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*CHAPTER 75
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Alexander woke up with a start as she
screams ”Jaime!!’ as she sat up almost
immediately.
Her eyes opening in fear, her hands shaking
and her heart about to burst. She stares at the
bed and then the room, her father wasn’t
laughing down at her nor was she tied and
nak-ed on the bed. She stares at the door, her
heart in her mouth.
But it stared back at her, ba-re. There was no
Jaime, nor was there blood making a pool to
the bed.
She lets out a small sob as she closes her
mouth, her eyes were w£t, her body shaking .
”It was a dream!!!” she breaths. ”It was just a
dream” she cried into her hands. ”But it felt
real, so real! But it is a dream – it” she trails
off noticing something was wrong.
Where is Jaime? Why is the bed
empty..where..Oh God!!!
Then she jumps up from the bed ”Jaime?” and
pads to the door, with one swing she pulls it
up and then rushes downstairs screaming his
name..
”Jaime!!!” JAIME!!!!!”
”Alexander, what’s wrong?” Tinny-B rushes out
of the opposite room, sighting the hysterical
Alexander she flies down the stairs and then
grabs her ”Alexander what’s wrong?” fear fills
her voice, she had never seen her friend this
way before ”Baby talk to me, what’s wrong?”
”Jaime!” she choked ”Jaime, where is Jaime –
He ..” she turns around ”JAIME!!!!!!!”
Another door flies open , Adam rushes out, a
gun in hand where nothing but his brief , He
walks briefly to her , Alert as his eyes scans
the area, Tinny-B is trying to calm her down
”Alexander, calm down, what is it?”
”JAIME!” She screams
”What is wrong, what happened?” he turns her
to face him , ‘What happened Damnit!”
Two other doors flies open, about a dozen
guards appeared in the room, guns showing
and pointed in all areas…
”Jaime! Oh my God where is Jaime ?” she
cries ”Where is he?”
”Check the parameters, did anyone see
anything?” Adam says over his shoulders
”No..it’s been quiet and–” one of them says ,
”The fxxk is going on here, find him” Adam
yells suddenly scared something had happen
to him
The front door opens, Jaime walks in with a
frown on his way…”What’s going on?” he asks
removing the ear-piece in his ears and the
small towel he had over his ne-ck.
Alexander cries in relief as she nudges them
away and runs to him, she grabs him into a
hu-g and then cries..
”Babe, what’s wrong, why-”
She was shaking he noticed , he wraps his
arms around her ”Baby, talk to me..what’s
wrong, please?” she kept crying and holding
him even ti-ghter ”What the hell happened?” he
asks no one in particular
”She erm..she just kept screaming for you
like..i don’t know” Tinny-B trails off running a
hand throu-ghher hair ”I don’t know, she
seemed deathly pale…as though she –” she
trails off
un-derstanding now, he closes and then opens
his eyes, he grabs her ti-ght ”It’s okay, it’s okay”
Adam turns and then nods, the security details
suddenly vacate the room.
”Oh God Jaime!!” she cried
”It’s just a bad dream, a bad dream okay?”
”No, it felt so real like -” she sniffs pulling
away ”Like you-” she touches his che-st and
then ran her hand over it ”Like you were
bleeding from a gut to your stomach, by the
door and he was–” she trails off covering her
mouth ”Oh God it felt so real and i wanted to
die” she cries
He pulls her to him again, she sobs even
more..
”Damn, never seen her like this before”Tinny-B
says worried
Adam nods ”Something must have scared her
badly ” he says sighing ”Come on’ lets give
them some privacy ”
”Yeah!”
They both walk away leaving Alexander and
Jaime alone.
He pulls her with him, he sinks into a chair and
then carries her as he would a child. Alexander
leans on him as she tries to calm down.
”Alexander?”
