♥️T.H.R.E.E♥️
THEME: {Where do I belong??}
✍️ Written By Precious Pinky✍️
❣️Episode 89&90❣️
★★★★★
????Narrator’s pov????
“What did you tell Lexi?” Rowan questioned.
“What are you saying?”
“You know just what I’m talking about!” Rowan yelled angrily. “She has been avoiding me lately and there’s no better reason for her to do so unless you told her something about our past!” He accused.
Brenden scoffed stuffing his hands inside his pan-ts pocket. “Wait, let me get this straight…” He cleared his throat. “You think I told my sister about what happened between you, Luna and I?”
“Did you?”
“I didn’t.”
Rowan let out a de-ep breath of relief. “So, she doesn’t know anything but why is she…”
Brenden cuts him off. “She knows.”
“What?” Rowan questioned, confused.
“Lexi knows about it but I didn’t tell her anything. In fact I was going to talk to you about it.”
“How…how did she know?” Rowan thought to himself as he ran his fingers throu-ghhis thick hair, sitting down on the floor where Brenden and Gwen just made love on.
Brenden shrugged. “She probably heard it from students around.”
Rowan shook his head in disagreement. “No. Everyone stopped talking about it. It was an old rumor and no one is interested on that again.”
“Are you sure everyone stopped talking about it?”
Rowan remained silent for a while but suddenly his eyes bulged open as he come up to his feet. His face were as ha-rd as a rock, his jaw were clenched, his fist were likewise clenched. If Brenden wasn’t as stubborn as he was, he would have felt intimidated or frightened by Rowan’s look right now.
“Lena.” He growled. “That despicable bit-ch .”
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“Kathy, you haven’t said anything about what I said.” Davis said as he followed her from behind.
She gro-aned. “I have nothing to say about that, Dave. Like seriously, what do you expect me to say?”
“Anything. Probably give me a reply for it. Yes or No?”
“No.” She answered as she stopped walking to look at him now.
Davis scrunched up his face, “No?”
“No.”
He swallowed nothing as he let out a de-ep breath, trying to relief himself from any heartache. “Why?” His voice broke into million pieces as he asked that.
She shrugged. “I can’t, Dave.”
“You can’t?” He repeated again. She shook her head. “Why? I mean, why? You enjoyed the s**. You confessed it yourself, so why…why can’t we be together?” He stuttered.
“Because of that, Davis.”
“What?”
“It was just s**! A senseless meaningless s**.” She retorted. “We both enjoyed it but let’s be realistic here, we would have still enjoyed it even if it was with someone else.”
Davis shook his head immediately in disagreement. “No. I’ve never enjoyed s** with anyone as much as I did with you, Kathy.”
Kathy was a taken aback by that little confession of his. She almost got melted away by then but quickly pushed the feelings aside.
She can’t let him into her life and then break her.
She can’t make the stupidest mistake of accepting Davis.
There was no guarantee with him or his other friends. Everyone in school knows about them and their wayward reputation…ADB, the hotties who doesn’t believe in relationship or do repeats… Davis might have broken that one rule for her but that’s only because he was stuck with her and had no other options.
Although he sounded very sincere…really sincere but still she can’t let herself fall for his good looks, sweet voice and fake sincerity.
She get let him break her.
“I’ve enjoyed countless s** with lot of guys, Dave.” She spatted with no emotions laced on her face.
“What?” Davis world shattered at those words but she showed no sign of guilt at all.
“I can’t be with you, Davis. I really can’t.”
“Is it because you are scared?” She didn’t say anything. “You are scared because you think I will break your heart.”
Kathy took a step back from him. “I have to go now.” With that said she walked away, leaving Davis heartbroken.
Never have he ever felt this way before. He has never felt this way for any girl, not even one. He wanted her very close, he wants to ki-ss her, touch her, feel every part of her but that was going to be impossible.
He can’t have her and that’s because of the line, the border she has drawn between the both of them.
She doesn’t want him as much as he wants her. Though he can’t force her to feel exactly what he feels for her but he wish she could just feel something for him, even though it’s a little.
