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*CHAPTER 72*
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He loves me and every time he
says those words my heart beats so fast i
can’t make it stop and i don’t know how to
make it stop neither do i want to. I say it twice
because..he wants to care for me, carter for
me..and support me, and i know i have always
been the one to do all that for me..and i have
always wanted to do that for me so that i do
not lean on anyone…but…then i was scared,
alone, afraid of accepting from anyone and i
was running” she stares at her hands
”Now?”
”I am not running anymore, i am not scared…i
am happy! ” her eyes glistens with tears, she
blinks, a tear drop, maybe two
”Alexander why are you crying? I didn’t mean to
upset you and-” she cleans her friend’s tears,
confused how their conversation had suddenly
turned into this ”Did i say something wrong? I
was- i am sorry Alexander”
She is shaking her head ”No, it’s not you! It’s
not what you said it’s ahh!” she sniffs ”All my
life, i have been running, looking over my
shoulders and praying that i get to get away
from this life”
”What are you talking about Alexander?”
”My fear began when i was three. You see, i
had no one”
”Yes, you parents died when you were little and
you were in an orphanage”
she nods ”Then i was taken to a foster home”
she blinks back tears , they didn’t stop ”My
fear began from there, the pain, the suffering
and then the torture”
”Where you physically abused as a child
Alexander?” there was surprise in her voice,
She chokes back bitter laughter ”If i were
beaten, bruised with a cane, then i think that
would have been better. No Tinny-B i was
abused , physically yes..but s-×ually.”
”Oh my God!”
”For fxxking thirteen yes!! The worst of my life”
”Oh my God!” Tinny-B covers her mouth ”Oh
my God!”
”I was just three..when it first happened. And
then it happened again, and again and again till
my va -gina walls bleed, till my tinny bones felt
crushed from his weight, till my throat tasted
not just his sp-erm , but blood because he
drilled my mouth with his pe-nis . Till my body
went sour from his struggling and then my
ne-ck had scars from his hands” she tou-ched
her ne-ck, Tinny-B’s eyes glistens
”Oh My God Alexander! Who did this, who was
the monster who did this to a child, my God!!
Another tear drops from her eyes, she doesn’t
try to stop them either ” Every day i woke up
with fear, every night i ha-rdly slept..i could not
say no, my crying never stopped him, my
begging only excited him..he told me to play
pretend as though i was asleep, lay in the bed
and then accept him into me when he came
knocking..” she sniffs ”One day, i tried to hide,
i did for a few days, he caught me..Tinny-B, i
had never bleed so much in my life like that, i
wanted to cry..i wanted to kill him…but i
couldn’t.”
”Who did this?” she held her hands ”Who was
the monster!!?”
”Mama, she never knew..she was away and
she loved him to pieces..and he said she
would never believe me if i tried to tell her and
that he loved me, that he loved me!”
Tinny-B spat ”That is not love, that is not love”
she shakes her head
”I close my eyes and all i see is his face, my
skin was lingering from his touch i want to
peal my skin away, my insides are never
ridden from his thr-usts..infact my body
belonged to him and he did with it as he
pleased, day and night, drunk, smelling..he had
me, me Tinny-B..i bled, i begged, i cried..he
never stopped for thirteen fxxking years i
endured all things praying for the day i can
either run away or mount the courage to take
my life” she sniffs ”One time…i tried to tell
mama again, and out the house she sent
me..” how dare i accuse her husband of such
vile thing, i was the devil’s child, i wanted to
se-duce her husband ” and all the garbage. I
roamed the street for days, hungry, cold, worse
for wear. And they came, like honey to bees,
like flies to shit and asked for my body…i
have had enough from the man who used me
and they caused me unmeasured pain, i didn’t
want any of that. I saw men and i cringed, i
cried and i backed away into the
shadows…they were the demons, there were
heartless and not one of them was good. So i
was content to laying on the ha-rd floor and
sleeping with no food in my tummy. But the
streets were ha-rd Tinny-B, and one can’t
survive like that. You either beat the street or
join them, but i was just a little girl..i was
fifteen, ba-rely alive. Then he came..” she sniffs
”I can ha-rdly remember his name, but i
remember the look in his eyes, that same look
i saw in that man’s eyes and all the men after
him…they were all thesame and they nee-ded
one thing; as though their life depended on it;
s-×.
