My mind as a teenager
episode 82
After that visit,we started chatting on
WhatsApp.
Each time he brou-ght up the issue of my
baby,I would shift it aside and talk about
something else.
One day,I s£nt him Kamsi’s picture because I
was tired of having to think about him
reacting in a way I wouldn’t like. He was so
happy and kept on whining that she looks
like him.
That Christmas,we travelled to the village.
My sister’s husband got me an android
phone as a Christmas gift. I was so happy. I
tried configuring it but it won’t bulge. I told
Raymond(he was good at it) and he
promised to help me with it once we
returned. People at the village wouldn’t let
our house rest as they stepped in every
minute of the day to see my baby. I didn’t
like the attention I was getting but what will I
do? I told mum and dad that I didn’t want to
go back to school.
They wouldn’t hear that. I told them I wanted
to work with my OND certificate. My reason
was that I didn’t want to separate from my
baby but I couldn’t tell them that. My sister
wasn’t happy with my decision but when they
realised my mind was alre-ady made up,they
let me be. I knew they were angry with me
but again,that spirit of motherhood in every
woman can’t lead them wrongly.
January c@m£ and we travelled back without
my mum. She was to go to Enugu for her
brother’s wedding. We got home safely and I
informed Raymond. Forgive me but we had
agreed to be best of friends with or without S
£x. I went to his house the next day and he
configured my phone and even helped to
open a bbm account for me.
We talked for a while,he showed me his
l@pt©p where he used Kamsi’s picture as his
wallpaper.
We talked some more before I left. He made it
a routine to always check up on me,I don’t
know if its to make up for his sin but I vowed
never to let him fool me for the second time.
Six months pas-sed and I st©pped
brea-stfeeding.
I started looking for a job. Onitsha is not a
place where you will get a good job except
you wanna be a salesgirl. Before I started
looking for a job,I had gone back to my
evening stroll. Ray and I would meet up
sometimes,talk,laugh,sometimes,there was
the urge to have S£x but we would dismiss it
and go home.
I finally settled for Owerri. My room mate had
also dropped and was working at a h0tel in
Owerri.
She told me of the offer and I quic-kly wrote
an application and s£nt it to her to submit for
me.
A week later,I was on my way back from
church when I met a guy,he st©pped me and
we got talking. We exchanged numbers and I
went home.
He would call me like every hour,we would
chat non st©p and slowly,I fell in love with
him.
The day he proposed to me, my joy knew no
bounds. Innocently, I told him about Kamsi
and his mood changed. He dropped me off at
home and that was the last time I saw him. I
cried bitterly, regretting my loss. I told my
mum and she started shouting on me; why
did I tell him? that didn’t she tell me Kamsi
was now her and daddy’s baby? She didn’t
even console me. Out of anger,I packed my
bag and left,off to Owerri. I called my sister
and told her I was leaving. She pleaded that I
come to Enugu but I refused,telling her I got
a job in Owerri. I was alre-ady in the bus when
I informed my room mate that I was on my
way.
After placing all the necessary calls,including
my dad,I broke my sim and journeyed all the
way to Owerri to start a new life.
Life in Owerri was better. My room mate
made me apply again and this time,I
enclosed that I lived in Owerri. I got the job
immediately, to be paid #20000 monthly. Was
I happy? Yes. I had alre-ady spent two weeks
there before I called my mum with my new
line. She was happy to hear from me.
I apologized for leaving without informing her
but she said she un-derstood that I was
angry.
I was surprised. She finally told me that
daddy had spoken to her saying that it was
better I told a suitor I had a baby than letting
him find out himself,that since marriage was
a life time commitment, I nee-ded the trust of
my husband and the only way to get that is
by telling him the truth. She wished me
prosperity in my new job and asked that I
take care.
Tbc