ladies common mistake in a relationsh!p2
💥 EPISODE 3 🍎💚🍎
Mariam’s room
“I really don’t know what to tell you, besides my advice dos£n’t count. Does it?” Mariam asked after listening to all i told her concerning Samuel and Emmanuel. She truly was right that her advice dos£n’t count, but i still nee-ded it notwithstanding.
“I really won’t involve myself in your affairs any longer, just follow your heart” she concluded.
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Emmanuel really was the person my heart yearned for and following it could bring my troublesome spirit to rest, but how to make Samuel un-derstand was another heavy burden which i truly didn’t know how to face.
It was very obvious he truly loved me, because he sacrificed alot for my happiness and even forgave me when i cheated on him. But my greatest fear was that his love could fade with time, perhaps when nature begins showing itself on me. The age difference between us wasn’t that much and i knew with time my physical appearance would change much more than his. Yea i knew it was a lame excuse but will he still love me when that happens? Can i risk waiting at least four more years for him to stand firm and be financially stable to cater for a family? What if he dos£n’t get employed within that period? What if he later changes his mind about me, will i be able to make up for the lost time? Will i be able to fall in love again? Can i ever forgive myself?? No i can’t take such risk” i concluded thoughtfully.
“Campus love affairs are nothing but a fantasy life we create and plunge our youthful life in just for fun, Pride and experimentation. It mostly has no longevity”.
However, due to the great respect and commitment i felt for Samuel, i made up my mind to be with him till the end of his degree exams, because I knew i won’t be able to forgive myself if he lost concentration because of me.
But Samuel thinking all was settling for good between us began spoiling me with gifts once again. At first i declined accepting them, but he kept insisting until i finally caved in. We cooked, pla-yed and gisted like we used to.
6pm, Monday evening, two weeks later.
I sat beside Emmanuel in his car, breathing quic-kly as i prepared myself to tell him my decision. Truly whatever agreement we were to reach that fateful evening will decide my fate and destiny. It equally was the last day he gave me to make up my mind.
“God alone knows our destiny”
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“So how far?” he anxiously asked,
“I haven’t been able to decide anything” i murmured with a fast pounding heart.
“Common don’t tell me that. Have you forgotten i gave you only two weeks to decide, why are you behaving like this?” he curiously asked.
“Emmanuel, i’ll give you an answer at the end of this semester, plea-se allow me to focus on my studies, i can’t be thinking of your proposal when i have exams to prepare” i poured out.
“I really don’t know the kind of game you are pla-ying, seriously i don’t” he complained.
“So what’s so ha-rd for you to wait an extra month for me to decide?” i asked.
“Because i don’t un-derstand you and i fear i may end up killing my time for nothing” he replied.
“If you truly love me, you will be willing to take the risk” i spoke defiantly. He breathed de-eply, gr@bb£d my left hand and stared into my eyes.
“Tell me the truth, what’s happening plea-se?” he pleaded. Myl-ips quivered, while my bright eyes grew dim un-der his manly grasp.
“But for one thing, i would have said yes this instant, and gone with you to the very end of the world” i confessed.
“But what is it, Mary?” he asked, “what is it, my darling?
“I cannot leave him, Emmanuel– I cannot leave Samuel by this hour, he’s preparing for his degree exams plea-se be considerate. Yes i’m with him, but it’s more of a friendsh!pthing, but you don’t have to believe me” i explained. “It is the only atonement i can offer him, i owe Samuel this reparation for the evil i have done him and i must make it till he completes his degree exams, after which i will give you the answer you so much de-sire” i added.
He drew nearer and k!$$£d my tremblingl-ips “alright i un-derstand” he murmured coldly.
“Speak to me Emmanuel, it’s ha-rd , i know but tell me that i’m doing the right thing” i begged. He looked down and shook his head.
“You are cruelly doing the right thing” he murmured and switched on his car engine.
“I have to get going, i really can’t stand this anymore” he quietly added. I stared at him inquisitively but couldn’t say any word to him.
