Beyond Captivating
Episode 34
Silvia POV
I woke up looking more like a worn out doll,
In the last three years I wouldn’t deny this has been the worst sleep I’ve ever had …
God, all I kept doing was thinking and dreaming about Lucas…
What is this, I feel so ashamed of myself right now ..
Thought i hated him so much ….
Why this now, why do I feel so aching right here, in my heart.
Why was I jealous of him getting married,
Gosh,
I was so sure i hated him .. Those fury i unleashed at the local field when he had terrified me with his accusations of knowingly probing my self in front of him, his strength, his stand ….his height ,his looks
I hated everything
I recalled gradually the hatred I felt for him for leaving me back in the rain ..
The beatings I gave him, those sl@ps and kicks ,,
Thought I hated him
And gradually
I recalled my own loos£ning, the burgeoning s-en-se of femininity which Lucas had drawn from me,, the well of emotion within me which attested to that awakening . hisl-ips, his hands, his b©dy which set me trembling even at the memory.
The emptiness within me,was the same as the thought of being R@p£d and dumped …have never felt as hollow even when I had c@m£ to the conclusion nate had left me for good ..
I feel so terribly ashamed of myself right now cause throu-gh the night I only imagined what it might be like to make love with Lucas,
Gosh to be lying, right then, beside him
. To t©uçh him, to trace the firm contours of his beautiful form, to explore the depths of his
masculinity, to let him show me the world of Joy which my own S-xuality crave for
Furiously, i blinked away the tears that
gathered beneath my lids as I recall the anger and hatred i saw in his eyes last night
I am nothing but horror to him ,,so that tells me
I nee-d to st©p , I nee-d to focus on why I end being here at the first place…
I hate men that’s it ,, and I can never fall for any …not again …never
Almost tiredly I pu-ll the blanket aside and went downstairs ,after yawning and stretching my b©dy … i walked slowly towards Jamie room ,
I hope he’s awake
I opened the door slowly and instantly my eyes went hvge .
Jamie was sitting like a chief on the big be-d ,all looking well attended to and handsome he didn’t see me though
While Mrs Tyson and some few maids moves here and there as if they could be attending to some president …
A lot of kids stuff was placed on the tiled floor,
Cloths, shoes, toys, wallpaper, candies , and so much more
I g@sped when i glance up at the wall clock it wasn’t long for me to realise they might have probably went for shopping while I was still on be-d.
A maid was organizing his bath stuff, packing it nice and neat in a clear shower caddy.
“Margret put some shampoo in the bathroom ,,he will nee-d some ,,cause of his hair”
“The once made from Paris or italy ma’am ” the maid ask her
“both” she says
“You can dress that up or down.”
She directed a maid who was decorating different kinds of toys on the big be-d which was twice the size back at home …
I stare at Jamie, he was pu-lling up a smile and joyously shaking his b©dy
My god, Mrs Tyson is gonna spoilt this boy …
She finally sat on the be-d wiping a sweat off her fore head as she direct the packing process
“Martha, make sure that wall paper glue perfectly ”
“alright ma’am”
I stare at the wall paper ,,which shows the pictures of his favorite cartoon
My God ,,
Jamie chuckled, as she pressed her hand on his checks.
“Jamie do you like it”
With all broader smile he shook his head happily
My god, look at him, I’ve never seen him smile like that before,
Damn ,this boy is gonna turn exactly as Lucas if Mrs Tyson keeps spoiling him like this ….
“Margaret you are too slow start hanging his cloths ,,”
“Perfume,, he is a big boy ,,arrange some perfume into his trolley”
She picked up a lolly pop and open …..
joyously with more broader smile pu-lling on his face… Jamie pushed it into his mouth while he li-cked it with one of his eyes closed …
Gosh ,heaven that boy has never li-cked a lolli-pop, not in the pres£nce of my mum
Ground swallow me up ,, what is this ???
