My personal taste episode 40

😋MY PERSONAL TASTE😋..(18+)

😍EPISODE 40😍

*Rose’s point of view*

I smiled as i dropped the call.

How on earth do I believe what he’s talking about?

For all i care, All men are just the same.

Kelly is no exceptional..

Kelly is a bad guy..

A pla-yer.

He had wanted to meet Aunty Caro..and then his mom had said he messed so many girls up..

He told me he broke so many hearts!

And then he’s telling me he loves me?

So quic-k…. So soon?

I laughed.

How does he really want me to believe him?

And just accept his love for me?

Seriously, all that was then, when i had believed Jonny’s love for me..

When i foolishly offered myself to him, without thinking twice about it.

I can’t let another man pl@ywith my heart..

Not Kelly, not any other guy!

I like Kelly but i can’t try to love him..

I won’t accept his love for me either.

It’s just a week of us getting to meet each other…

Yes we had been staying in the same house and had gotten to know each other pretty good..

But.. love can come that quic-k.

I don’t wanna believe his love true..

I have to keep ignoring that word he’do say,

“I love you Rose.”

I scoffed.

That’s a word i’do never wanna believe from a guy’s l!pever again.

Kelly is really so funny.

How can he love me?

Im just wondering how he c@m£ up with the idea of loving me after trying to have his way with me just yesterday.

What’s he trying to do?

Make me believe his love and then let him have S-x with….

Oh! i don’t even wanna think about that.

That would be the last thing i would ever trying doing.

I was done with the Kitchen timetable, so i placed it on the wall.

“Great.” I said.

Today’s friday and Tea or coffee and bre-ad for breakfast.

I walked to the fridge to gra-p them..

Friday!

Just this time last friday, i was on my way to Lagos, to see Jonny.

I sighed.

I wondered.

What would I have done if Kelly didn’t drive by.

If he hadn’t saved me…

I would have been R@p£d by those two bit-ches!

And then i’do been stranded on the streets..

Would i have gone back to Jonny or what would i have done?

Seriously, Kelly had been a Gods£nt to me.

He was my saviour..

He’s bad…He’s a pla-yer but he has a kind heart.

He broke girls heart but he got his heart broken too by Sugar.

He loved her and she broke his heart.

I placed the Bre-ad and the Tea on the breakfast and i went to boil some water.

But Kelly told me, there was a reason he broke so many girls heart.

I could remember.

I asked him why but he told me that I don’t nee-d to know about it.

What could that be?

Why would someone mess people’s heart up cos of a reason.

What reason could that be actually?

..I tried thinking…but i couldn’t think about a good one.. a good reason why Kelly broke girls heart.

I sighed..

Suddenly i wish i could know this reason..

Suddenly i wanted to know this reason.

I placed the kettle of water on the cooker.

But how do i find the reason.. without Kelly being the one to tell me..

And.. i can’t ask him why cos Im sure he’s never gonna tell me.

He says he loves you, use that to get him.

That silly voice inside of me said to me.

“No” I shook my head.

I can’t use that to get him..

That might sound funny and awkward.

I turned off the cooker and poured the h0t water into a ceramic cu-p and took it to the breakfast table.

Added the milo and the milk powder inside and stired them together with a spoon.

Then I sat down to eat.

Getting done with my breakfast and still curious to know about Kelly’s reason for breaking so many hearts,..

I got an idea.

To search his room..

Maybe i could find something relating to that.

Maybe a diary..

Okay, guys don’t usually keep diaries.. especially Kelly type,..

But who knows!

Kelly might have a diary which he writes down his daily experience and his spoken and unspoken feelings.

It sounds awkward for me to search Kelly’s room but im just so curious to know about Kelly.

There are still things i do not know about him.

I just have to do this.. It would just be a quic-k search.

I quic-kly washed the tea cu-p, dried it with the dishcloth and placed it back on the shelf..

Then i walked out of the kitchen, up the stairs and… to his room.

I opened the door..

It isn’t locked… I slowly walked in..

I searched with my eyes… and if there was any other place someone should keep book or papers in his room, then it should be on the beside table.

Yes..

I walked over and searched on the t©p but i found nothing like that.. The table t©p is empty with just a be-dside lamp standing on it.

I bent and pu-ll-ed the first drawer, but its locked.

Oops!

I pu-ll-ed the second one, it opened with lots of arranged papers inside.

I gently took them out one after the other as i searchef for a diary or any piece of writting.

But i found nothing as such.

Just business do¢v-ments and empty written papers.

Files.

I hissed and put them neatly back into the drawer and pushed it back..

I reached for the last drawer.

I just hope i find something ap@rt from business in this one.

I pu-ll-ed it open.

But then there were just like the second drawer.

Files and do¢v-ments.

Does it mean Kelly don’t have any other papers and books here ap@rt from business do¢v-ments?

Don’t he re-ad books?

Or write anything… anything at all!

I sighed and pushe back the drawer…

Stood up with my hands akimbo.

I nee-d to find something…

I walked to his wardrobe and pu-ll-ed it open.

There are so many clothes in there and they smell so good.

I pushed them ap@rt to search but i found nothing.

I pushed another set ap@rt but i can’t find anything…

I sighed and was about to close it back, when i felt a noise like something fall just fell down.

What’s could that be?

I pushed the clothes at the side where the noise c@m£ from ap@rt and there i saw a small red cover book., lying on the wardrobe floor.. And it seem old but fairly used.

I picked it up and nothing was written on the cover..

This must be a diary..

I thought.

I closed back the wardrobe and rushed to the be-d with the book.

I sat down and opened it.. and the first few pages were empty..

But then i saw some writting.

Written fifteen years ago.

25th September, 2001…

Wow! So long!

