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💗Billionaire’s Crush💗💗💗
💘💘💘Love me without Lies💘💘💘
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♥️♥️Chapter 4
I opened my eyes to see Erica shaking me. I took in my surroundings and realized I wasn’t in my room.
“Where am I ?” I asked groggily.
“You don’t remember last night?” She asked looking distraught.
I shook my head which was pounding as I tried to remember when it all c@m£ rushing back to me.
“Oh gosh! I think I’m gonna be sick.”
I got up and looked around and saw an adjoining door and ran right in, saw the toilet and fell humbly before it puking my stomach out.
Erica c@m£ in the bathroom holding my clothes which caused me to acknowledge that I was stark n-ked.
I rinsed my mouth and hurriedly put my clothes on. I felt so stupid. Richa-rd wasn’t even here with me. He probably just left after getting what he wanted and went on with the next girl. I don’t know why I was so stupid to think I was different after everything he said, now it was all clear that it was just a game to him.
“Where is Richa-rd ? I asked Erica.
“I have no clue. We c@m£ to get you last night so we could leave after Lucas told us that you went upstairs with Richa-rd . Daniel showed me to Richa-rd ‘s room so I could get you, but you were screaming too loud for him not to st©p and I didn’t want a death wish, I didn’t break the door. We were all hanging out downstairs until we just fell asleep. I just woke up and checked the time. I called your dad and told him you were at my house and you were slee-ping. But we nee-d to go now or you might miss your flight, I haven’t seen Richa-rd .” She explained.
So Richa-rd really did sle-pt with me and just left. I feel so cheap right now. I hung my head and walked straight to the car ignoring the twins as they tried to get my attention.
I st©pped dead in my tracks at the sight before me as soon as I walk out onto the driveway.
Richa-rd was standing next to the pas-s£nger side of a car with no shi-t, swim trunks ri-ding low and the school who-re had her arms around his n£¢k and herl-ips plastered his.
I saw him pu-ll back after what felt like forever and she looked at me and saw me staring at them mouth wi-de open.
Who knew she had the power to shatter my world with five simple words.
“You were amazing this morning.” She said before she sli-pped in the car and her friend drove away.
I stood there too shock to move even though I knew Erica and Sabrina’s were behind me. Richa-rd would turn around at any moment.
“Anna, let’s go. You don’t deserve this.” Erica said angrily yanking me in the direction of Sabrina’s car.
But before she had even finished talking to me, Richa-rd turned around dragging his hand throu-gh his hair upon hearing my name. I saw him at me but then it must have dawned on him that I saw the and heard what happened as I was still in a state of shock and being yanked away by a crazed Sabrina because his expression fell, he mutter really loud something that sounded like ‘fv¢k’ and then he started running towards me.
We all got into the car and locked the doors. Sabrina started the car as he got to the window and started ban-ging on it.
“Anna do you want to talk to him or I should just run this bastard over? ” Sabrina asked, clearing no longer team Richa-rd .
I snapped out of my shock the last time he ban-ged because it was so loud and told her to roll my window down.
He started talking really fast begging me not to leave and telling me he nee-ded to explain what I saw but before he could go any further I put my hand up st©pping him. I won’t listen to any of his sweet talk anymore.
After waiting since freshman year to get my chance with him knowing he loved using women, I just thought when I got a chance it would be different.
Yeah! Poor stupid little naive Ariana!
“plea-se shut up and just listen to me. Last night was a mistake. I regret it all and ever meeting you. You are the worst person ever and I pray you burn in hell for the way you treat women. If I ever set my eyes on you, it will be too soon. Sabrina go.”
With that we drove out of Richa-rd residence.
What was I thinking? That a pla-yboy will change if I gave him S-x? Once a pla-yboy, always a pla-yboy!
Sabrina and Erica both gave me worried glances as I sat in the back hoping the seat would swallow me. They both tried to talk to me on the way home but I just felt that i was so used and dirty.
I don’t know why, but I just expected more from Richa-rd after all the things he said last night. It felt like my heart was breaking into pieces.
When sabrina pu-ll-ed up outside my house, we all got out to say our goodbyes. Sabrina hvgged me first and I held onto her so ti-ght.
“I’m going to miss you Ariana. I wish we were all going to the same university. I’m going to come and visit you guys during Thanksgiving break. But that will take a long time. ” she started to cry and Erica c@m£ and hvgged us both and we all cried together.
