Can’t hold my tears Episode 1 & 2

CAN’T HOLD MY TEARS
EPISODE 1
*Prologue*
 
 
In the land of iguocha where people are known for excess beauty lived a certain beautiful girl named Amara. Definitely not the most beautiful girl in the land, but obviously the most de-sired. Her sp©tless skin was neither fair nor dark it was somewhere in between, glowing like glas-s smoothly like a silk her flawless skin was the envy of the other maidens in the land, even though she was from a very poor background, her smile bright like the morning sun was enough to make every male species de-sire the sight of her and her suitors were many even though she was still in school did not st©p increasing.
From a very poor family did not st©p her dream of becoming a medical doctor in other to take her family out of poverty. she had watch on her neighbor’s television the way doctors dress smartly in white apparels in the hospital and have vowed to focused squarely on her studies in other to reach her aim.
Amara started school late but at nineteen , she was in her final year in secondary school and she had never lost the t©p position in her school, and she looked forward in writing the popular WAEC which was feared by all the secondary students. She had burned candles in the long vacation and now the resumption is finally here with much energy. her dream is finally coming to fulfilment. she had hope of meeting the scholarsh!pin other not to have any problem in school. Little did she know about her destiny and it took another turn.
Something unexpected happened , something which change her course of life for ever.
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I closed the lid of my diary as warm tears glisten my eyes, I wanted them to go away as usual but they rolled in uncontrollable down my eyes. I did not w@!st time to brush them away knowing fully well that it will be a wasted efforts. A warm hand t©uçhed my shoulder tenderly bringing me back to my surrounding. the c@m£ras were alre-ady in place as five pairs of eyes looked at me with concern in their eyes.
“Are u re-ady” the manager asked me??
I shivered and nodded my head and turned to the c@m£ra.
“Hello” I said to the tape recording.
“my name is Amara peters….and here is my story”
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*CAN’T HOLD MY TEARS*
episode 1
Never have I fathomed in my little mind that I will be drained of my goal. my eyes have always been fixed on that sp©t. I always spied on my neighbor television just to be able to listen to news, see beautiful people and aspired to be like them. but everything changed all of a sudden my destiny diverted. my br@in was hacked by a stronger device and I was left with only one thing to drive every action -my emotion to corper Bello appeared and bec@m£ the driver of my emotion because he had the key to my heart…….
my legs dragged slugging on the fanciful road of abuja, as I dragged my legs to meet the pace of my parents were setting. we have spent three days in Abuja, doing the only thing, searching for corper Bello. I cannot believe this is happening to me. my legs strange and my w@!st painfull from excess walking. every one I saw was neatly dressed. even though this was my first time moving out from my local village I was not enjoying my self
“move fas-ter pregnant woman” my father shouted “and st©p dragging your self.”
people who were pas-sing by turned and were looking at us, I bowed my head down out of shame. yes am pregnant for corper Bello, Dad never st©p reminding me of it like I can ever forget. how can I forget the news that killed my dreams??and brou-ght shame to my face??
“you this useless thing when u know u cannot handle the rigors of pregnancy, why did you spre-ad your legs wi-de like a satellite dish??”
stung, I held back the tears in my eyes and walked with my head bowed. thought vacated my head as I walked lifelessly behind my parents.
“Aah Aah nnayi” …my mum murmured bitterly
“short up woman” my Dad shouted at her.
“looked at you like mother like daughter” he hissed.
“You better find the useless man that impregnated your daughter if not you will both live my house today”. he hissed again.
” I Wonder where your waywardness will lead us to. we don’t have s–ts in my family maybe it from ur mother side.”
Pains sliced throu-gh me like a million sliced I have brou-ght shame to my family.
I have cried a lot during the past few weeks, and all I hope for is that all the pains am feeling now is worth it, tears burned in my eyes as I remembered my dreams. the dreams I had hoped of been a high clas-s doctor. all this dream has been destroyed. i told my self with confidence that corper Bello will accept me and my unborn child. I placed my hands protecting my tommy, trying to close the ear of my baby from hearing the harsh words from his grandfather as my Dad continued to rain insult on me . my anxiety lifts up a little as I remembered the sweet words that c@m£ out from his mouth as he made sweet love to me. he has worsh!pped my b©dy with his hands and his mouth saying words that brou-ght tears to my eyes,it has been the most exhilarating experience of my life. corper Bello loves me he will definatly accept me and the child, I told my self all we nee-d to do now is find his house that we have been searching for the past three days. we discovered that is father is the famous s£nator Bello, my Dad seemed to reduced his anger toward me
we arrived the mas-sive gate and paused . I checked the address again, I am sure there was no mistake . this cannot be coper fathers house, can it? the gate alone is bigger than my entire village.