“We are gonna hang the air freshener later , arrange the chocolates candies ,lolli-pops ,,biscuits, to the lower edge of his trolley”
In fact I could have stood on my head the whole time no one noticed I was at the entrance until I cleared my throat…
When Jamie saw me …
He struggled himself down almost rolling off the be-d
“mommmmmmmm,”
With his now redl-ips while he hold my left leg
My eyes went hvge …
“Ma’am” I stare up at her
She smile towards me ,,
“Silvia, you do not have to worry yourself as long as Jamie is here ,, you just have to relax,”
I clear my tone,
“But ma’am this is too much, you know his school ”
She laughed
“I know that darling, I’ve talked to your mum ,,,she as-sure me she’s gonna be s£nding him over for the weekends”
“You can go freshen up okay,,Jamie come here”
Without giving it a second thought Jamie raced back to her while he jump happily…
I was unable to stand the sight of her spoiling act anymore …
Hurriedly I closed the door behind me before racing upstairs…
*****
After taking my bath,, i cant believe i end up putting on a petite structured flare sleeve cold shoulder dress, a short one to be precise ,,
I g@sped ,at the site of my expo-sed kneel and the wi-deness of my h!ps,,
When last have I put on this kind of dress ,
What are you doing Silvia…..
This kinda dress isn’t meant for a karate…
I keep battling with my thought
It took no time for me to realise I actually dressed up cause Lucas would be back home today …
Gosh ,,this is so embarras-sing,, I feel so ashamed of myself …
I keep staring at my curvy figure in the mirror when I heard on a knock on the door …
Slowly I moved towards the door only to meet with a smile on Elliotl-ips as he scan my whole …
“My god Silvia ,you are looking great ” he said almost shouting
I laughed nervously before adjusting the dress to my kneel…
“Isn’t it awkward”
“Did you say awkward, its nice …. I never knew I mean those bigger cloths of yours hides so much of your h!ps,”
I roll up my eyes
“you know I just felt a little change would be good, let’s just say I wanna blend among my friends” I laughed before moving towards the mirror to gr-ab a comb only to see him still scanning my form throu-gh the mirror…
I was glad another knock c@m£ from the door….
Almost shyly I went downstairs with him along with two other maid who c@m£ to deliver some of the shopping Mrs Tyson got for me …
******
Hours later
I was receiving my friends call at the corner of the room complaining with fact that they weren’t able to reach with Celine when I heard Jamie tone …
“Lucas Tyson Is here mum, waooo he is so handsome ”
And there my heart skipped ..
I glanced at the entrance curiously not minding the fact that I was on call.
As expected my eyes went hvge when he c@m£ in …
Pale skin and looking as deadly handsome than have ever seen him..
Gosh what was his secret really ,,he should be growing less handsome and not more
That outfit Elliot chooses was damn …
It fitted perfectly to his strong frame
The sight of him looking like some model was enough to s£nt my heart pounding in double ,,
“Lucas-ssssssss tysooooonn”
And when I saw him carry Jamie up to his arms with all broader smile, some thing got struck in my throat ….
I staggered back before leaning my form on whatever
Goshh
I was glad Elliot c@m£ towards me ,,and my heart instantly felt relieved..
I have to find a way to get him out of my head, or else am gonna go crazy there is no two ways about it ….
Lucas POV:
I took in several swallow of the scalding wine before pushing my hand into my hair…
Gosh what the hell is this
That woman was suppose to be a threat to my life,,
She destroyed my face for heaven sake ,,
She is nothing but an horror kinda woman ….
I hit my fist on the brown polished wool angrily
Yet why do I found myself getting jealous unnecessarily ..