“I’m going to miss you more sabrina. Well Skype everyday, I promise. Erica I’ll miss you until I see you in August. I love you so much.” I hvgged them a couple more times and they told me they loved me before they left.
[Background music]
🎼🎼🎼 You must think that I’m stupid
You must think that I’m a fool
You must think that I’m new to this
But I have seen this all before
I’m never gonna let you close to me
Even though you mean the most to me
‘Cause every time I open up, it hurts
So I’m never gonna get too close to you
Even when I mean the most to you
In case you go and leave me in the dirt
But every time you hurt me, the less that I cry
And every time you leave me, the quic-ker these tears dry
And every time you walk out, the less I love you
Baby, we don’t stand a chance, it’s sad but it’s true
I’m way too good at goodbyes
(I’m way too good at goodbyes)
I’m way too good at goodbyes
(I’m way too good at goodbyes)
I know you’re thinking I’m heartless
I know you’re thinking I’m cold
I’m just protecting my innocence
I’m just protecting my soul
I’m never gonna let you close to me
Even though you mean the most to me
‘Cause every time I open up, it hurts
So I’m never gonna get too close to you
Even when I mean the most to you
In case you go and leave me in the dirt
But every time you hurt me, the less that I cry
And every time you leave me, the quic-ker these tears dry
And every time you walk out, the less I love you
Baby, we don’t stand a chance, it’s sad but it’s true
I’m way too good at goodbyes
(I’m way too good at goodbyes)🎶🎶🎶
It been two months now since I moved to new York. I never heard from Richa-rd after that night, but I still think about him. It was ha-rd not to, considering he was my first of many things.
Erica was still hanging out with Daniel last time I checked and told me that Richa-rd had left to his family house in LA alre-ady,since he was going to school there.
Daniel and Dennis were both twenty- one and were s£niors attending school in California. Erica told me one night when we were on skype. I’m not sure how she and Daniel are going to work out since she was moving to newyork today. She will be staying with my mom and I until we move into the dorms on campus in the next three weeks.
My mom was going to Pick Erica up from the airport on her way home from work, since Erica’s flight was scheduled to arrive around that time.
We were living in a four be-droom ap@rtment on the upper west side. Living here was totally different from living in north California. There was always something going on, people on the move, traffic and great sto-res. I haven’t fully learned my way around the city as yet, but plan to explore it more with Erica once she gets here.
Since this was a new beginning, I felt like changing something with myself. Starting with how I dress, I refused to hide my curvy figure and my bo-ob s seem to have been growing lately. My mom took me shopping last week and I had so much fun embr@cing myself.
As I’m sitting there waiting, I hear the front door unlock and I run to meet Erica. I misses both her and Sabrina so much and it hasn’t even been that long.
“Erica!” I squealed jumping on her.
She giggled and hvgged me back.
“Ariana! Can you plea-se allow us come in first?” My mother hissed.
I walk over and k!$$£d her on the cheek.
“Yeah, yeah, love you too.” I said before I gr@bb£d Erica and dragged her off go my room.
I looked her over and smiled. Ever since that p@rty it’s like we all found ourselves. Erica wasn’t looking nerdy like we all used to, she was looking rather h0t. Yeah, Daniel was definitely good for her ego.
We spent the entire time talking and catching up,even though we skyped everyday we are ap@rt.
The next three weeks went by in a flash as we spent them shopping for our dorm room and moving in.
During that time, I st©pped thinking about Richa-rd and wrote him off as a past mistake. Every time I thought about him, I just become so angry and heartbroken all over again.
I don’t consider that feeling to be healthy, so I just find things to occu-py my mind and go back to my life before him.
Billionaire’s Crush💗💗💗
Chapter 5
“Anna? What is wrong? You didn’t made it to English clas-s this morning. I have been texting and calling you. I figured I would come and check on you before I go for my next clas-s. Are you still feeling like cra-p?” Erica asked leaning forward and checking my temperature by feeling my forehead with the back of her hand.
I gro-an ed and turned over, pu-lling the sheet over my head and facing the wall.
“I really think you should go and see the doctor. You’re a bit warm and you have been like this for three days now. You haven’t been eating. I am not taking no for an answer, I think you might be coming down with a flu. ” Erica cooed at me softly.
