❣️ ROOMMATES❣️
?By Authoress Pinky?
?Chapter Sixteen (16)?
Subtitle: {Complications?}
★Ryder’s Pov★
“Dad told me about what happened between you both. Ryder… you can’t keep treating dad like this for the rest of your life, you know that, right?” I didn’t say anything but kept fiddling with the pen between my thumb and index finger. “Mom don’t_” She began but I quickly cut her off.
“Stop. I don’t want you to bring mom into this shit.” I warned. I was currently at her apartment where she stays with a certain girl like that. She had asked me to come over as early as possible, I didn’t even get to see ‘her’ before leaving.
“but that’s the truth. Mom will be very disappointed at you if she gets to know about your nasty behavior against your own father.” Sonia snapped out this time around.
I scowled at her before saying. “Whose side are you on? Are you on that old man’s side who chased your mother out of your life, out of our lives! Or are you siding with mom, who lost her respect, her kids all because of that man’s mistake! Tell me!” I was getting pissed right now. But I’m trying really ha-rd to control myself so I won’t end up doing something really nasty that I might live to regret.
“I am siding with no one!” She yelled this time around. Thank goodness we were just the only one in here. Her roommate had left for cla-ss. “Yeah, dad really hurt mom but what about dad? He was also hurt from what happened between him and mom! So tell me, why did you hate dad this much, huh?”
“He broke mom’s heart! He broke her trust! He slept…no, he actually fu-cked her best friend! And what did you say again?…He is hurt?” I scoffed. “And do you think I care?”
“RYDER!” She screamed my name in anger. She was glaring at me now. “Look at who is talking….you are nothing less than father!”
“SONIA!”
“What!? You think you are different from him? Do you know how many ladies heart got broken because of you? You treat girls like they are so piece of trash! You hurt them but still you cared less! So stop acting to be innocent because you are NOTHING LESS THAN DAD!”
She was right. She was absolutely right. Why didn’t I see this throu-gh? I hurt a lot of girls but still cared less. She was right, I was no different from him. And fu-ck, it hurts to admit that shit.
I dropped the pen down and slowly got up to my feet and turned my back against her but she said something again that made me stop dead on my track.
“mom will be so ashamed of you. She wouldn’t want to believe that the son she she gave birth to is nothing but a heartbreaker.” She clic-ked her tongue. “Tsk, tsk, I can’t even believe the fact that you are my brother!” And with that said I lost control as I turned around and slapped her across her face. That took her by surprise because it swept her legs off the floor and she fell on the ground.
Oh my God. What have I just done? I stared down at the hand I had used to slap her and stare at my sister who was now sobbing on the ground with her palm across her cheek where I had just hit.
I can’t believe I had just hit my sister. I’ve never done something like this before. Yeah, I knew I was short tempered but whenever it came to her I always tried to control my anger. I really love and care about her. That was one reason why I had tried to leave the apartment because of I was afraid of losing it and doing something regrettable. And unfortunately, I had just done that something, regrettable.
“So…”
“Get out!” She ordered still sobbing. She was right. Mom will be so ashamed and disappointed of the guy I had turned out to be. And I also don’t blame Sonia for being ashamed and disappointed because I also felt that same way for myself.
I combed my hair with my fingers as I let out a de-ep and frustrated sigh. “Sonia… I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to hit you. I was only just mad over…”
She cuts me off again. “Get out, Ryder. Get out. You are not my brother. You are not the brother I used to know. You are just someone impersonating him! Get out! Leave me alone! Go!” She was sobbing really hard. I couldn’t leave her alone. I mean, not like this but I had to. That was for the best.
I turned around and walked out of the apartment, leaving my sister in tears. Gosh, I hate myself right now.
All I need right now was my cigarettes. I dipped my hand into my pan-ts pocket to take it out but discovered that it was empty. Oh, I had decided to quit smoking because of ‘her.’ But I needed my cigarette right now.
My ch-est hurts. I’m hurt. I slowly made my way to my car and hopped in. I started hitting the steering in anger. I was angry. I was angry about what had happened in my family. I was angry.
Once upon a happy family turned into a shattered family.
I kept hitting the steering as I started crying. My ch-est hurt like fu-ck. I really need my cigarette. No, not the one you smoke but I meant ‘her.’
****
★Ella’s Pov★
“Hey Jas. What’s up?” I asked as soon as I answered the call.
“Hey. How are you doing?” He asked me.
“Great. In fact, more than great. How about you?” I was really overexcited over my date with Owens. I really can’t wait for it to be seven sharp in the evening.
“I’m also doing great. I called Sonia but she wasn’t picking so that’s why I decided to call you.” He explained.
“Oh. I guess she was busy or something. I will just give her a call as soon as possible. But, what were you going to tell her?”
I heard his light chuckle. “That I love her?”