”Yes?” she managed
”What were you thinking about before you
slept?” he hu-gs her to him, his jaw resting on
her head
”I don’t know- ”
”Look? You had a bad dream and it might be
as a result of what you had in mind”
She shakes her head ”I wasn’t thinking about
your death before i slept Jaime-”
He is quiet, he takes her hand and then ki-sses
it ”It doesn’t necessarily mean you were, it
could mean that you were and are worried for
my safety ”
”You were not in my dream, it was real- you
were not just bleeding out, you were already
dead. It felt as real as anything” she sniffs
”Babe, it was a dream”
”Promise me you would be safe today, please,
I do not have a good feeling at all and i have
never been this scared for another person like
this, Promise me!”
”You do not have a good feeling because you
know everything about my life, and Jimmy, and
then all of it, so you feel that there is danger
lur-k-ing around”
”He won’t give up easily, i do not believe he
would”
”I told you the Chief of Police has eyes on him
and plus the place would be crawling with
securities and plus..i know my brother can
be..erratic and all but- there is a no danger
there Alexander”
”I don’t believe it!” she is shaking her head
”And you do not believe what you just said
either. With all what you told me last night-
you cannot believe what you just said” she
points out
He sighs ” You are right, i do not but- ” he
takes in a de-ep breath ”I do not always have
to think the worst of my brother. I used to
look up to him and wanted to be like him..but
when i realized that that drunken night he lets
it all out – i knew that…the hate he had in his
heart was real and its all because he was and
is angry at father for the death of his mother,
not even trying to see the glaring truth that his
mother OD-ed, and that she caused her own
death and that it broke my father too..he only
felt he was the only one who lost someone
and he blamed father for it- and maybe even
hated him more for moving on, for falling and
marrying my mother, for me.
He said to me once ”Jaime will never be my
replacement, he would never be!!! ”’ Jaime
smiles sadly shaking his head ” I thought he
was just angry when he said that to father, i
was standing there, ba-rely ten there, but i felt
the hate but i was a kid, i would never believe
my brother hated me but that drunken night
babe, a day i would never forget and i stared
down at him, my heart breaking, shaking and
tears in my eyes ”Tell me all this is a lie
Jimmy, tell me you are just drunk and angry and
you didn’t do those things and that you love
me, you love father and then mother” i grabbed
him and then asked him ” Jaime shakes his
head again
”Jimmy spat and then he laughed hitting me
away he laughed and then he turns to me, his
eyes darkened ” I hate you Jaime, i hate you
and that slut in there can and will never be my
mother and i pray you all die and i want you all
to die..you took my life and you made it yours,
you took my father away from me and had him
love you more than he did me and left me
alone- you and your mother will never have the
joy and peace my mother never got to enjoy.
Jacob Wellington killed my mother, the only one
who loved me, took care of me and then gave
him all for me- Jacob killed her and then left
her, and then me and then he had you and her ?
” Jaime smiles sadly again recounting that
night years ago , he continued
”- I will make your life a living hell, i will i
promise you- so do this hmmm, do this and i
would let you live maybe- tell him to give you up
and then give me all- then i promise i might
even consider letting you keep your name”
Jaime sighs ”And again, i left that night torn – i
knew he was drunk and when people are drunk
they tend to say things they don’t mean, so- i
was already torn but i told myself- by
tomorrow, he would be himself; the brother i
had always loved- but the next day, he saw me
and i asked him if he remembered what he
told me that night and he stared at me- I may
be drunk, but whatever i said is what i am- now
you know..so Jaime boy- would you do what i
want or you want me to make all i said last
night into a reality- ? Then i knew that the man
i considered brother and loved was nothing
other than a heartless fool- one who would go
to any length to get what he wanted.
