?s-en-sATION ?
(Fighting against lvst ?)
Written by Lynne writes.
@Lynne’s libr@ry.
Chapter ten.
#Xander
I haven’t talked to Aria ever since that incident happened. Don’t blame, I tried talking to her but she just snub me.
I don’t know what to do anymore, I just miss her badly and wish she can forgive my nonchalant attitude. I seriously find it ha-rd to believe she loves me, she always act like she doesn’t even like me or maybe I just didn’t notice.
“Dude ” a knock c@m£ on my door.
“Come in ” I say not taking my eyes of the l@pt©p.
“You have a visitor “Drake says.
“Who? ”
“Your girlfriend “he replies.
What? Aria?
I gr-ab my shi-t and storm out of my room in full speed.
There I saw Aria leaning on the wall with her eyes close.
She flin-ch when I clear my throat.
“Are you okay? ” I ask and she nods.
“What are you doing here? ” I say taking in how h0t she looks in the yellow tank t©p and blue jeans she wearing and her white sneaker.
” I’ll go back if you don’t want me here “she says turning to leave.
“No no no, don’t leave ” I st©p her.
“I thought you were angry with me that’s why ”
“I’m not I forgave you a long time “she smiles.
“Really? Then why won’t you talk to me ”
“Can I come in? “she ask and I open the door for her.
We both step in the living room.
“I just want you to miss me. Did you? ”
“You got me then, I really miss you ” I say ma-king her blus-h.
I gr-ab her wrist and led her to my room.
I k!ssher immediately as I close the door. My hands wra-pped around her w@!st, the k!ssturn to an intense make out and I just have to st©p when she was getting uncomfortable. de-ep down I’m angry but I know I have to be patient. I just nee-d to make her more comfortable and it will be easy. I un-derstand it’s her first time.
“What is this? ” Aria c@m£ out of my bathroom holding a white substance.
Standing up I quic-kly snatch it from her. “Don’t t©uçh my stuffs again ”
“What is that thing? ”
“Is that cocaine? Are you using drugs Alex ” she yell.
“Keep your fv¢king voice down ” I growl.
“Really? I should keep my voice down Alex, you use drug ”
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“I don’t use it ” he hisses tossing around.
“Then what is it doing in your damn bathroom!” I snap.
“What is your problem Huh? Why are you meddling with my business ”
“Because I care about you ”
“You care? Why did you even care? ”
“Because I love you and because I’m your girlfriend ” I say and he laughs.
“You are my girlfriend Aria, not my mom so know your lane” he glares at me before walking out of the room.
I sigh. I shouldn’t have shouted on him if I really nee-d answers.
I walk out of the room too to find him.
“Have you seen Xander?” I ask one of friends.
“I thought you went out together, I saw him drive out now ” he replies and I sigh frustrated.
What should I do?
I pick my phone and dial his number but it went straight to voicemail.
I stayed in his room until 10 minutes later he c@m£ back looking frustrated.
“I… ”
“When mom died, I had no one to turn to and I didn’t want to go to Dad for anything.I was broke and helpless then I met someone who introduced me into drugs selling. That is where I make money for myself ”
He sigh. “I wasn’t suppose to tell anyone cos I made an oath. I will be killed if they find out, so keep your mouth shut ”
My mouth hung open in Suprise.
“What? ”
“You could have found a better thing to do Xander, not drugs ”
“Do you think I wish to do this? Baby I had no choice I was young and helpless ”
I sigh and took his hand into mine.
“Can’t you leave it?” I stare into his eyes.
He let out a dry laugh. ” You can leave throu-gh death only ” he says ma-king me cringe.
“Are you into Mafia? ” my eyes wi-den.
“Not really, I just help them sell drugs that’s all ”
“I’m telling you all this Aria because I trust you with my life, no one else knows this ap@rt from you “he says and I nod.
I really wanna scream and run away from him but I can’t.
