What lies beneath Episode 39

WHAT LIES BENEATH
Episode 39
By AMAH’S HEART.
 
I stayed back in my room while going throu-gh my l@pt©p.l
Eziaku was out tidying things and she also volunteer to help Mom fix two bu-ttons on her cloth instead of taking it to the tailor tomorrow.
I can hear them talking and laughing loudly in the guest room.
I wish my Mom can re-lease her alre-ady so that she can come take her bath and rest.
We have alre-ady done our night prayer before I c@m£ to my room.
I was done with what I was doing, I shut down my l@pt©p, picked up my phone and began browsing the internet.
I kept checking the door to know when she will come inside because I can no longer hear noises coming from the guest room.
Which means she has left there and was probably coming inside.
Finally, there was a knock. Why is she knocking, she should open the door and come in. She is not a visitor to be knocking before coming into my room.
I asked her to come in, and told her not to knock next time because she is alre-ady p@rt of me and the house too.
She smiles with a nod before asking if I have had my bath.
I told her that I did after dinner which was over an hour alre-ady.
She went into the bathroom and took almost 25minutes before she finally c@m£ with a towel wra-pped around her che-st
She picked the clothes she wore the previous night and went back to the bathroom to change up.
I frowned, what exactly is she hidding from me.
Can’t she freely dress up in my pres£nce. Am I not her man? Why is she shy changing clothes in my pres£nce.
I pretend to be browsing but I was looking forward to spending ro-mantic night with her.
I nee-ded something to drink. I walked out, gr@bb£d a bottle water and return back to the room.
She was sitting on the be-d.
I sat on the chair without a word because I don’t really know what kind of conversation to start at that moment.
“Where are you slee-ping? She asked
“Uhmmm anywhere…. maybe I will sleep on the be-d with you tonight.
I stared at her to see her reaction, she was trying to avoid my gaze.
“You’re not angry with me again… right? She asked as she managed to look at me.
“,No… I’m not Ezi. I’m rather grateful that you’re around. I kinda overacted in a way but you wouldn’t blame me. You really broke me into pieces that Monday with your attitude and sharp ton-gue. I’m glad we’re putting all of that behind us… and moving ahead like we should…”
“Yes, I’m also happy that you finally let go of your anger. I’m sorry for everything but I was truly hurt and did not know a better way to react than do what I did. You won’t un-derstand how it feels like telling me that you sle-pt with another woman and sustain injury from same person and it was after then you remembered me. I couldn’t pretend to be cool with it…it still hurts when I think of it but I have let go too. I’m glad we’re fine and moving on…
I stood up and went to sit beside her on the be-d.
Took her right hand and placed on my che-st.
“, You own my entire heart Ezi. What happened before won’t repeat itself…I promise. I’m truly sorry that such even happen in the first place. I can’t st©p loving you… even when I’m angry I still can’t forget you. I hated the fact that Mom kept mentioning Olisa…
She began to laugh, I joined her while re-leasing her hand.
“…I will disown my cousin and challenge him to a fight for your heart if the situation warrants it. My Mom knows exactly how to get me. I’m so happy she c@m£ if not you won’t be sitting here with me tonight. You’re beautiful…others may see you as neutral but you’re the most beautiful lady in my eyes. My Mom also confirms it. I’m happy you c@m£ into my life when I nee-ded a caring, calm yet a no nons-en-se lady in my life…
She blu-shed as she bent her face.
“My mouth almost ruined things for us. I’m very happy hearing you say all of this. I have miss you and I’m glad you’re back to being you again. I promise to control my words and actions to avoid offending you. I can’t bear to see an angry you again. Those moments were scary, but I was silently praying that you Forgive me and let it go…”
I cu-mpped her face and as-sured her that I love her wholeheartedly.
I wish to k!ssher that moment but she replied that she loved me too before standing up.
