❣️ ROOMMATES❣️
?By Authoress Pinky?
?Chapter Fourteen (14)?
Subtitle: {Moments like this?}
★Ryder’s Pov★
“You can’t tell me shit, Edward! It’s my life we are talking about here!” I yelled, getting frustrated and angry. This man who calls himself my father was the cause of who I turned out to be right now.
What he is doing in here is what I don’t seem to understand. Why was he here? I had asked myself that question as soon as he walked into my apartment. But I got to know the reason for his visit: He is here to talk about my future. Stupid, right?
Guess what? I know that already.
“Life? What life, Ryder? This life?” He asked, glaring at me. “I am doing this for you! Why can’t you see it? Huh?”
I scoffed. Him acting to be nice kind of sounds funny and hilarious to me. “what? You are doing this for me?” I started laughing. “Can you for once stop fooling yourself? You are doing this for your own self! If you get me into your business there is a possible chance of it getting a lot of improvement! You need me!” I spat angrily.
He clenched his fist tightly giving me a cold stare but that didn’t make me flinch or anything but instead it made me feel more bold.
“I am your FATHER!” He yelled the word ‘father.’ And I’m certain that anyone who is making his or her way into this apartment must have heard him.
“Father? You lost that the very first day you sent my mother out of your life and got another woman to replace her!” I was very mad now. I felt like strangling the life out of this old man. What did I ever do to God that made him give me a father as heartless as this man?
His face softened from those words but I cared less. My anger had blinded me and all I could see was the back of this man, walking out of my life and business. But mother….
She had made me promise to respect and do whatever this man ask of me. She once said before leaving. And I quote.
“Ryder, I want you to always keep this mind. What ever happened is between your father and I. I want you to promise that you will always treat him like your father and love him. Don’t let our separation make you hate him, okay? Promise me that.”
Yeah, I had promised to always be with him but I never promised to love or treat him as a father. He had hurt my mother and had also hurt my little sis, Sonia. So had he also hurt me. And I can’t seem to forgive him and let go.
Sonia forgave him but still misses our mother every blessed day. Mother left this country and went far, far away from him. From us. And it’s all because of this old man standing in front of me right now.
“Your mother left me. She left us. Why can’t you see it?”
“Yeah, she did. And that’s because you cheated on her with her best friend! Do you really think I didn’t notice or better still know what happened between all of you? I am not dumb, Edward. I just kept quiet and pretended to be dumb because I thought that would be best! But I was so wrong. You are one heartless man.” I yelled this time around. My heart was shattered. All I needed was my cigarette. That was the only thing that kept me at ease.
“How…how…” He was speechless now.
“How did I know?” I scoffed. “It’s common sense. Please leave. Get out!”
“Ry…”
I brou-ght out a hand indicating for him to stop what ever he intend to say. “Just leave. Please.”
****
★Ella’s Pov★
The door to the apartment opened and a man who looked exactly like Ryder walked out. He stared at me before walking out without saying a word.
Well, thank goodness for that.
I took some few steps towards the door but stopped at my track. Ryder was heartbroken. He needs a company. He needs me. He had always stood by me whenever I needed him. Well, someone. And now, he needs me.
I walked into the apartment and the first thing I heard was a cup being smashed on the ground followed by a plate and a lamp and a cup again.
“STOP IT.” I yelled. Things stopped falling because Ryder stopped on his track on grabbing a cup again and turned to me. “what is wrong with you? What do you think you are doing?” I now asked as I made my way to him.
His fingers went throu-ghhis hair.He looked very sad. And his eyes… Oh, no. He had cried.
“Ryd…”
“no. I’m fine.” He quickly said cutting me off. He slide his fingers into his pocket and pulled out a pack of cigarette. He took out a stick and put it in between his li-ps. He took out a lighter as well. I was just staring at him. Wait, has he forgotten that there was an asthmatic patient standing before him?
He was going to light the cigarette when his eyes met mine. As if realization struck him, he sighed and broke the cigarette into two pieces and threw it on the floor. He then threw the lighter against the wall and then started saying some profanity against his breath as his fingers went throu-ghhis hair again and he sat down on the floor.
“Are you alright?” I had asked. Although, I had heard the argument between him and his father and trust me, I’m quite surprise that Sonia and Ryder’s father was the owner of this college. Am so gonna deal with Sonia for not telling me and her she calls herself my best friend.
(what happened to respecting people’s privacy?) My subconscious asked. I inwardly rolled my eyes.
“I’m fine.” He repeated again. I shrugged but took a sp-ot beside him.
“So…your dad is Mr Edward…” He gave me a cold stare that sent chills throu-ghmy spine. I quickly kept my mouth shut before my head gets smashed against the wall just like that poor lighter. “Sorry.” I apologized.
“I want to be alone. Can you please just go to your room? I just want to be alone.”
“….so you will be able to smoke your lungs out? Ryder, you know smoking is bad for the health, right?”
“Is an art student suppose to know that?” He questioned now and I’m quiet sure I heard the humor in his voice.
I fake glared at him. “What is that suppose to mean?”
He shrugged as he wiped the tears that had stained his eyes. “That art student is suppose to focus on what concerns them?”
“Look at who is talking…at least, we art student know what we want unlike you.” I spat.
He gave me a weird look before saying. “Meaning?”
It was my turn to shrug now. “I hardly see you go to cla-ss. And funny enough you are more busy than even students.”
“You are crazy. Like I mean. is that suppose to help me in any way?”
“Maybe?”
