LASTING MEMORY. Episode 19
Kane sat gently on Olivia’s cushion while Mark was sitting opposite him. He was still wearing a straight face pretending to be watching the television
Olivia surprised Kane by asking him
“What can I offer you, water jui-ce, wine or fruits…I know you don’t like taking jui-ce you prefer wine…so should I get it for you…?
Kane looked up at Olivia with his mouth open not knowing how to reply to her unexpected kind gesture. He blinked just to make sure it wasn’t a dream, Olivia waited for Kane to reply but when he remained speechless she said
“I will take your silent for a yes…and get the wine for you because I know you to be a lover of fine red wine…
Olivia brou-ght a wine and a tumbler for Kane who sat looking at her.
Mark was quietly looking at them, he was feeling uncomfortable with Olivia’s attitude to Kane, he swallowed ha-rd , and sat properly on his sit, he cleared his throat so that Olivia will acknowledge his pres£nce.
Olivia never smile all throu-gh this period, she was just on a straight expressionless face, and nob©dy can tell if she was happy or not. She ignored Mark who repeatedly cleared his throat just to draw her attention.
Kane looked at Mark and saw the jealousy written all over him, he wondered if Olivia was alre-ady in a relationsh!pwith the doctor, which made the doctor to be acting all up at his pres£nce.
Kane ignored him and focused on Olivia who went inside and instruct her cook to prepare something for dinner.
Kane can hear her telling the cook to start evening food immediately.
Olivia returned to the sitting room and called Mark aside, out of Kane’s hearing.
“All that drama outside wasn’t necessary Mark…he was my guest…you should have allowed me to have an opinion if I want him in or not…you shouldn’t make decisions on my behalf…
“I’m sorry Olivia, I thought you wouldn’t want to see him after all he did to you…I was just looking out for you Olivia…I care about your well being…so much. and I never want anything or anyone that will make you sad ever again, I want to protect you from people like Kane…who almost killed you…you pas-sed out for days Olivia…I have never being so scared in my life, I was not myself watching you l@yso lifeless in that hospital be-d with a life support…you wouldn’t un-derstand how difficult and scary your condition was…your condition was so critical…but I’m glad at the end you are fully back to your normal self…I know I don’t have a say or have any right to dictate what you want but all I did was to protect you…because…I really do care about you Olivia…
“Thank you Doctor Mark…I appreciate everything you have done for me so far…I really do appreciate you…but I nee-d to talk with Kane and it will be better if you leave…Kane is not the devil but his past who’s name was Kaka is the darkness”>darkness that engulfed me and I was determined to bring that past to book but as you alre-ady know it did not end well…I want to have a mature talk with Kane and your pres£nce will be a great distraction…I’m sorry to ask you to leave but I nee-d audience with Kane alone…
Mark felt disappointed, he tried to argue but suddenly st©pped. He went back inside, picked up his car key and drove off. Olivia went in to join Kane who has not t©uçhed his drink as he tried to focus on the television but his mind was on Olivia and Mark talking outside before Olivia returned back and sat opposite him, close to where Mark sat earlier before he finally left.
Olivia did not say anything immediately as she tuned down the television volume before facing Kane. Kane dropped the drink in his hand and looked at his sweating palm, even with the air condition cooling in Olivia’s parlor he was sweating inside. He wondered how to start a conversation as they were both quiet except for his heart beat that sounded like a drum in his ears.
Kane did not want to say or ask anything that will offend Olivia as he continue to stare at his palm and later looked up at Olivia who was staring at him with a frown on her face.
He looked away and breathed down, he wish Olivia could just say something to him, he wish to ask her how she was fairing, plead for her forgiveness continually, ask of Emerald his daughter, who he has not seen for some months, he de-sire to ask Olivia if she was alre-ady in a relationsh!pwith Doctor Mark, he de-sire to ask her if is possible to give him another chance to right his wrongs, to give her everything and even more than he has ever given before, he wanted to say many things how his life has being so sad and empty without her pres£nce, to tell her that he can’t live without her, Kane wish she can prove to Olivia that he truly loves her far more than anything and anyone, he knows he can’t bring her parents back to life as much as he would have given anything to bring them to life but he can’t because money can not buy life, he wish to say many thing to Olivia but all he did was to look at her and looked away as he saw the heat of Olivia’s eyes gazing down on him.
