My Gift
26
I don’t want to sit here and so nothing but my mother says we will see it in the morning so I go to sleep. I don’t think I have waited for morning and wanting it to be morning as much as I do right now. I feel like morning will never arrive and I think I will cry.
When I open my eyes it’s morning so I sprint out of the bed and go to take my toothbrush. My mother has already went to work so. I put the toothpaste on the brush and go out the room to brush my teeth. When I’m done I take water from the kitchen I really do not have time to heat up the water so cold water will do for now. When I’m done bathing I dress up really fast and lock the door heading to the palace. I have to come back early before mother comes back so that I can clean. I don’t want her up my case about things like cleaning.
When I reach the royal house they don’t give me a problem by the gate. I go and knock on the door and open. There is no one by the living room so I continue walking going to Lwandle’s room. I’m not sure if she is alone or with MaKhumalo but I’m hoping she is alone because I can not deal with that woman. She acted all good and now she is showing her true self.
I knock a little and then open I find her cleaning around her room and I’m glad she is alone.
“Babe you are fine?”
I ask her and she lifts her eyes to meet mine.
“Yebo I’m fine why would I not be fine”
She says walking to me and gives me a hug. I missed these kind of hugs a lot.
“I had a bad dream about you being hurt. You were stabbed and had a lot of blood you said something about the royal house being in danger and you have been saying that a lot ”
I tell her and she pulls me to sit on the bed with her. I hope she is not delivering bad news to be because that would be sad I really am tired of these bad news.
“Don’t worry about it the seer fixed it. The palace is protected the person who was putting the palace in danger has been brou-ght to justice”
She says and I keep looking at her waiting for her to tell me who this person was. I’m sure she knows that I want to know who it is.
“You really want to know don’t you?”
She asks me and I nod my head. She brushes her head a little and moves her eyes from mine and looks the other side.
“MaKhumalo”
She says and I look at her shocked. I did know that MaKhumalo did not like me and she was not happy with the new arrangements but I didn’t know she will be responsible for the royal house being in danger.
“That’s sad what did you guys do to her?”
I ask because I am really curious. I hope that they did not hurt her. She might have been a bad person here and there but she does not deserve to be hurt.
“Don’t worry about it”
She says and pulls me closer to her.
“I hope you did not kill her because that would be wrong on many levels Lwandle”
I says and she laughs. I don’t even know why she is laughing because what I said is not even funny.
“Don’t laugh Lwandle when I’m being serious”
I say and she nods her head. I don’t know why she is nodding and not answering me.
“I promise you we didn’t kill her but she was punished so don’t worry about it.”
She says and I nod my head. Atleast they didn’t kill her because I don’t think I would be able to live with someone responsible for another person’s death.
“What did she do”
I ask her something that had been at the back of my mind.
“She was using umuthi. Cabanga having the guts to go to a witch to bewitch someone you say you love but I don’t want to talk about it right now. Let’s talk about something else”
She says and I nod my head. I get that this is a very traumatic thing for her.
“The seer told me what happened about you finding out that the father you thought was your father is not your father.”
She says and I nod. That’s another story that has not really set in my mind.
“That’s another thing I don’t know what to do about”
I say to her
“I hear you babe you don’t have to talk about if you don’t want to. I mean it must be ha-rd on you but I’m sure it’s also ha-rd on your mother”
She says and I nod my head. I guess she is right i should stop stressing myself about this whole thing. If this father of mine didn’t want to have any relationship with me. I should also not bother having any form of relationship with her I sing want to force myself into someone’s life.
“Come here”
She says pulling my face closer hers and starts ki-ssing me. The ki-ss is intense and I like where this whole thing is going. It’s been long since we have been intimated and I do need some loving. I sit on her lap and we continue ki-ssing.
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When I wake up she is not next to me so I get out of bed and go take a bath. I don’t want to go home smelling of se-x because my mother would die three times. When I’m done I find her sitting on the bed. She has food next to her so I’m happy because I was hungry.
“Thank God ngathi bowazi ukuthi I’m hungry”
I tel her and she laughs a little.
“Idla them we take a walk around the village”
She says and I just look at her like she has lost her mind.
“Ebana you want us to walk around the village what will people say Kodwa.”
I ask her and she does not look like she has any interest.
“So your results?”
She says and it hits me that I still don’t know my results
“I didn’t check them yazi I will when I’m get home I’m sure Nandipha bought the newspaper.”
I tell her and she nods her head.
“So are you going to go to university?”
She asks me and I’m taken back by her question. I’m mean how can she ask me that kind of question ofcourse I’m going to university because I want a better life than the one I have right now.
“Yebo I’m going to UJ”
I tell her and she turns very fast to look at me. I can see the shocked look on her face.
“Why so far I mean that’s really far Lindiwe”
She says. She sounds like she is angry at me which confuses me a lot.
She stands up and starts walking around the room which is starting to annoy and make me dizzy.
“Lwandle stop what you are doing.”
I say and she stops.
“You can’t UD is there moc why would you want to go this far Lindiwe? Don’t you love me?”
She asks me and I don’t know why she is asking me this kind of question.
“Why would you ask me that I love you Lwandle more than anything. I applied before we even started dating please don’t do this”
I say but she does not answer me. She exits the room ban-ging the door on her way out.
My Gift
27
I don’t want to sit here not knowing where Lwandle is so I go out in search of her. I got out the bedroom and go to.the kitchen that’s the first place I will look for her at because she is not a fan of the television. When I get there the queen is making food.