It was a life-wire , the way the desi-re burns in
them and their reaction to their trousers all at
once. He said ”Come, let me fxxk you! ” I told
him ” No!” he said ”Everyone wants to fxxk you,
atleast i would give you something for it..food,
water, a bed to sleep i n”
When i still refused he told me that…girls like
me won’t survive any more days on the streets
, that the men i see would take it from me one
way or the other, so i can decide to hold on to
it and have it taken from me unwillingly or i
give it..then he told me something else, when
you wield that precious thing like power,
master it, use it…i can bring men to my knees
and get what i wanted …and maybe i would
never have to go to bed with an empty
stomach, nor a roof over my head or lack
money in hand…he said he had no money to
give me other than a few changes but he can
give me food and water and a bed. ” she
shakes her head ”Another cold night, another
belly rumbling…when he came again, i let him.
”Oh dear!”
”A few days later, they came to find me, they
put me in the car and then they said they were
taking me home. I didn’t listen to a word she
said as she spoke..his eyes were on me, and i
knew right there and then that..i rather be on
the streets, and risk it all than come back
home and be his s-× play thing…i rather die
there than allow him touch me one more
time…that song he sang was torture to my
ears…every time he sang it it felt like spikes
were running throu-ghme, he sang it..as we
alighted, mama had gone up, saying she was
going to prepare dinner..he was speaking to
me and all i heard my mind say was ”Run
Alexander run! Just run!’ ‘
Tinny-B is crying fulling now ”Oh my God!”
”I turned, ba-refoot, i ran and i ran and i ran
and i never looked back till my name faded
from his li-ps and i didn’t hear his shoes
padding behind me…i ran and i continued
running and then i ran into a bus. I looked
back then and i cried, not because i was going
to miss him, or her, or my home..but because
i was free…i was finally free. But life on the
streets Tinny-B was not welcoming in. I went
from a Nun’s house where her brother ra-ped
me, to work as a waitress where four men
took turns with me because the man’s wife
wanted money.
One day, when they were done, and i realized
that i could not run from this, i remembered
what that man said on the streets ”M en would
take from you whether you liked it or not..but
you must decide how you give it, unwillingly on
your knees or willing and bring them to their
knees. ” she smile bitterly
”They wanted my body? they wanted s-×? i
made them beg for it, i mastered the art of
seduction, or making men drool for me…
soon, my boss’s wife at the restaurant had to
chase me away because, the men who came
into the restaurant gave her not a glance, i
soon became the girl everyone in town wanted
to see. I could afford my meals, my bed, a
roof albeit how small. I took the next bus and
then i arrived here…Chocolate City. Years later,
i am the number one Call girl, stri-pper
goddess.. a queen in my lane and maybe the
highest paid Call Girl.. a disgraceful career if
you ask me , but it was one i had no choice
but to own and live throu-gh” she sniffs
”I still hated men, i still saw them as
monsters and pain and i still cringed to their
touch and scru-b my body till i felt it would
peal after i have been with them..but i had to
survive, and i did. But i hated this life, this job
but where would i have gone to?…Everyone
wanted what i had..my body and i had no one
, no one to support me, care for me or protect
me..they all wanted to get with me..so i
breathed on that, lived from that and i am still
here from that…but God knew i hated all of
them,,every single one of them that tou-ched
me…but i had to survive, nee-ded to and i did.
But i cursed him and i prayed he died and i
had hoped he died..because i was free from
him” she wipes her nose ”or thought i was till
he found me”
”Who was he?”
”My foster father, his love was an abomination,
perverted and painful and i hated all men
because of him!
Tinny-B covers her mouth ”Your foster father?”
She nods, another tear drops, she wipes it, her
nose drools, she wipes it with the back of her
hands ” I thought when I ran and he didn’t find
me for all these years that I was free, free from
him, from his pain from all of it. For years I
was able to breath..though my life was shitty
but I was able to hold my head above water to
survive”
”But..it’s been years Alexander, I believe he has
forgotten all about you, maybe have died or
something”
She shakes her head ”You see because of him,
every man I saw was the same, wanted the
same thing, and I distanced myself from them.