“Are you going to sit there and stare without saying anything…why are you here…you have not told me why you c@m£ Kane…
“i…I don’t know why I’m here Olivia…maybe to see you and to know how you are doing, to know if you will ever forgive me…to know if I will ever have a chance to be in your life again because my life is so empty without you…to know what I have to do to obtain your forgiveness…I’m re-ady to do anything Olivia, anything possible to have your total forgiveness for all my past sin…plea-se…whatever the cause maybe. If you ask me to bring your parents back to life….that, I won’t be able to do Olivia…I wish I can but I can’t and that is the only thing I won’t be able to do for you but I will do every other thing to be qualified for your forgiveness…I know you warned me never to speak to you about love but I still can’t help it in this situation…I don’t deserve your love or forgiveness but I want to try to earn it…if you will give me another chance…I can never st©p loving you Olivia…I can’t…I don’t know if I will be able to live without you…my life will be so void, lonely and empty without you in it…I love you and Emerald more than everything in this world…Olivia….
Kane went down on his left knee and held onto his walking stick as he stood his right knee which he can’t bend due to the damage the bullet left in his kneecap.
Olivia kept a straight face as he watch him struggle to go on one knee while supporting himself with his stick, she felt pity for him because Kane may have to depend on a walking stick for the rest of his life if surgeries did not correct his knee
Kane tries to keep his right wounded leg steady as he plead to Olivia on one knee, Olivia still did not say anything as he kept on watching him
Olivia saw his struggle and his pain as he tries to change his kneeling position which was causing pain on his right knee
Kane loosed his balance and fell to the ground, Olivia g@sp as she saw him fall and he tries to get up again
“plea-se sit down Kane, the knelling thing is not necessary nor appropriate considering your condition…plea-se sit and st©p hurting your self…whether you knee, sit or stand up to speak to me it doesn’t really matter all that matters is the word not necessary the added action, I try not to hate you because of your past but I hate your past for all it took from me, I try to see you as Kane and not the terrible Kaka that unleashed darkness to my family, I’m beginning to work on myself to accept the fate that life threw at me…is really difficult, I have struggles but I will be alright… while you are sitting un-der my roof is because I’m letting go of the hate and unforgivness that clouded my mind…I want to see you differently from whatever you use to be but it will take time and distance to achieve that…all the terrible things happening of recent could have being avoided if you have walked on a good path as a young man back then instead trading a peaceful life for gangster and stupid power…if you have being upright in the past, we may not have end up together or have any connection but I’m sure you will live with a clear conscience and I may still have my parents by now… is so ha-rd to just see you as an ordinary man, is difficult for me counting from the years we have being together and shared so much happiness and love, everything was so beautiful and I was looking forward to spending ever after with you and Emerald but one bad past changed everything and I’m about starting my life all over in a different platform is damn ha-rd but I will be fine. Kane no matter how bad it is… is so sad that it has to go this way…but I won’t be able to love you like I have always done before finding out about your past…I can’t even love anyone right now…except myself and my daughter… being with you again I will always be reminded of my parents killer, you will remind me everyday with your pres£nce and no matter how I try to let go or forget I will still remember and I may end up hurting even more than ever. Being with an ex murderer, a ra-pist and an arm robber. I know those are your past man and not who you are any more but I won’t be able to get past who you use to be especially loosing my loving parents to this careless past. I won’t be able to totally let go Kane and that’s more reason I’m letting you go to begin another life and I wish you all the best out there. plea-se do not argue or plead again because it won’t change anything…my mind is all made up. I hold no grudge or hate against you but there is no “we” any more and there won’t ever be and is not because I have not forgiven you but because I can’t forget…I ca…n’t…forg….
Olivia pause and bent her head, she covered her mouth with her hand as she sobbe-d silently. Kane’s eye was alre-ady soiled as he listened to Olivia, he re-leased all the tears and it rolled down from his face, he stood up with his stick and gently walked up to where Olivia was sitting, he sat beside her and drew her into his arm and Olivia did not hesitate as she went into his arms and they both cried together like wounded babies.
Kane couldn’t speak anymore as he felt so emotional and a lump of sad pain in his throat seeing that he may not have a chance with Olivia again but he was glad to at least have her in his arm even if is for this moment.
Olivia got herself together and straightened from Kane, Kane tried to wipe her eyes with his hand but she stood up and took a tissue box, she c@m£ back to sit beside Kane as he gave him some of the tissue to clean his teary eyes as she cleaned hers too.
She looked up at Kane, and quic-kly looked away
She shut her eyes before saying
“this…is so ha-rd …so ha-rd …but I will live everyday at time just as doctor Kate as said…is just so ha-rd to accept that I will be starting my life all over again without you in it…but is better this way to avoid future regrets and th…
Kane quic-kly covered her mouth with his, as he k!$$£d her, Olivia struggled to get free but Kane held onto her, Olivia later relaxed as she allowed Kane to k!$$£d her as if his life depends on it, she responded as they both held onto each other testing each others salty tears as it rolled down from there eyes.
