*My Gift*
28
It’s been a whole six months and a lot if things have happened. I could not find space at UD so I went to UJ which is were I am right now. Lwandle and me where not on good terms when I left because she was saying I should take a gap year so that I will apply at UD as much as I love her with my whole heart I could not do that.
From the moment I started I started high school I had goals set out for myself that I wanted to achieve at a certain age so I was not going to change my plans for Lwandle.
Changing universities was different because I was still going to be able to achieve my goals but taking a gap year is going back and not moving forward. We have been talking the first two months where the hardest on both of us because she was still mad at me and I was still trying to get used to the new place . What made it worse was that my roommate was not a nice person making me miss Nandipha even more.
Nandipha is back home not doing anything maybe she is. She wants to be a kept wife so she just went to school for the sake of it not because she loved it.
After that two months Lwandle started getting used to the idea of me learning far and she would come visit me for a week sometimes and I make sure I go home every single holiday to be with her and see my mother.
We have not talked about my father-the biological one that is since the day she told me about the guy she had an affair with.
Making friends was a little bit difficult because people around here are different from the ones I’m used to but I have a friend now named Mandisa. She is a cool girl has been staying here in Gauteng since the day she was born so she showed me around and I go a feel of the place.
I’m talking about everything and it might not make sense but I’m trying to cover everything that had happened to be that last six months. Exams are coming our way and I spend most of my time by the library making sure that I study ha-rd and not lose my bursary.
Right now I’m at the library and I have been here for almost three hours. I think I should go back to my room. I don’t want to be walking around in the streets when it’s dark. I pack my things and head out the library going to my room.
After some time I have arrived and my roommate is there sitting on her bed listening to music with her headphones. She seems like she has a problem with me and everything I do seems to make her angry.
“Hi” she says taking off her headphones when she sees me entering the room. That’s the first she never greets me first its always me doing the greeting and sometimes she does not even answer me.
“Hie Unjani?”
I ask her and she moves from her bed and stands infront if me.
“I’m good. I was wondering would like to have lunch with me sometime maybe tomorrow?”
She asks me and I look at her shocked with what she is asking from me. I really don’t un-derstand her at times.
“It’s fine I don’t mind”
I answer her and she nods her head and goes back to her bed. I place my bag ontop of the bed and go to the closet to take my bathing bag and take my towel and head out to go and bath. I know bathing will help me sleep better and I’m feeling really tired.
When I’m done bathing I go to sleep and after a few minutes I fall asleep.
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When I wake up I go and take a bath. I have an early cla-ss today so I need to hurry before I’m late. When I go back to my room my roommate is not there. I get dressed and take my bag then go to cla-ss. After cla-ss is done I went to my room. I need to get ready so I can go and eat lunch with my roommate. I hope she is there because we did not set the time we are going out.
I open the door and thank heavens she is there.
“What time are we going”
I ask her as soon as I enter the room. She turns around and smiles. She is a lover of body art she has a lot of percing and tattoos but they look beautiful makes her look unique.
“We can even go now I don’t mind”
She says and I nod my head.
“Let me change real fast then we can go”
I tell her and she nods her head. I walk to the closet and look for something to wear. I take one of the dresses that Lwandle bought for me when I was coming this side. Even though she was mad at me she asked one of the drivers to drive me so I can do some shopping and I went all out. I didn’t want to be the odd one out.
I take off the clothes I’m wearing and wear the dress. When I’m done I turn around and find her staring at me. What a stare.
“Is everything okay?”
I ask her and she shakes her head like she is trying to stop herself from thinking about something.
“Don’t worry I was just thinking about something”
She says and I nod. I bend over to take my shoes and go to the bed to sit. I change my shoes and I’m done getting ready.
“I’m done”
I tell her and she closes her laptop and stands up.
“Let me grab my wallet then”
She says and takes it from the bed then we are out. She has a car so it makes it easy for us to get there.
“Where you wanna eat keh sisi?”
She says looking at me and she has a killer smile. I don’t think anyone could have a smile like Lwandle’s.
Her smile is one that says beg me to smile for you and she does it so effortlessly.
“Any where is fine”
I tell her and she nods her head and continues to drive. She parks outside Wimpy and we get out of the car.
We sit down and I order the ribs and milk shake and she orders the same thing as me.
“So how are you finding university life?”
She asks me
“It’s fine I like it. Get to have this independent without my mother monitoring my moves but I miss them”
I tell her and she nods and does not say anything. She is just looking at me and not saying anything and out of the blue she takes my hand into hers and starts brushing it.
She had soft hands.
“I like you yazi. I mean you look very beautiful and you kind you know what you want in life”
She says and I’m shocked by her revelation.
“You like me?”
I ask her shocked and she nods her head.
“In sorry I have been rude to you but it was the only way of showing you I like you”
She tells me and just look at her.
“I have a girlfriend”
I tell her. She is my roommate she should know the late night calls I have with Lwandle.
“The one that does not know your value?the one that didn’t want you coming here? You mean the one that cheated on you?”