I re-ad, “Kate died today.. It was suppose to be our birthday.. But she left me, left mom, left dad and went to a place i know she would never return again..

I love you so much Kate..and i wish you would come back.

I hate myself for not being able to protect you enough.. plea-se forgive me.

But i promise you that i’ll never ever celebr@te my birthday without you.. I will see my birthday as a normal day and nothing would ever make me remember i have a birthday to celebr@te.. I swear to you Kate.

I’ll only do that if you come back..”

God! I couldn’t believe it.. Kelly made such promise to her sister to never celebr@te his birthday without her. To never ever think of a birthday celebr@tion wthout his sister being alive again.

God, he must have so much loved Kate.

I felt a tear drop from my eyes..

This is so tou-ching for me.

This makes me remember my family, my dad, my mom and Lucky.

Death took them away just in a blink of an eye.

Kelly lost just his sister,.. and he made such a promise to her..

What if he lost more.. He would have probably killed himself.

Just like i wanted to… but that bit-ch c@m£ in!

Jonny stepped in and held me from doing so.

I thought he cared for me.. I thought he loved me… but he used my emotions to get me and then he used me and pla-yed with my heart!

Kelly had the bad side of him.. but still, there is this good side of him that not everyone is aware of..

I guess his mother doesn’t know either.

The way he feels for people he loves.

The way he cares for them.. and make promises that would be quite ha-rd to keep..

Kelly must really have some feellings even if he had been a pla-yer or he probably is..

And this reason why he messed them up?

I fli-pped to the other page.

“25th September 2006..

Dear Diary,..

Today i’m eighteen and i’ve decided to start my avenge on my sister’s death.. by breaking girls heart.. Have S-x with all of them that i get and dump their as-s immediately.

I know they will cry, and get hurt just like my sister cried when she was being R@p£d..

Im starting right from this day.

I’ll do anything for you Kate.. I still love you..”

What! I couldn’t believe what i just re-ad.

Why on earth would he avenge on his sister’s death by doing such things!

So this is the reason!

“Oh my God! I can’t believe this!” I said with shock.

“Kelly not this way.”

You couldn’t have done it this way..

But then something hit me!

25th September?

Today is 23rd September…

Next tomorrow is his birthday…and he hadn’t mentioned it.

This is so right..

I can’t believe someone wouldn’t mention his birthday forever..

But how can i just overlook this?

And let his birthday pas-s just like that.. I nee-ded to let him know that it wasn’t his fault that his sister had to die.

Promising a dead person things wouldn’t make any difference that they are alre-ady dead and buried.

I felt like doing something for him…

Showing him that birthday celebr@tion are one of the happiest days in someone’s life.

A day you thank your creator for giving you life and praying to him to give you more.

It isn’t a day to regret no matter what had happened.

Cos there’s always a reason why we were created and had birthdays to celebr@te.

I would get Kelly something for his birthday.. something that could make him un-derstand that no matter the bad moments we’ve had.. That there are reasons why we should still celebr@te.

Maybe that would change his mind..

But what do i get him on his birthdat?

its just after tomorrow and i really nee-d to be fast about getting him something..

I got no money on me..

How do i do this?

Ask Kelly for money?… but how do i ask him for that without letting him know what i nee-d the money for?

Cos i know he would ask him what i nee-d it for.

I wouldn’t want to tell him im getting him a gift for his birthday..

I wonder how he’do feel to hear that.. I would make it a suprise to him..

I have to think of a lie.

I really have to do this for him.

I felt for Kelly..

I couldn’t believe Kelly could make such decisions because of his love for someone.. For his sister.

If only he’s telling the truth about loving me..

He had loved Sugar too.. but she cheated on him.

He’s broken but he still choose to say he loves me.

Maybe he do.. maybe he really do love me.

Maybe he just nee-d someone to mend his broken heart.

But im broken too..Jonny messed up my life.

But Kelly..

He saved me..

I turned many pages of the diary to re-ad more, but there were empty..

But at last, I found another writting.

It was just yesterday he wrote it.

I re-ad it.

“Dear Diary,

It’s been such a long while not writting to you..

Im sorry..

I’ve fallen inlove with someone.. Its too sudden but it’s really true and its driving me insane.. But she doesn’t believe I love her as well. She doesn’t and that hurts me so much…”

Who is he talking about?

You of course.

The small voice said to me.

I closed my eyes… Kelly truely loves me,

too sudden but really true..

I closed back the diary.. got up and walked to the wardrobe with the small book.

I pu-ll-ed the wardrobe open and… and.. i don’t even know the cloth that the book fell from..

I inhaled the scents of his clothe and shi-ts.

They smell so good that i just wish i could go in and sleep in there.

But then my stupid mind told me to put one of his shi-t.

Seriously?

His shi-ts look really cute and there’s one im sighting right now..

I got it out.. It’s white, long sleeved and had WILD LOVE written boldly in black at the front.

It look just like a girl’s shi-t.. and seem like he’do never worn it before.

I wonder what i was doing… but i found myself doing it.

I pu-ll-ed the shi-t over my b©dy and it look so good on me.. I walked to his dressing mirror and admired how great it look on me.

I smiled.

Kelly has good things.. really good things.

I smiled and walked to his be-d and layed down..

The be-d felt so good and soft..

Why are my smiling?

And why are my even on his be-d?

This must be craziness, but i layed back still..Not wanting to get up.

I could sleep on this be-d a little before Kelly gets back..

For all i know, he’s coming back by evening and i’do be awake before then.

And for the dinner?

Uh.. i don’t really know what to put on.. but i’do wish to find something really beautiful to wear this time.

Seriously I have no idea why… but i guess i just feel like appearing more beautiful.

Yeah.. That’s it.

I closed my eyes…

.tbc