My mind as a teenager
Episode 53, 54, 55 & 56
I cried all day. If someone had asked me
what my problem was,I doubt if I knew.
I made up my mind to severe all ties I had
with both Vivian and Ebuka. I deleted Vivian’s
number from my phone and added it to the
Two days later,Raymond and I were on an
evening stroll when he decided we st©pped at
their house,rest for a while before he walks
me home. We went to that same guest room
and started talking. We talked both off point
and on point discussions. I think things got
h0t or maybe the room got h0t and we
We k!$$£d for a while before the p@rty went
down to our bodies. He placed his hand on
my b0s0m and left them there. He k!$$£d my
n£¢k,my ear and myl-ips. I responded to each
k!sswith a m0an. He started handling my
Gently,he la!d me on the be-d and started
working on my b©dy.
He k!$$£d myl-ips,went down to my n£¢k and
I felt a we-tness between my legs. He slowly
lifted up my singlet (I wore a white singlet
and a black short. The idea was just to
stroll). He lifted my singlet,turned me around
and un-hooked my br@.
The singlet didn’t let the br@ come off so he
lifted the br@ too and fed on my ti-ps,moving
from one to the other while I encouraged him
with my silent m0ans.
He st©pped and stared at me lovingly. I
closed my eyes,then felt him un-bu-ttoning my
short,I raised my bu-tt0ckz up and he peeled
my short off together with my p@n-ts. I knew I
was very we-t because I felt it. The next
minute was silent.
I didn’t know what was happening because
my eyes were closed. I felt a Unclad b©dy on
me and I opened my eyes to see him,looking
so innocent and loving. We started k!ssing
again and once in a while,he’ll pinch my ti-ps
while I winced out with audible m0ans.
I let him explore my b©dy. He t©uçhed me in
the most s-en-suous places and I loved every
bit of it.
He opened my legs and knelt between them.
His J0yst!ck looked so big and long and so
pointy. I was scared but I wanted it.
There was this reas-suring look on his face
and I encouraged myself that I was re-ady for
He used his hand to direct his di-ck to my
waiting pu-ssy. I felt the head enter and my
heart started beating as I felt my innerwalls
open up to the invader. He pu-ll-ed out and
used his f!nger to we-t his di-ck with my
He directed his di-ck into my hole again and
leaned into me. He started going into me inch
by inch,I felt myself opening up to him and I
loved the feeling. He pushed ha-rd and I
jumped in pain. It was like a tear had
occurred inside of me. I looked into his eyes
and he smiled before he started thrû-sting. I
felt the waves hit me and i screamed out in
joy as i felt my jui-ces running out of me. He
was so gentle yet the feeling was great.
Minutes later,he increa-sed the pace of his
t—-t and stared gr-unting. He pu-ll-ed out
immediately and m0aned loudly. He slumped
on t©p of me and I cu-mddled him. We stayed
like that for a few minutes before we started
I refused to look at the be-d because I was
scared of what I’ll see. There were no spoken
words between us till we got to the junction
that led to my house.
Raymond: Thank you
Me: For what?
Raymond: Never mind. I’ll leave you here
now. Take care of yourself okay
Me: You too. Good night.
He hvgged me and I watched him leave. I
walked home with a feeling of satisfaction.
The relationsh!pbetween Raymond and I
changed. Not negatively o
We talked every chance we got,we texted
each other frequently,life is so good if it is
moving in your favour. I was so fulfilled and
A week later,on my way home after Raymond
had seen me to the junction,who did I run
I screamed in fear as memories of our last
meeting c@m£ back to my head.
Frank: Hmmm. Bet you least expected to see
Me: I. . . what are you doing here?
Frank: This is not your house baby. We’re on
the road. I’ve got every right to be here.
Me: You . . . .
Frank: I’ve la!d low for a while now,expecting
you to try and make amends for your wrongs
but I see you never think with your head
Me: Don’t insult me Franklin.
There was a look of mock surprise on his
Frank: Oh! She’s talking.
Me: Of course.
Frank: I see you two now have a thing going
Frank: I saw him walk you down to this
place. Your Van Vicker.
I smiled at the name but refused to comment
He looked at me for an answer but I looked
Frank: Talk s-en-se into him. He’s a little boy
to me and I don’t want to end up beating him
Me: Do you think I’ll fall for your weak
threats? That’s the worst you can do
Me: Frank you heard me. Raymond is a
complete opposite of your personality. He’s
calm and lovely but you’re not. He’s patient
but you’re not. He goes for what he wants in
the most polite ways but you,you don’t even
know what you want let alone going for it.
