🔥ATTITUDE
MEETS
ARROGANCE🔥
©Fideh
Episode 29
Ciara’s POV
Without explaining himself, he gr@bb£d my hand and walked me out of the club…
“Till when will you break my heart?” He asked…
“Jordan, you can’t drag her out like that….We were only having fun…”Jaxon opened his big mouth…
“Shut up, this is between my wife and I…” He opened the pas-s£nger door for me, helped me get inside and buckled my seatbelt…
He jogged to the other side, slide into his seat, buckled the seatbelt the we drove off…
I wanted to say alot on his face but chose to remain quiet…He was driving in a supersonic speed and I was afraid for our lives…
When we arrived at the house, he gr@bb£d my hand again and walked me upstairs ignoring the questions from his mother and grandmother..
“Ciara, what’s wrong with you????” He pinned me at the door the moment we got into our room..
“Why do you hurt me like this????” He asked…
How could I tell him it wasn’t intentionally…
“You are a married woman and there you are clubbing and been cosy with him…”
He slammed the door and I flin-ched…
“I was never an angry soul, an arrogant man but once love has gone it takes hold fas-ter than you could ever imagine…” He moved back and turned the other direction…
I wanted to say something, sooth his soul but all I could do is remain silent…
“I gave her everything but she still left. My dad meant the world to me and he was snatched from me. I am not strong, I also nee-d love and support once in a while. I know I should be the foundation for this family but I am still human…I get hurt…” He continued…
“How can I do it when I keep losing everything I love???”
Was I a bad person??? My heart was heavy with guilt and sob….I am selfish, instead of trying to find out what made him turn out the way he was I was busy condemning him..
What right did I have??? I am also a broken being. My dad disowned me, my sister hates me and I can’t be with the man I love…
If the kind of pain I feel is what he also feels then all I can do is be there for him…
“Jordan???” I twisted him around to face me and his face was we-t with untold tears… Seeing him like that s£nt my br@in into shut down mode…
“Am so sorry….”
“Don’t pity me Ciara…” He looked down…
“I am not pitying you. I know how it feel having the whole world against you..I know how the world comes crumbling down when you lose people you love. You have been mean to me but you are still human…”
“Do you care for a drink right now???” He chuckled…
“Yeah, whisky…”
“Let me call Caro to bring us some….”
We sat on the floor by the be-d sipping our whisky all in silent…
“I know it was wrong for me to drag you out of there like that but I can’t help be mad…” He confessed..
“Maybe it’s time I get used to the term being a married woman…”
“Am I a horrible person????”
I turned to him and looked de-ep into his eyes, “You are not…”
“But I have been mean to you.” Tears fell fas-ter as the fall rain…
I cu-mpped his face, wiped tears from his eyes with my thumbs and hvgged him…
“Yes but life moves on…all I can do is try being a good wife to you…”
I stood him up trying to get him to be-d but his hands reached my h!ps and gr!pp£dthem ti-ghtly, pu-lling my b©dy closer to his until he was satisfied….
“Every time I see you with Jaxon I get scared that you will also leave and the world will mock me again…My blood boils everytime you say you love him and I get jealous everytime your face glows when you see him…You never smile around me, I never make you happy. I know when you love someone you should let them go but am scared…”
How selfish can I be??? How heartless can I be??? I always wanted to make him feel awful by ru-bbing in how I loved his brother and instead of ma-king things better, I s£nt someone right into misery…
He was my husband and as his wife my role was to make him be a better man…I therefore take an oath to help Jordan heal and let go of all the bitterness and pain he is feeling…
He placed his forehead on mine and gently closed his eyes, “What can I do to make you happy???”
I was silent and speechless…One month ago I would have shouted that he gives me a divorce but after seeing the pain harboured inside him all i want is for him to be a better person…
“I know you feel disgusted by me, the way I am holding you and so I will just leave…”
He turned around and begun walking to the door and I was just there feeling like I had been held captive with imaginary chains…
I should reach out for him. I should be there for him when he nee-ds him the most..
