When I was little and running on the race track at school, I always stopped and waited for all the other kids so we could run together even though I knew (and everybody else knew) that I could run much faster than all of them! I pretended to read slowly so I could “wait” for everyone else who couldn’t read as fast as I could! When my friends were short I pretended that I was short too and if my friend was sad I pretended to be unhappy. I could go on and on about all the ways I have limited myself, my whole life, by “waiting” for people. And the only thing that I’ve ever received in return is people thinking that they are faster than me, people thinking that they can make me feel bad about myself just because I let them and people thinking that I have to do whatever they say I should do. My mother used to teach me “Cinderella is a perfect example to be” but I have learned that Cinderella can go fuck herself, I’m not waiting for anybody, anymore! I’m going to run as fast as I can, fly as high as I can, I am going to soar and if you want you can come with me! But I’m not waiting for you anymore. Before, I wanted to say: “I found love!” But now, I want to say: “I found a person. And he belongs to me and I belong to him.People don’t get better, they just get smarter. When you get smarter you don’t stop pulling the wings off flies, you just think of better reasons for doing it.
I will not lose my marriage to a nobody ,yes my sex drive had made me be in this situation,but I will do anything to fix my marriage ..
so gist me ” selina said
gist you on what bigger mama ” I asked giggling
about the plan ” she asked
I hope ,it will work ,I want to win my husband ” I said
dressed like that ” she asked looking at me
what do you mean ” I asked
you are ever wear t-shirts and chitenges,you need to wear sexy cloths so that when he comes back ,he is speechless” she said
he doesn’t want me ” I complained
oh please ,stop complaining and dress for your husband” she said
after she left I told Blessings that she knocks off I will be having dinner somewhere ..I made reservations ,for the place he took me for our first day ..I sent him a text and he agreed ..he said we just go on a date just the two of us ..
I jumped up and down all excited .
I wore the dress he got for me on my birthday and it fitted perfectly ,my ass come out ..
Sharon I …he stopped when he saw me .
I wanted to ummmm know if you are ready ” he asked
almost , kindly help me with the zip” I said
he helped me and I wore the shoes he got for me ,he couldn’t stop starring at me ,I looked outside the window as he drove ,I was jumping up and down inside .
Mrs mwila ,we were waiting for you ” the waiter said
thank you ,”I said with a smile
he took us to our table and we made our order.
Sharon ” a voice said ,I didn’t recognise it though.
and I prayed that it wasn’t one of my old boyfriends or Andrew ..
Sharon ” he tapped my shoulder
oh my gosh Ben ” I said
look at you ,you have finally put on some weight ” he teased
it’s all thanks to my husband ” I said looking at Caleb
my bad ,babe this is an old classmate of my ,Ben this is my everything Caleb” I said
they shook hands
you make a perfect couple ,you are making me miss my wife ” he said
you are married” I asked excited
he showed me his ring.
am so happy to see you ” I said
sir you are wanted in your office” the waiter said
you work here” I said
am the owner ” he said
I was so impressed,ben was the nerd of our. class and I knew he was going to make it in life ..we had our dinner in silence,we never have anything to talk about ..
thank you ” I told Ben
for what ?,am happy to see you happy ,and with a man who makes you light up the room ” I smiled
that’s my job” Caleb said
you dinner is on the house ” he said
thanks man ” caleb said
thanks ” I hugged Ben
Caleb tipped the waiter and we left ..
as we walked outside to the car park .
I couldn’t believe it that …Caleb kissed me it was a slow sexy passionate kiss ,my all legs made me weak ..yes my sex mood came back ..
so you have decided to stay with this good for nothing ” Andrew said
my eyes were closed ,it felt so good. I kissed him again.
I don’t care if he kissed me because of Andrew .
Sharon this man doesn’t love you ” Andrew said
I married her ,I fucked her she gave me two babies and am still fucking her every night ” Caleb said holding my waist
why did she leave you and asking for my dick ” andrew asked
she wanted to see if ,it can satisfy her but I guess only mine can make her reach climax” he said
Andrew walked away ,we got on Caleb’s car and we drove home. .
am sorry ” I said when he was about to open his door .
let’s just forget about it ” he said
I took a shower.
I needed to come up with a plan to make him sleep in my room tonight ..
I wore my see through nighty wear , underneath I wore a G-string ..I waited for atleast an hour ,I rubbed my eyes I made them red ..
switch off the light ,
are you ready Sharon ” I asked myself
I started breathing very fast till tears came out than I screamed ,I kept on screamed till he came ,he switched on the light ,my man was hot he was shirtless ..
I ran to him , crying ..
what is it ” he hugged me tightly
I had a bad dream that my father is dead ” I said continuing pretending to be crying ..
shhiii shhiii , come it’s going to be alright” he said
please sleep with me am scared sleeping alone” I said
okay ” he said
he held from behind ,as we slept ..