“is it n’t this the place?” my father asked me also awed as he saw the mas-sive gate.
I checked the address again my Mum also checked the paper I was holding ,
“I think is the place” I said instantly.
he knocked at the gate. I adjusted my small wra-pper and waited patiently. the gate opened and a man c@m£ out. his size was big and he was looking down on us from head to toe, he turned .
“what do u want” he shouted.
my Dad glared at him,
“where is your Oga?? we are here to see s£nator Bello”
the guy looked at us again and laughed.
“People like you don’t have any business with my Oga. are u sure is the sanator you are looking for?”
“ogini” my mum intervened. “what is your job is it not to attend to visitors??c’mon open the gate”
“You cannot go in, the sanator is in a meeting” he said.
Dad hissed and pushed the guy out of the gate, mum dragged me f0rç£fully inside the house . I was surprised to see the big house and I wondered where the entrance. before we got to the door the guy has alre-ady informed them of our coming I saw a woman running down the entrance with the guy looking at us like some little insect.
“What may I do for you?” she asked.
“Dad hissed ,get out of my way woman I am here to see s£nator Bello and his son I don’t nee-d a woman running her mouth here”
the woman got angry.
” what do you want with my son and husband he does not mingle with your kind” she said in disgust.
“Hey, you better shut up your mouth there or else I would shout and the whole world would know just how irresponsible you are. Shameless people” he hissed. “I am here to see the s£nator and his good for nothing son, and the earlier you take us to him, the better.”
EPISODE 2
The silence in the mas-sive sittingroom was worse than a graveyard. The only sounds were the occasional cl!çk!ng of the s£nator’s shoes, as he paced the sitting room in nervous anticipation. The news of my pregnancy has been delivered and after various bouts of arguments, the s£nator had called his son on phone. I glanced at the door endlessly in anticipation, wanting to see Corper Bello and have him reas-sure me that everything would be fine. I have really missed him, I want to see his tall, handsome features again; those dark eyes, that curled hair which never failed to gain my attention, those perfectly formed fulll-ips which could awaken all the nerves in my b©dy with just one k!ss; yes, I have really missed him.
The door swung open and the person I saw was definitely Corper Bello but he looked totally different. He was obviously not in his uniform since he had alre-ady finished service. Even though it was *only two months ago that he* left, he seemed to have changed completely. Maybe because I never saw him in anything but his Corper’s uniform. Corper Bello stood at the entrance, staring at me in complete surprise. I squirmed a little from the intensity of his intimid@t!nggaze. He looked completely handsome and all I wanted to do was fling myself into his arms.
“Alex, what are you doing there? Come inside” the s£nator’s wife said softly.
Corper Bello turned to gaze at his mum before silently proceeding into the sitting room fully. The atmosphere in the large room seemed to change as his pres£nce seemed to dominate the entire place. He always had this effect everywhere he got to, I acknowledged and my heart skipped with love and pride. He k!$$£d his mum’s cheeks and she pinkened. He merely greeted his father before turning to stare at us where we were seated.
“Son” his dad began. “Do you know that girl over there?”
His eyes held no expression at all. I swallowed ha-rd as he stared impas-sively at me.
“Corper Bello” I breathed. Why is he looking at me like that, I wondered. He merely glanced at my parents before turning back to face his dad.
“She was one of the students I met during service” he stated calmly. Despite his calm appearance, his jaw seemed really tense. “What is going on dad?”
“What is going on?” my dad interrupted. “So you are the shameless boy that had the audacity to break my daughter’s vir-ginity and leave her pregnant right?” he roared.
The shock that Corper Bello experienced was palpable. His eyes flew to me instantly and I suddenly wished I could vanish. As his eyes darted to my stomach, I had the incredible urge to protect my unborn child.
“Why blame my son” the s£nator’s wife interjected. “Why not blame the s–t of a daughter that you have. Did my son r@p£ her? She willingly gave herself to him, right?”