I couldn’t even get angry at her.
“OK.” I agreed.
I got up and dressed. Erica made an appointment with a doctor and called a cab for us.
When we got to the doctor’s office, there was only one person ahead of me. While she went into to see the doctor, the nurse had me fill out of all the paper work, checked my weight, height, blood pressure and took blood from my f!nger.
Fifteen minutes later, the nurse s£nt me back to see the doctor.
“Good afternoon ladies. My name is doctor Luke.” He said extending his hand to both Erica and I as we introduce ourselves.
He told Erica to have a seat in the corner and for me to l@yon the examination table so he could examine me.
He checked my eyes and asked about how I had been slee-ping, he t©uçhed areas of my b©dy and asked if they hurt. I felt like my entire b©dy was aching so everywhere he t©uçhed I told him hurt.
Don’t think I was much help there.
The nurse c@m£ in and brou-ght my chart and handed it to him.
He re-ad it over and asked when was the last time I had my period?
I told him I wasn’t sure because I had an irregular cycle sometimes it c@m£ twice in a month and sometimes it doesn’t come for a month or two.
“OK Ms. Harrison, take this cu-p in the bathroom and pee inside of it. Once you’re finished, you can bring it back and put it on the station over there.” He instructed.
I looked at Erica nervously as I walked to the bathroom because I had no clue of what was wrong with me.
After returning the cu-p to the station, I sat back on the examination table and watched as the doctor stuck some white looking things in my pee.
I couldn’t exactly see what was it from where I was sitting.
Ewwwwh! Just yucky! I thought.
“So there is a good news and bad news. Which would you like to hear first?” He questioned.
“Bad!” Erica answered.
“The bad news is, you’re anemic and your iron level is low. So I will prescribe iron supplements for you to take and also seemed dehydrated and your blood sugar is Low. Now for the good news, congratulations you are pregnant. I also prescribe-d prenatal vitamins for you to take as well. The nurse will give you a sheet when you are leaving with referrals to obstetricians in the area. You nee-d to eat and drink lots of water.” He was talking and I was dying slowly inside with each word.
How could this have happened?
I was so smart but yet so stupid.
I collected the papers from the nurse and we got a cab back to school.
Erica must have realized that I didn’t want to talk because she just held my hand in support the entire time not saying a word but I knew she wouldn’t be able to hold back for long.
As soon as we made it back to our dorm she asked.
“Anna what are we going to do?”
“I have no idea. I dreamed of having children in the late future, maybe one or two, but not now. I can’t drop out of school Eri! I have no Monet to raise a child. I am still dependent on my parents. And Richa-rd , I was only a one night stand. He has never even called me since I left! How am I to tell him that I am pregnant all of a sudden? Oh gosh,my parent will be so disappointed!” I started to cry really ha-rd .
“I can’t have an ab-ortion Erica! I can’t! It’s not right and I don’t think I am br@ve enough to give my child up for an adoption and still live with myself. But how am I going to raise a baby…..”
Erica enveloped me in her arms as I cried.
“It is going to be okay, I promise. I am going to be here with you no matter what. I just think you nee-d to tell Richa-rd , he nee-ds to know. I can get his number from Daniel if you want.” She reasoned.
After I st©pped crying, puking my guts out and calmed down, I agreed to call him.
I put the phone on speaker so that Erica could hear as well.
“Hello!” A female voice said throu-gh the phone.
“Hello!” She answered again After no response.
Erica saw that I wasn’t going to respond so she took the phone from my hand.
“Hi! Can you kindly give the phone to Richa-rd ?” Erica asked.
“And whom may I say is calling? ”
Erica rolled her eyes at the phone.
“It’s Erica. A friend of a friend. ”
“Well I don’t know a Erica. You’re probably a past fv¢k trying to put your claws back in my man. I’ll advise you not to call this number again. “She said and hung up.
” what a bit-ch! Forget her and Richa-rd ! I want nothing to do with him anymore. plea-se don’t tell Daniel that I am pregnant or anyone else except of sabrina. I’m going to go schedule an appointment for the OBGYN and prepare how I’m going to tell my mom, who I know will tell my dad. ” I told Erica as I went and shut myself in the bathroom and cried my heart out with the shower running.