I kept on sniffing ..he made me face him .
stop crying ” he said
am just scared” I said
he is fine ,it’s just a dream ” he said
he smelled so good .he kissed my forehead and we went to lala land ..I woke up and he was still sleeping like a baby ..I kissed his forehead .
he opened his eyes .
you aint going to work today ” I asked
he looked at the time ..he got up .
is it okay we go see your father ” he asked
I will think about it ” I said
okay ” he walked out ..I went to prepare the boys for school ..
Jesus said that divorce is not permissible except for unfaithfulness. This does not mean that divorce should ~automatically occur when a spouse commits adultery. Those who discover that their partner has been unfaithful should first m~ ake every effort to forgive, ~reconcile, and restore their relationship. We are always to look for reasons to restore the marriage relationship rather than for excuses to leave it.The d~ ay we live in fear and allow our minds and hearts to worry about situations that may never occur is a day he is winning. These moments of fret and hopelessness are a complete waste of my precious time and my precious life and marriage. God’s unmerited, divine assistance is enough. Period. It’s enough when things are going great and the stars are aligned, and it’s enough when God chooses to allow something dreadful to come across your path. It’s enough. It’s not easy, but it is what we need. And praise God for that.
I didn’t know what to do ,the love for my wife was slowly coming back .
what’s been going on ” he asked
marriage stuff ” I said
marriage ” he asked surprised
Sharon asked for a week of a family time and she will leave ” I said
are you sure ” he asked
sure about what ” I asked
her leaving” he asked
am sure ,I think it for the best ” I said
you are just saying that but the day she will give some booty ,you will beg for more “he laughed
shout up ” I laughed
am serious she hasn’t just given you some ,the way that girl scrolls your brains out ” he laughed
get out of my office ” I laughed
am serious dude , divorce is not an option” he said
Elisha am not considering divorce “I said
than why do you want her to leave” he asked
I want her to just have some space ” I said
stop dreaming just go for marriage counseling and get your sex on ” he said
you know what just go ” I said
Sharon and Caleb sitting in the tree KISSING ” he laughed
I got my lab coat and left. .
I went back to work…Elisha was one crazy guy but he was right ,when Sharon was pregnant she was a sex freak that I used to go to work very weak .. that’s where all the teasing was coming from . ..I got a text from Natalie that she wanted to see me.
babe I missed you” she said wrapping her hands around my neck
I just smiled
babe ,I can’t wait for your ex wife to go ” she said
I can’t wait also” I said .
she kissed my neck but I wasn’t in the mood for sex ,I lied to her that I was the one who was suppose to pick up the boys..I lied that I was going to see her later.
I drove home and I found Sharon dancing ,she was in a happy mood ,and she wore a legging and a pink top..the way she moved her waist ,it could turn you on …
I cleared my throat. .
she turned and turn down the music.
hey ” I said
hello ” she said with a smile
the boys ain’t back ” I asked
I think ,there ummmm where are the boys “she said looking around
she looked drunk. .
are you drunk ” I asked trying to touch her
stop touching me ” she giggled
you need to sober up and get some rest “I said
no we need to dance babe ” she said
I carried her ..
babe put me down ” she said
I put her on the bed .
I ran a cold bath for her ..
I removed her clothes ,she had marks all over her body ..she wrapped her arms around my neck ,she was naked ,and tempting right lol..
I want you ” she said
you need to sober up ” I said
I want you not to sober up dude ” she kissed my neck ..
daddy ” malumbo yelled
I took Sharon in the bathroom
it’s cold ” she screamed
went to check up on malumbo ..
yes sonny ” I said lifting him up
I want ice cream ” he said
we go buy ” I asked
no it there in the fridge ” he said
tell Blessings to give you “I said
I want you ” he screamed
I gave him,the ice cream and found his mother getting dressed ..
I bought you some tea” I said
she got it and drunk it …
I went to work and I started working on a presentation ,and later talked to Natalie ..
I checked on the boys and went back to sleep.
come in ” I said when I heard a knock.
she was wearing her sexy see through night dress.
how is the hangover ” I asked
fine ,I was kindly asking if I can sleep here am scared sleeping alone ” she said
yeah sure ” I said
she joined me and switched off the lights ..
she held me from behind.
Sharon ,” my breath became heavy .
I just want to hold you ” she said
I turned and got on top of her. ..yes I don’t know what happened ..
I kissed her rough,as I played with her boobs ..she moaned I removed her night dress , ..
she got on top of me and she took control ,she went down and gave me a bj ..
I moaned so loud after sometime she started riding me like a crazy girl ,she is after sometime we slept next to each other ..
oh my gosh ,” I said catching my breath
she was playing with my chest hair …
why did you sleep with them” I asked
I don’t know ” she said
Sharon wasn’t I enough” I asked
she looked at me .
you were enough babe ,I don’t know what happened ,maybe I was scared that you will be telling me am a sex addict. when we have sex I still needed some more ” she said
and you thought I didn’t enjoy it babe” I asked
I don’t know babe ” she said getting out of bed ..I grabbed her hand ,I made her face me ..
I kissed her ..
promise me that you will never hurt me again “I said
I promise ” she said
so can I have another round ” I asked
I thought you never ask ..she giggled