I feel I nee-d to stay with him. I just hope I won’t get into trouble.
“What if you get caught? ”
“I can’t get caught ” he replies.
“Don’t worry, I’ll make sure you don’t get pu-ll into my mess. I’ll protect you and also find a way to get myself out of it too. ”
He cu-p my cheek with his left palm staring into my eyes with emotions I couldn’t fathom what it is. I just noticed something flash throu-gh his eyes and soon it was gone. I stare back trying to figure what it is he brings his head closer and k!ssme intensely, slowly and pas-sionately. I wra-p my arms around his n£¢k tugging his hair as ourl-ips fight for dominance. I was now able to k!sshim back not letting him do the k!ss!ngand I notice that he loves when I fight for dominance with him.
His gentle t©uçh make me feel electrified causing me to de-epen the k!sshungrily. He m0@n s into my mouth s£nding it’s wave down my throat ma-king me m0@n back at the s-en-sation. Before I knew it I was la-id on the be-d, my clothes being pu-ll up. That was when I knew things is getting out of control and I have to st©p him now.
My mind tells me, but my b©dy is saying another thing. I relax when he k!ssmy n£¢k . Not fighting anymore.
He st©p k!ss!nghis eyes move up to my face. I’m sure he saw the confusion and doubt in my eyes.
He look away from me and start to pu-ll off his shi-t. My heart start thumping ra-pidly. Did I really want this?.
“I love you ” I heard him say ma-king me turn my eyes to him.
My eyes wi-den in shock. My face flush red.
“And I mean it, you should have notice right? ” he ask.
I couldn’t reply. “I tell you everything about myself, protect you, show you off to the world. I always want to make you happy …” he say looking at my face.
I had become numb from where I lied. Was he telling me because he wants to have S-x me ” I couldn’t help thinking that way.
“I love you too ” I say.
“But I can’t do this ” I added. “I can’t have S-x with you now Xander, I’m not re-ady ”
He frown.
“I’ve waited enough Aria, I’ve been patient enough ”
“I know and I’m sorry but I can’t be the girl you want me to be ”
“What do you mean? I never f0rç£ you to be anything you’re not ”
“What I mean is, I can’t have S-x now until I’m married ” I gulp.
He start laughing. “Seriously you’re funny ”
He got down from the be-d and gr-ab his shi-t and phone walking out of the room.
I sigh. I really don’t want to loose Xander and I can’t loose him because of this stupid don’t have S-x before marriage. I don’t care anymore.
I gr-ab my phone and run after him.
?s-en-sATION ?
(Fighting against lvst ?)
Written by Lynne writes.
@Lynne’s libr@ry.
Chapter eleven.
I ran out of the house and saw him walking ahead. I started calling and running after him.
All of a sudden I felt being hit by something with f0rç£ ma-king me dizzy.
The next thing I hear was people screaming and my vision getting blur. I can hear Xander voice from distance, I want to call him but my voice refuse to come out.
Darkness fill me and I pas-s out.
I open my eyes, the first thing I saw was the ceiling ma-king me wonder where I am.
The familiar smell of hospital made me remember that I had an accident. I was hit by a car when running after Xander.
Where is he? Did he bring me here. does he know I’m here?.
I ask no one in p@rticular.
The door opened and Larissa walk in with a food flask.
“Lynne are you okay? ” Larissa ask sitting beside me on my be-d.
I nod my head and sigh.” We had a fight ”
“Again? What happened? ”
“I refused to have s3x with him, he got angry and left ”
“Wait, so you mean you guys haven’t had s3x? ” she sounded Suprise.
“Is it that bad? I should have right? ” I sigh.
“I am not saying you should I’m just Suprise that Xander can wait that long, he must really like you ”
“He told me he loves me ” I tell her and she scream.
“Oh my gosh… This is great but don’t let him f0rç£ you if you don’t want, if he loves you truly, he will wait till you’re re-ady. ” she says.