“I don’t know…but maybe I should sleep on the ground with a blanket. Is not a problem for me… I’m fine slee-ping anywhere. I don’t want to inconvenience you on the be-d…
I interrupted
“If you sleep on the floor I will sleep beside you, if you choose the kitchen I will be there beside you. Anywhere you want to sleep tonight I also want to be there my love. I missed you so much and wish to cudd-leand hold you to myself… Except you’re afraid of something…or are you scared of slee-ping next to me?
“Not really…but…is..” she was stuttering and I can see from her eyes that she was troubled.
I moved closer to her and gently draw her close.
“What are you always afraid of…I have told you times without number that I will never hurt you. I promise…try and trust me.
I cu-mpped her face again and k!$$£d her slowly but steady.
She did not respond immediately but later did.
Within a second we were on the be-d, we continued k!ssing.
I couldn’t let go anymore as I put my hands un-der her t©p and m0@n ed happily when I freely gr@bb£d the bo-ob s.
I m0@n ed quietly again at how soft and inviting it feels in my hand.
I was about pu-lling off her clothes when
She suddenly began to shake and she stepped away from me while p@n-ting.
Oh no, not now and not again. My pajamas was alre-ady burged.
‘i can’t…I can’t do this… I’m sorry…I can’t… plea-se…!
She said repeatedly while still walking to sit on the chair.
I don’t un-derstand what exactly is going on or why she kept shaking.
“What is the problem Ezi…talk to me. I promise I won’t be angry or react negatively. I won’t f0rç£ you either despite how b!own I am right now but I will always respect whatever you decide.
She sat on the chair and held her face in her hand.
I moved towards her and sat on the arm of the chair.
Urging her to speak.
“I have alre-ady told you before…I haven’t done it… and I so much de-sire that it will be with my husband… I’m really sorry that…
She paused.
“Ezi…my love, What is it that you have not done… what are you talking about? Do you mean you haven’t make love before or is there another thing you’re talking about that I’m not un-derstanding…”
“,,Yes, no man has climbe-d me before. I don’t want it to happen now… I’m afraid that I may give in if you persuade but I’m truly not re-ady. plea-se… don’t..
I st©pped her from talking.
“plea-se st©p… st©p… st©p it Ezi. What do you mean that you haven’t made love before…are you trying to tell me that you’re a vir-gin?
She tries to nod her head but suddenly st©pped because of the look in my eyes. I suddenly bur-st into laughter.
It was a whole funny scenario to know that Eziaku claims to be a vir-gin.
I wouldn’t have mind if she told me that she was practicing celibacy until her wedding night.
I wouldn’t have cared if she said “I have done it severally before but I have decided not to do it again until I’m married. That’s celibacy and I will respect her decision but claiming to be a v!rg!ngot me rolling seriously.
Or she may be confusing herself and do not un-derstand what being a v!rg!nor practicing celibacy means.
She looked at me annoyingly the way I kept laughing but I just couldn’t help it.
I got hold of my self and said.
“,Ezi, you can’t be a vir-gin, you’re not only twenty eight but have had b©yfri£ndin the past. Is Uche your first man?
She look very serious.
“No, Uche is the second man I d@t£d”
She answered looking away.
“Then you can’t possibly be a v!rg!nEzi. I see no reason for lying because I’m not after your b©dy count, I mean I’m not after how many men you have sle-pt with in the past. I don’t give a damn about that I only want you and that should matter most.
She went quiet and it felt like she has losed all her defense guard. She replied with all seriousness in her voice.
“I’m not saying it for you to believe or cl@p for me. I’m saying it because is true… I’m not lying and I see no reason to lie. The first man I d@t£d agreed to my terms of no intim-acy but later started disturbing me for S-x. I refused which led to a serious fight. And we broke up and went our separate ways. Uche was from the church that I attended with my grandmother. He was the drummer boy and also sings in the choir. From normal friendsh!pwe fell in love and he was re-ady to abide to whatever I want. He actually did for over two years and never disturbs me for S-x. But I knew he sometimes wish he can have me even ones. He was also principled and we never had intimacy. I traveled out of the village and we fell ap@rt. He met another free lady and they connected both physically and emotionally. You alre-ady know how we ended things mutually without fight or malice. We’re cool and will always be friends.
