AGE( it is just a number)
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Episode 5
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Anger issues
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ha-rd in Castillo
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With my hands in my pocket , I followed behind the woman I call my mother as she led me up the stairs to a room
The room was wow and the furnitures obviously expensive , I tried so ha-rd to hide my admiration but couldn’t , I was really b!own away
Well! I wasn’t surprise, I had always known her to be so wealthy….. she is the daughter to the famous Castillo after all !
Tossing my bag on the floor , I sat down on the be-d and as for mom , she kept on hovering over me
So how do you like you room?she asked breaking the awkward silence between us but I ignored her
Does she think a pretty room can cover up for all of her wrongs!She should be happy I allowed her hvg me , I only did that to save her face in front of her workers
Do you like it? She repeated and I nodded abs£ntmindedly
I just wanted her to get the fv¢k out of here , I nee-ded to think but as expected, she didn’t instead she kept on ranting
I knew you would like it! I got your favourite paintings! I made sure I stock up your wardrobe with enough clothings!
Yeah! Yeah! Yeah! I have heard you , can you plea-se leave now? I said rudely and she blinked her eyes in surprise
Ain’t you happy to see me? She asked with a quaveringl-ips and I looked away knowing she was about to cry
It is not that , I just nee-d to sleep .i answered bluntly and she sighed
You are right, you nee-d to rest since you will be starting school tomorrow . She said softly and I heard a loud ban-g in my head
School! Did you just say school? I asked to be sure I heard right
Yes son! your dad and I have made all arrangement, you will be starting school tomorrow and that is final. She said with a straight face and I laughed mockingly
I can see someone is trying so ha-rd to be act like a mother but do you know what , it is not enough, you have to try ha-rder !
What do you mean ha-rd in ! Are you trying to say I am a bad mother? She asked picking her words but I ignored her since she was asking an obvious question
She tried moved closer to me but I sh0t her a warning glare
Why! Do you hate me now? She asked and I huffed
Far from it . I mumbled , fixing my gaze on the MONALISA painting on the wall and I heard her heaved a sigh
I know I have not been there for you , I know I have not being a good mother to you but you have to believe me when I say I love you so much . She said and that was it, my anger took control of me and I flared up
Shut up woman! I barked at her and her eyes grew wi-de in shock
Love! Did you just say love! oh no! You must be kidding! I was away for good three years , I stayed in that horrible place hoping you would come to see me but you never did for once
ha-rd in! She called softly
Do you know what I went throu-gh?Do you fv¢king know how I felt? no tell me, do you? I bet you didn’t since you were probably scre-wing your life away
St©p it ha-rd in! plea-se st©p it! She yelled , breaking down in tears and bit myl-ips trying to st©p myself from spitting out more hurtful words
Damn! what is all this? I thought within, running my hands throu-gh my hair
I never planned on flaring up like this but she pushed me to it and to say the truth, I don’t regret a thing I said to her
I know how you feel baby and I have learnt my mistakes . She said trying to t©uçh me
Don’t! I warned and she withdrew her hands , sitting beside me
ha-rd in! plea-se forgive me . She pleaded as tears rolled down her eyes and I huffed …..
Forgive! You are asking for too much !
Just then , her phone rang and she glanced at me before receiving it
hello Dave! I heard her say and exhaled de-eply knowing I was the one at the loosing end
pu-lling off my polo , I la-id on the be-d and listened to her as she ranted and raved to my dad about my rude manners
Our son is proving so stubborn! Our son refused to listen to me! he doesn’t want to go to school! I think you should talk to him!
having complained to him , she stretched out her hands , handing me the phone which I reluctantly reached for
Your dad wants to speak to you. She said calmly
I stared at the screen , the call was still ongoing so I placed the phone on my ear
hello Dad! I gr-unted my greetings and he scoffed
What is this I am hearing about you not wanting to go to school? he asked with a miff and without waiting for my response, he continued
I don’t know what else you want ha-rd in , your mum and I are only trying to mould you into someone better so why are you giving us a ha-rd time?