He placed his hand on the door knob and that was it…
“Don’t go, I want you here beside me….”
He didn’t reply…
“I know I have been cruel and selfish but I don’t want you going throu-gh any other pain…I don’t want you living with this pain inside of you and that’s why I am re-ady to do everything for this marriage to work..I will stay away from Jaxon, Jordan…” I ran to him and hvgged him so ti-ght from behind…
“Don’t be scared, I will never leave you…I will be here for better for worse…”
I felt him place his hands on mine,”But you don’t love me???”
“All I can do is be there for you…”
“So you will never leave????”
“I promise….”
He turned around, his eyes all teary…His hands travelled down my arms ma-king their way to my w@!st as I wra-pped my hands around his n£¢k…
“Thank you…” He whispered..
“For what???”
“The watch, I am wearing it…”
True love is never easy…Maybe Jaxon and I weren’t meant to be together…I should embr@ce my reality and see where it takes me…
“Jordan, I will try being a good wife…We can first start by being friends…”
“It’s fine by me Mrs Marcias…” He pu-ll-ed his face closer to mine squashing whatever little space was between us..
When he was about to k!ssme I pu-ll-ed back…
“We should get some rest, we are so drun!kand I can feel our room spinning…”
As we were about to get into be-d, Jaxon and Mason slammed the door open…
“Jordan……”
He swallowed the rest of his words when he saw Jordan holding my hand…
Sorry my beloved but it’s time I stand with what was made my own…Maybe in the other life, you will be mine..
“Were you saying something???” Jordan asked after he noticed the blank look on Jaxon’s face…
“No, I guess I forgot where my room is…” He lied.
Mason had tucked hisl-ips in not to laugh ma-king the situation humourous.
“Goodnight lovebirds…” Mason shut the door..
“So with you sleep on the right or the left side of the be-d??”Jordan asked…
“I prefer the right….”
“plea-se I hope you bought a white night dress.”
“I don’t know for how long I can wear it. I love red…” I tea-sed and he just smiled…
We got into be-d, both of us facing opposite directions. I didn’t feel weird at all but minutes later I felt Jordan so close to me, his hand wra-pped around my w@!st.
It felt safe and soothing as my b©dy shivered from his t©uçh…
****
When we woke up, I was lying in his che-st…
I slowly stood up from the be-d but he pu-ll-ed me back to his che-st…
“Where do you think you are going????”
He was acting weird…
“You know how I want to k!ssyou so bad.Yesterday morning we were interrupted. I want to show you that I am not scared of you..” He begun lifting my night dress up that I shivered…
“Jordan, you are still drun!k…”
“No baby, I want to make love to you…” He begun trailing k!sses down my collarbone and by now my night dress was above my w@!st..
When he reached for my undies and wanted to pu-ll them down, I sold myself out…
“Sorry, I was just teasing you to make you suffer…”
“I knew it…” He jumped from the be-d and begun dancing, “So will you ever tease me again???”
I shook my head in disapproval.. We lost guys, he beat me into it…
“But you are the one ma-king the be-d…” I tried doing a break dance move..
He was almost saying something when he staggered and almost fell…
“Are you okay???” I ran to him, helping him get back to be-d..
“I just have a splitting headache….”
“Lying down, I will get something for you to eat…”
“You want to kill me…”
“Why should I kill you???”
“Because you like me…” He win-ked…
“I can’t even stand you Mr Marcias…”
When I was about to walk away, he held my hand…
“Ciara, I am so…oooo….” He was unable to say the word sorry..
“I am so..ooo..”
“Do you mean to say you are sorry????” I asked and he smiled…
“You are not forgiven until you say it to me…”
“Then I won’t…” He pu-ll-ed me that I fell on his che-st, ourl-ips ru-bbing each other as we got lost into each other’s eyes…
“Stay here with me my wife…”
****
Jordan’s POV
“Son whoever finds a good woman finds a good thing…”
I didn’t know the ess£nce of these words until I met Ciara…
I always wondered what my dad meant when he said whatever he has achieved is thanks to his wife…
Ciara was my inspiration and the love that grew de-ep inside me was the reason I want to always work ha-rd and give her the life she deserves..
