?30days with the superstar?
?by authoress pinky?
⚡Chapter Twenty—Nine (29)⚡
Subtitle: Heartbreak?
Ashley’s pov
“let’s break up.”
“wha… what? Brea…break up? What are you saying? Why should we break up? Why?”
I can do this. I can do this. I have to show no emotions to him right now. If i do then he would know that i was being for-ced to do this.
I took in a de-ep breath, inwardly.
“Josh, we can’t work out. I’m sorry but am not happy in this relationship. I know i mus_”
“you are joking, right?”
“I’m sorry.”
“wait, did i do something bad? Did i hurt you by any chance? Just tell me, please.” He tried reaching out to my hand but i instantly pulled back. I didn’t say anything but my gaze were on the floor, i couldn’t take the risk to look at him in the face. “I’m sorry.” Wait, Josh just said he was sorry. I suddenly look up at his face. He said sorry, he said sorry for the first time after his father left. If this were to be a normal day, i would have teased him for it but this day was different. Why did he have to say sorry today of all days. He didn’t do anything wrong. God.
“josh_”
“I’m sorry if i hurt you in any way. But please don’t leave me. Please. I need you more than anything in this world. Please, don’t turn your back on me like my dad and everyone out there. Please.”
Why is he making this difficult for me? I am trying to save his life, his career here. Why isn’t he helping, why is he making me feel bad? Why?
“you didn’t do anything wrong, Josh! I am not just happy in this relationship.”
“but you love me, right?”
Yes, i love you with all of my heart. I wanted to say but i couldn’t. The devil was standing right behind him. I can’t make any mistake now or else all my plans would be ruin.
“i never said those three words to you, did i? You never did also if i could remember clearly.” I spat. which was practically true.
He hesitate for a while before he spoke up. “Princess, you can’t do this to me. You can’t.”
I took a step away from him. I could see the hurt in his eyes and that was when i knew for a fact that I’ve broken my promise. I left him just like his father did and i hurt him also.
“please, don’t make this more difficult for us. Just let me go. Please. The contract is over, our deal is also over so, the…there is no reason for us to still be…together.” I said.
“Ash…”
“goodbye, Josh.” I turned from him and started walking to another direction. He was going to und-erstand why i did this, I’m sure of it.
Even with that thought in mind i couldn’t stop the tears from coming down. I’ve hurt and right now i am walking away from his life…I was tempted to look back but i knew for a fact that if i do then i was going to go back to him and shout: ‘Gotcha! That was just a prank, i got you. I love the look on your face.’ But then my plans would be ruined. I can’t let that happen. I have to be strong and walk away from Josh now. Besides, I’m doing this for his own good, right?
?Josh’s pov?
She left. She walked out of my life. She left me when i needed her most. She was no different from my father, and also from those people out there. I shouldn’t have trusted her, i shouldn’t have fallen for her. She..
fu-ck! Why me? Why do people have to leave me? Why?
Just then the cloud started crying on my behalf as the rain poured down. I hope Ashley is save. I hope she is und-er a shelter, i hope she is okay. Shit! Even in a situation like this, I’m still worried about her well being.
I stood i the rain as it kept falling. I was hurt…again.
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I walked into my room, i didn’t say a word to any of the guys even though they tried to talk to me.
I slammed my door shut and started scattering the whole room. I threw the whole book on the ground and started punching the wall with my injured fist.
The pain i was pa-ssing throu-ghin my heart was nothing compared to the pain in my fist. I kept punching the wall while screaming.
She left. She fu-cking left me. Again.
As i kept punching, i sighted a box and a paper on my bed. I stopped punching and walked over to the bed.
I picked up the box and the paper at the same time. I stare between the two things and ended up opening the paper first.
It was a letter. A letter from Ashley.
Hey, Mr grumpy,
I know when you read this, you might have hate me. I’m sorry, Josh. I’m so sorry…
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?Ashley’s pov?
“Ashley? Come in.” My father ushered me in.
I walked into the house and suddenly felt warm. I thought i was going to freeze to death out there. Why do the rain have for fall now? I hope Josh is okay? I hope he has gotten home already?
“you are w-et.” She looked around and sighted Jeremy making his way to the kitchen where we sat. “Jerry, go and get a blanket for your sister hurry.”
I heard him groa-n before he left to get the blanket.
I haven’t said a word since i got here. I was too weak, too heartbroken to say a word to anybody. I was just staring at the floor and was also shivering as well.
I couldn’t go back to the Js mansion after what happened between Josh and i. He was going to be okay, right? He wouldn’t hurt himself like he did that day at the bathroom, right? Damn! who am i even asking?
Jeremy returned with the blanket and handed it to my mother.She quickly collected it from him and wrapped me with it.
“i will be right back, i will make you a cup of tea, okay?” She was about to go when i held her hand.
“i..i want to..sle…sleep.” And with that i got up and left the living room.
As soon as i got to my room and I’ve slammed the door shut. I slide down to the floor and started crying.
I cried and cried until i dozed off.
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Bang!
Bang!
Bang!
I groa-ned as i snapped my eyes open. I was still lying down on the floor . Who is the person knocking at this ungodly hour?
I sluggishly got up to my feet to get the door. I opened the door and stood face to face with my brother, Kyle.
“are you alright?”
“what time is it?” I asked as i rubbed my face with the back of my hands and stepped back from the door so, he would be able to come in.
“11?” He said as he entered my room and shut the door closed. “are you okay?” He repeated again.
“are you going to school?” I asked trying to ignore his question again which didn’t work.
“stop avoiding my question, okay? what happened?”
I sighed and sat down on my bed. What is the use of keeping it from my brother. He deserve to know.
“Josh and i are no longer together.”
“what? Did he break up with you?”
I shook my head no and sighed again. “i broke up with him.” I corrected.
He gasped and made his way to sit down by my side. “did he cheat on you? Was that your reason for breaking up with him?”
“no. He..he..he didn’t do anything wrong. I’m…I’m the problem here, Ky. I hurt him. I hurt him again.” I started sobbing. “I hurt Josh.”
“oh, come here.” Kyle pulled me in his arms and i started sobbing in his arms.
There was no doubt, I’m in love with Josh Hilton.
I kept on sobbing. I’m going to make Evans pay. I’m going to expo-se him to the whole world and get him arrested. Why exactly was he doing this to me? He was the one who fu-cked my best friend back then so, why was he acting like he caught me on a bed with his father?
Okay, that was creepy. Geez, fu-cking a man old enough to be my father. Yuck! So irritating. Take that imagine away.
“It’s alright. Calm down.” Kyle said as he kept stro-king my back trying to calm me down.
“jos…Josh…is hurt… he… he is hu.. hurt ….because of me.” I said in between sob.
“it’s okay.”
No, it wasn’t okay. It’s only going to be okay after I’ve dealt with Evans.
Evans, you think you can play the game better, huh? Just watch and see how am going to over smart you in your own game. TBC.
A/N: You guys can’t give up on Joshley. I know it’s painful but we still can’t give up. I believe they will make it out together, maybe.