Elliot liked her ,, not that I should care,
in fact it shouldn’t concern me at all ,,
That k!sswe shared was only anomaly I better get it ,, get it straight that it only c@m£ out of unbridled lvst …
But Yet the memory of thatl-ips of hers, firm and hungry against mine wouldn’t go for once ,
(Now I was starting to get lost) of my arms wra-pped around her like a band of flesh covered steel ,,of the length of her legs pressed against mine while I took in that k!ssablel-ips of hers into mine ….or the look of ba-rely restrained pas-sion of her warm brown eyes looking right into mine .. the n-kedness of that S-xy b©dy of hers ,,full and curvy , damn !!!how she felt so soft beneath that robe
Elliottttttttt
I can’t let him ….
I cant let him feel all those,, never
My eyes went hvge when I remembered his word ….
“Break fast man”
Of course that taunting grin meant she’s gonna be there
She’s gonna be there of course ,, the hell ,, …
my head sprang up with the thought of him taking a seat beside her …
Gosh,
I ran like a mad man ,,I was able to form posh few feet away from the dinning though …
I was trying to hold my breath when i felt some stare on me ….
Slowly i lifted my gaze up only to meet with the stares of some maids…..
Gosh these uglies .
i s£nt them a wolf look
“What the hell are you staring at huh, what huh!!” I almost spat at one in the face ..
“will you f-cking move that tiny legs of yours” I watch as they all ran towards a direction like some sick chicken…
Slowly i move towards the dining Only to stood at the entrance with my hand racking throu-gh my hair at the sight of him sitting right beside her ..
My eyes went hvge …
“Did he just hold her hand”
What what what???
What is this ??
Gosh am gonna destroy elliotttttttttt….
Right nowwwwwwwwww
A voice screaming inside of me almost b!ow my head off …
I swallowed repeatedly at the sight of her smiling towards him and saying only God knows what ,
And right there I felt my inside boil with rage ,,
She kept smiling at Elliot ,, she kept smiling and smiling at him dammit …. has she for once smile at me …I never recall any memory of that …
i hold my form intently to the entrance all fully frustration mounting and it just as if am about to die,, I was sweating profusely ,,at the same time g@sping for air …
i couldn’t take my eyes off her…
why does she has to to put on that kind of dress today of all day …
Why does she has to look this beautiful yet keep smiling in front of that mad taunter..
Gosh how much I wish I’ve never k!$$£d her…
How much I wish have never tasted her sweetness …
Clearly ri-ding my mind off this woman is not gonna be that simple…
No I shook my head slightly..
“No ,, its not gonna be”
Despite all those beatings she gave me ,
Despite telling me clearly that she out of bounds …
Gosh Lucas , wake up , this is not you ,, dammit
I lean against the entrance and hit my head slightly on the door edge
I turn to stare at her , my gaze went straight to her expo-sed legs …damn she has great legs …I was starting to get lost only to suddenly meet with Elliot stare …he tossed his head slightly before wi-nking back at me ….
My head instantly made a double spark..
He knew I was here all along
Did he??? Did he ????
Bastarddddddddddddddddddddddddd
I was about running ahead to gr-ab that long n£¢k of his when I heard my mums sweet accent..
Damn!!! my third step got struck on the tiled flood
“Lucas why are you standing there ,, come on its your favourite ”
I fumbled to hold my stand and there when she glanced back our eyes met …
She was fast to shift though …
I bit my lowerl-ips to hold back the anger boiling in me at the sm-irk that grew at the corner of Elliotl-ips ,, I stood there like a statue for a moment ,
Wishing I was able to gr-ab that giraffe n£¢k of his …
fv¢k am gonna destroy this guy ,,
But i manage to schooled my expression up at my mum…I try squee-zing a smile in other not to reveal nothing from the riotous emotions going throu-gh me….
“Alright mum”
But the heavy veins and sweats coming out of my b©dy says it all …i was all boiling in rage ,,, jealous to the extreme…if only she could smile at me too
I took a seat ,, and glance around the table I knew she was staring at me , why was she staring at me ,, i hope she felt so good now that she destroyed my face ,,
My mouth watered when I realise some of the food neatly placed on the large modern dining table contains ,salad and steak.
