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“I accept!” I blurted
Neil seemed confused as he tilt his head slightly to the left.
I sighed and about to roll my eyes for his slow witted brain when he actually gasped.
“You accept my feelings for you?” he asked his eyes open all wide and excited.
“Yes!” I nodded.
Neil quickly rushed over to me and gave me a hug that took my feet off the floor.
“I don’t know… I Don’t know what to say” Neil breathed with a smile looking at me. “I mean you don’t even like me anymore.”
Yep he’s completely sober.
I smiled. “Well… Neil, life is too short to start thinking if we like this particular person or not and with the case of you and me, why not give it a go, back then I’ve always wondered what it was like to Neil, to date you, and now you have feelings for me, it’s all just so complicated and we have to be calculative, and we’re not teenagers anymore, neither should we act like them…” I paused and the guilty feeling dropped from my chest when Neil smile started to grow even more.
I continued anyways.
“I don’t know how I work Neil! What if, I don’t know, but what if my feelings are not all down the
Neil looked down and then back up at me. “What actually matters right now is that you accepted!” Neil smiled
His smile made me smile. “Okay honestly I haven’t been in a relationship before but I hope this one will be good!”.
Neil grabbed my hands. “Of course it will be!”
“And I do hope some feelings are actually clinging to the pipe!” Neil said and I smiled.
He bent down and gently kissed my cheek.
“Good night!” he smiled.
“Good night” I replied and start to walk inside.
I could tell he was watching me walk in but I didn’t want to turn.
“Yeah I’ll come see you tomorrow and you can’t say no!” I sighed and hanged up. Dropping my phone on my drawer.
Just finished having a conversation with my mom telling her why I didn’t come to the hospital, she didn’t even want me to come, she just wants me to stay home every day and have like tons of siestas.
Adjusting on my bed, I faced up and watched the ceiling fan turn and turn and turn.
I couldn’t stop thinking about what just happened.
To see a guy cry because of you, it’s just something too big of a deal and I
If anyone knew how I felt at that moment they would have done the same thing by accepting Neil’s feelings, he knows I don’t have feelings for him anymore, but still he just wants to be in a relationship with me. That is so sweet.
I hope what I did was okay.? ‘Cause even though the guilty feelings has been taken away from my chest, I felt another thing, I think I felt anger and sympathy.
I am mad at myself for accepting him through sympathy, but what could I do? It was the only way he would stop feeling like a bad version of himself.
I know its eerie of me to, but it was the only way and I’ve always wanted to date Neil… Then.
Well now even though it’s different, it’s still a win-win for the both of us.
I closed my eyes and let everything on my mind fade and little by little, sleep took over my body.
The morning breeze was unbearable and the scarf I placed around my neck was too friendly with the wind it almost left my neck.
I had to move my hair from my face countlessly.
The front of the hospital which was always filled with people was surprisingly holding few people on grounds today.
I walked in the huge hospital and made it to my mom’s ward.
“What are you doing here?” that was the first thing my mom asked.
“Mom!” I whined.
“I told you to rest, you’re working Elsa you don’t have to stress yourself and come to the hospital every single day!” my mom’s voice was loud.
“Well dad’s here don’t you think he wants someone to take over so he can rest a bit?” I fired back and my Dad smiled at that.
“Okay fine you can both go home and rest!” my mom said sitting up on her own.
Wow okay! She’s getting so much better now.
“And leave you here alone? You’re too much mom!” I rolled my eyes as I sat on the bed beside her.
“Dad you can take all the rest you want I won’t be home until 2:30pm” I smiled and he grinned at me.
My dad left the ward and my mom gave me a look.
“What?” I rolled my eyes and she shook her head with a smile.
We both remained quiet until she said. “Anyways I’ll be getting discharged the day after tomorrow!”
“Wow that’s awesome!”
“I know right? Looks like a healing fairy has been with me for the past days!” my mom joked and we both laughed.
We both remained quiet again but this time, I broke the silence.