I quietly alighted from his car while he furiously drove away without even bothering to give me a goodbye smile.
It really was a very painful p@rting and i couldn’t help but wonder if he will ever return for me…
I cried in my room as i thought over Emmanuel’s behaviour.
“Have i lost him forever?” did i miscalculate by pushing my luck to the extreme? I wondered with tears.
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I however devoted my time in being by Samuel’s side as his degree exams slowly drew near, equally pushing my fears and sorrows to the back of my mind.
In no time i got used to my new way of living, hiding my fears with smiles, and taking life as i saw it. Samuel equally never gave me cause to worry, he never brou-ght up any t©pic that would hurt my feelings nor even mentioned Emmanuel’s name. He truly was the ideal guy for any woman but he wasn’t destined for me. I felt nothing but commitment, compas-sion and little respect for him.
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Finally the exams c@m£ and went with the speed of light. Samuel was finally a graduate. I really can’t forget the night he graduated, how happy and overjoyed he was thinking he can now focus on building his future together with me from thereon since he’s now a graduate, but he guessed wrong cos my mind was made up alre-ady…I just decided to hang around him till he’s done with his exam then officially quit the relationsh!pand marry Emmanuel.
“Seriously Samuel i do appreciate your love, care and everything, but this night is going to be our last together, i have tried to develop more feelings for you but was unable to. Moreover i know your mum no longer likes me, so plea-se tonight is our last.” I plainly poured out to a visibly surprised Samuel. He g@sped, left the be-d and sle-pt on the rug without saying another word to me.
The next morning i left his room before he woke up.
Though what i did t©uçhed me, i was very glad i did it because i really couldn’t guarantee my happiness with him.
He however never did speak to me again.
He packed out of the hostel days later without bothering to notify me. I was a bit distressed because i really never wanted things to end that way between us and would have wanted for us to remain good friends.
Finally, I anxiously began waiting for Emmanuel who never showed up nor called on phone. I soon wrote my second semester exams and travelled home for christmas months later.
Three months i waited for Emmanuel, but not even a single phone call did i get from him. I lost hope, but for my pride i would have called him myself.
Perhaps he wasn’t in my destiny either.
Did he later show up?
EPISODE 4 🍌💚
I was cooking at the backyard when mum ran into the kitchen very excited and full of smiles.
“Guess who just visited us?” she asked happily,
“I can’t guess mum, plea-se tell me” i begged.
“Emmanuel c@m£ with his parents, they are in the sitting room with your father” she said to me. I quic-kly dropped the kitchen spoon i was holding, without minding where it fell nor the rou-gh clothes i was wearing and ran into the sitting room where dad sat with Emmanuel and his parents.
I greeted and welcomed them happily, my heart pounding furiously. Emmanuel stared at me with a smile, un-derstanding the girlish shyness and sweet fear that had changed me into a timid girl. He stood up without wasting time.
“Mary plea-se i have something to tell you” he calmly said to me. My face instantly flu-shed at his words, eyes drooping with shy, sweet happiness.
“Let’s go outside dear” he begged. I breathed de-eply, looked at my dad who nodded in approval, shrugged and left the room with him.
“I have borne my impatience and pride for the last three months,” he said when we got to a lonely p@rt of our compound; “but i now must speak to you, for i can bear it no longer, Mary. Oh, do not turn away from me! I can’t hold my pride anymore, I love you, and i want you to be my wife– my wife, darling; and i will love you– I will cherish you– I will spend my whole life in working for you, I have no hope so great, so sweet, so dear, as the hope of winning you.” he poured out.
I made no answer. Yet my silence was more eloquent than words.
“It seems a strange thing to say, but, Mary all the time i was away, my heart was really with you” he confessed. I listened with a happy smile pla-ying round myl-ips, my eyes drooping, while my face flu-shed and turned from his.
“You are my fate, my destiny!, if only you will say yes to me. Your love would incite me to win name and fame, not for myself but for you. Your love would crown a king. I beg of you, say yes to me this instant. Surely great love wins great love and there could be no greater love than mine” he begged desperately.