Olivia suddenly broke free and stood up as she cleaned her eyes with tissue, Kane later stood up with his walking stick and gently walked away.
Olivia went to her room and re-leased all the held on emotional tears as she cried into her pillow
Kane sat in his car and couldn’t move as he placed his head on his sterling and cried like a child.
He wonder how he will be able to live without Olivia, how will his life be like without Olivia in it who obviously still loves him but can’t be with him because of his terrible past which may hunt her in the future.
Kane hit his steering ha-rd in totally sadness as he wish he can undo what he did in the past, rewrite his own story, bec@m£ reborn again so that he can start a clean path, do anything he can just to have Olivia back to his life.
Olivia got a knock on her room door, the cook c@m£ to inform her that dinner was set but she told the cook she wasn’t hungry and don’t feel like eating as she remained in her room without stepping out.
The house was quiet, empty and lonely for Olivia. She was processing her own legal firm which made her to drive out every morning and come back in the evening. It helped her greatly as she got involve with other barristers, human right attorneys, Councillors, judges and many others in her field of study and also outside.
Helen c@m£ back with Emerald and the house bec@m£ warm again, they talked de-ep into the night and Helen have to stay over till the following day before leaving.
Olivia drove out with her daughter for a sight seeing and mini shopping. She asked her driver to stay back that she want to drive herself and have a mother and daughter moment with Emerald.
Emerald was filled with question as she sat excitedly beside her mother who look straight ahead as she kept driving, she was happy to be back to her mom
“Mom, you said you had an accident which made you to have a hair cut…was that the reason you asked me to go live with Aunty Helen?
“Yes Emerald…you wouldn’t want to see me broken and crying like a baby when an injection was entrust to my bu-tt…
“hahahaha…injections can be painful on the bu-tt…hmmm…but is so sad mom….that must have hurt so much…I’m sorry mom, you shouldn’t have s£nt me away with Aunty Helen…I would have love to take care of you by myself because I want to become a strong doctor like Doctor Kate…I guess is uncle Kane, doctor Kate and doctor Mark that took care of you while you are at the hospital…and when are we visiting uncle Kane…or maybe you can call him so that he can join us…that will be so cool…just as before…
“Well, Kane won’t be joining us any more, I want you to un-derstand that because is a fact…Emerald, you may not get to go hanging out, merry go round, shopping, eatery or any fun fair with Kane because things have changed and is not as it use to be before, Kane and I got involve in an accident…it affected my head and I have to shave off the hair and it also affected his leg… he may not be able to walk well because of that…we were both hurt from what happened and we are taking time to heal up…I feel sad about it but is my decision sweetheart….and I will feel more hurt if I see him again that was more reason I asked him to stay away so that he can also heal…so is me and you right now and forever…and mummy will give you only the best…do you un-derstand me…?
“Yes mom, I un-derstand. plea-se don’t get mad at me but we can sometimes check on uncle Kane to know how he is fairing and also his leg injury…he is a nice man mom but if you say no I won’t insist…whatever you say is the best…all that matters is that I’m home and we have forever to spend together…I was dying to come home, Aunty Helen told me that you had a little accident and you were being treated in the hospital…I cried and wanted to come home but she as-sured me that you will be fine, she asked me to pray constantly for you and I did everyday, morning, afternoon and also night until I was able to speak over the phone with you… but I really wanted to come home…and I’m so happy to be home with you…
Olivia gently squee-zed her shoulder with a smile before saying
“Thank you for praying for me…God must have ha-rd your prayers and quic-ken my healing…let’s go and have some fun honey because mom miss you more than you can imagine…we will go on merry go round, shopping, sight seeing and we will take loads of pictures…hope you have your mini cannon c@m£ra…
“Yes mom…is in my back pack…I’m so happy to be home…hurrayyyyyy…hahahaha….
Emerald laughed out as Olivia joined her as she continues to drive.
Kane drove down again to see Olivia who wasn’t home at that moment but met Emerald who ran and hvgged Kane immediately after opening the door. Kane shouted excitedly on seeing Emerald, he held onto his daughter as he put his walking stick aside and held her with his two hands…
“Look who is back from the princess island, my one and only Ema…I have missed you pumpkin…you are growing like fertilized vegetable…look at how big you are…what have they being feeding you….
Emerald laugh as she loos£ned up from Kane, she couldn’t hide her excitement on seeing Kane, Kane picked up his walking stick instead of going inside he stepped back and sat on the outside step while Emerald joined him.