“Mom?” I called.
“I have something to tell you!” I said.
“Okay I’m all ears!” she smiled waiting patiently.
“You remember Neil right?”
“Yeah!” my mom tilted her head still wondering on what I would tell her.
“Well Neil and I are going out!” I blurted out.
“Oh!” my mom said with a confused expression.
“What?” I leaned forward. I didn’t understand her confusion.
“Weren’t you guys going out before?” she asked.
I laughed. “No.! We were just friends, did we seem that close to you?”.
“I thought you guys had been in a relationship already!” my laughed.
“No we just became a couple last night.” I explained and my mom nodded.
“Well you both have my full support and you’re both the perfect match!” she smiled.
I love my mom!
She thinks we’re the perfect match. Well that’s a good start.
The day sped up to when I would be leaving the hospital and my mom couldn’t stop telling to send her greetings to Neil and it was just so… I don’t know how to say it, but it was just funny.
Getting home I couldn’t find my dad, and I knew he had already left for the hospital.
I recieved a call from Neil immediately I took out my phone from my purse and the next minute my phone is on my ear breathing a shy ‘hello’.
“HI” I could feel his smile.
“I’m so sorry for calling you so late, I wanted to call you so early in the morning, but then I realized it would be too early to call you, so I decided to wait till the afternoon sun rises and now I’m calling you, I hope this is not too late!” Neil rushed his words.
“No it’s fine!”
“Okay good, I almost freaked out!” he laughed.
“And can I tell you a secret too!” Neil said.
“Sure what is it” I asked inquisitively.
“I haven’t been in a relationship either….. Okay this is kind of embarrassing to say!” He laughed.
“No it’s not embarrassing it’s okay, this is new for us both, so I guess we just do what we think is right!” I sighed.
“Thanks!” He breathed out.
“Why are you telling me thank you?” I beamed.
“I don’t know, honestly,” he laughed.
“Okay this is weird!” I laughed too.
“we’re both new to this that’s why we’re both being weird.!” I couldn’t help the laugh that came out of my mouth, he is right we’re both awkward towards each other because we’ve not seen this coming for the both of us.
“Okay… I uhm, I have to go! I’ll call you later!” Neil said.
“Oh okay, talk to you later then!” I smiled.
“Okay bye!” he said and we both hung up.
I went to my room and grabbed my teaching bag, grabbed a bottled water from the fridge and left for the Huggins residence.
Surprisingly the bus was super fast today and I got to the Huggins residence ten minutes before my usual time.
Mrs. Huggins hugged me with a smile as usual and asked Dessera to get me a cup of tea but I declined.
“So Jason isn’t back from school yet right?” I asked.
“Oh Jason skipped school again today, he’s been in his room all day, I haven’t seen him all day, but Dessera told me he came down to the kitchen about four times to grab food and water, I don’t know why he’s being like this though, I’ve knocked on his door couple of times calling out his name but he doesn’t want to talk to me or open the door for me!” Mrs. Huggins sighed looking at her perfectly fixed nails.
“Maybe I should try my luck and see if he opens the door for me.!” I said and adjusted my bag on my body
“Okay then suit yourself!” Mrs Huggins gave a small smile and watch me climb her grand stairs.
I made it in front of Jason’s doorstep and gave in a knock.
“Jason it’s me!” I said loud enough for him to hear.
Nobody answered this time but seconds later the door opened.
And goodness he was looking horrible.
His hair was scattered, he was wearing a thick baggy pajamas and a thick sweater. His face was pale and dry and he looked like he could use a day to sleep and wake up again.
“Jason what happened to you?” I asked as i walked into his room and aslo his room smelled like fruit juice. And I saw a lot of juice boxes on his bed.
“What do you mean what happened to me?” he asked as he shut the door.
I turned to him “Look at you, you look like a ghost who just woke up,still yet you look like someone who needs to take a hundred year sleep.
His room was looking neat, well except the juice boxes on his bed.
He moved the juice boxes over to the floor and laid on his bed.
