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BY RUTHIE LEE đž đž
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EPISODE 7
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I looked at joy and smiled, though it hurt that she doesnât know me as her mom, but somehow I was relieved sheâs okay, I gave birth to her and Iâm alive.
âJoyâŠâ Henry called holding her hand.
âThis is mom!â Henry said pointing at me.
âYour mom!â Henry smiled at her.
âYes!â Joy replied. Not looking at me but pla-ying with Henryâs shi-t collar.
âDonât f0rç£ her, As long as Iâm alive, sheâll still get to know who I really amâ I nodded.
âWhen you were still in coma we used to come here with her and show her your slee-ping b©dy on the be-d telling her youâre her mom, she knows youâre her mom, but she really doesnât know what âmomâ is supposed to be, she just got it imprinted that your name might be âmomâ or you being mom is something she should know!â Henry explained.
I sighed and shut my eyes and opened them again.
âHenry!â I called.
âWhat happened to me?â I asked.
âHuh?â he said.
âHow did I end up in the hospital like this, in a situation like this!â sighedâŠ
âItâs a long story!â Henry sighed.
I turned to him. âIs it that bad to talk about?â.
He sighed, âitâs just too⊠Get well soon and maybe Iâll tell you or maybe youâll recall your memories before then.â
âOkay⊠Since you donât want to tell me, Iâll just have to wait for my memory, Ending in the hospital was one thing and having a memory loss is another, I feel soâŠâ Henry immediately held my hand.
âDonât talk like this, everything happens for a reason, your memories are going to come back okay! Donât worry about anything, pretty soon youâll be out of here with your memories back and everything is going to be fine okay!â Henry as-sured and I slowly nodded.
Suddenly I heard Henryâs voice telling me âeverythingâs going to be fine!â and like a flash I saw my self lying on the be-d, my stomach hvge and I was sweating on the be-dâŠ
I whinced and shut my eyes cause just that small vision hurt my head.
âWhatâs wrong!?â Henry quic-kly asked.
âiâŠI⊠A memory!â I breathed out tiredly.
âReally⊠A memory!â Henry said, he moved closer to me letting joy wonder what was going on.
âBut⊠it wasnât that long, it was like⊠like a flash!â I tried to explain I donât know if he un-derstood or not.
âOh okay, itâs okay now breathe!â Henry said and again I heard his voice saying the same thing.
âItâs okay, now breathe!â
Again, like a flash, I saw myself in the same room I was from the last flash memory with my bu-mpy stomach and sweating b©dy, Henry held my hand and he was telling me to breathe.
I whinced again placing my hand over my head.
âThis is painful!â I almost cried as I held my head with my hand.
âAnother memoryâŠ? OhâŠokay.. Wait Iâll go get a doctor!â Henry said, letâs go of my hand and ran out of the room.
âDaddy⊠Where are you going!â joy almost cried and wanted to jump down from the be-d to follow Henry, but the be-d was too high for her, and despite the headache I was having, I managed to gr-ab her hand before she could try something dangerous.
âLeave me alone!â Joy cried as she stretched her other hand towards the door.
âDaddy!â she cried.
And I cried too. I really hate that she doesnât know who I am too.
âDaddy, come back!â Joy cried too and before I knew it I started to sniff and I started to cry too.
A loud annoying cry that filled the room, I couldnât hear joy cries again but I kept crying all these is just so painful.
I hate all this!!
And for the fact that joy doesnât know who I am and wants to get away from a stranger like me.
What the hell happened to me that left me in a state like this.
Thinking about all this I cried, so loud, I cleaned my tears and opened my eyes to see joy staring at me.
âWhat?â I sniffed at her, as her big brown eyes stared into mine.
She didnât say anything she just watched me.
Tears fell from my eyes as I re-ad her expression that says âWhy is this stranger crying!â
Stranger.
âYou know joy, Iâm your mom!â I sniffed.
âI know, daddy said so too!â she replied, she had suddenly st©pped crying just because I started to cry.
What a s-en-sitive child.
I could see my kid face in hers when I asked.
âYou know what a mom is right?â I asked and she nodded, a nod that says she knows but doesnât really know.
I asked again. âYou know what a hvg is right?â.
