Angel Of Mine – Episode 36
Hurt would be an un-derstatement, I walked out of that place feeling so much confused and hurt by the turn of events. Jamal had told me the truth and I was just feeling scared of hearing it. I know I am the one who messed up. He loved me unconditionally and I listened to my mother and my best friend. When I got home, I cried myself to sleep, it should have been me with Jamal in Ghana but I had messed up. I spent the days locked in my room and not wanting to talk to anyone. My house was in such a mess as I had been drowning my sorrows in alcohol and trying not to feel the emotional pain but trust me when I said that nothing was changing, I still felt the pain.
It was in the afternoon and Amaka was knocking, no she was ban-ging my door while shouting out my name. Because of the alcohol that I had drun!klast night, I had a mas-sive hang over; I walked to the door and opened it.
‘What?’
‘You have got a visitor.’
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I hadn’t seen my ex-mother in law standing beside her. She looked more beautiful than before.
‘Mum,’ I called out to her and I honestly don’t know why I had to get emotional but she just engulfed me into a ti-ght hvg, ‘I am sorry, I am so sorry,’ I cried.
I cried for minutes as we stood outside the door. Maybe I nee-ded to make things right by her so that I can move on, accept that Jamal had moved on too. I had honestly changed and I wasn’t planning on going after him and his fiancée. We got inside the house and she asked me to go and take a bath. When I c@m£ back she had alre-ady cleaned the house and I felt so embarras-sed. She even cooked for me and we ate together. You should have seen me eating like a crazy person, I was so hungry. The funny thing I actually enjoyed her food. Remember I used not to eat her food when I was still married to Jamal but I did enjoy her food without much hesitation, I finished the whole plate and we even washed the dishes together. We were just having a conversation.
‘I guess you c@m£ to check if I will be going after Jamal and Angela right?’
‘Never my child, I wanted to make sure that you were alright.’
‘I heard that you used to talk to my brother. Does that mean you know about my suicidal attempts? Is that why you are here afraid that I might try to take my own life?’
‘Emily.’
‘I am sorry it’s just that after everything that I have done to you, you still c@m£ throu-gh. Don’t you hate me mum? I almost killed you and even blamed you for my failed marriage. I don’t think that I deserve the kindness coming from you.’
‘I don’t hold any grudges Emily and I have alre-ady forgiven you. Me being here, I guess despite of everything I still see good in you. You were not that bad but just believed lies.’
‘You have a good heart and Jamal is just so lucky, Angela too. To be honest with you, I did feel jealous and I said some stuff but, Jamal is so happy with her. If he is happy then I am happy too. He was right, I messed things up for myself. If only I had loved you mum, if only I hadn’t listened to Tiffany and my mother then I wouldn’t have lost him. I have so many regrets and I am trying so ha-rd to move on but sometimes I just miss Jamal,’ I said to her in tears and she hvgged me.
That is so true, no matter how much I tried to move on, I actually missed him a lot. I missed being in be-d with him and having fun with him. Seeing him with Angela it did break my heart a little and at that moment I wish for so many things.
But then he looked happy with her and I had to be happy for him. That’s why I have decided to leave the country and go back to Zimbabwe. I have decided to officially move on, I mean I still had some things there, it’s not like I sold everything and people had st©pped talking about me.
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‘Are you sure about that?’ asked my mother in law when I told her that I was going back.
‘Yeah, I mean I wished to see you one more time and ask for forgiveness. Now that I have seen you, I feel much better than before. Like a weight has been lifted off my shoulder, I want to move on with my life and try to find love again. I don’t know if I will ever find someone who will love me, I can’t have children.’
‘I wish I had 2 sons then I will definitely make him marry you but we have to check if you still have any pills.’
‘Mum,’ I laughed while pinching her, ‘I am sorry about that, I mean for sl@pping you and doing all horrible things to you. By the time I realized that you were never a threat but a blessing, I was holding a blue pen re-ady to sign the divorce papers. I did mess up but I am just happy that we are now getting along even when you replaced me.’
‘I will never replace you Emily,’ she smiled, ‘even though you were the evil daughter-in law, I always loved you and I knew you were a good person de-ep down. I am happy that despite everything you survived the suicidal attempt. There is more to life and you are still young. Having children or not, you will find someone who will love you unconditionally. Right now you have to forgive yourself and all the terrible things that you have done. Set aside negative things and never have that crazy mind of wanting to hurt someone. Emily you are beautiful, smart, and intelligent and de-ep down there you have a good heart.’
‘Thank
you very much and I don’t know what I did to deserve this good treatment.’
‘You deserve every good thing coming your way. When you go back, I know you shouldn’t go back early. We still have so much to catch up on but try to call your mother.’
‘I guess Ernest told you about our failed mother and daughter relationsh!p.’
‘He cares about you.’
‘I know he does.’
‘And he is like a son to me. Emily that woman gave birth to you and you can’t change that, that’s reality and what you have to do right now is to forgive her. She loves you in her own way. You have to mend that broke relationsh!pif you still want to have a good life’
‘I will try Mama Maria.’
‘That’s my girl.’
Just look at the person telling me all of that. Isn’t she just an angel of mine? I mean after everything that I have done to her; she just had to be that polite with me. This woman was heaven s£nt and at that moment I honestly wished if only she was my mother. I can’t believe that for the first time we laughed together, watched a movie together and she even took me out. I even asked her if Jamal was okay with the whole thing but she told me that she didn’t care about him. We even went out with Angela as well and she was an adorable human being. So my mother in law helped me to pack my stuff and even took me to the airport.
I left Ghana and went back home. My mother in law promised to keep in t©uçh, that simple meant that I will be expecting more from her. When I arrived in Zimbabwe, some things had changed and I didn’t know that some people would be happy to see me. Did I mention that Amaka c@m£ with me? I can’t believe we had become that close. I mean I just met her in Ghana but one could think that we were somehow related. They thought that we were sisters and we made good business together. We bec@m£ p@rtners and even managed to bring back my company back in a few months’ time. I just loved Amaka and she was an adorable person.
Amaka
and I we were supposed to go to a business function that night when someone knocked at our mansion. I mean she was like a sister to me and I wanted her to stay with me. We were staying together.
‘Are you expecting anyone?’ she asked me.
I thought that might be the driver but then it wasn’t him as I walked downstairs and the driver had opened the door.
‘Who is it?’
‘There is a lady here to see you.’
‘Let her in,’ I said as I standing up the stairs.’
She walked inside the house and at that moment, I was ton-gue tied. I didn’t know what to say, she looked different. She wore worn out clothes and her hair was cut short. She was wearing sli-ppers.
.Tbc