š„ATTITUDE
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Episode 23
Jordan’s POV
My mum and I ran into the room and found Ciara trying to get Jaxon into be-d…
“Jaxon, what are you doing??? Your albu-m launch is coming soon…”
Her eyes were glas-sy and I could see fear in them.. She cared about him..
“Ciara go back to sleep dear, I will take care of him…” My mother suggested but Ciara refused..
“No mother,” took her hands in hers, “Tomorrow you have to go visit your mother and if you spend time taking care of Jaxon, you will be tired during the journey…”
“But my girl…..”
“But nothing, we can’t wake Chloe, Mason or Sophie up..I will take care of him…”
“The maids will look after him. You have had a long day my love, you nee-d to rest…” I said in a commanding tone..
“Why should the maids take care of him??? he is family
. I said I will take care of him..”She snapped at me..
I was tra-pped in confusion. Maybe it was love, So she seriously in love with him???Maybe it is a hvge crush.
What kind of a mess is this??? How can I be married to a girl who was in love with my brother???
“Mother, can you call Carol and tell her to bring him a basin of water with a we-t towel??? I nee-d to clean him up…” Ciara stated and my mother nodded…
“Ciara, you don’t have to do this??? He will be okay in the morning…It’s not that he is sick…”
I was getting mad. I couldn’t control the burning jealousy in my che-st…
She was my wife and I preferred her arguing with me than being here taking care of Jaxon.
What if she ever leaves me??? I am never granting her a divorce…
“I said, I will take care of him. Did I say it’s a burden???”
“So you really want to do this…”
“Wholeheartedly…” She admitted truthfully…
I casted a smile of approval even if I felt it was not nee-ded..
“I will go back to be-d honey, dont take long…”
She didn’t even look at me, her eyes were stuck at him. Why did it hurt so much???Why did I feel empty and lonely???
“Mother go and sleep, I got this…” She retorted…
“Thank you dear…”
We both left her in there and went to our room.. My heart was threatening to bur-st out, I nee-ded her beside me..
I wanted to bother and tease her but not to sĀ£nd her in another man’s arms..
What’s happening to me??? He is my brother, he can never betray me. He said he doesn’t love her…
I allowed the darkness I felt swallow me whole…
I sat on the be-d and realized something different. I placed my hands on my cheeks and they were we-t with tears…I haven’t cried in five years, I don’t want my ice cold heart to melt. I am arrogant and heartless and will never change.
I was growing weak..What was she doing to me??? I swore never to cry or feel anything and here I was…
Jordan Marcias you have to hate her, don’t get a soft spĀ©t for her… Women don’t deserve love..
One of them broke me, took my love for granted and I have sworn never to love again. I won’t break my promise…
I turned my room upside down, threw things on the floor and thought I would feel better but nothing. All that I had was a heavy heart and a messy room…
plea-se God take this pain away from me, I don’t wanna have a soft spĀ©t for any girl. They are all traitors…
I punched the wall so ha-rd , blood dripping down the wall but I didn’t care…
I nee-ded to get rid of the piercing pain in my heart.
I should try and convince her to come sleep on my be-d, she will be happy right???
I won’t argue with her, maybe her being beside me would make me feel better…
“Jaxon, my love..What have you done??? Why did you do it???” She sobbe-d wiping his arms with the we-t towel she was holding.
“I wish you saw how worried you mother was. If we were married, right now I would be in your arms whispering sweet nothing but that is just a dream…”
My muscles were shaking in rage that I felt like slamming the door open and dragging her from there… Had it gotten to this,where I had to eavesdrop??
“I don’t know why fate allowed me to marry that cruel man..Why didn’t I get the man I love so much??? If I were married to you, I would be the happiest woman in the universe. But now I feel empty and lonely…I love you…” She hvgged him and sobbe-d on his che-st.
“I want you to hvg me right now, tell me it gets better… ca-ress my cheek and whisper to me it’s all a dream…”She took his hand and placed it on her cheeks,” I really miss you..”
Now I was certain, it was not lvst but love. Ciara was indeed in love with Jaxon.
I can’t lose another girl, what will people say??? They will mock me..
She is my wife and I don’t care what I have to do but she will never leave me…
“Ciara,” I slammed the door open that she jumped from the be-d…
“I thought you were asleep..”
