Gwen.” She smiled. “Only a blind man won’t see the connection between you three. I saw how worried they were about you at the hospital. They really cared. I knew something like this is going to happen someday.”
“Something like what?” I asked.
“Something like you getting confused on whom you really want.” She spoke.
Mother will always be mother…someone who knows her child more than the child knows themselves.
“Mom,” I pulled out of the embrace to look at her. “I don’t want to be g-ay.”
“Does this mean you choose Lexi?”
“No, no, no,” I sighed. “I mean, I can’t choose Alex.”
“Why not?”
What’s going on here right now?
Why was mom talking like this?
She was never this understanding and calm before…did my disappearance from home changed her?
“Because…you…Wait, you don’t hate g-ays anymore?” I couldn’t believe I was that question but still!
“Sweetheart,” She let out a de-ep breath. “I don’t hate g-ays.”
“Mom you made that point clear enough. I could remember every single word you said that day. You hate g-ays! You practically warned against being one.” I reminded her just in case she might have forgotten so soon.
“I was stupid.”
“What?”
“I was stupid to think I can control your life and choices. Listen whether or not you are g-ay,,, nothing changes the fact that you are my beautiful daughter and I love you so much. If I make decisions for you then that proves my similarities with Elena and hell no, I do not want to be like that old hag.” We both laughed. “I want you to be happy and whomever makes you happy will be the great choice for you, sweetheart.”
“They both do.” I said in a whisper. “I like them both equally. I know I’m bise-xual and there’s no doubt about that but I can’t have the two siblings to myself. I have to pick one.”
“Are you sure you like this two siblings equally?” I nodded my head going back into my mother’s arms. She started stro-king my hair like she normally will do whenever I hug her like this. “Well I think you are confuse.”
“I know.” I agreed with a sigh.
“No, not about liking them but about who makes you really happy.”
“They both do. Alex is beautiful, charming, nice, friendly, smart, I love protecting her,,, she’s just so perfect and amazing.” I smiled as I reminisce back to when I first met her. “I never wanted to get involve but there’s just something in those beautiful eyes of hers that didn’t make me resist fighting those stupid thugs. I felt like protecting her instantly.” I sighed.
“And Brenden?” Mom inquired.
I roll my eyes. “That guy is a douche. Annoying, frustrating, stubborn, an a-sshole, a complete jerk, a playboy,,, He’s just so…arrrrgh!” I felt like pulling my hair out.
Mom laughed. “Sweetheart, you are just blind to see the truth right in front of you.”
“What do you mean?”
“It’s quite obvious about who it is you truly like but you are just blind not to see the obvious. But trust me I will support whatever decision you make, okay?”
Wait, does this mean she knows the answer to my question?
Does mom knows who it is that I like?
“Mom, do you know who it is that I truly have feelings for?” I asked, voicing out my thoughts.
“It’s very obvious, sweetheart.” I opened my mouth to talk but she beat me to it. “Don’t even ask me to tell you who it is because that answer is left for you to figure out by yourself. But to be honest I see no reason why you are confuse…with those things you said about each one of them,,, it’s very obvious that you like the other one than the other.”
“The other one than the other?” I repeated with my face scrunched up. “Now that only confused me the more.”
She giggled and dropped a light ki-ss at the top of my head again. That’s turning into a habit now. “Stop stressing yourself about this relationship thing, okay? Now go to sleep. Tomorrow is another day. Besides your best buddies miss you so much and definitely can’t wait to see you again.”
Speaking about my best friends brou-ght a smile to my face.
“Thanks mom.” I mumbled.
“For what?”
“For accepting me back home.”
“Shut up young lady. This home is practically your home and you are always welcomed.”
I smiled.
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????Narrator’s pov????
“I’m not going anywhere.” Lexi said in finality.
“Lexi, what are you saying?” Dorcas asked.
“Exactly what you heard, mother. I’m not leaving anywhere with you.” She said.
“Are…why?”
“Why?” She scoffed. “Are you seriously asking me why? Wait, why the sudden change of heart? You’ve always wanted to only take Brenden so why tag me along?” She spatted.
“What?”
“You think I didn’t know?” She turned to look at Brenden who haven’t let out a single word. “You think I didn’t know about you two devilish plan?”
Brenden raised a questioning brow. “What are you talking about?”
“What am I talking about?” She started laughing. “When are you ever going to stop pretending!? When are you ever going to tell me that truth!?”
“What truth?” Brenden asked, matching her raised tone.
“THE TRUTH ABOUT WHAT HAPPENED AT THE HOSPITAL!” She yelled angrily. “I was Fuc-king there when you disown father. I overheard when mom told Dad about divorcing him and leaving home with you and some properties. I wasn’t included in that little arrangement between you two and maybe…,” She sniffled. “Maybe that’s why you never told me about it.”
“No.” Brenden shook his head.
“No?”
“No I didn’t exclude you from my plans, Lexi.” Brenden began coming closer to her. “I didn’t tell you about what happened at the hospital because I was afraid.”
“Of what!?”
“Of hurting you.” He said in a low voice. “I didn’t want to see you get hurt about it and that’s why I didn’t tell you but believe me I never excluded you from the arrangement. Gwen can testify.”
Lexi was short of words. She shook her head lightly, turning to look at her mother. “You…you said you were going to leave me and go away with Brenden. I overheard you.” She sobbed.