“Sanibonani Mah”
I greet her and she lifts her eyes from the food she is making and looks at me.
“How are you doing sisi?I didn’t know you where here”
She says and I walk closer to her and stand next to her.
“I’m good I come in the morning I wanted to see Lwandle” I say
“Ohhh Thank you for helping my child I will forever be grateful to you”
She says and I nod my head smiling. I’m just glad that I could help and I did help myself in a way because I love Lwandle.
“Mah have you seen Lwandle?”
I ask her and she shakes her head. Great
“No I have not I thought she was in her bedroom.”
She says and I sigh.
“She was she just went out now.”
I tell her and she looks at me. Does she really expect me to tell her why she went out her room?
Wow
“We had a little disagreement that’s all so I wanted to find her and we fix it.”
I tell her and she nods. I’m just glad she us not forcing me to tell her what the disagreement was about. I don’t want her to be involved because she might take her daughter’s side.
“I hope you guys fix whatever is bothering you guys”
She says
“Me too let me go and look for her then”
I say and start walking out the kitchen. I use the living room’s door to exit and I spot her by the far end of the compound. I take a de-ep breath and start walking to where she is. She is just standing and looking straight ahead. I’m not sure if I should say anything to get her attention or I should be silent and just stand next to her.
“Lwandle”
I call her and she turns look at me which surprises me. I thought she was going to ignore me but I’m glad she did not.
“Can we talk about this?”
I ask her and she moves from were she is standing to stand infront of me.
“Will you go to UD? if do we talk about it”
She ask and I shake my head. I don’t want to go there I feel like it’s near. That’s what I thought before I met her but I still think it’s near and I don’t want that. I want to be independent and start walking this life walk on my on not with my mother coming to see me every weekend.
“Lwandle please don’t be like that I mean I will visit every holiday I promise and we will talk on call every chance we get”
I try to rea-ssure her but it does not seem like it’s working. She is not taking any of it and I think she is being unfair on me right now.
“What you are doing is not fair Lwandle. Please understand”
I say and she shakes her head.
“I love you Lindiwe I really love you with everything I have in me and you being that hurts me more than anything. God knows I want the best for you in life Kodwa I don’t don’t want to lose you”
She says and brushes her head. She looks sad and that hurts me a lot. I don’t want her feeling sad and looking the way she is right now it hurts me.
“If I apply now won’t it be too late?”
I ask her. I don’t want to see her sad I mean I’m sure the university is also good so I have nothing to lose as long as I’m close to her and she is happy. I will also be happy being close to her.
“I will talk to ubaba maybe he can make something happen”
She says and pulls me closer for a hug. Just what I needed her warm hugs that always leave me wanting more.
“I have to talk to him now”
She says and holds my hand as she pulls me back to the house but in a gentle way. I’m very hesitant with what we are about to do. I don’t want to seem like I’m using my relationship with Lwandle to get things.
When we get inside the king is not by the living room so I sit on the couch as she goes to look for him. I look around the house and look at the picture frames hanging in the wall. They are family pictures and some from when Lwandle was still young.
“Please baba ngiyacela”
I hear Lwandle say and when I look to where the voice is coming from the king enters with Lwandle following behind her.
“I will see Lwandle I didn’t say no. I will try and talk to people I know.”
She says and sits on the couch opposite mine. Lwandle sits next to me and I wait for them to say something.
“Lwandle told me about your request”
She says and I nod my head. I don’t know when it started to be my request but I would not mind being close to Lwandle I would actually love the freedom that comes with being near. I would date the person I love without anyone judging me or calling me an abomination.
“I’m not promising anything but I will see what I can do”
He says.
“Ngiyabonga baba.”
He just nods his head and starts being busy with his phone.
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I’m now back home and I’m cleaning. My mother can enter anytime from now and I don’t want drama. I just want to stress about other things like my results that I have not seen. They keep worrying me but not that much I mean I worked really ha-rd during my exams so I have faith that I pa-ssed well.
While I’m cleaning I hesr a knock by the door and before I can open the person pushes the door and enter.
It’s Nandipha. I have not seen her in a while now so I’m excited to see her now.
“Injani I miss you”
I say giving her a hug and she hugs me back. She is carrying a newspaper with her and I’m sure she has seen my results or wants me to check them.
“I missed you too mara ngathi Lwandle is taking all your time but don’t worry its fine.”
She says sitting on the just made bed.
“So guess what? OMG you pa-ssed three distinctions that’s a lot”
She says and screams like jumping a little on the bed. I’m shocked I scream a little then collect myself. I take the newspaper from her and start looking for my exam number till I see it. I pa-ssed like she said I did we both scream and hug.
“I’m so happy right now”
I say and she smile at each other then start laughing.
“Lwandle wants me to go to UD.”
I tell her and she stops.
“Wena you don’t want to?”
She asks me and I don’t answer.
“I want to be near her I really do I mean it’s still a little far from uMah so I do want to go there.”
I answer her and she is looking at me like I need to pay her.
“Are you sure you want to go there I mean it’s all you talked about last year. Going to UJ are you sure you want to give that up?”
She asks me and I don’t know how to answer her. Going to UJ has been something I always wanted. It’s something I have been dreaming about for all the years I was in high school.
“Think about it before making a decision”
She says and I nod my head. She is right I need to think ha-rd before making a decision.
6 MONTHS LATER
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Tbc