âYes, I like big hvgs like barney!â Her face lits up.
âWell can you give me a big hvg. Iâll really like that!â I sniffed trying to clean my falling tears.
She carefully crawled to me and her hand circled around my nÂŁÂąk.
My hand hvgged her small b©dy and I criedâŠ
She smelled so nice.
She looked so nice, she talks nicely and sheâs mine. Sheâs my baby.
I cried so much, on her shoulder and it seems like she didnât want to let go, I didnât want to either cause I felt like I shouldnât, I suddenly felt like I should give her a hvg that could replace the three years I couldnât.
The door opened, Aaron, Henry and a female nurse walked in.
I quic-kly cleaned my tears but they caught me alre-ady, but I still didnât let go of joy, and she felt heavy immediately.
âIs everything okay?â Henry quic-kly ran up to me.
I sniffed. âYeah⊠everything is fine!â
âReally?â Aaron asked as he and his nurse as-sistant walked closer to me.
âYes everythingâs fine,â I replied.
âOkay⊠Heard about your episode. And we are here to give you a single sh0t to help you head cool down, and maybe even put you to sleep!â Aaron said and I nodded, i tried to let go of joy but she was heavy.
âHelp me, take her away from my b©dy!â I said to Henry and he gently carried Joy.
âSheâs asleep!â I g@sped when I saw her eyes closed as Henry took her from me.
Just that brief hvg and sheâs alre-ady asleep, Iâm so t©uçhed.
âWow,â Henry smiled as he letâs joyâs head rest on his shoulder.
âShe ha-rd ly sleeps and all she does is talk!â Henry said.
âI just asked for one small hvg and she fell asleep!â I smiled as I t©uçhed her hair.
âThatâs the t©uçh of a mother!â Henry said and I glanced at him and smiled.
âSheâs your child?â Aaron chimed in and I nodded and st©pped when he saw he was talking to Henry.
âOur child!â Henry replied.
âWowâŠâ Aaron replied.
Aaron beckoned the nurse to me and she c@mÂŁ with the syringe.
âSheâs beautiful!â Aaron said referring to Joy and Henry Thanked him..
âAnyways, Rose.â Aaron called and I turned to him. âYouâll be leaving the ICU (intensive care unit) room today and moving to a normal ward. Cause youâre recovering fas-ter than ever! Which is a miracle!â Aaron smiled and my smile change into a whince when the nurse pricked the nee-dle into my arm.
Recovering or not, I want my memories first. I want to have all my memories and I want them to come accordingly. But I think thatâs even possible.
After taking the sh0t, Aaron and his as-sistant left leaving, Henry and joy with me, Joy was asleep and I had told Henry to let her sleep beside me and when he placed her beside me, I felt complete and was alre-ady feeling asleep and before I knew it, I was fast asleep.
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I was lying on a be-d, a small screen In front of my face, Henry and Tina standing beside me, and behind them was Tinaâs mom.
A nurse stood in front of me and beside the screen and she ru-bbe-d something cold on my almost hvge belly that made me shiver.
âItâs cold isnât it?â the nurse smiled at me.
âYeah,â I laughed. And sli-pped my hand into Henryâs hand and he held me ti-ghter.
âOkay⊠Watch the screen!â the nurse announced and everyone turned to the screen.
âThis is your second sÂŁnogram isnât it?â the nurse asked me and I nodded happily.
Something grey appeared on the screen and and a moving dot. âThatâs your baby!â the nurse smiled at me.
âWhat? I donât see anything!â Henry said looking at the screen.
The nurse drew a diagram on the screen describing how itâs my baby and showed me it heartâs beat, though I didnât get the picture. I was relieved.
âI still donât see anything!â Henry said.
âMe too!â Tina shrugged.
âIâll be outside children. Come meet me when everything is over!â Tinaâs mother said coldly and I frownedâŠ
Somehow she didnât like me being pregnant
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Suddenly the scene changed and I saw myself crying ban-ging a door, pleading for anyone to let me out.
âAunt plea-se,âŠ. plea-se donât do this to me!â.
âAunt plea-se⊠Not my baby⊠AuntâŠAunt.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!â I yelled and immediately everything went blank.
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I woke up breathing heavily and the first person I saw was Tina and her mom.
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