“Sorry but looks like you have to go home today Elsa! I don’t feel good at all!” Jason said as he placed his body under his blanket.
“And you think I do? Do you think it’s easy coming here and then going back just like that?” I asked as I walked over to his study desk to place my bag.
“Well sorry but I don’t think I can stand up.” Jason sighed.
“But you stood up just now to get the door for me!” I made it clear to him.
“That’s because it was locked and nobody else was in here to get it, and didn’t you realise the air conditioner was not on today, I’m fucking cold and I don’t think I can do anything cause my body freezes if I leave this bed!” Jason explained.
I walked up to Jason and placed my hand on his head and he was seriously burning up.
“You have a fever!” I tell him.
“Really doctor?” he teased.
“I’m being real here!” I rolled my eyes.
“I know, and I know I have a fever, isn’t it best if it kills me!” he sighed.
“Jason! You and your bizzare words.” I half yelled.
He sighed and sat up placing the blanket over his body. You could tell he was seriously cold.
“I’m just saying, I think it was because I was up all night and I developed this on myself!” He sighed.
“Why would you be up all night what the hell were you thinking?” I scoffed.
Is he trying to kill himself last night.
“If you were in my shoes you’d totally be thinking too, yesterday Dessera told me she overheard you and my mom having a conversation about me!”
“If you were in my shoes you’d totally be thinking too, yesterday Dessera told me she overheard you and my mom conversation about me!”
Jason said and I paused.
“So…?” I tried to act like it was nothing.
“So?” he looked up at me with a scoff.
I bit my bottom lip and just stared at him. Yep this is so awkward.
He adjusted his body and his bed and laid down on the bed again.
“This is so embarrassing” he breathed out.
“What is so embarrassing?” I asked placing my hands on my hips.
“This, like right now, me lying on this bed, and you standing in front of me. You already finding out like I have feelings for you and me just finding out that you know I have feelings for you through my mom.” Jason sighed and placed the blanket over his head, maybe he doesn’t want to see me.
“You know what, I’m a bit thirsty, ill head down to get myself a glass of water, when I come back, please buckle yourself up for our lesson!” I said and started to walk towards the door.
“I’m sick Elsa, can we just cancel today’s lesson and never even have any lesson again!” I heard Jason’s voice under his blanket.
I ignored him and walked out of his room.
Mrs. Huggins appeared in front of me immediately I came down the stairs.
“What happened in there? Did he talk to you?” Mrs. Huggins rushed her words.
“Yeah, he talked to me!” I sighed.
“Oh thank goodness and what did he say?” Mrs. Huggins seemed curious than ever.
Well it’s hard and painful to get ignored by your own child.
“Mrs. Huggins Jason’s got a fever!” I blurted out.
“What???” Mrs. Huggins sounded unbelievable.
“He didn’t sleep last night and he got himself a cold!” I expound.
“Why would he be up all night?” Mrs. Huggins held up a befuddled expression.
“Mrs. Huggins we were not careful, well we were, but Dessera heard our conversation about Jason and well she told him about it, and he’s been up all night thinking about it and he’s kind of… You know embarrassed!.”
“He shouldn’t be and Oh goodness Dessera,” Mrs. Huggins placed her palm on her forehead and let out a sigh.
“Should I cancel the lesson today?” i asked.
“No, of course not! That would make him feel worse!” Mrs Huggins protested.
“Okay but he can’t get out of bed, he’s cold, his body is burning up and he’s wrapped up in his blanket like some marshmallow!” I stated.
“Well I’ll call a doctor now so just go back up and think of a way you can tutor him!” Mrs Huggins said and i shrugged and starts to walk up the stairs.
So to wrap this up, Jason got sick because of me, well he was thinking of me all night and then got sick.
That means it’s because of me. This is awkward but why do I find it so… Ugh I can’t believe myself.
I walked inside Jason’s room and I found him by the window side staring at the sky.
“What are you doing?” I asked.
