By Amah’s Heart
I double tapped at the door. The house was quiet, might be there was nob©dy at home. I tapped again for the last time no respond. As I was about to turn and start going, the door was opened. Kuria was looking all fresh, he was smelling of aloe vera soap, he was on Jean sh0t and a lakers singlet.
He looked surprise to see me, I smiled and he smiled back.
“What are you doing here Joda… Mmmh.. I’m surprised to see you, hope everything is alright.. Are you okay… How’s your husband… Do you come with your friend Binta? …oh..my bad.. plea-se forgive my manners… Come inside…
I wanted to decline the invitation to go in because of what happened the last time, but the invitation was tempting and I stepped into his warm house…I really loved his place.. Before he could even offer me a seat, I had alre-ady sat down, he sat in another chair.
“I was just getting off from the bathroom when I heard a knock. I quic-kly rushed up and got dressed before coming to the door. My teenage boy that stays with me has gone to school.
“A teenage boy… I thought you stay alone here?
“No…Jude is the little boy that has being staying with me for almost six years, there are two of them, Jude and Mera. Mera is a girl she’s fifteen now. I also took her from the Street, she was just 9 years then and Jude was so little, looking malnourished when I picked him from the street. Homeless little beggar, they don’t have parents so I have being taking care of them since then till d@t£ and they are turning out fine.. If school is on holiday that’s only when you will see them. Mera is in girls boarding school and will soon be done with high school, Jude is just thirteen, they are doing good…and I feel so proud when I check their results. You will get to meet them someday…so what can I offer you?… What of your friend Binta? The last time I asked her of you, she said you are happily living the live you have always wanted and she’s no more important… She sound so worried about you whenever I ask of you… She comes around with her man, James sometimes… I love having and hosting them. Binta is a nice person and she cares about you more than you can imagine… And me too Joda. So what can I offer you plea-se? I have different types of smoothy, and fruit jui-ce, so what or do you want to serve yourself…
“Aaah…I’m fine Kuria, thanks. I thought I could find Binta here…I will be on my way thank you for your time..I will call her on phone…
Instead of standing up and going, I just sat there as if my bu-ttock is super glued to the chair. He sat there looking at me before saying…
“Joda, Mumm.. I…I..plea-se come around sometime, I’m still your friend, forgive me for what happened the last time, it will never happen again. I respect ladies a lot, both married and single and I’m really sorry my feelings explode. I couldn’t get hold of it, unlike me but I promise it won’t happen again. Don’t be scared of me, if you are not comfortable coming alone then come with someb©dy, Binta or anyb©dy, even your husband… plea-se..
“Yeah, me too.. I’m also sorry for hitting you…but is all in the past now, I will be going now… My husband will be expecting me back… plea-se I will give you a call on when to start the interior deco. I haven’t forgotten but I’m yet to speak with my hubby about it..
We were quite for sometime as we looked at each other shyly. The temperature in the cold room was turning h0t again. I started wondering what was it with this Kuria that made my heart beat so fast despite I’m married to Denis, the only man I loved, but Kuria confused my feelings. I didn’t know how to define what exactly I felt for Kuria. It could just be a mere attra-ction. de-ep down, I knew there’s more to it. I quic-kly stood up and went straight to the door, as I said within myself, “devil not today “you can’t tempt me with Kuria again, I’m a married Woman…
He walked behind me. As I opened the door, I saw Binta coming down from James car, they both c@m£ to Kuria’s place and was shocked to see me ther. Before they could say anything, I quic-kly started talking before they wiuld as-sume the worst of me or Kuria.
Binta looked at me and didn’t smile back as I smiled to her, instead she held my hand like a child and drag me in side Kuria’s house, leaving the men outside. As we were out of sight, she asked me to start talking why I’m looking for her after I almost fought her because of Denis.
She said it with a mean face, she asked if anyone hurts me.
I told her about the slee-ping dose and Denis constant threat over property and the rest. She swung into action and said I should install a CCTV c@m£ra in the house. All over the house and I should do it when there was nob©dy in the house, so that we coulf catch the culprit. I took the advice, because I nee-d all the advice I could get no. She said first thing first, let’s handle the issue with the slee-ping dose in my jui-ce. She told me not to take the drink when I’m served Rather I should find away to throw it off in to my toilet and made them believe I drank it. Then I should just pretend to be asleep as usual and see what happens next.