The first time he told me he was serious was
when i was having a conference and then he
made a statement . You know, we had a fight
the night before and he was forcing my hand, i
told him to get lost- then he said, ” maybe by
tomorrow you would know i ain’t about to play
dolls with you- and then the next day during the
conference, his call came in while i was
talking, i ignored it and then his message
came in ”If you survive this- great, if you don’t-
say hi to my momma for me, ”
Before i could as-similate what he meant, a
shot was fired, i was pushed to the ground by
my then security..there were screams and
all..then i felt him, choking on me, i reached
for him ”
Jaime stares at his hands ”The bullet ripped
throu-ghhis skull and blood gushed out- he
died in my hands – he protected me and then
died in my arms Alexander, and i didn’t have a
chance to tell him i was sorry for letting my
brother do this, that i was sorry i didn’t realize
he would die for me. Then almost immediately
Jimmy’s message came in ”Damnit, maybe the
gods want you alive for a little more…oh well,
how about we have that conversation again
pretty boy.?.gimme me what i want or maybe
someone close to you might be getting options
too- say father , mother, oh…how about that
Christine girl you used to date? would you feel
bothered if i imprint her wherever she is with
some bullets? hahaha ”
What was i supposed to do Alexander? I
couldn’t do anything? Not when Mother started
having threatening calls and having a few
scares from random strangers, and when one
day she was pushed down the stairs and
almost died? No babe, i wanted and had to
keep my family alive and the only way was to
give him what he wanted..and i tried to-
ensuring to change me name from Wellington
to Lockswire, taking on my mother’s maiden
name. Father was hurt but he let me, then i
began doing all this to make father
disappointed in me, cut me off and stuff but
that fox..i feel he kept seeing right throu-ghme
and realizing i wasn’t myself so he didn’t
budget, he didn’t.
The fights, the quarrels and all i had to do to
make him hate me, the embarras-sment, the
women, the bad press and reputation, every
damn thin Alexander, father tells me ” I love you
son, i love you madly, and i know you, this is
not you, s i won’t give up on you- you’ll come
back to us one day, and we would be waiting
and i screamed at him – he should love his son
Jimmy, he should tell that to Jimmy and he said
– You don’t know how many times i went into
the dark to pull him out, a thousand times i did,
when he spat at me , cursed me, hurt me, hurt
you and Gem…so many times i did- and every
time he lashed out and hurt me more until the
day it almost killed me..and i had to let go-
there is a difference when a child loves you
and throws tantrums and there is a difference
when you see a glaring truth- And the truth i had
to stop denying was that Jimmy hates me ,
hates all of us..why do i nee-d to keep fighting
for a son who gave up on me a long long time
ago? It would end up killing me so i am done
chasing him. God knows i love him because i
still give him what he wants but i would love
him from afar and when he decides to come
home, i would be waiting , but until then- i
would love what God has gifted me, a second
chance and i would take it and protect it
viciously.
I held you in my arms Jaime, and i saw those
beautiful eyes of yours when you stared at
me..they were full of love and for the first
time…i cried, i cried so ha-rd it shook me-
I have always wanted that unconditional ,
undiluted and un-measured love from Jimmy-
but all i see is darkness and fiery- but you..even
when you act out and cuss and do all this
things i see you do- when you look at me- all i
see is pain and regret and a thousands words
translating to say -I am sorry father, i love you””
A tear slids down his eyes ” And i know, that
whatever you are going throu-ghand can’t tell
me, it’s okay- i know you love me, and your
mother and even your brother- so i will not give
up on you, never!” Another tear slids down,
Alexander reaches for his face and then wipes
it again, her heart breaking for him
Jaime sniffs ”So- you see Alexander” he held
her hands ”i was hurting people i love for him,
because i felt i nee-ded to please him so that
he would see that i was in no competition with
him, nor am i taking his place. He would
always come first..always..but Jimmy like one
in-satiated wanted more and more and maybe
i would have succeeded in making father sign
all to him and cutting me off..maybe, if i kept
