THE DIARY OF LIA MARK
BY RUTHIE LEE
** Lia’s pov continues **
I stood still staring at derrick on the door, he just said he
loved me that I’m his world and everything..
I want to tell him to get lost, to just stop saying all of this and
be the Derrick I once knew.. To stop reminding me of our
accidental kiss, but I couldn’t I felt a very huge lump in my
throat as I saw a glint of sadness in his eyes..
I don’t want this derrick I want my old Derrick, because now
that he has say all of us, I don’t think we can be best friends
again or even friends… Leave Derrick..
I want to tell him but I couldn’t,
“I know I’m a jerk, I know am–
“just leave derrick” Logan said my mind cutting Derrick off..
“what?” Derrick said slowly..
“I said leave, I can’t believe you still had the fucking guts to
come to my house and tell my wife piece of shits she doesn’t
want to listen to, and you even had to say it in my face.. ”
Logan said almost angry,
I don’t know how angry he gets but I know it’s not going to be
Derrick glared at Logan, then brought his gaze back at me..
“goodbye princess, I’m really sorry for telling you all this but I
just couldn’t keep it to my self, I’m sorry” he said, sighed sadly
and walked away and Logan angrily slammed the door
startling me a little..
“piece of shit!” Logan cursed and turned to me.
Of course I’m not okay my best friend just confessed that he
loves me how the hell will I be okay.. I wanted to say but I
couldn’t.. Logan moved closer to me and hugged me..
“who am I kidding you’re definitely not okay” he said and
rubbed my back…
“look it’s okay, just leave that good for nothing badass he
doesn’t deserve you as a friend, just look on the bright side
okay” Logan said and I want to smack him for calling Derrick a
badass but also want to smack my self for defending Derrick…
“but really, Lia I don’t see what’s there to cry, he just said he
loves you doesn’t mean you should cry, I mean you should be
strong and laughed in his face, he told you to get lost and
then one day he’s telling you he loves you, and in front of my
face, that dude is a total maniac” Logan said still hugging me
and I welcomed his warmth and cheerfulness, he’s awesome..
But he’s right, I shouldn’t be crying..
I sighed on his chest and slowly wrap my arms around him, he
seemed shocked but embraced me even tighter.. I think I like
this comfort zone
“can we stay like this for a little longer” I said and my voice
comes out still horsey and low..
“sure thing princess” he said and I sighed
“don’t call me that” I said softly and he laughed,
It totally reminded me of, ‘you know who’
After we disengage from the longest hug ever I cleaned my
tears and moved my blond hair back and then Logan smiled
“you know when we have children I want them all to have this
golden hair of yours” he said and I rolled my eyes but with a
small smile on my face,
He just cheered me up and I am glad it worked, I’m glad
there’s another person who can cheer me up aside from
“see you totally want it, that’s why you didn’t say anything,
classic you” Logan whined and Chuckle..
He doesn’t know how much I love his twilight dark silky black
“so what do we have, I’m hungry” I said and sniffed
“well.. You’re clearly still not okay and I’m stressed out, so I’ll
just microwave some cinnamon rolls” he said and I nod..
“thanks” I said without smiling and head upstairs to ‘our’ room
I was laying on my stomach on the bed, studying math, when
Logan walked in with our dinner, I quickly sit up as I
persevered the sweet aroma..
“wow that smells great” I said almost happily..
“so tell me what do you think of your new school” Logan asked
as he took a bite out of his dinner..
“well, to be sincere I like it, but I don’t really like the people
there” I replied
“what? Why?” Logan asked and arched his brows..
“well for starters they’re mean” I said and bite on my
“yeah well some of them can be nice” he said and I shrugged
“yeah some of them can be nice like this two identical twin I
saw today, Carlos and Carter they’re way to nice, I like them” I
said and he tilt his head in confusion
“and who are they?” he asked
“you don’t know them?” I asked surprisingly and he nods
“well they know you and …oh and I just remembered Betty told
me you were the leader of some gangsters” I said and he
“yeah I Was, it was pretty fun then” he said and I stopped
“fun! Do you even realise what you’re saying, do you even
know what that would have made you” I yanked and he gave
me a look and his smile subdued
“okay now you’re just sounding like my mom” he said and
rolled his eyes..
“I am more than your mom, I am your wife” I snapped at him
and he flinched,
Okay I don’t know where all this anger is coming out of me but
I don’t like it, and what I just said was kind of weird..
