My mind as a teenager
episode 83
I had spent three months in owerri(I left on
November 16 2014) when the management
suggested transferring some workers to
Awka.
I was chos£n and it made me happy,at
least,I’ll be close to home. A week before we
left,I logged on to my badoo and
surprisingly,there was a message from
Raymond. It was all about missing me and all
that. I told him where I was and he said he
wanted to see me. I s£nt him some of my
pictures and told him I’ll be in awka soon so
we’ll get to see then.
I entered Awka on the second week of
February.
Raymond and I were supposed to meet on
the 14th(Valentine’s day) but something
c@m£ up so I couldn’t go down to Onitsha.
One day,I was on Facebook when I saw a
post on his wall;
“can’t believe I’m getting married in one
week.So happy.”
I laughed,thinking it was one of those posts
people make to get attention online.
His friend had commented on that
post,asking him if it was me but he didn’t
respond.
I quic-kly called him;
Me: Hello
Ray: Rose,this one you called today,am i
safe?
Me: Yes o. I just called to hear from you or is
it bad?
Ray: Not at all. How is work?
Me: Fine and stressful.
Ray: Its allowed nah.
Me: So you’re getting married?
Ray: Guess you must’ve seen it on Facebook.
That’s the reason i wanted to see you.
Me: Wait. Are you serious?
Ray: Yes. . . . . .
I hung up. My head started aching
immediately. I felt the tears stretch from my
ear before finding their way throu-gh my eyes.
I cried bitterly. Is that how wicked people
are? I cursed my life and everything I had
gone throu-gh. Why would Raymond do these
to me? He is getting married to someone else
after all I went throu-gh for him? My friend
tried her best to console me but I wouldn’t
st©p. I woke up the next morning feeling very
sick.
A lab test proved I had malaria. I refused
taking my drugs. All I wanted to do was die
so I will never get to see Raymond and his
new family. I went back to Facebook and
went to his timeline. I found out the d@t£ for
the ceremony was 28 February.
My girlfriend suggested that we attend it but I
refused. She said we’ll go and ruin the
wedding but I didn’t have that mind. He
wants to be happy,maybe I wasn’t good
enough for him so I’ll just let him be happy.
My girlfriend was like, ”see Rose,this guy
took your vir-ginity,made you a mother at
19,you even lied to your parents just to cover
up for him. Now,he is getting married to
someone else and you are going to let him
go without a fight?”
Tears didn’t let me speak. I couldn’t say
anything. She was right. Someone I had
sacrificed a lot for,someone I loved so much.
If I had known things would end that way,I
would have just told my people that he was
responsible for my pregnancy.
I regretted my past and wished there was a
way for me to mend things.
On the 26th I called Raymond;
Ray: Hello
Hearing his voice made me start crying all
over again. I had sworn not to cry but it
wasn’t working.
Me: So its true?
He paused for a while before speaking;
Ray: I knew this was going to be your
reaction that’s why I wanted to see you so I
can tell you myself.
I hung up because my tears wouldn’t let me
continue. Besides,was I supposed to wish
him a happy married life? My roommate
walked in and stared at me for a while;
Lucy: What are you doing to yourself? If you
continue crying like this,he won’t come back
to you.
That bastard has taken what he wanted from
you and has moved on so trust me,you have
to move on as well.
Me: But I can’t. I love him no matter what.
He’s the father of my child,he took my
vir-ginity so I can’t forget him.
Lucy: Now let me tell you,what’s that his
name again? Raymond right?
I nodded.
Lucy: He too will never forget you. If he ever
loved you,he’ll always have you in mind,he’ll
always talk about you and he’ll never forgive
himself for all he had done to you. You once
told me he’s an only son. Maybe his mum
pressurized him into getting married or
something like that. He . . . .
Me: Nob©dy pressurized him. He’s happy.
Lucy: Of course he’ll pretend to be happy.
His first child is with you. Nob©dy can beat
that not even his wife. A time will come when
you’ll remember my words and you’ll thank
me. St©p crying. Let him get married since
you don’t want to ruin it. Let him get married
but I know he’ll always come to look for you.
I looked at her and she nodded. I hvgged her
warmly
Lucy: Trust me,everything works out perfectly
for those who trust in God. You missed
Raymond because he is not the best. God
has seen your suffering and he’s saving the
best for you. Take your bath let’s go and buy
suya.
Me; From your pocket o
Lucy: No problem.
i sprang up from the be-d and went into the bathroom.
Tbc