What’s on your mind?
??♂️The Abomination??♀️
Episode 11
We thought we had heard confessions until K@$$im made us believe he killed his grandmother. His
father could not hold himself anymore as he bursted into tears. Pastor let him die, he does not deserve
to live, let him die. I cannot have this monster as a son, he’s not my blood. Let the bastard die or I will kill
him myself. Sincerely I could un-derstand the man’s pain.
How can a man sleep with his own mother and sister and kill his own grandmother? What sort of life is this? How did I marry a monster without knowing for over ten years. What happened that God didn’t reveal this man to me? There was calmness in the hall because of the last revelation. His father walked out of the hall in rage and my brother in-law joined him pleading with him not to go.
After much begging, K@$$im’s father never returned to the hall again. He sat by the car but my brother
in-law came in after sometimes. At this time, it was few minutes to 7am and some of the prayer team
members pleaded to go and prepare for work. Baba closed the meeting and asked us to reconvene by
9pm again. My father in-law and my brother in-law knew nowhere in Lokoja so I had to take them to our
house. I really wished I will not come back to that house again. Even though l built the house together with K@$$im, I suddenly became a stranger in my house. I was agitated and restless throu-ghout that day
for fear.
The food I prepared, my father in-law did not touch it. I am not hungry, what is inside me is more than
hunger my daughter, he said. He called me for a chat at about 2pm. He took almost 14 minutes
apologising to me. We would have told you who K@$$im is but he told us he was a changed person after
he gave his life to Christ. I am not a good Christian but I know what it meant when someone gives his life
to Christ. And moreover, everything we were asked to do for his atonement was done when he ra-ped
his mother.
My daughter you’re not bound to this marriage anymore, you’re free to remarry if you have
someone who will want to marry you. By the authority of a father and family head I rele-ase you to move
on. If you are my daughter, I will never allow you continue in this marriage with such a monster who had
done these evils. He may live with the consequences of his atrocities all his life and you are too good to
pa-rtake of his punishment. Your years of barrenness is enough for you my daughter. Please go…. I was in
tears without a word. I didn’t know what to say because my heart was battered.
As I went into my room, I began to ruminate over what my father in-law said. He is right, I don’t have to
suffer the punishment of what I didn’t do. I began to search for scriptures in my head to justify the idea
and they began to pop in.
“The soul that sinneth, it shall die. The son shall not bear the iniquity of the father, neither shall the
father bear the iniquity of the son: the righteousness of the righteous shall be upon him, and the
wickedness of the wicked shall be upon him.”
“And I say to you: whoever divorces his wife, except for s-xual immorality, and marries another,
commits adultery.”
I began to weigh the options; to continue to live with K@$$im or to leave and remain unmarried for the
rest of my life. But am still young and beautiful. How can I be without a man at 37? How will I overcome s-xual temptations?
As I was thinking of what to do next, I heard a knock at the door. I rushed to open the door and it was
Toyin. She brou-ght us dinner. How are you Nneka? She greeted. I just left the church now, I went to give
K@$$im some food. I didn’t bother to thank her because I thought it was nee-dless but that was a good
gesture anyway. Her prese-nce brou-ght some relief to me. I shared with her what my father in-law said
and how I have been giving it a second thought. She sighed without saying anything.
What’s on your mind?
??♂️The Abomination??♀️
Episode 12
It was 8pm and we began to make preparation for the 9pm meeting. My father in-law had insisted he
will not go with us this time. I’m already feeling my BP had gone up and I wouldn’t want it to go higher
than what it is if you don’t want to carry my corpse back to Ajase, he said. We got set and we drove in
Toyin’s car to the church. Three of the prayer team members were already seated waiting for us and
baba. Few minutes later, baba and some other prayer team members joined us. This time, it wasn’t a
long prayer before the stage was set for the continuation of K@$$im’s confession.
I know I am not worthy to live again but at this junction I nee-d to tell this gathering everything I have
done so that the world will learn from my story. My dear, I am sorry for what I have subjected you to for
a whole decade. I will beg you for something before I continue my confession. What is it? I asked. I will
like you to write the story of my life to be titled “THE ABOMINATION” and make it go viral so that others
who are in my shoe can learn. I am not sure I can make it, I see death close to my bosom and ready to
take me. Is that all? I asked. Yes, he replied.
You will not die but live to declare the goodness of God, baba interrupted him. If you can confess all
your sins and forsake them, God will give you another chance you don’t deserve. We have two members of this church who had done worse than what you did and God had shown them mercy. One is a pastor
today and the other is a member of the choir. God can forgive you brother K@$$im. Just confess all. Baba
picked his old Dake and opened to Proverbs 28:13 that read thus “He that covereth his sins shall not
prosper: But whoso confesseth and forsaketh them shall have mercy.” He also instructed one of the
team members to open James 5:16 “confess your faults one to another, and pray one for another, that
ye may be healed. The effectual fervent prayer of a righteous man availeth much.”
K@$$im continued his confession. I killed grandma when she came for treatment for her tuberculosis.
Everyone had gone out that day and only me and grandma was in the house and I began to have urge
for s-x. I went round the neighborhood if I could bounce on any woman or girl around to satisfy my urge
but none was available. By the time I returned home, my urge had doubled and on entering the house, I
noticed grandma was taking her bath. I tiptoed until I for-ced my way into the bathroom, who is that?,
grandma asked. I didn’t answer because I didn’t want her to know I was the one. She quickly robbe-d off
the soap on her face, K@$$im what are you doing here? Go out, she shouted. But before she could
scream again I overpowered her and released my tension on her.
While I was struggling to pene-trate her, grandma begged me not to do it because it is an abominable act. You will incur generational curse on yourself and your unborn children, she advised. When she noticed I was bent on doing what I intended she stopped to struggle with me. The shock was what killed grandma that many didn’t know till today. The whole place was in tears, even baba could not hold back his tears. My brother in-law fainted momentarily. We have to start another process of prayer to bring him back to consciousness.
It was really shocking. I am sorry, K@$$im begged everyone. I know this is not easy to take but I did it and I am
regretting my action. He seemed to still have more confession but no one was bold enough to ask him to
continue, not even baba. There was a long silence in the hall like we were in the graveside. My heart was
tearing in pieces and I could hear the sound of the crack in my heart. I wished the earth could open up
and swallow me but it never happened. But will God forgive these terrible acts of heartlessness and evil?
Will God not avenge grandma’s blood? These and many questions ran throu-ghmy mind in a jiffy.
TBC