I gasped. “You don’t mean it.” We both started laughing. I knew he was just kidding but I just decided to play along with him.
“You don’t have clas-stoday, right?” He now asked.
“Yup. Why, do you want to take me out.” I asked jokingly.
“I guess.” Wait, I wasn’t expecting that reply. I was expecting him to say, ‘ha. You wish.’ But I was so wrong. “Will you go out with me, Ella?” He asked.
“wh…what?” I choked out.
“Please? I just want to um, get to know you more better. Hope you don’t mind?”
“wait, I thought the person you wanted to talk to was Sonia?” I asked getting so confuse.
“Well, not really. I just wanted to ask about you and what you are going to be doing today but she didn’t pick up so I decided to call you directly.”
I scratched the nape of my neck. What do I do? What do I say? I can’t say no for two reasons and I can’t say yes for also two reasons. one from the no aspect; He was my hero who had saved me. Two, he just wanted to hang out with me as a friend, no big deal. Now, one from the yes aspect; I should be getting ready for my date with my boyfriend and nothing going out with a guy. Two, this doesn’t just feel right. So what do I do now?
I cleared my throat. “Um…what time?” I had to ask first before I make any decisions.
“Around Seven pm. So what do you say?” I almost choked from my saliva. That was the same time j suppose to hang out with my boyfriend. Even the heavens don’t even want me to hang out with Jasper. I was going to decline when the door was suddenly pushed open and I saw Ryder walking into my room.
He looked so down. He looked sad and angry at the same time and it actually hurt to see him that way. But wait, what was wrong with him? He didn’t got into a fight with his dad again, did he?
“I will call you back.” I said to Jasper and hung the call up. “Are you_” I was cut off as his li-ps crashed into mine. It was a rou-ghki-ss. It was a ki-ss of hunger and anger. And well, I ki-ssed him back.
And hey, before you start to judge. I honestly don’t know why I was ki-ssing him back. Maybe it’s because I felt kind of pity for him.
We pulled back but our foreheads were still touching as we try to catch out breath from the hot ki-ss. My eyes were shut close as I tried to keep my racing heart at ease.
“I’m sorry.” I heard him say in a low voice. His hands were cupping my face now. “I was just in need of a cigarette and hey, you are my cigarette now, remember?”
I opened my eyes and stared into his. “Yeah. I know that. I’m not an amnesia patient, okay? I’m just an asthmatic patient.” He chuckled over that.
“you always have a way to make me smile.” He breath out. “Four eyes,” He called out in a husky voice now.
“Are you okay? You only need your cigarette when you are sad or angry. So tell me what made you sad and angry?”
He slowly pull away from me, creating some space between us and I suddenly miss his warmth.
Shit! You have a boyfriend, Ella. Stop drooling over your roommate!
“Ryder…”
“I hit her. I fu-cking hit her! I don’t know what came over me but I hit her.” He kept saying the word, ‘hit her.’ I hope he isn’t talking about one of his bimbos.
“Who did you hit, Ryder?” I asked again taking a step towards him.
He sighed as his fingers went throu-ghhis hair. “Sonia.” He simply said.
I gasped as I stared at him with wide eyes. “YOU HIT SONIA!” I yelled.
“Yeah. I am so fu-cked up.”
“why? what happened? What did she do?” I asked all at once.
“I don’t know…she was just saying some things that kind of pissed me off. So I got so upset and then I hit her. She was crying when I left.” He held my hand now. “I need you to go to her. I need to be sure that she’s save. Please, four eyes.”
Now this explains why she couldn’t pick Jasper’s call. She was in an argument with Ryder. I nodded my head.
Ryder cu-pped my cheeks again and tried to ki-ss me but I pulled back this time around. I can’t ki-ss him over again. I really feel like a slut who cheats on her boyfriend with her roommate.
“i’m sorry.” He said. I smiled and pulled him into my arms for a warm and comforting embrace. “Please make sure she’s okay. Please.” He pleaded again.
“I will.” I rea-ssured him as I patted his back gently. He was like a little child he need attention but was acting to be alright. He was just like me but the different here was that… he wasn’t a murderer….like me.
****
“Hey girlfriend!” I said cheerfully as I walked into Sonia’s apartment with a bag of chocolates. Different kinds of chocolates. Her favorite to be precise.
“Hey.” She greeted drily as she curled herself up. She was still crying.
I dropped the bag down on the floor and made my way to Sonia before pulling her into my arms.
“Let it all out.” I said in a whisper. Before I knew it, Sonia did as she was being told to as she started crying. I just patted her back as she kept crying.
“he hit me, Ella. He fu-cking hit me! He felt so different. He was like a total different person! No, maybe he’s just tired of me. He hates me now, Sonia! He hates me that’s why he hit me.” She said as she cried.