I am not Dad , I just nee-d time to think . I said trying to defend myself
No son! You have no say here , the decision has alre-ady being made , you are going to school tomorrow. he finalised
But dad I am …. I tried to say but st©pped when I noticed the line was no longer connected
What the fv¢k! Did he just hang the call on me ! I retorted angrily , throwing the phone on the be-d
And with a worried look on her face , my mum picked up the phone from the be-d and then stood up
You nee-d to get some rest , I will s£nd your maid to you . She said softly and then left the room , closing the door quietly
I let out a loud cry
Why doesn’t anyone wants to un-derstand me? Why can’t anyone see the pain burning de-ep down on me ? I feel so scared , I just wanted someone to as-sure me that everything will be alright but no way , I am always been reminded of how bad I am
Balling my f!ngersinto a fist , I slammed them into the wall
A boiling fury swell inside of me , I knew I had anger issues but this was different,I just couldn’t control it as my head were spinning and threatening to explode
I nee-d relief! I nee-d relief! I nee-d relief !
And in flash , I picked up the vase from a stool beside the be-d and I threw it ha-rd on the wall
It c@m£ crashing down with a shattering sound but I wasn’t satisfied, picking up another one , i did the same but I still felt the same , completely messed up !!
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Hazel Dakota
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Sitting down on a sofa in the sitting room, I was pondering on what next to do when I saw Mrs Castillo climbing down the stairs
She was looking so gloomy and I was lost for a minute wondering what made her this way … I mean she was acting like a puppy just few minutes ago so why did she turn gloomy all of a sudden or did her son say something to hurt you? I bet he did
he is a nothing but a snobbish rude br@t!imagine the way he ignored me when I wanted to help with his bag
I stood up and walked slowly to her and to sum up my point , she didn’t even realise I was in front of her till I tapped her gently
She look startled for a moment and then quic-kly composed herself
Erm oh Hazel what is it? She stuttered and I huffed silently
Oh yeah! I am right , that spoilt br@t made her this way. My subconsciousness screamed
Nothing ma, I was just wondering if I go check on ha-rd in erm I mean Sir ha-rd in . I said politely and she smiled lightly
You can just call him ha-rd in , I am sure he won’t mind
Oh! So can I go check on him .. ma? I repeated
She was about to say something when we heard a loud cry followed by a loud crashing sound coming from up stairs
I bec@m£ alarmed
What is that? I asked, looking towards the stairs and then back at her
She froze on the sp©t and a fli-cker of fear crossed her face
That must be ha-rd in . She managed to say and before I could say anything, we heard another loud crashing sound
And without thinking, I rushed up the stairs to his room
I pushed the door opened and on entering, I met the whole room in a mess and not only that , ha-rd in was also bleeding
ha-rd in! I called in shock but he didn’t answer me nor spare me a glance , he just la-id on the be-d staring at the ceiling not even minding the cut on his palm …….
His upper b©dy was ba-re and I swallowed ha-rd staring at the inks on his che-st
Amazing!
I quic-kly comported myself and rushed out of the room the same I rushed in and then climbe-d down the stairs to the sitting room
What happened? Is my son hurt? his mother asked in a rush
The first aid box ! I nee-d the first aid box . I repeated , ignoring her question
It is in the sto-re house . She said , pointing to a room beside the kitchen
And without wasting time , I ran into the sto-re house , looked around for the first aid box and found it un-derneath the cu-pboard
I pu-ll-ed it out and then ran all the way to ha-rd in’s room
Entering the room , I met him still laying the same way but this time around, his eyes was closed
I walked slowly to him and then sat down quietly on the be-d
ha-rd in! I called softly but as expected, he did not answer
But i knew for sure he wasn’t slee-ping because his eye lids were shaking
I sighed softly
Opening the first aid box, I brou-ght out the cotton wool and methylated spirit
I poured little of the stuff on the cotton wool and then dabbe-d the cut with it
he flin-ched a little without opening his eyes
I smiled lightly
He is so strange but cute !
Bringing out a bandage ,I wra-pped the cuts neatly and then stood up when I was done
I picked up the box staring in disbelief at the shattered vase on the tiled floor
he is obviously crazy .. I mean why on earth would he do something like this! Only a psychopath can do this
I slowly shifted my gaze to him and my heart skipped a beat when I found him staring at me
Has he been staring at me for long?
Hi! I greeted nervously but he just stared blankly at me for a moment and then closed his eyes again
But this time around, his eyes was not filled with anger, it was filled with …. pain ……
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TBC
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One word for ha-rd in?