I took Binta’s advice this time because she began to sound right to me. I knew I could always count on her. Normally I planned to start taking my jui-ce and food by myself, I couldn’t trust anyb©dy again in that house except my Denis, but Binta was right when she ask me to pretend to be asleep, acting as if the drink I took was having effect on me.
As evening was approaching, I told my girls to get my drink to my room as usual. I said it in the pres£nce of Denis and Vanessa who were sitting close by. I went back to my room and waited, after sometime, Vanessa c@m£ with the tray containing the jui-ce, so I was served the drink by Vanessa who was filled with mischievous smile. I smiled back to her while also saying my thanks. She sat with me and we talked for sometime before she left.
She urged me to take my cold drink before it gets warm and I told her I would like it warm today. She said okay before finally leaving my room. When I was sure she was gone, I quic-kly rush to my toilet and poured the drink before flushing it off. I returned back to be-d. Vanessa later c@m£ again and asked if I nee-ded more, I said I was fine with the one I had taken alre-ady. She flashed a smile before leaving with the tray and cu-p.
I later l@ydown and pretend to be asleep, she c@m£ and wave her hand to my face, to make sure I was de-eply asleep. This looked like a normal practice for her, she whispered to someb©dy who was close by, “She has pas-sed out”, and the voice that replies her “very good” was Denis. I was shocked and become more troubled. What could Denis be planning with Vanessa, that they had been drugging me to achieve? Oh my God…
I silently l@ythere like dead log…The next unbelievable thing happened which almost make me to break out of the pretense, but I stayed put. Binta has warned me never to stand up no matter what I see or hear and I did exactly that.
But I so much wish I was alre-ady dead, I wish I can even bur-st out crying as they went about their plan unknown to them, I was fully awake.
“You know I truly love you Van, what is the problem today…are you mad at me..I’m sorry..what is the problem?…
“I warned you not to t©uçh her yesterday you still went ahead, and I didn’t enjoy you the way I supposed to…
“C’mon Van, I thought I have alre-ady said I was sorry. I can’t avoid tou-ching her, Joda is my wife for now. We both got planned and I want her to take in, once she conceived I will st©p tou-ching her. A baby in her, will break her down and perfect our plans. I know what I’m doing my love, just give me time, gradually, I’m not rushing up things plea-se allow me to take my time, you are the only one I love. You know that my feelings for you can’t be compared with what I have for Joda. I married her for a reason which you are also aware. Once I perfect everything, we will be together forever. plea-se let’s work together in this. I nee-d you close by, that’s why I always hush her whenever she comes up with you going back to your place or my clos£ness with you. You matter most to me than anything in the world. I love you so much Van…plea-se k!ss me..plea-se…st©p turning your face..I don’t like it I nee-d you Van..
“So is this how we will be drugging her every night to be able to be together. We have to drug her first, so that we can have enough time for ourselves.. I want to have you all to myself. As much as I agreed to this marriage plans, I’m beginning to regret it, because without her pas-sing ou, we can’t be together. Denis put yourself in my shoes, how will you feel if you are the one..is not fair on me…I hate to share, and the imbecile Joda doesn’t really like me. She prefers her Binta friend, but I noticed she’s beginning to trust me and when I engage her into a conversation, she seems to enjoy it. First thing first, I have won her trust…gradually we will win over everything… But I wish me and you will go over to my place or lodge in a h0tel so that we can have enough time for ourselves…
“Van, I can’t take any chance plea-se, I don’t want to be implicate. I’m trying to pl@ysafe and be very careful. Joda is de-eply in love with me, and she does whatever I ask of her, she’s naive and stupid, so I try to make her believe I love her Even though when I’m with her all I think about is you…just you van… I so much wish everything is re-ady for me and you to be together but is going to take time, just a little more patient and we will both celebr@te…plea-se My love..