He rolled his eyes and rested his head against the back of the chair, I did the same.
“that’s one reason I prefer my cigarette. It always comfort me and puts me at ease. I guess that’s one reason why I’m addicted to it.” He now said.
He was down. He was sad. What could I do to help him out of this mess. Besides, it’s more like repaying him. An idea quickly struck me.
“Get up.” I ordered, getting up to my feet.
He gave me a confuse stare. “And why should I?”
“We are going out.” I said.
****
“HELLO!” I yelled at the top of my voice.
Ryder stood beside me and stared at me as if i was crazy or something. “Really? Saying hello to the ocean? Is that even normal?”
It was a bit late and that made it much more better. Honestly, the ocean had always comforted me and that’s why I brou-ght him here. If he needed comforting then the ocean was the best solution and not some pack of cigarettes.
“Yup. Well, not to most people. But it’s quite comforting. Come on, say hello to it.” He shook his head. “Come on, Idiot. Stop being a joy killer.”
“what? Idiot?”
“Oops. Did I say that too loud?” I grinned and that made him chuckled. “Come on, say hello to it. It’s going to take out your worry.”
He sighed. “Fine.” He surrendered. “Not because I believe in that shit but because you said so.”
I playfully bump my shoulder against his. “Does that means you believe me?”
“Arrrgh, don’t let me regret it.” He cleared his throat and straightened himself. “HELLO!” He yelled now. “HELLO!” He yelled again and kept telling it over and over again. He was hurt. It was very obvious.
I didn’t even know when I pulled him into my arms. “It’s alright.” I whispered as I patted his back softly. He was just like me. We were afraid to let the light in. But what we didn’t get to know was we were each other’s light.
He started crying. Letting it all out. I held him more close to me. There was no harm in giving him my shoulder to lean on. In fact I was quite happy to give him my shoulder to cry on.
“It’s alright.” I whispered again.
****
“How do you feel now?” I asked as we both sat down and was staring at the ocean. I hug-ged my legs against my ch-est. While Ryder legs were stretched out and his hands were behind him, keeping him balanced.
“Better. I guess.” He whispered. “Geez, I can’t believe I cried. I can’t even remember the last time I cried.”
“Sometimes, it’s good to let out your frustration in tears.” I said.
He nodded his head and said. “I guess so. Cause I really feel better now. Thanks anyway.” He said looking over to me.
I smiled. “Anytime. And hey, if you need comforting, tell me. I can always be your cigarette.” I said.
He chuckled. “And then get addicted to you? Hope you know I don’t share the things that I’m addicted to?”
“Shut up.” We both laughed. I was a bit bothered by those words. I know for a fact that all Ryder wants was to have s-ex with me but sometimes most of the words he says always keep me wondering.
“Really, thanks.” He said again .
“It’s fine. This is what friends do for each other.”
“Yeah.” A comfortable silence fell between us and all we could hear was the waves from the ocean. But Ryder broke the silence off. “Won’t you ask me what happened?”
“Nah. You respected my privacy so I should respect yours. But hey, you can still talk if you want to.”
That made us laugh. “Yeah. My father is the owner of that college. I know every person would be happy to have a father like him….” I nodded as I listened to him, quietly. “…but I’m not.” He cleared his throat again. “He…He didn’t just hurt me but he also hurt the people I loved. Like my mother and sister. Sonia got separated from her mother at the age of five and I got separated from out mother at the age of six. All thanks to that old man.” He paused. “Do you know what it feels like to get betrayed by your so called best friend? Well, that was the case of my mother. Her best friend took her wealthy husband from her. Funny, right?” I didn’t say anything. “I wanted to leave, I wanted to run far away from them all but…Sonia. She needed me. I couldn’t just leave her alone with that old man and that heartless wife of his. So I stayed. For her.”
“Why are you telling me all this?” I couldn’t help it but to ask.
He shrugged. “You had asked me to take you as my cigarette so, I’m doing just that.”
“oh.” I smiled. “Hey, let talk about something else. Someone more funny, what do you think?”
He leaned closer to me. Our faces were inches against each other. “Like what?” He asked, staring down at my li-ps. My breath get caught up in my throat.
“um…I had said…um… let’s talk not let’s do.” I pointed out.
He smirk-ed. “Why, don’t you prefer me more closer like this?” He leaned further more and I leaned away not breaking the eye contact.
I shouldn’t be doing this. This was wrong. This was very wrong.
“Four eyes….” He called out.
“Yes?” I answered.
He stared down at my li-ps again and then look up at my eyes. We were both staring at each other’s souls now.
“can I ki-ss you?” He asked now. Wait, is he asking for my permission to ki-ss me? He was never like this. He always do what ever he wants without asking for permission. “…as a friend who needs comforting?” He quickly added.
I should say no. I can’t ki-ss him. No. But I foolishly nodded my head. Honestly, I wasn’t thinking straight. Having him very close to me like this was kind of making me feel some kind of way I don’t understand.
His li-ps crashed into mine. And we both started ki-ssing. I shut my eyes. close and wrapped my arms around his ne-ck. The last time we had ki-ssed at the party, i felt nothing but this time around…I felt….pause there, Ella. What are you doing? You can’t be ki-ssing Ryder. Have you forgotten that you have a boyfriend now? Owens is your boyfriend now, remember? TBC.
A/N: Oh no, she has a boyfriend now. This is getting more complicated.
Question: Do u think Ryder just take Ella as his cigarette, or there is something more to it? Comment!!!