TEARS OF A HELPLESS WOMAN (episode 19

© Pauline Mumbi

“Honey are you OK?” Shane asked me.
“I’m ok honey. I’m just tired” I responded.
“You’ve ba-rely t©uçhed your food” he said.
I just lost it and tears ran down my face.
“Honey what’s wrong?” He asked me again.
My heart bled to think that he was suffering for what he didn’t know. I was crying for someone else and here he was comforting me.
“I just can’t believe how life has changed.. God has been too good to me” I lied.
“Awwwww dry your tears. I love you honey and I promise to spoil you in California” he said
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Shane and I checked into first clas-s in re-adiness for my flight on a Saturday morning. I was so happy and I couldn’t wait to be in a different world. All throu-gh the flight Shane told me about his place and showed me a lot of pictures.
Flying was something else and to think that I had to be on the plane for hours was just crazy.
When we landed it was dark but the lighting alone was clear that I was in a different world. It was just unbelievable stepping into the white mans land.
“God you have allowed my eyes see the beauty of your creation.. I Mwansa a simple house help” I said as tears flowed.
We checked into a beautiful h0tel although we had separate rooms. Shane and I had no intentions of being inti-mate.
The following day I was very tired and I continued slee-ping until afternoon when we went to view some places. I was very happy to meet Shane’s friends and knowing his side of life made me feel special.
I got embarras-sed a couple of times as things were just so different but thanks to Shane who was supportive, I was never out of place
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Going to Veg@s wasn’t p@rt of the plan but as usual Shane is full of surprises. By the time we clocked 3weeks I had been to Hollywood, Veg@s and to t©p it all we made a flight to Italy just to visit within the holiday before going back to California.
I really thought I had it all … I actually almost had it all but throu-gh all this I was broken inside. I couldn’t just forget Atusaye.
Even though Shane got me so much, my heart longed for that one man who gave me love. Atusaye showed me love before I knew any other
One morning as I was just from my morning work out Shane told me we had a trip to make. I wasn’t sure what else to expect as I had seen it all. I had shopped from the best sto-res and even dined in the best restaurants. So what could be better?.
“Honey just tell me where we are going I can’t guess anymore” I said.
“Trust me my love, have I ever disappointed you?” He asked me.
So once again I was packing and this time I had 7 bags of clothes and shoes. We flew on a pri-vate plane to a city that was still unknown to me until we landed.
“Welcome to Paris? Are we in Paris? I asked Shane with excitement.
” yes honey we are” he said.
I screamed and jumped on his masculine b©dy.
Everyone at the airpot must have thought I was out of my mind.
“Honey our holiday will end here before we go back home” he said.
We checked in to a
lovely h0tel and as usual maintained our separate rooms.
Shane told me he had a surprise for me but I wondered what it was. Being in Paris was a surprise on its on. Really what could t©p that?.
I was in my room watching TV and upd@t!ngsh0ts on Instagram when I got a delivery.
I didn’t order anything but the delivery lady was positive that it was mine.
“OK mum let me at least check it before I sign.” I responded.
The parcel was in a big box and inside was s black laundry bag and it looked like an expensive dress.
“Am I going to meet the Queen?” I asked as I giggled.
I just finished unZi-pping the bag and my mouth was now jaw drop.
“Its a wedding dress” I muttered.
“Yes it is madam and if you check the other box must have jewellery” she said.
I quic-kly opened it and just like she said i found the expensive jewellery.
I couldn’t believe what was happening and I quic-kly rushed to his room only to find his be-d decorated in petals with the words “will you marry me?”
As usual tears rushed down as Shane appeared from the bathroom and knelt down before me.
Shane pu-ll-ed out a box from his pocket and said to me.
“Honey.. If you accept this ring on your f!nger I will be the happiest man on the planet. Will you marry me Mwansa?. He said.
I wanted to stage a funeral to mourn Atusaye and I really wanted to escape but I once escaped and what happened?
I shut my eyes as tears fell down my eyes.
” yes I will marry you” I said slowly.
Shane sli-pped the ring on my f!nger and he hvgged me really ti-ght.
“I love you” he whispered.
I couldn’t lie to God or myself so I avoided saying those words back to him.
“I thank God for you” I said.
“I wanted us to have a surprise wedding here and everything was un-derway but mum wasn’t plea-sed so I guess we will wed home in zambia” he said.
I was so relived I think if Shane threw a surprise wedding I would have just died.
“But I promise to give you a Paris wedding afterwards” he said.
I took a de-ep sigh.. Not of relief but of thought. It’s funny how freedom is not really free.
I was now carrying a ring equivalent to two mansions on my f!nger and the thought of Atusaye had to fade. I had to accept fate.
I had to give up. Shane was too much. He was just too much. Atusaye did not have a chance. Or was I wrong?..
See you on my wedding day. Z
ambia here we come…
 To be continued … 
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