“How could you do this son?” The s£nator interjected, facing his son, who still had his eyes on my stomach. “How could you do this? Do you know the kind of scandal that this can create? I am running for a second term in the s£nate and this could be a disaster if it gets to the press. How could you be so s-en-seless?” he roared.
Alex swallowed. “I can’t be responsible for her pregnancy, did she say I am?”
“What?” I g@sped in horror. “Corper Bello”. This is the very last thing I expected.
“For God’s sake woman, shut up. I am no longer a corp member, my name is Alex Bello” he almost yelled as he ran his hand throu-gh his hair in frustration.
My mouth felt dry and my heart raced wildly. “How can you say something like that? Have you forgotten that afternoon? That afternoon at the copper’s lounge?” I swallowed heavily, not wanting to discuss something I considered sacred in the pres£nce of so many people. “You took my innocence Corper Bello, you said you loved me, how could you deny paternity of my child now when you were the only man in my life?” tears burned in my eyes.
Alex Bello hissed. “And you were stupid enough to believe that I love you?” he laughed strangely. “Those words were said in a fit of pas-sion and S-xual satisfaction, surely you are not dumb enough to believe that I could love you” he said with intense irritation that I instantly felt like a piece of trash. Tears sli-pped down my eyes. “Look at you” his eyes roamed my b©dy. “You are not even fit to be a maid in my house” he declared. “You c@m£ all the way from your little village to the Federal capital in wra-ppers and sli-ppers, and you still think that i love you? I have never loved you. I only nee-ded a willing b©dy and you volunteered. That is all”
Stunned silence fell and cold gr!pp£dme. I think i am going to be sick. Tears trickled down my cheeks. No! It can’t be happening to me. Everyone can’t turn their backs on me, especially not the originator of this turmoil. There must be a mistake. I stood on shaky legs, allowing my legs take me a bit closer to him. “Corp, it is me, your Ama.” I said shakily. “You told me you love me, have you forgotten? You told me you loved village girls like me because we are well cultured. You promised to marry me and make my dreams come true. You said-”
“plea-se spare me all that bulls***” Alex retorted sharply. “You are a fool if you believe all that cra-p. All I wanted was to have a good time while I was in service. Lisa is the woman I love, I would never change, got it. As for that thing in your tummy, you are not so dumb, you should know what you can do about it. What you nee-d is money right? I would give you money to take care of it and a little compensation to lead a good life. Is that OK?”
I froze and I think my face is as white as A4 paper. How could he suggest such a thing? Better still, how could I have been so stupid? Staring at him, the person who was supposed to make me smile bec@m£ a monster.
“Amadioha strike that mouth of yours” my mum flared up. “How dare you ask my daughter to ab-ort her child? My daughter would never do that. Over my dead b©dy”
Dad stood up. “Did you think we c@m£ here to pla-y? You have only one option open to you, and that is to marry her, if not, I would create enough scandal to last a lifetime. Imagine, you used my daughter to relieve your S-xual urges. It is not your fault, if not for the s-en-seless daughter I have”
“Never! I would never marry her” he declared.
“Of course you won’t” his mum declared, glaring at my parents and I. I swallowed. The pain I was feeling in my che-st was burning.
“You will” the s£nator declared and everyone turned to him. I didn’t give a d–n what he said.
“What are you saying dad? I am supposed to marry Lisa and I will. I love her” he said with finality.
“You should have thought of your love for her before slee-ping with another woman. You must face the consequences of your actions, you won’t make me lose my election because of your foolishness.” He said sternly. “Come with me” he stormed out of the sitting room. Copper and his mum followed instantly and copper Bello looked like someone going to war.
Tears flowed freely and dad did not waste the opportunity to rain insults on me for bringing shame to him. Mum tried to console me but I was totally shattered. I couldn’t believe my ears and eyes. How could my life suddenly turn to a horror movie within the twi-nkling of an eye.
I don’t know how long we waited, probably minutes or hours but suddenly, they all c@m£ in. Corper Bello looked strained and terribly angry but I was past caring.
“Get all the preparations re-ady, they would get married next week” the s£nator declared.
“Better” my dad declared.
“Well there is no nee-d for any preparation because I would not marry Corper Bello” I declared.
 
 
Tbc