“You didn’t hear everything, darling.” Dorcas said in a low voice. “Your father and I made a deal. We are going to perform a paternity test on Brenden and if he turns out not to be your father’s son then I will leave the house with Brenden and leave you here to stay with your dad but if Brenden turns out to be his son,,,I will leave the house along with my two children and some of his properties.” Dorcas sniffed. “That was the deal.”
Lexi was short of words, “Wha…what?”
“I never intend to leave you behind, I swear.”
“What if Brenden wasn’t father’s son…would you have still left with me?”
Dorcas reached out to hold her daughter’s hand. “I wouldn’t have made such a deal if Brenden wasn’t really your father’s son. I will never leave you behind, Lexi. You are my child. And I love you and your brother equally.”
“Wha… what?” Lexi sniffled, “You never planned to leave me behind?”
“Never. I can never do something like that to my beautiful daughter.”
“B..b….but Brenden…he…” She turned to look at Brenden. “You disowned father and didn’t tell me. You lied to my face!”
“I was only trying to protect you, Lexi. I don’t want to see you get hurt for my reckless decision that day. Although I don’t regret it but I regret never telling you in the first place. I thought I was protecting you but little did I know I was only hurting you.”
Lexi shook her head moving backwards. “Oh my God. What have I done? I hated my brother for no reason.” She mumbled under her breath as she kept backing away from everyone. “I hate myself right now!” She stormed out of the house, ignoring their continuous calls.
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????Alexis’s pov????
What have I done?
I hated my brother for no reason.
I treated him badly because of my stupidity!
I thought they planned to leave me behind but that wasn’t the plan… I…I misunderstood the whole situation.
I should have known,,,Brenden would never leave me.
Fuc-k! I was so dumb.
*I won’t let you have Gwen. I will have her to myself at all cost and even if it means hurting you then I will do it.*
How can a sister say such a mean thing to her brother?
Will Brenden ever forgive me?
I promised never to hurt him or turn my back against him but I didn’t fulfil these promises to him. I failed him. I hurt him. I tried to ruin his happiness because of my stupidity, foolishness and wickedness.
*You brou-ght cereals?*
*You didn’t come down to have dinner. Here,*
*I’m not hungry.*
*Then I’m not also hungry.*
*Wait, you didn’t have dinner?*
*I won’t eat unless you do.*
*Lexi…*
*I promise to always bring you cereals whenever you don’t come out for dinner.*
*I promise to always protect you and never make you get hurt.*
*Me too. I promise to protect you.*
How could I have easily forgotten the promises I made?
How could I be so greedy and mean to my lovely brother?
How?
I cried my eyes out as my chest clenched in pain.
I think it’s time I do what’s best for him…at least if this can be my way of asking for forgiveness then so be it.
I sniffled as I wiped off my eyes, staring straight at the lake.
I think it’s time I let go.
I shrugged off the black leather hoodie that obviously belongs to Gwendolyn _yeah, the jacket was actually my favorite and I wore it almost everytime_ But I think it’s time to finally let go.
I pulled the hoodie to my chest and cried over again and with that I threw it out into the lake and watched as it floated on the water, flowing towards a different direction, far away from where I stood.
The wind hit me at once and I shivered…I was wearing just a white cropped singlet. Damn me, I shouldn’t have throw the jacket just yet.
But this was for the best…it was for my brother’s happiness….the only way I could possibly apologize to him for the problems I caused him.
I want his happiness and if it means getting rid of my own happiness then so be it.
I was still staring at the lake when I heard a gentle voice from behind. Suddenly I felt warmth and when I looked down I found a blue sweater over my shoulder.
I turned around immediately…and there she was…
“Hey.” She greeted with a warm smile.
“What are you doing here?”
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????Brenden’s pov????
“LEXI!” I kept yelling as I searched for her around the corners of the street but she was nowhere around.
I was so worried and scared at the same time.
God, I should never have caused my little sister pain.
I should never have hurt her like I did.
I should never have tried to ruin her happiness.
I was so stupid and dumb!
Oh God.
How could I have forgotten the promise I made to her?
*You brou-ght cereals?*
*You didn’t come down to have dinner. Here,*
*I’m not hungry.*
*Then I’m not also hungry.*
*Wait, you didn’t have dinner?*
*I won’t eat unless you do.*
*Lexi…*
*I promise to always bring you cereals whenever you don’t come out for dinner.*
*I promise to always protect you and never make you get hurt.*
*Me too. I promise to protect you.*
How could I have easily forgotten the promise I made to her? Damn. I failed her. I hurt her. I even started a fight with her because of a girl.
* I won’t sit still and watch you take Gwen away from me, Lexi. I will fight back.*
How could I have said those mean words to my sister? Like seriously!
I think it’s best I do what’s right for her…at least if this can be my way of asking for forgiveness then so be it.
I stopped running as I stood in the middle of the empty and lonely street.
I think it’s time I let go.
I think it’s time I make my sister happy even if it means ruining my own happiness.
I sighed as I dropped down to my knees. It’s going to hurt letting go of the one girl I’ve ever truly loved…The only girl that makes me annoyed, frustrated, angry and in all of this…happy. But this was for my sister’s happiness.
It’s time I let go of Gwendolyn for Lexi’s sake.
****To Be Continued****