He was always the one causing the pain and heartbreak to the girls and not the other way round. But now was so different…he was the one getting the heartbreak this time around.
Now he knows what it feels like to get heartbroken by the one you love.
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????Lena’s pov????
“Lena!” Rowan yelled throu-ghgritted teeth as he caught hold of my wrist just when I was about to go into my tent. “I need to speak with you.”
I yanked my wrist from his grasp and stared at him. “Speak to me about what?”
“What did you tell Lexi?” He asked not even beating around the bush.
I folded my arms over my chest and raised a brow at him. “What are you talking about?”
“Don’t play dumb, Lena.”
“I’m not.” I simply denied.
He huffed shaking his head at me. “I heard what you did.”
“Oh, you did? What exactly did you hear? Let me guess, that I just let Mark Fuc-k my brains out? or that I just got into a fight with my best friend? Or that my mother just called me asking to meet with me!?” I said the last statement just before I could even stop myself.
Damn, what did I have to say it? Especially to Rowan? Fuc-k, I’m so stupid.
Rowan looked very confuse as he processed my words.
“Your mom wants to meet with you?” Oh, great. Now that’s the only statement he seem to have make out from everything I’d just said. Just great! _Note the sarcasm_
I cleared my throat. “Forget I said that.”
“Lena, what’s going on with you? I know you never told me anything about your family even when we were still together but I still got the chance to meet your brothers and father but I’ve never seen your mother before. Not even once. And to crown it all, you’ve never talked about her. What’s it?”
Why was he suddenly acting very nice to me now?
I thought he was here to fight with me about the shit rumor he must have heard about me or probably here to fight about Lexi and her sudden change of attitude towards him. I’m sure he thinks I’m the one who told her about the shit that transpired between him, Brenden and I.
But that wasn’t what he was doing right now.
The look he was giving me wasn’t one of anger or frustration but rather one of calmness, understanding and….sweet.
He wants to break throu-ghmy walls,,,the walls I built up for all this years. The walls I used as a form of protection from this harsh and wicked world.
I can’t let him in.
I can’t let Rowan break down my giant walls. Not after the pain I caused him. Not after the pain my mother caused me. She left just when I was a year old. She left with that idiotic bastard who happens to be my father’s driver all in the name of love.
Love? Tsk! That shit breaks people and leave them shattered.
It did the same for dad. It also did the same for Rowan.
“Stop acting like we are friends.” I snapped. “Yes we dated but that doesn’t make us friends now. You are with Lexi and as for me, I’m trying everything possible to be with Brenden so you should start dealing with your business and get the Fuc-k away from me.” I huffed in anger. “Just so you know, I didn’t tell Lexi any damn thing. She figured the whole shit herself so I would advice to go to her and explain everything to her. Although I see no future between you two.” I turned from him and went inside the tent.
As soon as I got in, I let off a de-ep breath shutting my eyes closed.
What have I done?
He was only trying to help out and see things throu-ghwith me, so why did I have to flare up like that and say those rash words to him?
Why do I always have a way of breaking the ones that I love? Wait, love…Okay, before you start getting ideas into your head, I’m not in love with Rowan. I was but not anymore, okay? Thanks for your understanding.
I went to sit on the bed meant for Pearl and I.
I dug my phone out of my pocket and resd throu-ghmy mother’s message over and over again as tears streamed down my face.
UNKNOWN: IT’S MOM. LET’S MEET:-) I broke down crying as if my life depended on it. Don’t give me that look…I might not have known my mother but I’ve always wondered what it feels like to have someone to call mom. I’ve always wondered whether or not I was the reason for her departure. I’ve always wondered if she truly loves me like the way a mother is suppose to love her child… I’ve always wondered if she even consider me as her daughter…does she even miss me? Her text shows no emotion, love or remorse.
I clic-ked on the three bar at the top of the message and did what was best for me and everyone as I clic-ked on delete and deleted the text message.
I’m human with feelings….
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????Gwen’s pov????
“Gwen what’s wrong with you?” Alex asked as she sat down beside me on the bed.