“Okay… Ezi…I don’t un-derstand where all of this story is going. So you mean that none of the men you d@t£d make out with you? That’s crazy, I’m sorry…but I don’t believe you. Let me tell you a little bit about Oby. I met her when she was 18years and a vir-gin… well, so I was told. After about two to three years she visited from school and ofcourse she was still supposed to be a vir-gin…I never t©uçhed her before and I was eagerly looking forward to ma-king out with my v!rg!nwife to be. I was patient and waited until she was re-ady… she confirmed to me that she was still very intact, I believed so. How proud I was and happy that night when we were about to make out. I even as-sured her severally that I was going to be gentle on her and if she still felt like she can’t do it… I was going to wait. After all she was mine and I see no reason to rush her especially with the fact she never had a man before and wouldn’t know how that feels. We finally did it and at the long run Oby wasn’t a vir-gin, she was about 20 to 21years then. At that young age she have not only loosed her vir-ginity but also gotten pregnant for another guy and did ab-ortion that damaged her uterus…her bladder. I spent a lot of money on surgery just to correct it. The point I’m trying to make here is that a naive teenage village girl wasn’t naive after all. She was a good liar and very manipulative. Ever since then is ha-rd for me to even trust all this village girls. I don’t even believe that there is a v!rg!namong them… especially those from eighteen and above. You’re 28 Eziaku… you’re neither a kid or naive. You have had ex’s and still claims to be a vir-gin…. hahahaha… that’s why this whole thing is funny to me. But let’s talk about another thing… because you can’t possibly convince me. I can only pretend to believe you so that you will drop the t©pic.
She nodded quietly and climbe-d up the be-d again.
She lie down facing up, I sat in the be-d but didn’t lie down.
“…Does this mean that I can’t t©uçh you Ezi? you wanted to use the vir-ginity thing to scare me off? You should have told me straight out that I shouldn’t t©uçh you and I will keep off, not trying to lie to me. I don’t know you as a liar Ezi but is okay.
I lie down leaving space between us.
She suddenly began to speak again.
“Maybe if not for how I decided to live my life I would have ended up like my mother who had me out of wedlock… and even at this age i don’t know how my father looks like except that he was one of those wom-anizers from the city that sweet talk my Mom into his be-d and later abandoned her while moving on with another woman. Or I could have be married by now with children, living a poverty stricken life with no choice or ex-posure. I never wanted to get pregnant and have a child without a responsible father…I took this decision at a very tender age and even though some of the things I wanted never worked out… like getting married at early twenty and other de-sires but I’m glad I took this p@rt. You’re the first man that I have loved to the extent of wanting to bend my principles to plea-se you. The first man I ever cried for and prayed over. You’re the first man to do alot of things to me… like to the way you k!ssor handles my b©dy that makes me want to throw off everything I believed in and have a S-xual moment with you. But…I have come this far and despite how I sometimes get scared of loosing you or other important things… I’m not re-ady to let down my guard yet. I will wait for the man for me. I’m sorry but this is my stand…
I didn’t reply and she did not say another word. she turned her back to me.
My b©dy still yawns for her. I can’t even sleep knowing she was in the same be-d with me. I looked over at her, trying to think of some other things but it wasn’t helping.
I waited and kept trying to distract my mind but nothin was working.
I looked down at my pajamas trou-ser and my man-hood was not re-ady to reason with the fact that she wants to be left alone.
I breathed de-eply before moving closer to her in be-d.
I t©uçhed her gently before placing my head on her shoulder as I whispered.