It was at this stage that our eyes met. The next moment he clasped me to his heart, pouring out a torrent of pas-sionate words– such words, so tender, so loving, so full of pas-sion and hope, that my face grew pale as i trembled and listened.
“It’s love that makes life. Only to think, my darling, that you and i may spend every hour of it together. Just say yes to me and by Easter we will get married” he proposed.
I raised my eyes to the fair, calm heavens, and infinite happiness filled my soul, a de-ep, silent prayer ascended unspoken from my heart.
“Yes Emmanuel i accept you” i finally opened up with tears.
He smiled happily as we hvgged each other, but de-ep down i still felt an uncertain fear.
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With a whimper of relief he smiled at me. His face was absolutely ashen, hisl-ips white, as he pu-ll-ed me savagely into his arms, folding me into the safety of his b©dy, cradling my head, then cu-pping my face in his hands and tilting it upwards.
His eyes moved feverishly over my face as if he wanted to reas-sure himself i was really there.
“Thank God” he murmured as he bent his head, pressing hisl-ips to my hair.
“I thought i’d lost you again” he confessed.
“But what kept you away for so long?” i asked curiously,
“It was my pride my dear, it ate me up like a terminal disease, but i eventually overc@m£ it and c@m£ running with my parents. How do i make up for my complete and utter cras-sness?” he asked remorsefully. I looked away.
“I got this for you……” He said, as he let go of me for a moment, pu-lling out something from his pocket,
“Now i want to do it properly, before anything else happens to come between us” he smiled as he held out his hand. In the centre of his palm l@ya golden ring.
‘Mary—‘ he pu-ll-ed me gently back into his arms.
‘I love you—‘ he murmured.
“I will forever love you, cherish you–”
“Comfort you, protect you…..” he k!$$£d my middle f!nger.
“Honour you and make endless fantastic love with you for all the days of my life.” Holding up my third f!nger, he slid the ring onto it.
“If you will have me” He prayed. Throu-gh a shimmering veil of tears, i gave a soft laugh…….
I was so happy, and so thri-lled, because all my dreams were coming to past. What else could i wish for?
Together we walked into the sitting room to break the joyful news to our dear old parents.
Emmanuel made the necessary first payment which showed that he has reached an agreement with my family, just like our custom demanded, before collecting the list of items required for our traditional marriage, Promising to show up three weeks later for the first stage of Introduction……
Unluckily it never happened as we planned.
Precisely two weeks later, I got a very terrible news which almost killed me.
Hmmmm it truly wasn’t the kind of news i was expecting at that stage of my life, neither is it the kind of news you guys are eager to re-ad.
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Two weeks later…..
Mum walked into the sitting room, with a heavily coloured and drawn face. My heart leapt as i noticed her condition.
“Mum! are you alright?” i asked curiously,
“Don’t mind me jare, i just received a very terrible news from a relative” she replied and walked to her room. I nervously ran after her.
“Just let me be dear, your dad will be in a better position to break the news to you” she begged when she saw me enter her room. Her words panicked and got me more curious, instead of calming me like she expected.
“Mum you are now getting me more worried” i held her hands, staring into her eyes. My heart pounded furiously as i wondered what could make her look so sick and nervous.
“Mum i insist you tell me, plea-se” i begged and shook her hands.
“Alright fetch me a glas-s of water, i’m very thirsty” she ordered. I ran to the kitchen, filled a glas-s cu-p with water and ran back to her room.
She smiled reas-suringly after drinking the water, breathed heavily and ca-ressed my hair,
“I will tell you the news i just got, my dear. It really isn’t terrible like i earlier said, but just a bit surprising. So promise me you will behave like a proper lady when i open up to you” she asked of me.
“I promise i will behave mum” i managed to mutter anxiously.
“Emmanuel has a child, do you know?” she broke the news to me like a question. I couldn’t believe my ears.
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