I know I have trusted the wrong people, believed their promises, expected more than they could offer but yesterday I saw sincerity in her eyes…
Maybe being brutally honest was a good move to win her sympathy. Yes it sounds desperate but the mere thought of losing her would lead me to depression..
“Mr Marcias you nee-d be-d rest…The reason you felt dizzy is because of fatigue..” The doctor retorted..
“But I have an empire to run and CEOs don’t become successful lying in be-d…” I said angrily..
“So how will you run the business if you are dead??? Why are you so stubborn???” I could see my wife was losing her patience with me..
“Yes, the company wouldn’t go bankrupt just because you rested for two days or so…” The doctor added.
What do they know about running an empire??? One deals with clothes and the other just forcing busy people to rest.
“Doctor, let me walk you out…He is very stubborn…”
They both left and there I was alone talking to the pillows…
“What kind of a wife is she??? Instead of being here beside me she is busy walking the doctor out
. Doesn’t he know this house like his own???”
“How is my favourite grandson??? Here is some chicken soup to make you feel better…”
Granny sat beside me and Caro stood beside her with a bowl of soup on a tray…
“Granny, my wife could have come with the soup on her way here???”
“She said that I feed you. She has alot of work in the studio…”
I could feel flames of jealousy surrounding me.
. When was I going to be her priority??? She said she will always be by my side, where is she now???..
“I am not hungry…”I faced the other direction…
“My grandson, you nee-d the energy…”
“Granny don’t you know it’s bad luck to feed from your Granny’s hands when you have a wife…” I lied…
I would do anything to see her beside me every hour, every second and every moment..
“I have never heard of that…”
“My friend’s granny fed him and now he has no children..I don’t want not to have children…” I faked a sob.
“Ciara should then feed you, don’t feel bad..” Granny soothed me
“Caro go get her…” She ordered …
When Ciara walked inside the room she looked pissed. I know she didn’t want to be there but I wanted her to be there and that’s all that mattered…
“Granny, you s£nt for me???” She asked in a bored tone..
“It seems your husband wants to feed from your hand…” Granny sold me out..
“Granny, I don’t want her to feed me. I was just telling you about the bad luck that you were supposed to use???”
“I don’t un-derstand what you are saying.” And she left leaving me there looking like a fool.
“So you have decided to be a baby in a man’s b©dy???” She reprimanded..
Did she just insult me??? I thought we were good but now she is back with her attitude..
“If you don’t want to feed me fine. I will die of hunger…” I slid into the duvet and covered myself..
Why was I acting like a teenager in love??? Why couldn’t I st©p thinking about her???Why did I nee-d her in my life so bad???
“Fine..You can die….”
I heard her walking towards the door, she didn’t care…
“My head!!!!My head!!!” I begun crying out, tossing and tossing…
“Jordan, what’s wrong??? Are you okay???” She c@m£ running back
“I am hungry…” I stuttered, “And you don’t want to feed me…”
“Okay fine I will feed you.. ”
Just when she was about to feed me the first scope of soup, Jaxon walked in…
“Sorry, I thought you were in the studio…”
“It’s okay, would you mind feeding him???? I nee-d to go and finish up with the last outfit…”
I could see the glow in her eyes when she saw him…
“Anything for you…Go and wind up but don’t tire yourself or you will be the next to lie on this be-d…”
Ciara laughed at his statement as they both looked de-ep inside each other’s eyes…
For a moment there was silent between them as Jaxon’s hands were on Ciara’s who was holding the bowl…I felt like the third wheel…
“Hope you don’t have a hangover???” He asked.
“No, I feel sleepy thou…”
“Guys, this sick dude here nee-ds the soup..He is hungry…” I yelled snapping them from their little fantasy
“Sorry bro, we just talking business…”
Who was he fooling???He was openly flir-ting with my wife…
“I will get going..”