“You are growing so fast Ema, soon you will be taller than your mom, I remember back then when you were doing horse ride on my back but if we do horse ride now that you are this big… you will break my back bone… hahahaha…time flies so fast…I never knew you are back…where have you being to…growing like a fertilized Vegetable…
“hahahaha…all thank to mum, she is feeding me well and is not fertilized vegetable but organic veggie…I was out with Aunt Helen and i miss you too uncle Kane…mum told me about the accident…that you hurt your leg and may not be able to walk straight for a long time…I’m so sorry about that…she feels sad about it too…I also feel sad but I’m happy to see you…mom is not around …she went to her chamber….but you can come in and wait for her instead of sitting out here…I really don’t know if she will be happy about inviting you into the house…and I don’t want her to be sad or hurt because she said she will feel bad if she see’s you and I guess she is worried because of your bad leg …or maybe is better we just stay out here for the moment until she returns…I can get drink and food out here for you…and let’s hope mum will be happy to see you too like I am…
“I’m happy to see you again Ema…I have missed you…so your mom has a chamber now…that so cool. Your mum is so determined and ha-rd working…I never knew she has gotten a chamber alre-ady. I didn’t want to get her angry that was why I stayed away for sometimes…because she is trying to recover from the accident that happened to both of us…I could have gotten your favourites snacks, pizza, strawberry ice cream…your best flavour, and a whole lot of other things for you if I knew that you were home. And I will soon be going in other not to get your mom hurt…she will have a long day after work and may not like you sitting out here with me…so I may get to see you soon if she approves…I don’t want to get you into trouble or get myself into trouble too…like a disobe-dient children…hahahahaha…
Kane stayed for a little while before leaving. And after few hours Olivia drove back home and Emerald who was afraid that her mom will be angry or maybe hurt if she tells her about Kane earlier visit, did not say anything immediately to her until Olivia was relaxed for the night. She went in and apologetically told her mum that “Uncle Kane c@m£ around earlier today but he did not come inside the house, he just stayed a little while outside and left because he doesn’t want you to be angry for coming in your abs£nce and I don’t want you to be mad at me…I saw his leg…he walks with the support of a walking stick…I feel sad for him but he left because he doesn’t want you to be mad and I don’t want you to be mom…plea-se… “Emerald said while standing in front of her mom with a pleading look.
Olivia was not angry as she smile and told her daughter that it was okay. They l@ytogether on the be-d and watch some comedy show.
Olivia quic-kly sle-pt off and Emerald covered her up with a blanket, turn off the television before going back to her room.
Olivia employed attorneys in her firm, they foresee things on her behalf while she handles the big case as she was growing to become a renowned Barrister and human right activist.
She opened other businesses and have people manage it for her.
Mark c@m£ around and tries to talk to Olivia about getting into a relationsh!pwith him since she was no more with Kane but Olivia told him she was building her life and does not want a relationsh!p.
Mark left again as he plans to give Olivia time to think about what he told her.
Kane also c@m£ around and begged Olivia if he can come around more often for Emerald sake but Olivia also rejected such an idea.
She told Kane to stay away more often for the sake of her happiness and Kane agreed.
Olivia started processing travelling papers for she and Emerald. As she plans to move out of the country so that she can breathe in fresh air.
Kane and Mark where choking her with their constant plead for a relationsh!pand she really nee-d to get out of the country for some months or few years to be able move on and they will also move on.
Mark was planning to come back again for Olivia, he thought within himself that such period of time was a good opportunity for him to win Olivia’s heart since she has ended things with Kane. He will keep trying until Olivia consider him and give him a chance into her life.
“Kane will be so pained if Olivia end up with me but I don’t care, he messed up his chance with her now is my turn to finally have her after a long pursuit”. Mark thought within himself.
Neither Kane or Mark knew of Olivia’s plans to travel out of the country. Olivia wanted it that way but she informed Doctor Kate and her best friend Helen.
Some days later, before Olivia start parking her bags as her papers and that of Emerald were all re-ady for them fly out of the country, Doctor Kate invited her out on women’s d@t£. She and Helen inclusive.
They all went out for a movie and sit out as they all talked like old friends and laugh away all their sorrow and Helen has to give the breaking news of looking forward to becoming a mother soon.
She was few weeks pregnant and it was confirmed by Doctor Kate.
They were all happy as they talk, cry, laugh and kept talking until it was time to head back home.
They hvgged each other before driving off to their different homes.
To be continued
LASTING MEMORY. Episode 19