“I have no idea!” he replied not looking back.
“And there I was telling your mom how you can’t get out of the bed!” I said.
“And why would you tell my mom that?” Jason asked and turned around.
“Cause she’s worried about you!” I replied.
Jason looked at me for some time and then looked away without saying anything. He was lost in thought for a while and I just played along with his silence not saying anything too.
Honestly I don’t see why he should be embarrassed about any of this liking someone isn’t bad. Well in our case it’s awkward but still I am not blaming him or getting angry about, and I believe the feelings will pass. It’s all just with puberty, I’m a female and I do spend a lot of time with him, so I don’t see why he can’t fall for me.
I heard Jason’s sigh and I looked up at him.
His voice followed. “But it’s kind of embarrassing”.
“What? What is embarrassing?” I asked.
“All this, my mom! I can’t believe her, I didn’t know I’ll ever be so disappointed in her like this!” Jason grunt.
“Why will you be disappointed in her, she did nothing wrong!” I said sitting on his bed.
“Of course she did do something wrong, why the hell will she butt her business into my business, just because she’s my mom doesn’t mean she has to do everything behind my back thinking it’s right and I’m okay with it, just like how she confessed my feelings to you, she told me never to confess but I can’t believe she went behind my back and told you what I was supposed to say, and now this situation feels so embarrassing I feel like dying!”
After angrily yelling Jason breathed in and out.
“Okay, well she did and that’s that, you can’t hate your mom, no matter how hard you try!” I tell him.
“Why are you acting all quiet about this.!” Jason yelled and I looked at him. “excuse me?” I titled my head in confusion.
“The fact that you’re acting like nothing is happening, the fact that you’re acting all cool sickens me, it’s making me lose my mind!” Jason yelled.
“Because nothing is happening Jason! I am cool because nothing is supposed to make me feel uncool, I don’t care if it sickens you!” I yelled back.
He shut his eyes and opened them back again.
“I’m sorry!” he apologized. “I didn’t mean to yell and I didn’t mean it like that.”
“Then how did you mean it?” I crossed my hand over my chest and then sat properly on the bed to face Jason.
He didn’t look me in the eye as he said. “The fact that you know I have feelings for you and yet you’re not saying anything about it” His voice was low but at least I heard it all..
“I am fully aware you like me but I don’t understand what you want me to say or do” I said and stood up.
I walked over to his study desk and moved his chair outward. “Come take a seat!” I tell him.
Without asking why or hesitating, Jason walked up to the chair and sat down, and I took the other chair beside the chair and sat down to.
“Now we’ve both taken a seat, we can just drop this and continue with our lesson!” I tried to smile but he rolled his eyes.
At least he still have the strength to roll his eyes.
“I don’t have the strength to learn today and I’m sick remember!”.
“Are you happy that you’re sick?” I asked.
“Well… I Am, cause I won’t go to school either and won’t have any lessons with you too!” he smirked.
“Well that’s that! Maybe I should leave then.” I said.
“That is what I want but… But.
“But what?” I titled my head.
“Why won’t you say anything?” He asked.
I know I’ve been saying something since. But I understand what he’s talking about.
I sighed “Honestly I don’t know what to say or what you expect me to say so…!”
“But you’re not mad or disgusted right?” Jason said staring at the desk.
“Mad about what? About you liking me?” I asked and he nodded.
“Okay so I find it a little bit awkward jason but I don’t see any reason to be mad or disgusted just because you like me. Every one deserves to like and to be liked, and honestly I’m flattered you like me, but you’ll get pass the feeling, bet me!” I assured him with a giving smile.
“Why are you saying this like it’s just a phase, I know what I’m doing… I Know what I’m feeling… And I know this is definitely a rejection!” Jason stated and shut his head at his last sentence.
I’m not rejecting his feelings neither am I accepting them. I’m just seeing them as a phase and trying to let him know that once I’m gone those feelings will die down immediately.
“Glad you got my point” I smiled.