🎶 You promised the world and I fell for it
I put you first and you adored it
Set fires to my forest
And you let it burn
Sang off-key in my chorus
‘Cause it wasn’t yours
I saw the signs and I ignored it
Rose-colored glas-ses all distorted
Set fire to my purpose
And I let it burn
You got off on the hurtin’
When it wasn’t yours, yeah
We’d always go into it blindly
I nee-ded to lose you to find me
This dance, it was killing me softly
I nee-ded to hate you to love me, yeah
To love, love, yeah
To love, love, yeah
To love, yeah
I nee-ded to lose you to love me, yeah
To love, love, yeah
To love, love, yeah
To love, yeah
I nee-ded to lose you to love me
I gave my all and they all know it
Then you to-re me down and now it’s showing
In two months, you replaced us
Like it was easy
Made me think I deserved it
In the thick of healing, yeah
We’d always into it blindly
I nee-ded to lose you to find me
This dance, it was killing me softly
I nee-ded to hate you to love me, yeah🎶🎶🎶
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My parents were disappointed to put it mildly.
My dad went of the hinge threatening to kill the bastard who did this to me. I refused to tell him who the father was until he calmed down.
My mom was the total opposite. She was calm but the expression on her face was pained.
We talked about what was going to happen. She told me I would have to get a job and start saving to raise this baby on my own since I didn’t want to include the father.
She didn’t agree with my decision but still supported me, saying she and my dad would help as much as they could, because at this point it was too late for anything else but acceptance of the fact.
My tummy was starting to grow and round slightly,so I only wore loose t©ps. So it not that obvious.
Today was my first appointment where I was going to have a sonogram done since I was alre-ady so far along based on my calculation of the night had sle-pt with the bastard.
My mom had decided that she would take me and then drop me back off at my dorm, even though she was disappointed, she had become overly protective and I think that she was kind of happy because she would refer to the baby as her grandchild and all the stuff she wanted to give to the baby.
My mom had wanted four children ,but the doctor had told her that she would not be able to have children.
She bec@m£ pregnant with me and against the doctor’s order decided to keep me because her and dad thought I was a miracle after years of trying.
Well she almost lost me as well as her life during child labor.
Dad told her he refused to ever go throu-gh that again and he was happy with only me.
So they never tried again out of fear even though they wanted a large family.
I think she is secretly happy but will never admit it. I was expecting her to yell, throw abusive words in my face, disown me….but she didn’t. I really messed up and I am totally disappointed with myself. I made a mistake and others should learn from it. If it were other parent, I know what they might have done. Either f0rç£ the girl for an ab-ortion or neglect her. I am greatful for the kind of parent I have.
Anyways, we decided it would be best to finish the semester and then take the rest of my clas-ses online until my baby was born.
Mom said I could turn the guest be-droom into a nursery, which was a relief to me because I thought she was going to tell me that I would nee-d a place of my own.
We made it to the doctor’s office just in time for my appointment. Mom filled out all the paper work and then we went back to have the sonogram done.
Dr.Victoria introduced herself and then instructed me to l@ydown and pu-ll my shi-t up.
As I was doing that, she asked when my last period was.
“I have no idea, but I am positive that this happened on July 24! ” I told her, waving my hand on my stomach.
She told me she was about to ru-b some gel on my stomach and it would be cold.
It sure enough was.
Then she started to ru-b the probe on my stomach and suddenly I heard a swishing sound and looked up at the monitor.
Then I heard the heart beat.
At that moment I promised myself that I would protect the baby with everything in me.
“You are twenty weeks pregnant. Do you want to know the S-x of your baby?” She asked.
I looked at my mom holding my hand and she had tears in her eyes. I don’t know if I want to know the gender of my baby, but then again it wouldn’t hurt if I find out.
“Sure.” I said
My mom laughed and I looked at her quizzically.
“Oh hunny! I was hoping you would say yes. ” she answered knowing what I was thinking.
“This one right here, Baby A.” Dr.Victoria said tou-ching a small shape on the monitor.
“Is a boy, he turned showing himself to the world. I can’t tell at this point what the other one is, baby B is turned facing away and the first one is half way blocking the view. I think this guy will be very confident, he seem to love all the attention alre-ady.” Doctor Victoria laughed.
I g@sped and took a de-ep breath.
“T…twins? You mean..I am having twins?” I stuttered.