“Thank you ”
“You know I’m always available If you nee-d someone to talk to “she inform and I nod.
“Thank you bestfriend ” I smile at her.
Her eyes wi-den. “Did you just call me bestfriend? OMG Lynne we are best friends ”
“Of course ” I laugh at her dramatic self.
“Now come and eat ” she help me to sit up.
“Careful you broke your arm ” she says and I stare at my bandaged arm and sigh.
“Does he know I’m here? ”
“Who Xander? Yes he brou-ght you here and called me. He left few minutes ago to freshen up. I f0rç£ him though he had refuse to leave your side since last night ”
After I was done eating, Larissa went back to get me fresh clothes.
I pick my phone, deciding to call my mother.
I don’t want to tell her I’m in the hospital, I’ll get her worried.
“Hi mom. ”
“Aria, it’s been long since I hear your voice. How are you? ” she ask.
“I’m fine and how are you too? How is everyone, Hanna and Dad? ”
“We are good. ”
“Mom I want to tell you something. ”
“What is it ”
“I have a b©yfri£nd” I tell her.
“Oh my gosh, Big Sis…
“Hanna!! ” mom scold Hanna who suddenly burge in the conversation screaming.
“Wait mom I wanna talk to her.” I heard her say.
Yes I have a crazy sister.
“Sis ”
“Hanna, how are you? ”
“Quit the greetings girl, your b©yfri£ndwho is he? Is he h0t? When are you introducing him, should I come to your School?….. Mom wait I nee-d to ask this questions it’s neccesarry. ”
My sister is the opposite of me. She’s slim and not a bit near quite.
“He’s handsome and you can’t meet him ” I tell her and she grumbles.
“But.. ”
“You have to advice your sister, I’m really tired of her attitude. Can you believe this girl prefer clubbing and p@rtying than going to church. A sixteen year old ”
“Don’t mind mom and dad, they are too…. Okay okay, not like I don’t go to church but damn church is boring as fv¢k “she says.
“Language ”
“ouch , see now Aria she just sl@p me ”
“Go to your room now and re-ad, I’m coming to check what you’ve re-ad after I’m done with this call ”
“Okay fine, We’ll talk later sis ” Hanna says. I take that she has left.
The door opened and Xander emerges.
“Arr mom I’ll call you back ” I quic-kly cut the call. I watch as Xander walk towards me not able to look at me in the eye.
“Hi, how are you? “he ask.
I blink my eyes letting my tears fall as I nod my head positively to his question.
“I know I messed up ” he starts.
“Xan..”
“Listen to me Aria, this is going to get you angry but… I just want you to know that I love you so much, so much baby. ” he sigh.
“To be honest, I d@t£d you because I want to have my way with you. I believe if I make you fall in love with me that you’ll let me. Aria you are wonderful. And I didn’t regret d@t!ngyou, Infact I’m so happy I took that step cos ever since you c@m£ you brou-ght a lot of changes to my life. You brou-ght joy to my messed up life you are the only person ap@rt from my mom I can talk to, confide in.
I shouldn’t have f0rç£ you, it was all my fault. And I’m sincerely sorry. Do you forgive me? ”
I cleaned my tears and nod.
“Today I’m promising you baby that I’ll not f0rç£ you to have anything with me until you are re-ady. I swear ”
“You don’t have to, listen you can have affairs outside if you want but plea-se don’t leave me. ”
“I will do neither of that. I will never cheat on you. I’m giving you my words, I’ll stay forever ”
I smile.
“Forever? ”
“Forever “he nods and k!ssmy cheek then move tol-ips. k!ss!ngme pas-sionately.
THE END.
Don’t let anyone f0rç£ you to do things you don’t like all in the name of love. Don’t make bad decisions without thinking. It’s your choice if you wanna wait till marriage and if you don’t want to, it’s fine.
Just do what you think it’s best for you.
Okay,thank you all for re-ading this lame story