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I try to sleep but everything Jamal said to me keeps repla-ying in my mind. No, Jamal has never talked to me in that kind of way. I am so hurt right now because Jamal has finally chosÂŁn his mother over me, I donât know what that witch said to him but I will get to the bo-ttomof this. I wonât let her ruin my marriage; I donât know how Jamal managed to find out the truth, I donât know how he got all of that information. I am thinking maybe it Ernest who told him that I had lied but he will never do that. The most worst p@rt is that Jamal didnât tell me that he was coming back, I was surprised to see him when I c@mÂŁ back home from work and he was busy laughing out loud with his mother.
Back at the hospital when I apologized to that witch, I didnât mean it. I wanted her to come back to the house so that I can make her suffer. I finally managed to make her come back, she just thought that I was really being honest with my apology but we both know that I didnât mean it. Right now I feel so hurt as I listen to Jamal laughing out loud with his mother. When he walked out from the bathroom, he didnât stay in the room but just walked out without having said a word to me. I was going to make her pay; this time around I was going to make sure that Jamal was going to believe me over her.
I manage to fall asleep and when I wake up, no I didnât wake up on my own. Jamal was the one who made me wake up and itâs a Saturday, I donât know what he wants from me. Couldnât he just let me sleep?
âWhat is it Jamal?â
âEmily, itâs alre-ady 10 am and you are still slee-ping. Mum doesnât have to do all household chores for you.â
Really Jamal? Right now he is saying that to me, I donât know what happened to him when he was in br@zil but I feel as if I have lost my husband. My Jamal would never talk to me like that. For how long have we been staying with his mother? She had been doing the household chores every day and Jamal has never complained but now he has the guts to tell me that? I feel so mad at him right now. Isnât this house supposed to be mine? Am I not supposed to clean when I feel like cleaning? He has his mother with us and so she must as well do the dirty laundry for us. Right now I am not getting up from this be-d.
âEmily, I am talking to you,â he shouts at me.
Why is he shouting? Now he wants his mother to hear our argument so that she can find something to laugh about? I have no better words for him right now and I am trying so ha-rd to keep my cool, to keep myself calm, I donât want to be disrespectful towards him because despite of everything going on right now in this house, he is still my husband and I respect him.
âJamal, plea-se. I am tired. Yesterday I had a hectic day at work. Your mother has always been doing all these things for us. Why are you complaining now?â
âEmily, I didnât marry my mother but I married you.â
âThen you should have married your mother Jamal. You should have married her and had S-x with her,â I say to him and he raise his hand to sl@p me.
I look at him with shock.
âJamal, you wanted to sl@p me. I canât believe this,â I say with so much hurt.
So Jamal wanted to sl@p me because of his mother, I feel hurt right now that I get off the be-d.
âI am sorry,â he apologies but I donât want to hear anything coming out of his mouth right now.
I walk to the bathroom and he is trailing behind me, I ban-g the door at him and lock it. I scream out loud after I had turned on the shower. I am in the shower and I am just letting the tears fall, no I am in pain and I feel like killing that woman. I have been with Jamal for years and no matter how mad he was, he had never raised his hand to sl@p me. This is all because of that woman, I donât know why she had to be sick, and Jamal wouldnât have gone over to take her. We will be sÂŁnding her money every month and I wouldnât be having a problem with that as long as she was living at the village but now that she is here, my husband has changed from a loving husband to a monster. Yes she has finally managed to turn him against me. My Jamal almost sl@pping me, I wanted to get out of this house and see Tiffany. I nee-d to see Tiffany and tell her what just happened.
Few minutes later, I walk out of the bathroom and head to our be-droom. Jamal is not in the room and thank goodness because I wanted to snap at him for treating me with disrespect.
âAre you going somewhere?â asked Jamal when I was putting on my sneakers.
I didnât respond and continued with what I was doing. Why was he asking me? I thought my presÂŁnce in this house pissed him off.
âI am sorry,â he apologized again, âtalk to me Emily.â
âWhat do you want me to say? You almost sl@pped me and that was so wrong of you Jamal.â
âI wasnât going to do it, I am sorry.â
âAre you?â
âItâs just that Emily I am expecting you to be acting as my wife and you let my mother do everything in this house.â
âExcuse me Jamal, with all due respect. Isnât she the one who volunteered to do all the household chores in this house? I never f0rç£d her nor did I ask her to do the cleaning. Jamal this is my house and I will clean it when I feel like it. If you will excuse me, I am going out.â
âEmily!â
âJamal can I plea-se have some peace in this house. You have just been shouting at me since you c@mÂŁ back and I am tired of it. Leave me alone plea-se; I nee-d to breathe right now. We will talk once I come back,â I said and walked out on him.
No, I had heard enough of his insults. I wanted to feel free inside my own house but I couldnât even breathe properly with Jamal on my n£¢k, busy telling me what to do in my house. Better I leave him with his mother; after all they would feel happy when I am not around. I pas-sed by the dining room and my mother-in law immediately got up, I just ignored her and walked out of the house. I was expecting Jamal to run after me but he didnât even bother to do that. I got into my car and drove off to Tiffanyâs house.
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I love Emily with all of my heart but I donât know why she is giving me the attitude. I just want us to talk and I do regret almost sl@pping her. I donât know what had gotten into me.
âMaybe I should go back to the village,â said my mother as she c@mÂŁ to sit beside me in the living room.
I was absÂŁnt minded and I hadnât seen her coming in. This was few minutes later after Emily had walked out on our conversation. I wouldnât want my mother to go back at the village because of Emily. I love having her around and honestly if she goes back, i will get worried. Having her here with me it means a lot to me.
âMother you donât have to leave.â
âJamal, I feel much better now and I think it will be best for me to leave you two alone in this house.â
What kind of a person would that make me if I just let my mother leave? I take her hand and just hold it,
âI donât want you to leave mother.â
She wanted to say something but I immediately cut her short,
âSeeing you here makes me happy. I donât have to worry about you because I can always see you during the day or at night if I will be going to work than when you are at the village. I donât know whatâs going on with Emily but I will talk to her so that she can change her ways, I love you mother and it wouldnât feel alright if I just let you leave, just like that.â
âI un-derstand your concern sir butâŚâ
âNo buts mother.â
I wasnât going to let her leave. I spent the day with my mother since I had nowhere to go. It was always lovely being with her. I thought maybe Emily was going to come back early from where she went, I even tried calling her but her phone was unreachable. I tried apologizing in the morning but she wasnât in no mood for accepting an apology. Mother sle-pt early that day, she had a headache and I had given her some pain ease. I tried calling Emily again but still her phone was unreachable, I was worried about her as I kept on pacing up and down. It was alre-ady late at night and she hadnât come back home.
I donât know how I ended up falling asleep on the couch but when I woke up it was 11pm at night and there was still no sign of Emily. That got me really worried, Emily had never sle-pt outside and she always called whenever she was staying up late. I thought about calling Tiffany minutes later but maybe she was alre-ady slee-ping and I wouldnât want to disturb. Have you ever been so worried that you canât even concentrate; you canât even eat or do anything because you will be worried of the other person, thatâs how I felt. I was very worried about Emily, at least if she was angry with me, she could have at least called me to let me know that she was slee-ping out than to keep quiet and ma-king me worry.