I started hearing there dirty mouth sound as they k!s. I was still lying down like a log of wood without moving listening to them and sometime opening my eyes small to glance at there wretched and ugly faces as they talk. My heart beat was sounding like a drum to my ears. I was frozen dead, h0t tears suddenly dropped down from my face with the way I was lying down it wouldn’t be noticed. Another h0t tears followed, heavy tears gathered in my eyes. I tried to blink it bac, but it rushed down like tap wate. I was hurting, broken and troubled. Everything sounded like a dream, but I was fully awake. How could this be, what did I do wrong? I still loved Denis. How could he do this? whaaat, oh my God! I wanted them to carry their cheating selves to another room, this is my room. There were several rooms they could do there sh!t. I didn’t want to hear again, my ears were filled up. I was tired of hearing them, I bec@m£ scared of what they would say nex. I didn’t want to hear the one that would finally kill me.
Cough held my thought, I desperately wish to cough out, but I held it as it sto-red up in my throa. One of them threw something to my face, I gradually opened my eyes a little and it was Vanessa’s br. I looked at them, h0t r0mance was really going on, I quic-kly sh0t my eye. I would never forget the picture of both of them. When I couldn’t bear it any longer, I was feeling choked up, I made a sound, and surprisingly coughed out. My eyes was still sh0t as I stretched my b©dy, I pretended to be having night mare.
“Oh my God! Is she awake? She can’t wake up, I double dose her. I poured all the last content, ma-king it a double dose. She wasn’t even supposed to make a noise until tomorrow, something is wrong Denis. Check if she’s awake. plea-se re-move my br@ from her, I’m scared of getting clos. She looks shrived unlike other days..plea-se take off my undies from her face Denis..
“Relax Van, she’s asleep, she can’t possibly be awake, she drank all the content, but don’t overdose her next time, put the normal quantity. You will buy another one tomorrow, don’t panic my love, the over dose is taking effect on her, is stronger than the normal, plea-se next time put the normal dose.. Let me get your br@ so that we can move to another room..
He collected the br@ and I gently opened my right eye that I covered with my hands and saw Vanessa’s dangling brea$t as she stood trying to dress up. I closed my eyes back. Denis called my name severally and even shook my b©dy just to as-sure Vanessa that I wasn’t awake but the over dose was taking effect on me. When she was cal, Denis k!$$£d her before they moved out, closing the door behind them as they left. I breathed a sigh of relief, I finally opened My eyes, I wept bitterly, I wept uncontrollable, silent weeping, I couldn’t sleep. I was scared to sleep, I kept on watching the wall clock until it finally ch!pped 6am. I was still lying down when Denis c@m£ in and l@ydown beside me, pretending as if he spent the night with me. When my wall clock chirped 6:30am, I stretched and opened my eyes, he was lying down looking up the ceiling. He turned and greeted me with a smile, and try to draw me close to him, just as usual. I shrugged and smile, and stood up, he c@m£ to hold me from behind k!ssing my n£¢k I gently pushed him off and entered the bathroom,
I was trying to maintain my cool, I so much wanted to bounce on him, tear him into pieces, burn down the house and anyone in it. I so much wanted to kill him and Vanessa but wisdom kept me calm. I got to be wise and act foolish to them.
Let’s pl@ythis game, I love games and this game with Denis and Vanessa would be an interesting one, and I’m fully in. Denis is my husband, the love of my live, I gave it all to him and he thrashed me like a dirt. I would pl@ythis game well with them. Thank God for Binta’s advice.
Before I would quic-kly melt in his arms once he t©uçhed me and I know he would be surprised that I resisted him. How could Denis do this to me? I trusted him, my father also trusted him. How could he proudly be cheating on me with my so-called friend?
First of all, I would also cheat on him. I would frustrate him in this life that he would regret coming into my life to mess up. I know who to use to cheat on him.
I quic-kly dress up, he has alre-ady sle-pt off.
I could now see why he sle-pt every morning. After having all night with Vanessa, he would come to me in the morning, double portion for him. Hmmm, he actually thoughts he was smart. Let’s see what would happen.
I dressed up and left that morning. I drove straight to Kuria’s place that morning. I woulf do exactly what my b©dy has being wanting to do all this while, revenge is sweet
I wiuldl do it and ru-b it on Denis face. I drove angrily to Kuria’s place.