“w-well sorry, why are you being angry all of a sudden” he
“I don’t know, I’m sorry” I sighed and moved my hair behind
He suddenly Chuckle and I laughed
“you’re one funny person” he said and I rolled my eyes..
“tell me about your dad” I said remembering we haven’t finish
that conversation yet!
“oh.. Right, he’s dead” he said and I put on a surprised look
even though I know he’s dead..
“oh I’m so sorry” I said while he shook his head negatively
“it’s okay, I’ve gotten over it”
“well what actually happened” I asked
“I was in grade eleven then, being the leader of the gansters in
school I felt unstoppable Like I was at the top of the world.. I
feared no man and liked doing things my own way, well my
dad and my elder sister Sally, went to England for months, and
the night they were coming back my mom told me that I
should stay home to welcome my dad, but I insisted on going
to a party that I was the first person to get invited to.. My
mom got really mad at me and locked me in my room, but I
sneaked out since I go by no one rules.. After the party which I
got seriously drunk at, I staggered back home and was
surprised that my dad wasn’t home yet, I met my mom in the
kitchen making a video call with my dad and my sister and
when I greeted my mom, my dad insisted that he’d like to see
me that they could have been home but the traffic is horrible..
I told my dad to get lost and he became furious and started to
yell at me of how wayward I’ve become, not looking the road
he actually got hit by a huge lorry, ..
That night I couldn’t sleep I was scared to death, it was all my
fault I couldn’t blame anyone else.. I hated my self ,I hated
everyone around me, I stopped hanging out with my friends
cause I felt like some part of it were there fault too,, my mom
actually stopped giving me the motherly love and that’s when I
know I lost it, I told my dad to get lost and he did.. Everyone
in school said I deserved it since I was a total jerk to
everyone, and I-i left my old friends and stopped being the
badass gangster I was and that’s when I met Jason, we were
partnered up in a science project, the worst part of it was that,
Sally my sister died, she was such great person she’s so like
you, funny,smart, beautiful playful, kind, caring and sometimes
stubborn” Logan said and chuckles.. I know he’s sad about all
this cause the way he talked, like there was something behind
his throat and I know he’s trying to hold back his tears, ..
But I feel so sorry for him..
“I’m sorry” I said and suddenly realised I was crying
“why are you sorry” he asked calmly and raised his head up. “I
don’t know I just can’t help it” I cried and sniffed which made
He moved closer to me and hugged me..
“talk about emotional” he said and I hit him on the chest while
he laughed and I cried and laughed together..
It was 9pm after doing the laundry, I plopped onto the bed
right beside Logan who was all focused in his phone..
“hey” I called and he turned
“what?” he asked
“wanna watch a movie with me,?” I asked
“of course I do I’m your movie buddy” he said and kissed my
cheek, while I shook my head negatively
But I stopped him and said “no thanks, I don’t want to watch
Spiderman and monsterman, I’ll get my own laptop”
“ha-ha real funny like you have any great movies” he said
sarcastically and I smiled
“oh I do” I said and he sighed and shrugged..
My laptop was set and we both got ready for ‘movie night’
“before we start, do you want me to cuddle you” he asked
“do you want to cuddle me?” I threw back the question
“okay we are not playing question for questions, just come
here” he said with a smile, while I sighed rolled my eyes I sat
right next to him and he wrapped his hand around me and for
some reason it felt weirdly comfortable..
We started watching the movie, we were both quiet and payed
so much attention, I snuggled my self up in Logan’s body and
he hugged me tighter and I could feel his smile on my hair..
After some time I started to get sleepy, it’s always in me
sleeping through movies, I yawned lightly and Logan said
“you’re sleepy, let’s just continue tomorrow” he said and
closed the laptop carelessly dropping it on the small drawer.. I
laid down and so did he, he suddenly grabbed my waist and
moved me closer to him.. That our bodies were touching, I
was too sleepy to do anything, he held my waist tightly that I
could not even move..
Our face were close that I could smell his peach pie breath we
had for desert..
“Lia.. He called
I answered tiredly, slowly closing my eyes.. But opened them
“I love you” he said and I could hear my own Heart beat go..
I didn’t reply him I just moved closer and kissed him.. after the
kiss I slowly pulled away but he smirked and continued…
T. B. C