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*CHAPTER 51*
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He was nothing but a child, who nee-ds
protecting , as-surance, hope…just like her. She
had always hoped that someone who rescue her
from the hands of her father, no one came, no
one came because no one knew her pain. She
never told anyone and she suffered in silence,
she emBr@ced the life she was for-ced into and
continued in that trend. No one could give her
comfort, no one could tell her it was okay. No
one could promise her a chance of
hope..because no one knew or saw her in her
pain, she hide it well. How did it work out for
her? It didn’t. She hide in the showers and cried
, she scru-bbed her body till it turned red, she
hated all men, she wished they all died..and
sometimes she contemplated suicide and then
she wakes up the next day determined to
survive.
She stares at Jaime ,
Wondering about his pain, knowing that he
must have hide it for so long and no one to
share it with. Maybe, since she didn’t have
anyone to save her, to talk to her, to share her
pain with..
Maybe there was a reason she was in his life
now…even though she may not know what he
is going throu-gh, and he may not want to talk
about it..a little comfort would give him peace.
A little as-surance , a friend..anything at all.
She removes his hands from his face shaking
his head ”Let me help you”
”You can’t! It is my battle, my fight”
”It doesn’t have to be, and you don’t have to
fight it alone, let me help you..”She wipes his
tears, he opens his eyes to stare at her.
”You can’t!”
”Then let me make you feel better”
”How, you can’t make me feel better, nothing
can!”
”I can take your mind off your pain, even if for
a moment”
”How?”
She stares at him, then leans into him, he pulls
back ”Don’t”
”It’s okay.”
”No it’s not, i won’t ki-ss you Alexander”
”Why?”
”Because you hate to be ki-ssed, you hit me
remember”
”I won’t hit you now, i promise”
He stares at her shaking his head ”You think
ki-ssing me would ease my state of mind now?’
”Comforting you would..”
”Why?”
”Because i want to..”
”Why?”
”I don’t know okay, are you going to ki-ss me or
not so you can stop crying ?”
He smiles ”Men don’t cry”
She touches his cheeks ”Men do, they just
don’t tell anyone”
Her hand felt warm to his cheeks , he covers it
with his. ”If i ever do ki-ss you Alexander, it’s
because i want to, not because you are
offering me out of pity”
”You paid for my services remember, i think i
do not have a choice in that matter if you do
demand to have your cake, and i ordinarily do
not allow men ki-ss me so if i say you should ,
you should be lucky.”
His eyes grows dark , he lets go of her hand,
She missed the warmth, strangely ”Let’s make
this clear Alexander, i didn’t pay for your
services because i wanted to have se-xwith
you”
”No, so you did because you wanted to put up
an act then, that part is obvious because you
would have had se-xwith me if you wanted to
from day one”
”Correct. No wait!” His brows furrows
She laughs ”I am part of some plan you had to
pretend to be someone you are not”
”No!”
”Yes, you just admitted”
”You caught me off guard”
She smiles ”Cos’ i am smarter than you”
”Right!” he gives a one sided grin. ”Why do you
not let men ki-ss you…out of curiosity”
”Because i hate to be ki-ssed”
”Why?”
”Because..just because”
”There have got to be a reason, if you could
allow them..you know, i am not judging okay.
If you could allow them have se-xwith you, how
does ki-ssing be a any different?”
”They use condoms. And truthfully?” She co-cks
her head to the side, deciding to be honest
” ki-ssing is..i don’t know,uninteresting. i
hate to have them sticking their tongue down
my throat and then mauling mine too. It’s
disgusting, and i do not get why people get
excited about it. It’s all smelling breath and
what not”
He is staring at her ”So you mean you haven’t
been ki-ssed before?”
”Dude i have, that’s how i know i don’t want it
ever and i would punch anyone who tries to
because i hate it. Exchange of saliva..ewww?”
He laughs shaking his head ”So you really
really haven’t been properly ki-ssed before then”
”There is nothing proper about ki-sses”
”Yes..you hate it, and you where asking me to
ki-ss you so you can make faces and wish i
stop immediately?”
She opens her mouth to speak ”Okay..well, i
could endure it. If it makes you feel better and
..forget about your pain for a moment”
”Selfless and stupid!”
She hits him ”Hey!’
He laughs staring at her , he reaches out to
push a loc of her hair behind her ears”I would
never ki-ss a girl who would have to endure a
ki-ss with me, even if it is just to make me feel
better”
”How would you ki-ss a girl then?”