on pushing ha-rder and then i said- maybe if i
play one last hand by getting a handler and
then claiming i was depressed and dangerous
and all that razz- with the public calling for my
head for the safety for the city , father would
have no choice but you Alexander came and
messed up my world” he smiles
”And i am grateful, because meeting you made
me realize that i had to stand up to me fears,
my demons and that protecting my family is
not by cowering in fear and letting the bad win,
is by standing infront of them and taking the
bad head on- so that day, seeing how you
tricked me and went to the company and then
on live Tv stood up to Jimmy?- oh God- i
didn’t realize when i started running- i didn’t
realize then that i was running to you because i
loved you and didn’t want to lose you- i
thought i was only running to save my family
and stuff but when i got there- i realized that-
screw it! i can only protect my family if i stand
up to him, and i did-
It’s like you gave me strength – like i could do
anything- and i did- i won that day, to him, to
my fears and to my demons – now- i believe i
can face anything, any damn thing – i can face
him and tell him to his face – I take my life
Jimmy, i take my family and i will keep them
save from you- throw me all you got- this time i
wont take the piss sitting down ” he nods ”And
that’s what i am doing . I am not going to
cower in fear because Jimmy may have one or
two things up his sleeves? No- i would be
protecting my family whatever he has to
throw..so he can bring it , i am not running
anymore- ” he turns her to face him ” So like i
said, i have eyes on ground just incase, i will
be fine, nothing would happen, i promise” he
lifts her jaw with an index finger ” I promise, it
was only a bad dream..nothing else”
”Okay!”
”Smile for me”
”Don’t feel like”
”That’s okay” he pulls her to him
”But where did you go to this morning?” she
was curious
”I erm – went for a run?” he hu-gs her ti-ght, she
felt something in his pocket,
”What’s this?”
His eyes grows big, he reaches for her hand
and then pulls it away ”Nothing! Come on- let
me bath you, you smell” he lifts her and then
throws her over his shoulders, spa-nking her
bu-tt once for effects
”Ouch!!” She yells laughing ”I do not
smell…hey!!”
”Yes, baby nee-ds a clean shower and i would
ru-b every inch of your body clean smelly-
smelly Alexander smelly” he sang laughing as
he pads up the stairs with her over his
shoulders, he kicks his door open and then
spa-nks her again playfully.
She yells again laughing ”I will get you Jaime,
put me down!” she laughs
”On the bed–or on the floor? Okay- floor!” he
made to drop her
She screams ”No no NO!”
”Oh women, what do you really want? Drop
me! i want to drop you.. NOOOOO! Don’t drop
me ..see, indecision, pick a struggle woman-
drop or not to drop?!”‘
”hu-g!!” she pouts from his shoulders and then
made a face
He laughs, then he pulls her down slowly from
the wai-st down to his front, he wraps her legs
around him and then held her, she has her
hands round his ne-ck , staring at him, he is
still walking them to the toilet door ” he
pauses at the door with her ”You are the best
thing that ever happened to me Alexander, i
hope you know that?”
She shakes her head
”I mean it babe, you are”
Then she felt that bubbling emotion about to
burst throu-ghher, and she knew for certain that
he was the best thing that had happened to
her to..the only best thing in her life that
makes sense, that felt right and meant right…
she breaths closing her eyes, then she opens
them to stare at him ”And you are my most
precious gift, my happiness, my pleasant
smile- MINE!’ she whispers, her voice thick
with emotion, her heart bursting with
electrifying energy she had never felt.
Is this what love is? Is thus what love feels
like? That s-ns¶tion she felt in her heart the
way it is coursing throu-ghher body,
different from the way she feels when she is
hor-ny and wants to be made love to by him.
This was different, new..it made her feel
lightheaded as though drunk and she had not
had a drink in weeks, it made her feel as though
she wanted to fly and yet she was ba-rely
touching the ground because he carried her- but
this made her feel as though she was in the
clouds, flying..
The feeling was making her heart feel as though
it is filled wit bubbles, and her tummy is crawling
with bu-tterflies and her heart keep expanding as
though it’s about to burst.
Is this love? What she is feeling…?
Is this love?’
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TO BE CONTINUED….