I didn’t know how to feel. I was having all these mixed emotion. Just seeing my baby or should I say babies on the monitor just made it more real to me. I loved them alre-ady but I just didn’t know how to feel about two, one alone was going to be ha-rd enough work.
“Yes. You are having twins! I am surprise you aren’t a little bit bigger to be carry twins but they are perfectly healthy. Maybe it because you have been throwing up frequently, I will prescribe some medicine to take in the morning to ease the nausea so you can keep your food down and keep them well nourished. The morning sickness should pas-s soon and by the way your expected d@t£ is April 27. Congratulations!” She smiled down at me.
I think my mom forgot to be disappointed because she was smiling and left the room to call my dad.
I will never un-derstand those two. I think they love each other but they are just a bit confused or going throu-gh a midlife crisis. But if it takes these babies to bring them back together, then I will really consider that another blessing because I really hated having my parents ap@rt. I missed my dad.
Mom was so excited that she took me shopping for some maternity clothes before taking me back to school.
On the way back, I saw a hiring sign board in the window of a new restaurant across the street from the campus.
I had my mom drop me there so that I could fill out an application. I was going to nee-d all the money I could get to raise two kids as a single mom. I refuse to be one of those young parent’s who got knocked up and expected their parent to take care of their kids.
I turned the application over to the manager and he looked it over and asked if I could start tomorrow.
I gladly accepted.
At least something was going right!
But I would only keep the job until the semester was over and I move back home. Then I would have to find a job within close walking distance because I didn’t want to ride the bus and train back and forth everyday with a hvge stomach and I didn’t have a car.
Sabrina c@m£ for thanksgiving to visit.
Erica was also staying with us. Ever since she moved to New York, my mom made the second guest be-droom hers. That where she stayed whenever we aren’t in our dorms.
We went shopping with some of the money I had been saving from all my pay checks, but not before investing in a affordable SUV. I was surely going to nee-d a car to carry these babies around.
When I say affordable, I meant old. But it was enough to get from point A to point B and had the space I nee-ded. That’s all that mattered to me.
We bought a lot of blue and yellow for the other twin who is hiding. We also decorated the nursery with a blue, green, brown and yellow safari theme since it’s uniS-x.
My dad bought two cribs and had them sh!pped to me. My grandparents s£nt a changing table and rocking chair and my mom has been going crazy with clothes, so she ended up buying two che-st to sto-re all the clothes.
My babies weren’t even here yet and they were so loved. That is all I wanted. They will be fine without Richa-rd .
Just thinking about him would make me sad and feel heart broken all over again. But how can my heart break again if it’s alre-ady broken? I was swimming in a pool of emotions. I blame my hor-mones.
“So what do you plan to tell my god children when they ask about their dad? ” Sabrina question.
It’s something I have been thinking about. Maybe that he got hit by a bus? Ran over by a train? Jumped off a cliff? I am not going to tell them he only use people and only care about himself.
“I don’t know yet. I do not want to lie to them. I won’t let that bother me. They just kids, I won’t ruin their innocence. When they are older, I will tell them about it. They can choose if they want him in their lives or not. But while they are still kids, I will shelter them from any hurt I know he can cause them. He’s also super wealthy just in case you forgot. What happens if he finds out about how I intend struggling to fend for them? He can easily take them away from me. ” I told her and Erica.
“I agree.” Sabrina said.
“But Erica what happened between you and Daniel?” She asked being nosey as always.
Erica shrugged.
“I think she st©pped talking to him because if he finds out about my babies,he will tell Richa-rd for sure. But I told her not to worry about me. How can she ruin her relationsh!pbecause of me!” I explained to sabrina but looked at Erica.
“It doesn’t matter now, does it? And I didn’t do it for you! I did it for my god babies. ” Erica said with an attitude.
“Have you thought of names yet?” Sabrina asked.
“Just a couple. For boys Casper, Lucas, Roland, Raymond and isreal. For girls I like Cas-sandra, Lilian, rain, Isabella and Irene. ” I told them.
“I vote roland and Rain. I think the other one is a girl that’s why she was hiding, not as c0cky as her brother. ” Erica said as we all laughed.
“Well if it’s two boys I like isreal and Ishmael. If it is a boy and a girl, ishmeal and Isabella is adorable. ” Sabrina told me.
“Well I still have all of March left to think about it.” I said not wanting to stress about names.
TBC