DIARY OF A PASTORS WIFE
I stared at my reflection in the mirror, my stomach was beginning to protrude, I ru-bbe-d my hands on it, and felt a tiny kick, there was de-ep joy in my heart, the one I had never felt before.
The news about David’s separation from Ifeoma spre-ad like a wildfire.
The night was still young, and I had just returned with a new Sim card. I wanted to change my life, change my world and rebr@nd it for the holy spirit to come dwell with us forever.
By this time, I had made up my mind to sign the divorce papers and move to America with the kids.
My stomach was protruding, and I didn’t want anyone to see me, especially the church members of Hills ministries.
“I thought you said divorce is a sin?” Lizzy asked shrilly, looking aghast.
“I have gotten what I wanted.”
“Don’t say these things Ekom, You prayed for this moment, you fasted, wept to God. And now it is finally here, why do you want to just let it go all of a sudden?”
“let me be. Let’s not talk about this plea-se. ” I said . Lizzy felt panic at the terse tone and cli-pped answers.
“Have you started processing visa for the kids for your trip?”
“Not a trip, I am relocating Lizzy. I am selling off this house.”
“What? Ekom how can you do a thing like that?”
“I had made up my mind Before I brou-ght this conversation up, I had made up my mind on selling the house, and relocating. nothing can change that.”
Lizzy breathe an audible sigh of relieve and stood to leave as I heard the door bell ring.
“Are you expecting someone?” Lizzy asked.
“No, my sister went back to Ibadan yesterday.”
Teye ran from inside to the door.
“mummy someone is at the door.” my heart went down as I watched her place the stool by the door and climbe-d on it to reach the bolt.
“Aunty ifeoma!” she screamed. She walked in, looking pale and weak.
I stared at her in complete and utter disbelief.
“What are you doing in my house?”
She blanches her face, losing all it colors, and then snaps her gaze to Lizzy, and then Teye, who was alre-ady staring at her in amazement.
Tears poured down her face in an uncontrollable manner
“What is this? leave my house this minute, I don’t like this drama.” A scream erupts my throat.
She knelt down immediately and tried to hold my feet, but I stepped backward.
Lizzy and Teye were staring at me, looks of pure shock and amazement were plastered on their faces.
When I looked at her eyes, I saw pain and regret. I saw the life of a girl who was tired of living.
It took me few minutes to compose myself and face her.
“What do you want from me Ifeoma? What else do you want?” I asked her meanly, while she looked at me with stoned expressionless face.
“I c@m£ here to clear my mind to you, to confess and seek for your forgiveness madam.”
my heart was beating at a fas-ter rate than ever.
“ghen, ghen! what more do you have to say? we all know you sle-pt with pastor David.” Lizzy said and shook her head sympathetically.
“There is more.”
“don’t tell us you used juju or charms on pastor.” Lizzy asked with her eyes wi-de open.
“tufiakwa, I am a christian, I can’t do that.”
“if I hear! you? hmmm. what you did to your madam is what a witch can do, it’s same as using juju of course? talk plea-se time is going.”
Ifeoma looked at me, and then Lizzy.
“I was in love with Usman when I first c@m£ here. He loved me too. He even said he was going to marry me.” She said stammering and trying to control the catarrh from running out of her nose.
“Who is Usman? this is the second time I am hearing that name.” Lizzy asked with a worried face.
“David’s Driver. David converted him from being a Muslim to a Christian, he was with us for 7years.” I replied with a serious face.
“The night we made love, I was ovulating. I was sure. I was scared, but when I realized I was doing it for the man I loved, I took off my mind.”
“wait a minute, you mean you and Usman made love in this compound?” I asked, looking amazed.
She bec@m£ silent for a while, and then spoke again.
“The first day Mama Georgina saw me, she advice me to s£dûç£pastor, so that I can be pregnant for him, that you were barren. She was going to pay me a hvge sum of money and then change pastor’s mind towards you. I was desperately in nee-d of money. My mother was dying of br£@st cancer. My salary was not enough.”
I felt my eyebrows pu-ll together in a frown as she stared at me tearily and desperately.
“Why didn’t you tell me? Why didn’t you tell me all what you were going throu-gh? I s£nt money to your family every month. even when I was in America, I never forgot. I would have created a sponsorsh!pgroup to raise funds for your mother.”
Everywhere bec@m£ calm.
“I am so sorry aunty. My baby died just this morning. I am happy he has gone to rest, he was usually very sick. I c@m£ here to clear my mind, so that I can live with a clear conscience. ”
She said in tears, her frantic voice sounded far away. My eyelids flutter for a few moments before I f0rç£d them open, my eyes were filled with tears.
I remember the pain in her eyes more than anything else.
Then I remembered the pains I went throu-gh when my husband left me for her.
I imagined her in be-d with David, I imagined him k!ss!ngher and ma-king love to her.
I thought to myself, what if the baby was his, what if the baby wasn’t SS genotype? What if?
Then she wouldn’t have been here kneeling right in front of me. She wouldn’t have been preparing for the wedding, happily preparing to marry David. Bitter res£ntment crawled inside of me, ma-king my anger boil.
p@rt of me wanted to just beat her up, scream obscenities at her, and s£nd her out of the house. Then the other p@rt wanted to forgive her and let her go. Then my heart reminded me that God rewrote my story, it was up to me to make it beautiful.
When I finally tried to recollect myself, breaking away from the hurtful thoughts that I had been in. I took a good look at Ifeoma, my fist literarily clenched.
“You can go now, I have forgiven you.” A strangles sob escaped my mouth.
There was this new countenance that suddenly appeared on her face. She rose immediately and hvgged me. Lizzy stared at us like she was about to cry. While Teye had sle-pt off on the couch long ago.
“you are a good woman” Lizzy whispered, almost in tears.
It began to rumble softly.
“I have to go now madam. Usman is waiting for me.” She said in a light tone.”
“You saw him?” I asked, looking amazed.
” yes, I found him.” She said, almost whispering.
We both left each other’s arms as she walked into the rain. The moment I opened the door, a gust of cold wind heralds in and nips at my cheeks. Rain splattered into the house, so I quic-kly shut the door.
“It is well. I suspected Georgina was right behind all of this.”
“I suspected too. But I don’t still blame her. David was never man enough to have his own choice and say no to his mother. he always did what she wanted.”
I said, sitting carefully on the couch.
“mummyyyyy.” Teye cried out, her tiny voice rumbled. Lizzy cu-mddled her a bit and carried her in her arms, waiting for the rain to st©p so that she can go back home.
“I nee-d food!” I cried out, sitting upright. My heart pounded endlessly as if I just finished a race, and the breathing was ha-rd .
I shivered at the external coldness, but I was warm inside. Lizzy rushed to the kitchen to make dinner, I then realized that I was really pregnant.
DIARY OF A PASTORS WIFE