She says and I let out a bitter chuckle. How can she says that to me I pull my hands from hers and stand up.
“I won’t stay for this”
I say and go out. I will catch a cab.
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*My Gift*
29
I can hear her following me and I just want to disappear.
“Lindiwe please wait”
She calls out to me and I stop and then to look at her. I feel like I should slap her not I won’t because she would beat the hell out of me if we would fight.
“I’m sorry I should have not brou-ght that up please forgive me. Kodwa she is still not good for you who would cheat on the person they claim to love I know I would not”
She says and I look at her. I hate the fact that what she is saying is true. When I found out that Lwandle cheates I was really hurt. It was the Easter holiday and I thought why not go and see my girlfriend. I had missed her like hell so I took the first bus out of Johannesburg going back home. When I got there I first went to the palace only to find her in the act. It was with one of the palace maids. I could not be mad at her for some reason. I didn’t find myself crying and asking her how she could do this to me and why she does not tell me if I have a problem. I forgave her right away and we moved on from it.
“You should have not brou-ght it up Okay? You don’t know my relationship with my girlfriend and you should stay out of it”
I say and start walking away from her. I don’t hear any footsteps behind me which is good. Now I have to deal with being in the same room as her. I hail a cab and it stops.
It takes be back to my room and I pay before going out. I drag my feet as I go to my room thinking about my relationship with Lwandle. I love her with all my heart and I care about her but she does things that make me doubt she feels the same way like the cheating and having MaKhumalo in her life and not telling me. When I get to my room I throw myself on the bed and close my eyes so I can sleep.
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When I wake up I’m not alone in the room. She is just sitting there and staring at me which is making me uncomfortable.
“I’m sorry”
Is the first thing she says when she sees that ik awake. I don’t need her sorry I just want everything to go back to the way it was. When she did not talk to be and acted like I don’t exist I could live with that I’m sure I can still do it.
“No it’s fine I really don’t want to talk about it”
I say sitting up and she comes to sit next to me.
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“Are you sure you are fine”
She asks me and I nod but can feel tears wanting to escape from my eyes. She pulls me closer to her and hugs me. I then feel the warmth from her li-ps on my forehead. I snuggle closer to her and she hold me ti-ghter. I move my face from her che-st and look at her. She looks at me and we hold a long stare before we start kis-sing. Her li-ps feel warm we continue kis-sing and she pulls me so I’m sitting on top of her and I can feel myself getting we-t from the kis-s. It keeps on getting intense and I’m not doing anything to stop it. She unzi-ps the dress that I am wearing and it drops to my wai-st.
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I have been awake for a long time now busy thinking. The se-x didn’t go as planned because I moa-ned Lwandle’s name while we were busy. I feel guilty about what I did but another part of me does not. I mean this goes to prove to me that I’m still very much in love with Lwandle. I have a cla-ss in an hours time so I need to get out of bed. I’m alone in the room which makes it easy on my side for me to get things done without feeling any form of guilt.
I take my bathing bag and go to bath when I’m done I come back and get dressed then I go out for my lecture. I’m not late so I’m walking in a normal pace and when I get there I take the front sit and wait for it to start.
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Some times has pa-ssed from the time I was exchanging spits with my roommate and I try by all means possible to not think about that day. No one knows about it not even my best friend and I would like to keep it that way I feel like I betrayed Lwandle in the worst way even though she did the same to me. Well I’m lying when I say no one knows.
The seer does know he had to do a little cleansing ceremony for me before I could even sleep with Lwandle and he kept to his word. He did not tell anyone about ut and I’m glad now I can trust him even more.
Lwandle and I are at a happy place and she took a vow that she will keep us like that and you should have seen the look on her face when she found out I would be doing my second year at UD. She was really happy even took me out on a date. Our first date and if things were possible we would relive that day every day of our live.
I’m now sitting in front of her as we are eating and she is busy talking.
I think my personality has ru-bbed off on her she now talks now she will get paid for it.
“Do you want to go out?I don’t feel like being in doors today”
She asks me and I nod my head. I do want to spend the whole day the house and I know that if we go out we will also go shopping.
“It’s fine I don’t mind”
I say and she smiles as we continue eating. When we are done eating I tidy up and we are off to shopping. We not going shopping we going to watch movies which I know will end with us shopping for clothes and everything that I need. You would not un-derstand Lwandle even when I say it’s fine she should not buy me anything she will still make me buy something.
Yesterday I slept by the royal house meaning today I woll sleep at home. I done want to provoc my mom a lot and she will end up saying I should not sleep there anymore.
“Let me take you little princess home”
She says as she is driving me home and I look at her smiling at how happy I am.
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I never knew that I would fall for someone so bad it would start hurting if we are not together. I love her with every fiber in me and I don’t think I will ever stop loving her. I’m her gift and in a way she is also my gift from God and I thank him for that every day.
Thank you for walking this journey with me on my love for Lwandle I hope we meet again bye.
The End.