“Can you let me just this night… plea-se. I won’t disturb you again. I can’t sleep…my b©dy de-sires you. plea-se…my love. ma-king love to you tonight will really make me happy and I will continue to cherish you honey…
I k!$$£d her ears, her n£¢k and slowly turned her to face me, I pu-ll-ed off my t©p and continued k!ss!ngher while my hands were all over her b©dy.
She struggles but I held her ti-ght. As I sli-pped down my hand to her cloths. She kept struggling but I pinned her down to the be-d while pleading for her to corporate.
“You’re hurting me Austin…
she said quietly but I was not re-ady to come to reasoning.
“Leave me alone…”
She screamed out loudly and sl@p my eyes.
I quic-kly covered her mouth from screaming again while blinking severally.
I was trying to catch my breath.
I said quietly to her
“What is wrong with you? Jesus Christ… My Mom could hear you…I wasn’t going to r@p£ you. What…uhhh God…
I felt stupid and embarras-sed. I just realized I was literally forcing her beyond her wish.
She immediately jumped out of the be-d with speed while re-adjusting herself.
She was scared and angry.
And just then there was a knock.
“Austin… Austin…is everything okay in there? I heard Ezi screaming… what is going on?
I held my mouth as I began walking around the room like a crazy person.
I begged Ezi not to say anything.
“Yes Mom… she is alright. She… she was having a nightmare…”
That was the first lie that c@m£ to my mind. My heart was beating unst©ppable.
“Are you sure son? If she is not comfortable in there she can come over to my side. The be-d is big enough for two people….
“She is fine Mom… plea-se go back to be-d. Eziaku is alright…”
I replied wishing my Mom will leave.
“Can’t she speak…let her speak for herself. Ezi… my daughter are you alright in there? Hope my son is not disturbing you..? You can come and sleep in my room if you’re not comfortable….
Eziaku g@sped out before replying my mom.
“I’m alright here ma. Thank you…!
My Mom later left. I opened the door a little to make sure she was gone.
Before going over to Eziaku.
“, I’m really sorry Ezi…I don’t know what c@m£ over me. I almost f0rç£fully had you which is beyond your wish. Oh my God…I couldn’t control my urge… plea-se, forgive me…
I knelt down and placed my head on her b©dy. She was shocked to see me knelling but I nee-ded to prove to her that I was truly sorry.
What I try to do was totally wrong and very inappropriate. I have never in my life f0rç£d a woman into be-d.
I don’t know what c@m£ over me tonight.
Mostly everytime I’m with Ezi, it feels like I’m going to explode if I don’t t©uçh her.
She as-sured me that it was alright and also believed me.
I told her to go back to be-d, I will go and sleep in the sitting room.
She wanted to leave rather but I insisted as I reminded her that my Mom won’t be happy if she found out that I was the cause and may get suspicious.
I left with a duvet to the sitting room and remained awake almost all throu-gh the night.
I kept repla-ying the scary scene on my mind and shaking my head pathetically.
What was I even thinking?
That was not man like. A responsible man will never f0rç£ a lady for S-xual plea-sure.
I really messed up in there and will never again ask Ezi to get inti-mate until she feels re-ady to offer freely.
It was my mom’s tap that woke me up in the morning.
It was time for devotion. I was still very sleepy as Eziaku led the morning prayer.
After prayer, i walked back to the room while she was out tidying things.
I dozed off again immediately my back hit the be-d.
She did not wake me up. When I finally woke up and c@m£ out, my Mom was in the sitting room.
I asked of Eziaku she told me that she has left alre-ady. She did not want to wake me up.
I wish she had, I would have gone to drop her since she will be having clas-s today.
I’m out to plea-sing her and ma-king it up to her.
My Mom asked me to come and sit down she wanted to speak to me.
My heart skipped.
I hope she did not find out or did Eziaku told her?
I breathed shakily as I sat to listen to her.
My mind is not settled.
I still feel guilty because of last night.
 
 
Tbc

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