Ciara left the room and there was a weird silence between Jaxon and I.
It was like we wanted to tell each other something but didn’t know how to put it…
“Jordan I nee-d..”
“Jaxon I nee-d…”
We spoke up at the same time…
“Go first??” He insisted and I didn’t mind…
“Jaxon, I don’t like how close you are with Ciara…I have fallen so ha-rd for her and I don’t want anything messing that up. You said you don’t love her and so plea-se don’t raise her hopes up. Do this for me, brother to brother…”
Hearing my confession, I could see that his mood had changed…He looked angry…
“So what did you want to say???”
He didn’t reply, he was lost in thoughts…
“Jaxon???” I shook him by the shoulders…
“Yeah???”
“What did you want to say??”
“It doesn’t matter..Just get well…” He said angrily but calmly between his teeth..
The look in his face was enough to tell me he wasn’t plea-sed with the news…
“So will you help me win Ciara over???”
“As always, you happiness comes first…”
*****
It felt boring just lying in be-d like a beggar…
I wish Ciara was beside me to keep me company but no she rather plea-se Jaxon than be with me..
What did my brother have that I didn’t???
Just as I was thinking about her, she walked in humming and went straight to the closet..
She spent few minutes inside there and walked out of re-ady to leave me again…
“Don’t I mean anything to you???” I asked in a whisper st©pping her in her steps..
She turned around, “What are you talking about??? I promised I will be a good wife and try to make this marriage work but I didn’t mean always be there…”
“But I am freezing and this duvet is not helping…” I lied.
“Then let me add you another one…”
She really didn’t want to spend time with me….
“All I nee-d is you to sleep beside me for a while and then you can leave…”I pleaded
“But….”
“You can leave if you want to…” I turned the other side…
“I don’t know if you hit your head somewhere because since morning you are acting weird…”
I felt her get inside the duvet and sle-pt so close beside me…
I took her hand and wra-pped her arm around my w@!st…
When I turned around after hours and hours of slee-ping there she was still beside me…
I begun c*ressing her face admiring her beauty when my temptation bec@m£ unbearable and just as I was almost k!ss!ngher she jumped out of be-d..
“I knew it, you wanted to r*pe me…” She hissed…
“Who would r@p£ you???”
“You wanted to k!ssme as I was asleep…”
“No I just wanted to take something off your face…”
“You wanted to know howl-ips would feel on yourl-ips…”
Why did I have to be so careless, now she is going to tease me till eternity..
“I don’t want to k!ssyou, you are not even my type. I like yellowl-ips..”
She bent a bit as she drew closer and closer that I could feel shivers all over my b©dy…
She brou-ght herl-ips close to mine and i was re-ady for a k!ssuntil I felt a sl@p on the upside of my head…
“You are a fool to think I can k!ssyou…”
I was now ashamed to even be in love with her…
“Why sl@p me and I am sick???” I cried out .
“Sick people are in hospital be-ds not in be-d trying to steal a k!ssfrom slee-ping beauties…”
Without her noticing, I gr@bb£d her hand and pu-ll-ed her back to be-d…
“You will stay here with me till tomorrow.” I whispered..
“But I got work to do…”
I slide my hand down her w@!st and unZi-p her pair of jeans…
“It won’t hurt to miss a day. So behave or I will do something that will f0rç£ you to be stuck here with me till tomorrow. I am a beast Missy..” I win-ked…
“I would love to see you try…I also feel thirsty de-ep inside…” She took my hand and placed on on her tummy inside her T-shi-t..
Now I was the one scared, I was just pu-lling a stunt like in the morning..
“So do I take my br@ off or will you rip it out???”She looked de-ep inside my eyes, ru-bbing myl-ips…
“I think I nee-d some rest and so just go back to work am good…”
Damn, I almost lost control and r!pp£dthat br@ out.. Till when will she tempt me…
“Good choice…” She win-ked and gr@bb£d the Minnie me so ha-rd before leaving and left me feeling all zigzagging…
Now I un-derstand why men love bit-ches…They always put you in your place…