NOT SO PERFECT 😍
By Christabel Nwoko
I looked forward to the end of my vacation, not because I was tired of the cold weather, but because my heart had suddenly found a place it wants to rest, and I needed to get back quickly and grabbed the Perfect man that I have been yearning for.
When I got to the airport on arrival to Nigeria, he was there to welcome me. Drove me down to my apartment. I was enjoying every bit of the moment since the day we first met that I forgot this man was a total stranger.
I gave him direction, and he got me home safely.
Exactly two months after we first met, he asked me to be his woman. I saw stars in my eyes. I told him, oh yes, your actions said it all honey. I knew I became your woman that day you nearly ate my lips at the Airport in the UK.
6 months into our relationship, he popped the big question, in a most romantic way. There was no way I could say NO to this perfect love of my life, the man who came into my life so suddenly like a thief in the night and became a part of me. I love him, so, I gave him the YES on the spot.
We decided that it was time to officially let our parents know. He came with his family and met mine.
And it was just few weeks away from our wedding day when the unimaginable happened…. I suddenly lost my sight. I became blind.
It was the darkest time of my life because I didn’t understand how or why I suddenly went blind.
My parents took me to the best optician and I was told it was an infection and I needed surgery.
The doctor assured us that I will get back my sight after the surgery.
And I was so hopeful.
Gibert and I had to postpone our wedding till further notice and in few days I undergo the surgery. Some weeks later, my hope of ever regaining my sight was shattered when the doctor removed the bandages and I discovered that I was still blind.
I was so devastated but Gibert hugged me and kissed me.
He consoled me and he assured me of his undying love.
From that day, I began to learn how to cope with my disability.
My parents and my siblings were so supportive and Gibert was my strength and my backbone and I was looking further to the day we will finally be married.
I was eagerly waiting for that day as days gradually turned into weeks and weeks to months and two years went bye and Gibert was not saying anything about our postponed wedding.
Then One day, Gilbert told me some thing that broke my heart into tiny pieces.
“Jessica, you know how much we loved each other, our love was love at first sight but life happened, I really wanted to marry you but out of the blue, you went blind, I Don’t think I can go on with our relationship, I really want to move on with my life but without you. Please I hope you understand me” Gilbert explained while I listened in pain and in tears.
I couldn’t utter a word and Gilbert didn’t say anything to console me, instead he left quietly leaving me with my pain and sorrow.
I wept so bitterly when he left and I kept chanting “Why me ? What have I done to deserve this rejection from the man,I have ever loved”
It was so hard for me to recover from the shock and pain of losing Gilbert because I had thought he was the right man for me.
Days turned in to weeks and weeks into months and I have finally accepted my fate.
My parents were so supportive, they bought new gadgets that will help me cope with my disability.
Ever since I became blind, they were always available for me.
They even shift their base to Lagos so they could be so close to me.
One-day out of the blue, I got a phone call and I was so shocked when the caller was no one but Emeka, it has been over two years since we spoke and he sounded so happy to hear from me. Ever since I lost my sight, my hearing ability improved because I could sense strong emotions even from a mile away.
I could sense the excitement in Emeka’s voice when we spoke and that got me excited too.
When I asked of his girlfriend Chizoba, he told me Chizoba was never his girlfriend.
“That girl dey my neck, I no know whether love na by force, I know na because of her, you no dey pick my call for two years but it’s okay, na my fault, jessica, I dey very happy as you pick my call today” Emeka replied and I smiled at his igbo accent.
We spoke for a while and then hanged up and ever since then Emeka will call me up at any time and we will talk for long.
I haven’t told him that I was blind but I wondered if he will stop communicating with me if I he learns about my condition.
Because slowly he became the only friend I had.
All my friends, especially Linda and Mirabel were so busy with their life and career that sometimes its seems like they have forgotten about me.
Then one-day, I told Emeka that I was blind and I was surprised on how he reacted, he felt so concerned that I could sense pain and care in his voice.
“Wetin happen?” He threw in and I told him everything even about Gilbert who left me because of my condition.
To my greatest surprise, Emeka asked for my house address as he wants to visit me. At first I declined but he insisted.
“Jessy, can’t I visit you again, you no be my friend? Please na” Emeka said in a low tone that for a moment I felt pity for him, I wonder why I was pushing him away. Even after everything that had happened to me.
And finally, I disclosed my house address and in an hour he was there with plenty goodies for me.
His visit really cheered me up.
I never knew that I will be needing Emeka this much in my life
It was so overwhelming as I wiped few tears from eyes.
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My worst night mare ever since Gilbert left me was to end up alone
But ever since Emeka came back into my life, I was hopeful and somewhat happy.
“I’m not in love with Emeka” I have told myself countlessly but I wonder why his presence gladdens my heart.
One thing I have discovered about Emeka was that he has a pure and a beautiful soul.
His presence comforts and calms my fears and no wonder we became extremely close.
It was so obvious that the dude was in love with me, even in my state I could sense his love for me but somehow I felt as if I wasn’t worthy of Emeka’s love.
I always reminded myself how I treated him few years ago when he had asked me out.
I couldn’t forgive myself for rejecting his love just because he couldn’t speak good English but here he was comforting me and loving me even with my disability.
One day, I was forced to tell him to his face “Emeka, please I Don’t deserve your love, and I Don’t want you to feel pity for me either”
And then he opened up to me.
“Nne, I love you so much, no be pity, na love. Please no reject me again, I want to love you today, tomorrow and all the time, please give me chance make i prove my love for you, I fit do anything for you” Emeka confessed and kissed me but I was quick to end the kiss.
I was just thinking about the unexpected kiss when Emeka suddenly popped up the big question.
“Nne, I no wan be your boyfriend, I want to be your man, biko, you fit marry me?” He asked instantly.
And from that day, I was thrown into a state of confusion, Emeka has proved to be a kind man but I wonder if my parents will give their approval, the few times Emeka had ran into my parents at home, I have told them that he was only a friend,
And I don’t think they will allow me to get married in my condition.
“Emeka, you have proved to be a good man and i can feel the love you have for me but the truth is that I’m not ready to settle down because of my condition, if we get married, the burden of taking care of me will fall you and I Don’t want that” I entered calmly and I wished I could just open my eyes and see the face of Emeka as I utter those words to him.
“Please, give me time, to think things through, please” I added
” okay, but I wan tell you say I dey here for you and I love you so much”He added and hugged me.
When I told my parents about Emeka’s proposal my mother seemed excited but my father wasn’t.
“Why are you excited, haven’t you noticed that the guy can’t even speak good english” My father told my mother while I listened quietly.
“But he looks like a good man, he is the only one that ever comes around to visit our daughter, haven’t you noticed?” My mother responded.
“How does that even matter? I Don’t know how Jessica became friends with such person, I wondered if he borrows those expensive cars to impress us, that guy is not right for our daughter, we can’t just marry our daughter off to just anyone, just because she suddenly went blind, i Don’t mind if she remains unmarried for the rest of her life than marrying her off to an illiterate, what will people say? Our friends and family what will they say?” My father continued.
I sensed that my mother wasn’t in support of all that my father had just said but she was silent though.
I felt so bad and confused.
At the same time I was also asking myself if I was in love with Emeka or not.
“Emeka deserves all my love, he is a good man and any woman who marrys him will be very lucky to have such a great man in her life, but I Don’t want to go into a relationship with him now, I know he love me but I Don’t know if I love him or not” I thought