I tolerated them because I nee-ded to survive
and used my body as a means to. That’s
why..when you said I acted like a robot
towards men it never did bother me. It was
mechanic..everything was mechanic with them
and one day, one day I dreamed that I would
wake up and I won’t be scared anymore, I
wont be looking over my shoulders and I won’t
cry in the shower when a man torches me.
That I won’t feel as though I want to die. One
day I dreamed of that…and I knew they were
just dreams and dreams never come to a
reality. But…I never dreamed about meeting
him, Jaime.”
”Oh Alexander!”
”One day we were this opposites who hated
each other and the next..i suddenly miss him
when he isn’t near,I love the way he calls my
name when he is awake and when he is loving
me up and when he thinks I am asleep and he
holds me ti-ght and tells me how much he
loves me. I love his lingering touch to my
body, his feather light ki-sses to my skin. I love
everything he does to me and to think I hated
men..?” she laughs ”Oh i hated men because
of my father and I wanted nothing to do with
them emotionally and I didn’t think that one
day, that one day I would be wanting a man as
I did Jaime, that one day I would look at him
and smile, that my heart would beat fast and
slow at the same time for a beautiful man…I
never believed so but it is happening and…
”’Start from the beginning
”Don’t cry Alexander!!
She covers her eyes and then cries some more
”You do not un-derstand Tinny-B..i feel so
happy!”
”Then why are you crying?”
”Because I have always come to see that my
happiness is short lived…I ran away and got
taken in by a nun, but what happened? A man,
her brother found me and ra-ped me . I left to
the restaurant and thinking now I was saved,
men found me and then ra-ped me one after the
other. I come here..now they may not have
ra-ped me…but they still used my body and
then they paid me..because a girl got to
survive on the streets..and then Jaime came
along, he wanted nothing to do with me like
that other than to use me to pretend a certain
life for his family…and then out of the blue, he
falls for me and..being with him was and is
different, even beautiful and I am happy, but I
am scared that it would be short lived and I do
not want it to be. I have never been this happy
in my entire life and I am scared that this
happiness would be taken from me”
”Sssshh! No one would take it away from you
Alexander. No one! Your foster father is an
animal, a monster and I pray he may have
been dead and then maggots have crawled up
his as-s and eaten him up in his grave
and…listen! you are free of that demonic man
and it’s been thirteen years and God knows
how he must have paid him up for all the evil
he has done and if he Is still alive I curse him
Alexander, I curse him and I curse him I curse
him!!” she spat ”You are free from him and
from all those men and right now you have
Jaime and he would love you for ever and he
would keep you from harm, your father can
never touch you ever..its been years and
maybe he must have-
”He found me Tinny-B, he did!” she cries
”What?”
”He was the one who attacked me in he sto-re
room!”
”Oh my God!” Tinny-B is shocked ”So when I
asked you if you knew who he was and stuff
and you said you did…you mean..that man
was your father, the one who tried to…the
same one who came by the Heritage company
and then shot you?”
She nods, more tears dropping
”Oh my God Alexander, you nee-d to tell Jaime
and then the police so they un-derstand the
reason behind his actions and know how to
persecute him and then..oh my God the
monster and he came back to kill you and..you
nee-d to tell Jaime!!”’
”No..no no no!” she shakes her head holding
Tinny-B ”I cannot, I cannot!!”
”Wh-why..why why not?”
”Because because he would..he would be filled
with disgust for me and he might hate me and
he would not love me and he ..i cannot! I am
ashamed to have a father like that, to have a
father who used me as he pleased and …and
to find out that he had done all those things to
me and..i cannot- cannot bear for him to look
at me with disgust, not now, not now…not now
that he loves me. He won’t love me anymore
knowing that I am damaged ..really really
damaged ” she cries, Tinny-B grabs her and
then hu-gs her shaking her head, her own eyes
pooling again
”I cannot!”