“No. That’s not true, Sonia. Ryder actually loves you. He really does. He was the one who had asked me to come here and make sure you are okay. He regretted ever hitting you. Please don’t think he hates you, cause he don’t.” I told her as I kept patting her back softly.
“No. He hates me…” She said continually.
****
“Here,” I said as I handed her a pack of turtle chocolates. “your favorite.” I added.
She smiled as she collected it. “Yeah. But you know you shouldn’t have.” She said as she opened the pack then sniffed.
She had stopped crying moment ago. I really hurt to see Sonia in this mood. Actually, this was the first time I’m seeing Sonia this way. She was always happy. Lively. Trying to make everyone around her happy but right now…she look different. She look weak. Sad. And annoyed.
“Don’t tell me you are going to cry again.” I said now.
She sniffed again and smiled but it was quite obvious that she was going to cry again. “Turtle chocolates isn’t my favorite but Ryder’s. I made it my favorite because it was his. Honestly, I’m allergic to chocolates but I still eat them because of him and whenever I do, I just fall sick but I kept eating them whenever I missed him.” She sniffed again. “Ever since mom left….He changed. He became a total different person. He was always with different girls or he drinks and smoke. I was always heartbroken but I couldn’t love him less. He was my brother but now…now, I don’t know what to say.” She started crying over again.
I moved closer to her and pulled her into my arms. “Shush. Ryder loves you more, Sonia. You have got to believe me.”
“How would you know that?” She asked as she looked up to my eyes.
I shrugged. “Because I know so. It’s in his eyes.” She wrapped her arms around my body and kept on sobbing.
“I…I miss my brother….I…I miss my old brother….I miss his old self.” She said in between her sobs.
I could feel the bond between this two siblings. They really love each other. And they were both my friends.
I stare at my cell phone as I thought of Ryder. I hope he was okay. He also need me. I wonder if be was smoking right now since I’m not there. God, I hope he’s not.
****
“oh my God. That’s so hilarious.” Sonia said as she wiped some tears off her face. We were watching a comedy movie. We’ve been indoor for five hours. I don’t even know what says the time but I was having fun with my best friend.
“I know right? I wish the lady could just pop out of no where and scare the shit out of the guy.” I said laughing.
“Yeah. But honestly, the guy is so cute. Can’t you see his muscles. His biceps. He look hot.” Yeah, yeah. She’s back to herself. Wow, I miss this part of Sonia.
“Yeah.” My mind suddenly went back to Ryder. Was he alright? I need to go to him. I need to be sure that he was okay.
“Sonia, I should leave now.” I said getting up to my feet.
“But why? Can’t you stay for the night?”
“I would love to. But I have to go check up on your brother. you know, right?”
She rolled her eyes as she stood up to her feet. “Yeah. Yeah. Make sure you tell him that I haven’t still forgiven him.”
I chuckled. “I will do just that.” I said while laughing. You don’t believe that, do you? Of course I’m going to twist that word into something better.
****
I walked into the apartment but did not find Ryder. I tried calling him but he wasn’t picking. Where was he? I called Lewis to ask about Ryder’s whereabout but he doesn’t know.
Oh my God. I hope Ryder hasn’t done something stupid.
I started looking for him around but didn’t find him. It was almost seven o’clock but I cared less. I was so worried over Ryder and his whereabout.
I decided to check the beach I had taken him to. And yeah, he was there. He sat down on the ground and was staring at the ocean.
I approached him and took the spot beside him. “Here you are. Do you know how I looked everywhere for you.” I said breathless.
He smirked. “Why, missing me already?”
“Nah. I actually thought you’ve decided to kill yourself.”
He made a face at me. “I wasn’t expecting that reply.” I chuckled. “How is she now?”
I smiled. “Very much okay. She had even ask me to tell you that she has forgiven you. Sonia really loves you.”
“wait. She really did say that she has forgiven me?”
“you don’t believe me?”
“i didn’t say that. I’m only just surprise. Anyway, thanks.”
“Oh. Here.” I handed him a pack of turtle chocolates. “I heard they were your favorite.” I said.
He smiled as he collected it. “Yeah. Thanks.” I opens it and took a bar of chocolate, he ate a part of it and smiled. “It’s delicious.”
“Glad you like it.” I said. A comfortable silent fell as we both stared at the ocean.
“here.” Ryder said as he shove the pack towards me. I smiled before taking a bar and took a bite. Indeed it was superb.
“Now I see why it’s your favorite.”
He laughs. “I love things that are perfect.” Those were his next words.
“Not bad.” Oh no! I have a date to go to. I stare at the time on my phone. It was 6:50. Shit! I’m going to be late for the date.
“Ella, I will like to take you to a place tonight.” He said. Wait, what?
Why are things getting more complicated? TBC.