She secretly wiped the tears from her eyes…
“Come,” I held her hand, “We nee-d to go and sleep. Jaxon looks okay to me..”
“Did I tell you I want to sleep right now???”
“You are my wife and you nee-d to be always beside me..” I angrily yelled at her…
She dropped my hand from hers,” Just go and sleep. I am where I nee-d to be..”
She pushed me aside and sat on the be-d…
I wanted to drag her from there but I chose to immerse my rage…I was embarras-sed enough with rejection, she saw me as a cruel man and if I dragged her out of here she would hate me more..She will make to be-d eventually.
Why did I care if she hated me???
I lied on be-d and shoved a pillow over my face…
My be-d was alre-ady filled with her fruity scent b!owing my s-en-ses away…
I slowly felt myself emerge from the anger I possessed… She had taken over my thoughts and I loved it..
I felt at peace just think of her and happy laughing at the memories of us arguing..
How do I get rid of this madness I am feeling??? Her images in my mind were like a lullaby that sĀ£nt me straight to sleep.
When I woke up, I expected her to be anywhere in the room or in the bathroom ma-king it messy but the room was silent…
Like a jealous husband in rage, I ran into Jaxon’s be-d and found her slee-ping beside him…
“You have decided to embarras-s me???” I pu-ll-ed her by her arm..
“Jordan you are hurting me…”
“Hurting you???Move…” I dragged her out of the room to our room and threw her on the be-d..
“Did you two have S-x??? Did you sĀ£dƻƧĀ£her???” I gr@bbĀ£d her shoulders and shook them..
“What has gotten into you???”
“I heard what you told him yesterday, I am never ever granting you a divorce. You are only mine…”
Having anger dissipate in me, felt nice…
“Let me go Jordan, you are crazy….”
“I am not and you won’t leave this room the whole day until you learn to act like my wife. Jaxon is my brother not your lover..”
I pushed her and she fell on the be-d..
“You are a heartless man and I hate you…” She lashed out and I felt a slash on my heart..
“Why do you have to make my life a living hell???” She yelled throwing the pillow at me…
“I owe you…”
I locked the door and went with the key in the bathroom. When I got out of the bathroom she was slee-ping like a baby…
Seeing her slee-ping so peaceful brewed anger inside me like a storm out at a sea…
I got dressed really quic-k only to find time to irritate her. She deserved it..
“Wake up!!!!”I shook her…
“What now???”
“I want you to stay away from Jaxon. If you can’t respect me atleast respect our relationsh!p…”
“Jordan, how many times should I tell you I love him???Are you deaf???” She replied dryly and stood from the be-d…
I was angry but it was nothing but a shield of pain…
“Don’t even think of going out of this room…” I held her by the collar.
“Or else what Jordan, you gonna kill me???”
“I am gonna…” I raised my hand re-ady to sl@p her but held it on the air..My patience with her was running out..
“Sl@p me.. That’s your nature. A cold hearted man. How do you expect me to even like you when you are always bossing me around??Why can’t you be like Jaxon: sweet, kind and loving. That why she left you on the altar…You don’t deserve anyone in your life. You should be thrown into Mars. You are more of an animal than a human being…” There was disgust in her shout…
I would be lying if I said those words didn’t have an impact on me. I could feel a sob choking me.
Did she see me as an animal??? Did I deserve everything happening to me?? I have to make her make me hate her…
“I don’t care Mrs Marcias. You will not eat or drink anything today…I shall Lock you up in this room until you learn your lesson..” I pushed her and she stumbled almost falling when I held her…
“Are you okay???” For a moment my heart skipped a beat at a thought of her falling down..
$h!t!!!I showed my concern side, Jordan focus on the plan. Be cold nothing more..
“Be careful…”
“But….”
I carried her off the floor and tucked her in be-d.. I could tell she was shocked and the same time confused…
I wanted her to hate me but at the same time I didn’t want to lose her.. With her in my arms, I always felt like every ounce of breathe was being taken from me..
“You are a very weird man….”She commented when I got at the door..
“Have some sleep….” I bolted out of the room and locked it..
“Why are you locking her up???”Jaxon asked and I almost strangled him.
“She is my wife…”
“Let her out…” He tried to take the key from me but I pushed him back that he staggered.
“I owe her…”
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Tbc