JUST A LITTLE SIN
Episode 38
By Amah’s Heart
“I’m good. I’m not here to talk about my belief or is that the reason I was asked to see you? Well, I may probably not come again and i know I’m not doing you any favor with or without my presence..”
This was how I started my own line of conversation with the pastor after he asked how I was doing and also asked if I enjoyed the service. He then proceed to ask how is my Christian lifestyle like.
Chumi suddenly came to see the pastor but the pastor said should come back later.
“We will be very please to have you. Yoara, your brother is strongly rooted in the Lord, his woman.. Miss Chumi, she’s on fired for God. Her pa-ssion for the things of God is unquestionable. Your brother is blessed with angel in human form. The people close to you are zealous for God, they’re strong believers. I un-derstand why you are not drawn to their holy fire yet is because the d*mons against your life and progress does not want you to come to the light..”
Did this pastor just say “d*mons” oh, he thinks I’m possessed by some bad spirit and that’s why “miss angelic Chumi” and her fiancée have not being able to convert me into holiness like they are.
I unapologetically began to laugh.
“Pastor you’re too funny o” did the holy power from above just whispered to your ears that I’m possessed..”
“,No Tomasi, I never said that you’re possessed, I only said the dem*ns are at war with your inner man. They are trying to restrict you from the light.. That’s Jesus Christ..”
“Thanks for the information pastor, I will tell the dem*ns not to bother me, i will tell them to stop taking my light whenever I see them. Okay, let’s focus on the main reason why I am here. Some of your top notch, perfect, demon free members aren’t as they appear. Example are your chorister with the angelic voice that opens gates of heaven. Well, I’m surprise that you don’t actually see throu-ghtheir veils. You’re suppose to know and differentiate those who are really serving the Lord from those who are only pretending..”
“I un-derstand you Tomasi but is not in my place to judge anyone. For we’ve sin and come short of the glory of God, we were not worthy of his mercies and no longer have access to God, then Christ came and became a bridge so that we all can climb to talk to the father. Christ never condemned sinners rather they were the reason for his coming. He came so that we will will have life and have it in abundance. Tomasi, I’m not here to look at anyone’s chosen ways of life, I’m not place as a pastor to judge them, I’m always going to speak the truth to them, reminding them that the master who sees all will judge our earthly action on the last day…including mine…”
He pause, smile and continue
“…Tomasi, because I am a pastor and probably a good preacher does not give me a direct heavenly ticket, it does not mean I’m without fault or free from God’s wrath when I derail. We are only living by his mercies and I’m not in any place to throw judgement or to condemn, I will allow God be the judge. Focus mainly on your own calling, do that which pleases the Lord.. Perfection is of the Lord but let’s not play our eye service before him because he knows and sees all and at unexpected time we will reap our reward..”
He paused again, looked straight at me and said
“…did any of what I said makes sense to you? Did you un-derstand little at least..?
” No, nothing you said make much sense to me, pastor..”
He chuckles quietly.
“You’re one harden soul and you’re the exact type the Lord is searching for. And the beautiful thing about you is that you become a moving for-ce, an unquenchable fire for the Lord when you finally embrace him and his ways..”
I murmured to myself and knew it was all a waste of time.
“See pastor, is not Tomasi that will become unquenchable fire. See that vision for another person but definitely not me. Let’s not waste each others time here, I wil…”
Just then Chumi came to where the pastor and I were sitting, this is the second time.
Interrupting me with her annoying presence
“Sorry for interrupting pastor, a member told me that you will want to see me urgently, is that so?
” no, I never asked to see you ” Pastor replied
“Alright, I will like to see you pastor and there’s lot’s of other members waiting to see you too. You won’t be able to attend to all of them if you… I mean talking with Tomasi..”
“I will Chumi, they only need to be patient with me. I’m enjoying the talk with Tomasi, he’s very brilliant and so friendly. He’s equally funny, he’s really cracking my ribs and I wouldn’t want our conversation to end without making him my friend, he’s a great man and it will be a great privilege to be his friend. What do you say to that Tomasi…?
He said while turning to me
All this his over sweet talk about me will wroth my teeth.
I’m not falling for that.
Chumi, is really not at peace with herself.
Her heart must be racing while thinking I was expo-sing her ill secrets to the pastor.
Is unfortunate that the pastor is not even ready to listen.
He’s preaching to me that judgement is of the Lord because no one is without sin.
I didn’t ask him all of that, I was only trying to make him un-derstand that some of his so called ministers are wolf in sheep clothing
But he’s saying that God is the judge of that and will reward everyone according to their deed.
I’m done here.
Chumi and the rest of the crew in line to see the pastor should come in
I know it was all a lie, Chumi just want me to be gone.
Well, I’m going home anyway.
I think I will hands up from all of this Chumi hidden affairs.
I’m exhausted already because nobody is even ready to listen.
Not Yoara and not even the pastor.
Chumi is a big sinner, and instead of God to pun*sh her for all her atrocities, he gave her a fine singing voice that’s so melodious.
I don’t un-derstand God or the pastor
Sinners should be dealt with, those who their sins are much like Chumi should be punished severely.
But pastor is telling me that God is no more doing like that because of Jesus Christ.
And is not in my place to judge.
He’s confusing my brain, is better I leave here.
I stood and began to walk out.
The pastor wanted me to stay but I was done with the chic chat and him trying to patronise me with friendship talk.
I walked out and went straight home.
I have tried my best to exp-ose Chumi, maybe is high time I let God decide when to handle her case
Is just that God takes time in action, I wish it will be soon.
And I hope Yoara won’t get burn up before he discover the real truth about his super perfect woman.
Tomorrow is a big day for me, I’m resuming my first job.
I will live and work there, which means I got to get ready.
I will speak with Omie when I’m throu-gh, maybe later I will go and visit Konji.
He should be back by then.
I look forward to tomorrow, I no longer want Chumi’s problem to bother me.
Atleast everyone will remove joblessness” from my name because I have finally gotten a job and that’s where my focus lies.
Sometimes I wish God is still the same old action God that will strick down unrepentant sinner.
Or maybe, is a good thing God is merciful now because I may probably be among those he will struck down long before now.
I really don’t un-derstand so many things about this God but Yoara pastor makes him sound very interesting.
Maybe some day, I will un-derstand God better.
But before then, he should not let Chumi go scot free because her sin is far bigger than anyone I have come across.
Tomorrow should come fast so that I will be gone from here to resume my job as a new plumber on probation.
(Do NOT take credit or plagiarize AMAH’S HEART stories)