”You father is in jail and he would never be
able to hurt you ever again. But you nee-d to
tell Jaime ..so he knows how to protect you
and see-look at me Alexander, look at me” she
pulls away, placing both hands to Alexander’s
face ”Jaime saw you, saw the crazy feisty
annoying woman from Escapade, he saw how
forward you were , he got mad at you, he got
headbu-tted by you, he took you your crab and
then he laughed at your silliness and liked your
br@veness and then he realized that you were
not just some random chick, I mean you were
a chick with balls willing to take on that goat
Jimmy, he realized that you were not just a
scardy- little cat and then he saw you in a
whole different light. Alexander, when Jaime
fell for you, he knew you were
damaged..knowing you are a call girl, a
stri-pper and all that mess and baby he fell
inlove with you despite. Maybe he is a little
crazy and not right in the head” she screws up
her face
Alexander laughs in her tears, Tinny-B smiles
wiping her eyes ”Because no man would fall
inlove with a girl like you, I mean..you are a
mess”
”Hey!” Alexander nudges her friend, Tinny-B
smiles ”It’s the truth, no ordinary man would
but Jaime isn’t an ordinary- I mean he cannot
be because he has a beautiful heart willing to
accept you the way you are, your
imperfections, your flaws your damages and
love you as insanely as he does. So, I know it
was horrible for you as a kid to experience all
that you did…it suc-ks, infact it is painful to
even hear It..much less to have lived it and I
pray your father rots in jail and that he dies
there alone. But Jaime would never love you
less Alexander, you are so silly to think so”
”He will , he will when he gets to know about
my father and then-”
”No baby, if he loves you less because of that
then fxxk him! He don’t deserve you..”
Alexander sniffs
”But I see the way he looks at her, the way his
eyes lights up when you walk into the room
and the way he told you he loved you on Tv
and all, that man loves you like the air he
breaths so he would not love you less. I know
this baby, I do..he is madly in-love with you
and he may even ensure to fasttrack his
sentencing if he knows”
”I feel so ashamed Tinny-B!”
”It was not your fault, you are the victim, you
were abused s-×ually and physically bruises
too. He is not your father but a monster, and
karma would come knocking fas-ter than when
he takes a shit, I promise you but don’t be silly
to think your man won’t love you anymore, he
will and he does and baby this love has been
ordained from heaven and no one can take that
away from you. You deserve it!”
”Knowing who my father is, you think he would
want that? I saw the way he looked at me, the
same he did years ago and when he came that
day…and the way Jaime pushed me behind
him I believe he must have realized then what I
didn’t know… that Jaime had fallen for me and
then the look in his eyes changed,
anger..betrayal, I do not know. Maybe that’s
why he shot me. I do not know..i am scared
Tinny-B, scared that sometime might just
happen and I lose this happiness and-maybe
Jaime”
”Ssssshhh!!” she hu-gs her ”Don’t be. This
happiness you feel right now is yours and it
has come to stay so stop crying already okay?
Nothing would happen to your Jaime, your
father won’t ever get out, Jaime and you would
be safe and you would be happy okay so stop
fretting”
She nods
”But I am your best friends, you should have
told me” Tinny-B scolds her
”I am sorry!”
Tinny-B co-cks her head ”I love you girl!”
”I love you too.”
They hu-g ”Promise me you won’t say anything
to Jaime?” Alexander lingers
”Alex-”
”Please!”
”I promise. You know you do not have to be
scared anymore, he is in jail and he ain’t
seeing the light of day ever, tomorrow you are
going to rock this red dress, dance into the
night with the man who loves you and you are
going to be happy..i promise”
”And you are going to take my money, added
with yours and make something out of your
life..yes?” Alexander pulls away and wipes her
eyes
”Okay!”
they hu-g again
”Come, lets go get something to eat, all this
crying is making me hungry” They get up
leaving the room, Alexander pays for their
things and then they exit the building heading
towards the car they came in.
”Ma’am, where to?” The driver asks Alexander
as he helps them with their bags.
”Erm..” they sli-p into the car ”Is there a place
we can have lunch?”
”Yes, there is Elkan Terance at-”
”No, not the five star hotels ..i am sure we
can-”
”I am sorry Ma’am but I am only authorized to
take you to the best of the places..i will take
you to the Grove’s, you would love their food
there.”
She sighs ”Do you always listen to your boss?”
The man smiles ”Nope! But then again, I like
to ensure that the boss’s lady is treated nice
and this I do willingly, shall we?”
She laughs shaking her head ”I wonder where
Jaime picks you all from, you guys are just
fxxking loyal it suc-ks!”
The man laughs. They enter the car and he is
taking them across town.
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TO BE CONTINUED…