Jason let’s out a sigh and ruffled his hair. He glanced at me and then back at his desk.
“Why? Is it because you’re older? You’re just a year older and age doesn’t really matter!” Jason stated.
“It’s actually two years older, and well to some people age really does matter!” I said.
“And you are one of them?” Jason asked.
“Yeah you could say that!” I smiled. I don’t know if I’m one of them or not.
Does age really even matter?
“Okay great” Jason laughed bitterly.
“So I guess, it’s Neil then!” Jason said as low as possible.
I turned to him. “Actually it’s already Neil!” I said and his head tilt at me immediately.
“Oh… You guys are already…?
“Yeah!” I nodded.
Jason remained quiet looking at the desk, he didn’t move or say a word and I realised I Just broke something.
“So can we just move on and start on today’s lesson?” I tried to lighten up the dying mood by sounding so cheerful
“Sorry but apparently I feel worst.” Jason said, stood up and walked up to his bed.
“So should I leave?” I asked.
“That would be best!” Jason said as he went under the covers.
“Okay then.” I sighed, stood up and grabbed my bag.
I walked up to the door and before opening the door I turned to him, though he covered himself with his blanket, all his body, didn’t know what was happening under the covers though but I know he would hear what I’ll say.
“Jason, your mom will be calling a doctor soon, so please just let the doctor treat you so your fever can die down, get better so we can continue our lessons and don’t forget we’re just teacher and student.” that was what I said before leaving.
Surprisingly I found Mrs. Huggins in front of the door outside Jason room and I gave a surprised look. She gave me a pitiful look and I asked.
“What are you doing here?”
she placed her index finger over her lips and breathed out a shhh…
She pulled my hand and dragged me down to the end of the hallway,
We appeared in front of a door and she pulled me inside immediately she opened the door.
My jaw almost dropped of how big and beautiful the room was, the room two cushion decoration colour was black and white and everything in it looked expensive.
A huge picture was hung at the top of the bed and there was Mrs. Huggins and her husband. And I used to think Jason looked like his mother, now on second thoughts, you should see his father.
“Sit please!” Jason’s mother said and I sat on one of the cushion chairs.
She sat down beside me and breathed out.
“The reason why I was standing in front of Jason’s room was because I was eavesdropping on your conversations, and I know that is so wrong of me and now hearing all that, that Jason had said I feel so sad, I don’t know why I even decided to confess his feelings for you to you, that was stupid of me, he’s not a child and I shouldn’t have done that!” Mrs. Huggins said and pouted.
“Exactly Mrs. Huggins, Jason is not a child, for crying out loud he’s eighteen already and also even at twelve boys need the privacy they deserve, he doesn’t need you to pry in his business, he was really broken by what you did and he said he was disappointed in you!” I explained.
“I heard that part please don’t remind me. I just, the only reason I told you about him liking you was because I know you’d reject him and I wanted you to carefully reject it and also not feel surprised if he ever decided to come out to you with his feelings. But that was stupid of me, rejection is just rejection, be it nicely or badly, it’s the a reject, I could have let Jason do this on his own, I’m so sorry!” Mrs. Huggins sighed.
“You shouldn’t be apologizing to me Mrs. Huggins” I pimped, “You should carefully be apologizing to your son!”.
“Do you know I had Jason at sixteen?” Mrs Huggins started and wiped the corners of her eyes. “And people told me I won’t be able to take care of him that I wouldn’t be able to be a mother to him, that I would be too young for him, and that still gets into my head, that at all cost I want to do and be everything for Jason, I want to do every thing for Jason, his father still thinks Jason is an accident, I mean we both knew what we were doing at that time. And now He travels all the time leaving me and jason alone, and this makes me want to be there for Jason at all cost. So please don’t blame me too much for this, I don’t know what I’m doing! ” Mrs Huggins explained.
“I understand you very well Mrs. Huggins and seriously caring mothers are the best and you’re actually one of them, but I also think it’s time you give Jason the privacy he needs!” I stated.
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