”I would ki-ss a girl who wants to be ki-ssed,
and if i like her..”
”So all the girls you have ki-ssed wanted to be
ki-ssed and you liked them?”
”Hmmm”
”Guess they are like a thousand” she turns her
nose up
He smiles ”A million”
”wom-anizer”
”Bite me!!”
She smiles
”Actually, a handful, stopped ki-ssing girls
awhile ago, if i had to count, maybe five…”
She raises an eyebrow ”Liar, you don’t hear the
news, a typical ladies man, wom-anizer and a
heart breaker”
”Not everything the media says is the truth.
Plus, aside Christine, a few rebounds..no one
else”
”And all the women around you, even the ones
you had for this specific purpose i am in”
He smiles ”Never tou-ched them”
”I don’t believe you, Men are all thesame..they
see a woman their head stands, and i don’t
mean the one sitting on their ne-cks” she
blinks, he coughs
”Well, i am not that kind of man”
”You bise-xual then?”
He coughs again ”No, and i am not practicing
abstinence. I just…have to really be attra-cted
to a woman before..you know”
”So you haven’t ever had a one night
stand..ever, pick up random chicks and call
girls for se-x..you don’t have random se-x
ever..you don’t have hook-up se-xand-”
”Hey..i did say i am not practicing abstinence
right? I have se-xit just…has to be with
someone i am attra-cted to that’s why the
ladies who have graced by bed are few..five i
said…”
Her eyes grows dim ”And Bekky? the other girl
before me?”
”Never tou-ched her. She was fine, seductive
but hey…wasn’t interested. ”
”Liar”
”Why is it ha-rd for you to believe?” He is
surprised
”Have you seen you, ladies would be throwing
themselves at you…every woman. And men
are thesame, and you are no different to see a
woman and not want it to..plus..all the ladies
would definitely be throwing and swooning for
you and would want to give it up at a go”
”Including you?” He chuckles
she scoffs ”Most especially not me”
”Why?”
”I don’t like men that way”
”Yet you have se-xwith them, i don’t see how
that makes sense” he is perplexed
‘Necessary evil” She shrugs
”How do you like men your ideal man” he was
curious
”I don’t have a mental picture of an ideal man
because i don’t think of one”
”You are weird. Every woman has one.”
”I am real, i don’t have one because i don’t like
men that way, se-xis physical, i do not have to
feel nothing and pas-s throu-ghit..and you are a
liar”
”se-xmay be physical but is is a feeling, it’s an
emotion and it connects two people together it
is more than just humping and if you do it with
the person you love, it is beautiful and i am
not a liar..i am not a se-xmania, i like it, i just
limit it to a few ..narrow it down to one i am
attra-cted to.”
”So you cannot be with anyone you aren’t
attra-cted to?”
”Yes”
”And you can’t ki-ss anyone you aren’t attra-cted
to?”
”Yes”
”You just lied cos you ki-ssed me”
He laughs ”That wasn’t a ki-ss ki-ss, it was a
spite-you-ki-ss, it doesn’t follow. And you said
you didn’t like ki-sses and you ki-ssed me
too..so you lied ”
”Noooooo! that was to spite-your-girlfriend-
Christine-ki-ss-ki-ss”
”Oh, why?”
”Because she thought this ridiculous notion that
i was trying to steal you away from her and no
matter how much i tried to tell her that i wasn’t
interested she insisted so i told her that if i
wanted to steal you away, i got all the moves
so i gave her a taste of it….”
”Hmmm badas-s..no wonder she was furious”
”I liked her expression, had to tell her to pick
her mouth from the floor.”
He smiles at her, not telling her that ki-ss
was…strangely nice. He stares at her li-ps , he
smiles ”Are you still offering?”
”No, its past” she made to get up, he pulls her
down back to him, and holds her to himself
”You do like this pulling games don’t you, you
do this with all your ladies?” her hands are to
his che-st
”Nope, just you. So, i have a preposition, just
for the fun of it”
”What?’ she is suspicious
”How about, i teach you or show you how a
real ki-ss is or feels like-”
”Er-”
”Work with me. I show you what it feels like
and you promise not to be stiff or make a
face”
”What’s the catch?”
”You have got to want it, like really want it else
it would be pointless”
”Okay what just happen, how did we get from
being cat and dog to this..ki-ssing buddies?”