…”man look at you ,,the f-ck you are sweating like a pig ”
I knew that voice ,,the same kinda of voice Jack and himself used back at the club …
My eyes went hvge when
I saw the tauting sm-irk at the corner of hisl-ips, almost s£dûçt!velyhe win-ked his left eye at me before pushing whatever he is eating into his mouth …
Goshhhhh I clenched my fist and gritted my teeth ha-rd to hold back the foul words am about blurting out ..
“Lucas you are sweating ,,are you okay” mum called …
“Yes mum” I squee-zed a smile towards her direction
This time When I noticed she and my mum wasn’t looking I s£nt him a warning f!nger instead ….
Almost quietly
“You t©uçh her again you die ,, you got it ”
He raised his brows towards me before smiling..
I frowned ….What the hell is Elliott pu-lling at …the f-ck I feel like s£nding my fist right on that big mouth of his.
Slowly I glance side ways at her,,only to found myself blinking ra-pidly , no make up whatsoever,
God she looks so clean and soft …
I swallowed repeatedly when the flash back on how she was shaking her h!ps c@m£,, as strict as she is ,,so she also dance …..
I kept staring at her charade all the while.. how she pour herself some water,, and there my gaze went straight to that lovel-ips of hers, how it felt so sweet and soft ..
Goosebu-mps rose in my face ..
…I started l!çk!ng myl-ips before I realise it
When I noticed Elliot stare
I s£nt him an eagle glance before gr-abbing a plate of steaks ..I reached for a brightly colored linen napkin and place it on my l@ps
“And Jamie”
I knew she turn her gaze at me ,,but mine was shifted to my mum instead
“where is he”
Mum was on the verge of speaking when the little boy c@m£ running in ..he ran towards my direction instead of his mum …
“Lucas Tyson ,,”
“Preety boy Where were you all the while …” I smile towards him…
“I went to to use the toilet”
I frowned …
“Alone ”
“No With the maid”
” Look Mrs Tyson brou-ght me a new cloth ” and there he started dancing
“Gosh look at you Jamie ,, you are so good looking…gosh your dancing steps are killing”
“You are such a good dancer Jamie” mum laughed.
I was laughing along with her only to st©p when we heard her voice
“Jamie where are your manners huh ,, you should call her grannie and not that ,, now go apologize” she scolded him
Slowly with a sad eye he walk towards my mum…
“Am sorry grannie ,,,I love you ”
“I love you too Jamie ,,” mum carried him up to her l@ps before ordering the maids around to go bring his food…
Must she scold him ,,he’s just a little boy for Christ sake ,
Why is she Always so strict and scary.
But I couldn’t form out any words,,
I reached for my fork
My eyes was on Elliot the whole time we ate, I was watching him strictly ,, studying every move he made ,,
my eyes were like those of hawk watching its prey,,re-ady for just the precise moment to pounce ..
I swear if he try tou-ching her then am gonna throw these steaks right on his face,,
Thank goodness he didn’t ,,
After breakfast ,, she was helping the Maid’s in clearing the table almost hurriedly I went ahead to pu-ll my arms around Elliot ,
“Man…what the hell is this will you f-cking leave my arms” he said quietly …
“Guys you going out ” mum called …she was busy feeding Jamie the rest of his food , when I grin towards her
“No mum ,, emm”
Elliot tried struggling off my arm but i squee-zed more of my hold intently around him
We were of the same height so it wasn’t much of an effort …
“No mum,,emm,,we have some unfinished business, so we gonna be at the casino room, right Elliot ” I fake a smile towards him”
“Rightt” he freed himself before sm-irking and walking more like an English man outside ,,…
God am gonna kill that guy…
More in zombie manner I raced after him ….
“Eliooooottttttttt”
………………….
Guys
Its not shaku shaku this time oooo..
me am alre-ady dancing zanku leg works to the left side… Lol…
I wish you could see me right now ,, my dancing steps na die oo
A k!ss!ngscene from our two heroes…
Who wants that ??
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