“I’m fine.” I replied her.
“You don’t look so fine to me. And besides why’s your face red as a tomato?” Cleo was the one to ask that.
I mentally gro-an blaming myself for my own stupidity.
Why did I let Brenden Fuc-k my brains out?
Why did I foolishly open my legs like a Fuc-king idiot?
Why the hell did I even ask him to go ahead and do whatever he wants with my body?
I should have known better.
I should have thought of tomorrow before doing something as stupid and embarra-ssing as that.
And to crown everything up,,,I enjoyed every single thing he did to me and my body.
I sound crazy, don’t I?
To be honest, I miss his touch, his ki-sses, his gentle sweet words, his calmness, his… argh, Gwen get a Fuc-king hold of yourself, dammit!
I suddenly felt someone’s hand on my thigh making me jerk back to reality. It was Alex’s.
“What are you thinking of?” She asked me calmly.
I gave her a little smile. “Nothing. Just wondering when this trip will be over so I can get home.”
She smiled. “You miss home?”
“Yeah. Don’t you?”
She shrugged before saying in all honesty, if I may add. “I don’t.”
“Why, because you have Brenden here with you?” I teased.
“No. But because I don’t know if it will be save to go home to my parents.”
“Uhm, I think I should leave you two now.” Cleo comes up to her feet. She leaned in and whispered to me. “Don’t waste any time to lose your vi-rginity.” She winked and walked away, smiling.
If only she knew I have already done that with Brenden…Damn.
But wait a minute, does this mean Cleo have granted me the permission to be with Alex now?
No Fuc-king way!
I was going to ask Alex what she meant with those words but she changed the topic and we started chatting about random things.
She laid on my bed and made me wrap her in my arms. We talked, laughed, joked about everything and nothing.
Honestly, it was an amazing night with Alex.
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The Next Morning**
????Alexis’s pov????
“Babe, wait up!” Rowan yelled as he ran after me.
I stopped and turned to look at him. He was out of breath when he finally got to where I stood.
“Hey.” He waved but I ignored the greetings.
“Do you have something to say to me?”
“Lexi, I won’t beat around the bush and just go straight to the point.” He began. “I know you already know about what transpired between me, Lena and your brother,” Now this discussion was going to be an interesting one. I folded my arms over my chest to listen to whatever gibberish he have to say. “I’m sorry.” Wait, that’s it? He’s not going to even give me explanation for his stupidity and foolishness? He made a fool out of me and does he think his stupid apology will make me forgive him?
“You are stupid to think I will forgive you for playing with my feelings!” I spatted coldly.
He shook his head. “I know. But I swear there’s no better explanation I can give to you right now. And I won’t be upset if you decide to break up with me now.”
“What?”
He sighed. “Yes, I only dated you to take revenge on your brother but on the line I fall in love with you but…” He paused. “I never actually loved you.”
“What are you saying?”
“What I’m saying is that we were forcing the love between the two of us. I knew you were g-ay right from the moment I made love to you but I saw how difficult it was for you to accept the truth. I didn’t want to hurt you because I know how painful it was to get heartbroken by the one you love. So I decided to remain in the relationship and kept giving you hope that you were straight and not g-ay.”
“Rowan…” I whispered quietly not believing the slightest thing he was saying.
“I’m still in love with her, Lexi.” By that I know just who he was talking about.
“She doesn’t feel the same way for you.” I reasoned out.
He smiled as he leaned over to me snd pressed a ki-ss on my forehead. “Leave that to me to worry about.” He took a step back. “I’m really sorry for playing with your feelings but hey, i was like an experiment to you so we are actually even here but I’m the one totally at fault here.”
It was very easy to ruin the relationship we built for 2 or 3 years without feeling any pain or heartache.
It was very easy to let him go without even trying to reach out to hold him or stop him.
And that’s probably because we didn’t say goodbye.
We might stop being lovers but nothing change the fact that we were still friends.
“Rowan!” I called out and when he turned to look at me, I said with a gentle smile on my face. “Thank you.”