”When you refused to mind your business and
walked into my room”
”You were crying like a baby and i felt guilty”
”I was not…”
”Was too”
”Tell anyone i kill you”
”And my ghost would hunt you down”
They smile at each other ”I really want to do
humanity a favour, i mean i think it’s a crime
to not really know what a real real ki-ss feels
like and enjoy it for once in your life before
dying”
”Don’t want it, it’s ewwish! And you call this
service to humanity or you just want to ki-ss
me because ….i don’t know ..maybe you are
attra-cted to me.”
”You haven’t been ki-ssed by me. And it is not
ewwish and yes, service to humanity and i am
not attra-cted to you. Service to humanity” He
repeats.
”Really,?”
”Yes really”
”Fine.” she pouts her li-ps
He stares at them and then bursts out laughing
”I swear this is ridiculous” he was laughing,
she punches him,
”as-s-hole.!” She smiles ”I would probably have
spit in your mouth anyways, my intent”
”I figured as much plus your face had the
su-ckiest pouting game. Advice, don’t pout like
that, no guy would want to ki-ss you with a
clown face like that”
”Right, and a guy would want to ki-ss me like
how?”
”Like this?” He pulls her even closer, his face
close to hers, really close ”Just like this, by
staring into your eyes, breaking down your
resolves with just one look” he stares into her
eyes ”Bearing de-ep into your soul and finding
out all hidden secrets..” He says against her
li-ps but not touching her…
” A man would want to ki-ss a woman who
desi-res to be ki-ssed by him. A girl whose
heartbeat is beating against his.. thum thum
thum tithum..like that. And whose touch to her
body sends shivers down her spin” he runs a
hand over her back, still staring at her, not
breaking his stare as he continuous to speak
She should stop it, she would have stopped any
man who held her like this, She should stop
him, but she doesn’t. Curiosity held her still, or
was it something else.?
He was still talking
”Whose li-ps is parted, moist, ready to be
savored” he runs his thumb over them, ”Soft,
succulent, enticing. A man do not nee-d a
woman to tell him to ki-ss her, a man nee-ds to
only look into her eyes, stare at her and see
her nee-d to be ki-ssed, not by anyone but by
him…”
She suddenly became warm, listening to
him..staring at him as he stares at her…
”ki-ssing is a feeling, a nee-d ,a desi-re, …it is
not just about li-ps against li-ps and tongue
curling over another tongue, it is much more
than that and if you do not feel it, anticipate it
and let yourself go to enjoy it..you would never
enjoy being ki-ssed..” he says.
He stares at her, she stares back at him…
Maybe this was a bad idea, a game of curiosity,
a stupid joke was what he intended…
But…
He stares at her li-ps, parted, moist.
”And if a girl desi-res to be ki-ssed now, to want
to feel that which you speak off…what does
she do?” she whispers,
”She does nothing, nothing but anticipate it.”
Whatever was going on now was not
anticipated, hell it didn’t make any sense. But
right now, right this moment, he does want to
ki-ss her now, and this was definitely not a joke,
not out of curiosity..
This was merely…..
He stops thinking and closes the distance,
slowly and captures her li-ps with his.
She became stiff, all too suddenly. Her eyes
shoots open..she made to pull back. He stops
her, speaking against her li-ps ”Don’t think,
nothing at all..let me ” he grabs her face
”Close your eyes, part your li-ps..and let me
help you feel it.”
She does.
He trails a tongue over her li-ps, ki-ssing it over,
carefully, slowly.Savoring the sweetness he
ki-ssed her, taking his time..
She lets him.
He parts her li-ps more with his tongue, taking
his time he ki-sses off the edges of her li-ps,
care-ssing her face and then her ne-ck with his
thumb, leaving her li-ps he ki-sses her
cheeks..and then her ne-ck, her ear lop and
then back to her ne-ck as he trails a tongue
throu-ghher collarbone, and then back to her
ne-ck, care-ssing her.
She gasps, holding him firmer. Oh God , she
swallows… what is happening to me..why do i
feel so….ohhhh ! she lic-ks her li-ps.
He is back to her li-ps now, carefully nudging
his tongue into her mouth, teasing her tongue
with his, drinking from her and ki-ssing her
de-eply. A sudden desi-re burning throu-ghhim.
She began to ki-ss him back..slowly and then
de-eply, meeting him pace for pace until they
ran out of air breaking apart.
Damn…Jaime exclaims within.
They are staring at each other…speechless.
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*Tbc