This angered him a lot because he started
beating me up immediately. I felt b!ows on
my head,my che-st,my stomach,people
gathered and some boys succeeded in pu-lling
him away from me while I cried my heart out.
Frank: Listen to me you cheap LovePeddler.
I’ll forgive you today because of this people.
Talk to me anyhow again and I’ll serve your
dad your c–t for breakfast. And tell that
your shameless bu-tt0ckz of a b©yfri£ndto
stay away from you. I don’t talk twice.
He freed himself from the hold of the boys
and walked away. I stood there crying while
some women advised me to st©p going out
at night alone.
I managed to hide my face from my family.
I also refused to tell Raymond what
I just carried it within me till it was time to go
back to school.
Raymond and I couldn’t see each other(have
forgotten what happened). I went on my
usual evening stroll that Friday(would leave
for school the next day),I went down to the
primary school where Vivian and I had gone.
I went into the school and walked round the
field before I headed for home(I was jobless).
I got to a shop,bought some chocolates and
was helping myself to it while I walked home.
I pas-sed by Ebuka and Frank. I didn’t say a
word to them. I had walked about six feet
when I decided to go back to them and I did;
They didn’t respond but they were surprised.
Me; Want to say hi to the both of you,the
soon to be father and the woman beater. But
since you don’t feel like talking to me,its
I know you’ll be busy talking about the next
girl to beat and the next girl to get pregnant.
Good luck as you plan that.
I walked away with smile on my face..
I imagined the kind of thoughts that would be
running in their heads. I got home,ate my
dinner and sle-pt off.
The next morning,I went back to school.
I had two examinations more to write; neco
and jamb. I didn’t like the idea of writing
Jamb that year but my school made it
They would be the ones to drive us to our
centre on that day. So while packing up for
school,I had packed up some clothes for the
Third term was a tough one. I had to fight
the temptation of going to Chisom,the ss1
students that wrote me letters and most
During one of the visiting days,Raymond
c@m£ to my school. He was with his friend
whom he introduced as Kingsley. I was so
happy and felt special because my clas-s girls
kept on walking past us to admire the
handsome guy that c@m£ to visit Rose. It was
on a Sunday so we sat down in front of an
empty clas-s. We talked a lot. We couldn’t
hvg or k!ssbecause there were guys spying
He finally left after spending about two hours
with me. I got into the clas-s and Chika was
the first girl to talk. I was surprised to meet a
full clas-s instead of the few who were with
me before Raymond c@m£.
-how story flies-
Chika: So,the likes of you keep cute
Like I said before,I’m not a girl you’ll term
beautiful but I had a great b©dy which I was
and still proud of.
I looked at Chika and shook my head. I went
to my seat and sat down. My seatmate
pas-sed me a note telling me that some girls
had planned to ton-gue lash me because I
was the first girl in my set to be visited by my
b©yfri£ndin school. I was taken aback. I
wrote back asking her how they knew he was
my b©yfri£ndand she said it was Chidimma
who pas-sed the information.
So much for being my friend. I bent down my
head and thought about how to remedy the
situation but that time didn’t come. Someone
tapped me on my shoulder and I looked up
There was Chika,Millicent,Lucy and Amanda.
They were the crazy girls we had and were
also bigger than all of us.
Millicent: What do you have?
Me: What do you mean?
Millicent: What did he bring for you?
Me: Nothing. And is it in any way your
Millicent looked at the other girls and they
gave me a look that almost got poo out of
Chika: See this small girl. We left you and
you’ve being misbehaving since your
admission here. Who told you that b©yfri£nds
are allowed in this school?
I did a quic-k calculations,stood up and stared
Me: I don’t know when you girls bec@m£ the
school management. But since you girls have
given yourself the post of school
management, I’ll answer your question.
I paused to check if they were taking in my
message and the confusion on their faces
told me they were doing that so I continued;
Me: If b©yfri£nds are not allowed in school,I
wonder if l£sb!anism is allowed as well. So
as the management, it’ll be good if you
They looked at me and the clas-s started
Me; No answer. That means b©yfri£nds are
allowed to visit. Again let me add this,if I
refuse to join in the ru-bbish you girls do
here,plea-se let me be. Its not by f0rç£ to be
in a hostel or bathroom experience. Excuse
I left the clas-s and went to look for
I saw her in her corner and I went to her,after
deciding that I’ll give her a piece of my mind.
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