He smiled back then went away.
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~Two Weeks Later**
????Narrator’s pov????
“Gwendolyn!” She heard her name from behind and when she turned around she saw Brenden running towards her.
It’s been two weeks now since they had that little…okay, huge intimacy and she have been avoiding him.
It’s been two weeks since she stopped talking to him.
It’s been two weeks since she started giving him attitude and speak less to him, even in the cla-ssroom. No matter how he looks for her trouble, she always stay calm and ignore him.
Everyone around were noticing the change between the two of them.
They weren’t fighting like before and neither were they speaking to each other like before.
They were just…in between…not friends, not enemies.
“Hey.” She gave him a tight smile and wad about to walk about but Brenden caught her wrist. “Uhm, do you need something from me?”
“You are avoiding me.” He blurted.
“I’m not.” She tried to break free from his hod but his grasp only tightened. “You know I can break free if I put in a little effort.”
She wasn’t joking when she said that. Brenden can absolute testify.
“Please talk to me.”
“I am talking to you, Brenden. I mean, aren’t we having a reasonable conversation now?”
He shook his head. “You’ve been avoiding me ever since that night, Gwen.”
“I don’t know what you are talking about, Brenden. I’m not avoiding you. I’ve just been busy with some things. Important things.”
“Important things like what? Going to shopping with Lexi, taking lot of photos with her, eating ice cream, playing video games, having fun…are those the important things?”
Yes, she have been hanging around with Lexi lately.
They’ve gone to places together and have practically make lot of memories.
Lexi have ki-ssed her on countless basis and she have reciprocate to the ki-sses, enjoying every damn thing with Lexi. They’ve make out, but haven’t gotten int-imate yet.
She won’t deny the feelings she has for Lexi and neither would she deny the one she feels for Brenden.
She have talked to Cleo about the mess going on in her head. Cleo have tried helping but the problem was just so huge and it keeps getting worse by the day.
How can she be in love with two siblings; One a boy and the other a girl? Unbelievable, right? Well believe it because that’s what is currently happening.
“Are you prying into my life?” She angrily asked.
“No. But…”
She cuts him off. “Are you jealous?” He didn’t say anything. “So you are jealous.” She sighed. “Listen who I hung around wth is none of your damn business, okay?”
“We had s**, Gwen.” He reminded her just in case she might have forgotten.
“Just a stupid meaningless s**, Brenden. It was totally a mistake. I was caught up in the moment and so were you. Besides you don’t do repeats so things like this shouldn’t be difficult for you.”
“Wait, you call what we have a stupid meaningless s**?”
“That was exactly what it was, Brenden.” She said.
Brenden angrily snatched her hand and dragged her out of the school hall with him. They arrived at the school field where it was only just few boys playing football and some others cheering them on.
No one was interested in whatever they had to say as they were trapped in the game.
“Was that what you count the s** as, Gwen? Stupid meaningless s**m?” He asked.
Gwen yanked her wrist from his grasp. “Don’t make me repeat myself over and over again, Brenden. You’ve always wanted to get into my pan-ts and now that you’ve finally did, why are you still coming at me?”
“That’s because I’m in love with you!” He yelled angrily, flaring up in anger but mostly in frustration.
“That’s a very dumb thing to say, Brenden. Love isn’t something you should just say like that. You need to feel it first.” She doesn’t believe him or his words.
Everyone knows about his reputation. She knows him very well and love was definitely not in his dictionary.
Yes she feels something for him but likewise felt the same for Lexi.
And truth be told, she believes every word Alex tells her than the empty lies Brenden tells her.
She can’t let herself get heartbroken by someone like Brenden. Never.
“You…” Brenden took in de-ep breaths, trying to calm himself down. “you don’t believe me.”
She shook her head. “Not one bit.”
“Bu….but…what about Lexi? Do you believe her?” He asked.
Gwen stayed quiet for a while before saying. “She’s better than you in every way, Brenden.” Okay, that was too de-ep. She knows how harsh she is with him right now but still!
