*My Gift*
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I can hear her following me and I just want to disappear.
“Lindiwe please wait”
She calls out to me and I stop and then to look at her. I feel like I should slap her not I won’t because she would beat the hell out of me if we would fight.
“I’m sorry I should have not brou-ght that up please forgive me. Kodwa she is still not good for you who would cheat on the person they claim to love I know I would not”
She says and I look at her. I hate the fact that what she is saying is true. When I found out that Lwandle cheates I was really hurt. It was the Easter holiday and I thought why not go and see my girlfriend. I had missed her like hell so I took the first bus out of Johannesburg going back home. When I got there I first went to the palace only to find her in the act. It was with one of the palace maids. I could not be mad at her for some reason. I didn’t find myself crying and asking her how she could do this to me and why she does not tell me if I have a problem. I forgave her right away and we moved on from it.
“You should have not brou-ght it up Okay? You don’t know my relationship with my girlfriend and you should stay out of it”
I say and start walking away from her. I don’t hear any footsteps behind me which is good. Now I have to deal with being in the same room as her. I hail a cab and it stops.
It takes be back to my room and I pay before going out. I drag my feet as I go to my room thinking about my relationship with Lwandle. I love her with all my heart and I care about her but she does things that make me doubt she feels the same way like the cheating and having MaKhumalo in her life and not telling me. When I get to my room I throw myself on the bed and close my eyes so I can sleep.
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When I wake up I’m not alone in the room. She is just sitting there and staring at me which is making me uncomfortable.
“I’m sorry”
Is the first thing she says when she sees that ik awake. I don’t need her sorry I just want everything to go back to the way it was. When she did not talk to be and acted like I don’t exist I could live with that I’m sure I can still do it.
“No it’s fine I really don’t want to talk about it”
I say sitting up and she comes to sit next to me.
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“Are you sure you are fine”
She asks me and I nod but can feel tears wanting to escape from my eyes. She pulls me closer to her and hugs me. I then feel the warmth from her li-ps on my forehead. I snuggle closer to her and she hold me tighter. I move my face from her chest and look at her. She looks at me and we hold a long stare before we start ki-ssing. Her li-ps feel warm we continue ki-ssing and she pulls me so I’m sitting on top of her and I can feel myself getting we-t from the ki-ss. It keeps on getting intense and I’m not doing anything to stop it. She unzips the dress that I am wearing and it drops to my waist.
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I have been awake for a long time now busy thinking. The se-x didn’t go as planned because I mo-an-ed Lwandle’s name while we were busy. I feel guilty about what I did but another part of me does not. I mean this goes to prove to me that I’m still very much in love with Lwandle. I have a clas-sin an hours time so I need to get out of bed. I’m alone in the room which makes it easy on my side for me to get things done without feeling any form of guilt.
I take my bathing bag and go to bath when I’m done I come back and get dressed then I go out for my lecture. I’m not late so I’m walking in a normal pace and when I get there I take the front sit and wait for it to start.
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Some times has pa-ssed from the time I was exchanging spits with my roommate and I try by all means possible to not think about that day. No one knows about it not even my best friend and I would like to keep it that way I feel like I betrayed Lwandle in the worst way even though she did the same to me. Well I’m lying when I say no one knows.
The seer does know he had to do a little cleansing ceremony for me before I could even sleep with Lwandle and he kept to his word. He did not tell anyone about ut and I’m glad now I can trust him even more.
Lwandle and I are at a happy place and she took a vow that she will keep us like that and you should have seen the look on her face when she found out I would be doing my second year at UD. She was really happy even took me out on a date. Our first date and if things were possible we would relive that day every day of our live.
I’m now sitting in front of her as we are eating and she is busy talking.
I think my personality has rubbed off on her she now talks now she will get paid for it.
“Do you want to go out?I don’t feel like being in doors today”
She asks me and I nod my head. I do want to spend the whole day the house and I know that if we go out we will also go shopping.
“It’s fine I don’t mind”
I say and she smiles as we continue eating. When we are done eating I tidy up and we are off to shopping. We not going shopping we going to watch movies which I know will end with us shopping for clothes and everything that I need. You would not understand Lwandle even when I say it’s fine she should not buy me anything she will still make me buy something.
Yesterday I slept by the royal house meaning today I woll sleep at home. I done want to provoc my mom a lot and she will end up saying I should not sleep there anymore.
“Let me take you little princess home”
She says as she is driving me home and I look at her smiling at how happy I am.
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I never knew that I would fall for someone so bad it would start hurting if we are not together. I love her with every fiber in me and I don’t think I will ever stop loving her. I’m her gift and in a way she is also my gift from God and I thank him for that every day.
Thank you for walking this journey with me on my love for Lwandle I hope we meet again bye.
The End.