“Ah…” Brenden nods his head calmly taking a step back. “I see…no wonder Mr Eric preferred Lexi to me. No wonder he love and care for her. No wonder he…”
“No Brenden.” Gwen quickly cuts him off. “That wasn’t what I meant.”
“Then tell me what you meant!”
She hesitate for a very long time before finally saying, “I’m in love with you and your sister.”
“What?” Both Brenden and Lexi who had just strolled down to meet them, most especially to meet Gwen said in sync.
Gwen shook her head taking a step back away from them, “I can’t do this anymore. I…” She sniffled. “I can’t.” She turned to her heel and ran away, ignoring the two siblings that kept yelling for her to come back.
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????Gwen’s pov????
What is Love? Some say it breaks you, others say it fix you, while other says, it makes you sad…As for me? I don’t know what Love means.
I kept running bearing only one destination in mind.
I don’t even know where I belong….was I g-ay? or was I straight…?
My heart beats whenever I see those two. Honestly, I’m fighting the ideas of being g-ay and that’s because of my mother.
She hated the idea of me being g-ay and might not accept in if I turn out to be one.
But this isn’t about my mom or what others will think of me if I actually turn out to be g-ay.
This is about me and my feelings.
*What? You think g-ays are garbage too?* Cleo’s pained voice echoed in my head and i couldn’t hold in the tears that sli-pped off my eyes, hitting my cheek as I stopped running and stood in the middle of the empty street.
No, they weren’t garbage.
They were humans with feelings also.
It wasn’t a crime to be in love and neither should it be a crime to love someone of the same gender.
I’ve heard lot of ill things about g-ays and trust me treating them like garbage won’t change their feelings.
I’ve always wanted to live my life pleasing my mother and those people around me but I’ve forgotten just one thing…what I truly want?
I could be Bise-xual, I could be g-ay, I could be straight but I definitely can’t have both siblings to myself.
I have to pick one…The one I truly love and want to be with… possibly forever.
Now here’s the question…Where do I belong?
“You just have to listen to your heart.” I heard Cleo’s voice from behind.
“How…how…”.
She smiled. ”I followed you when you ran out of school. Good thing lectures were already over.” She pulled me into her arms. “You can’t stand in the middle of the street crying, you know.”
“I don’t know what I want anymore, Cleo. I can’t keep playing with their feelings. I have to make my choice.” I cried in her arms, holding her very tight to myself.
“Don’y force yourself to do anything, Gwen. Just…” She pulled away from me and stared into my eyes, wiping off my tears. “Listen to your heart. Only it can provide you the answers that you need.”
“What if I become g-ay…will my parents hate me?” I was worried.
”I thought my mom would hate me if i come clean to her but guess what, when I told her…she turned out to be the greatest supporter I could ever have. She loved me unconditionally. We can’t force how we feel, Gwen.”
“I don’t want to hurt Brenden.” I mumbled in between tears. “I don’t want to also hurt Alex.”
“Your main focus should be on you and not them.” She sighed. “I don’t want you to get hurt.” She smiled. “I’ve never seen you cry or get so emotional until now.” She joked.
I sniffled. “I hate getting emotional.”
She laughed. “you still look very beautiful.” She linked her arm on mine. “Now let’s go home.”
Cleo was right. I shouldn’t think about anyone for once and just think about myself and what I truly want…maybe that’s the only way I will be able to find answers to my questions.
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We were hearing argument from the living room as we walked in.
Cleo and I both gave each other a confuse look before going further to see the source of the argument and that was when I heard another shocking and heartbreaking news.
”… Because of your condemnation and wickedness you stopped me from getting married to Mia. You pushed her away even when she was pregnant with my child. You left her with no shelter, no cloth, no food simply because of her parental background and now you are apologizing?” Dad’s angry voice echoed in the air.
I could swear that my blood were already boiling in utmost anger. “What did you just say?” I asked grabbing their attentions now.
“Princess… calm…” Dad began but I rudely cut him off.
“WHAT THE Fuc-k DID YOUR Fuc-kING MOTHER DO TO MY MOTHER!”
****To Be Continued****